SO SIAN!!!! i dun feel like going upstairs to help 'supervise' the workers, coz i can't concentrate on my work upstairs!! nooooooooooo, it's not because of the workers, darlings, it's gotta do with the fengshui or something... haha! =)in case u are wondering, nope, there's no eye-candy upstairs ;)

the whole day, i've been trying to do the gp compre mrs tan gave us, and i STILL haven finished... goodness -_-" hah, jus hope i get to finish a satisfactory amt of work by this wk, otherwise i'm gonna scream....

just realised tt i'm gonna have to cut off contact from cyberspace from sept hols onwards, so tt i will be devoid of temptations... hahaha, this is a repression of my spirit, which is channelled into studying for the IMPORTANT (-_-") exams. hopefully, this repression won't rear its ugly head in grotesque forms, like in the form of, say, violence? hahaa.. ok, i'm lame... forget it.... i'm just tokking rubbish to prolong my stay downstairs, so tt i dun have to go up... feel so out of place there... i'm alone! so boring somemore! hai...

anyway, ther's no putting off the inevitable... gtg, cya'll! =)

tml is GP common test!! ARGH!!! pushed reading thru the materials to now, and i seriously regret it, though i have this nasty suspicion tt i'm gonna repeat the same thing for prelims and As... horrible thought... *shudders*

it's only now tt i realise how much material i didn't read last yr, and man, i think i better constantly read newspapers, though i dunno when i can find time... i know... i'm probably sounding like a busy freak, but i'm serious! i dunno how come i dun have time to read newspapers while everyone around me can. can someone PLEASE tell me?! I'M DESPERATE!!!!

it's ironic, u know, that i find tt i think i can acty do better when i dun read the notes.. they kinda restrict me, but like a typical singaporean, i still feel insecure when i dun read them. argh... haha... it's like the same for the chinese As, when it's like, u know tt it's useless to read thru e chinese words booklet, coz the probability of the words coming out from there is so slim, but u still think u should, in case it does come out. there is tt false sense of security as well... like it works.
-_-" tt's only temporary, i tell u... haha... when u read the question paper, u think, "what the hell did i even waste time reading tt booklet for?!" haha.... oh well, i guess we all need a little security when studying for exams, dun we?

anyway, i gtg liao...
ahaha..... wish me luck for tml! =)

Ahhhhhhhhhh.... holidays are finally here, after 10 weeks!! after sat, i will be FREE!! well, not free exactly, but at least i will be able to wake up later than usual, and HOPEFULLY catch up with my work. haha, goodness knows i'm so far behind in my work.. mrs loh is beginning to get a bad impression of me liao, better buck up...

well, today we had to draw diagrams for econ, and i drew 2 extra diagrams which are totally redundant in the question!! argh! but my argument was somewhat on the right track, just tt mine was the last transparency she put up, so she assumed everything else was just like the previous person's (well, our diagrams were the same... haha.. ) and did not look at my argument... sigh... haha...

nvm... will make my comeback next term, where i will make sure she changes her mind bout me... haha, that is, hopefully, of course, so wish me luck! =) i just hope i do manage to complete my revision in time... =)

hai... not looking forward to the Rossetti essay i'm gonna have to do tonight... it's another troublesom essay! but then again, when have essays never been troublesome? i just have to get it done asap, then i will be able to enjoy tv in peace!!! yay!!!

i just wonder who's gonna win the American Idol tonight. while Fantasia is a great singer, her fan base isnt really as big as Diana's, i think. Diana is cute, but she cannot really sing. well, she can, but last night's performance was not really good. her song last week, "Don't Cry Out Loud", was sensational, but when she sang it last night, it was disappointing. her voice broke a few times due to nerves i think... hmm... it isn easy to be an idol.. u have to please everyone... *looks pensive* i dun really know who i want to win either, coz i like them equally, haha...

i wanna watch so many movies!! was supposed to watch Shrek 2 with yi lun tml, but she has the soccer finals tml.. hai... troy looks good, van helsing too, and of course, can't wait to watch harry potter!!!!!haha... just hope i have enough money to watch them, or is anyone gonna treat me? *bats eyelashes*

Haha... i'm feeling quite smug at the moment, coz i've just completed the most horrible of all essays- the A&C essay!! yay!! haha... i wasnt looking forward to doing it AT ALL, firstly coz i have absolutely ZERO confidence in doing well for it (which reduces my enthusiasm by a significant amount), and secondly coz it's a loooong essay with many aspects. come on! the question was asking for so many things! the question was 'Examine the exact nature of Cleopatra’s “infinite variety”. Is she a great queen or merely a “triple-turned whore”?'. If i really get this kind of question for the A levels, i'm seriously just gonna slam the paper on the table and start bawling... haha... am i making u cringe at tt thought? hehe, it's food for thought, though, coz it just occurred to me how much reading up i have to do just for lit alone, and add to tt math and econ also need an equal amount of attention. OH MAN!!!! HOW DO I LIVE?! to make things worse, while doing the essay just now and planning the Rossetti essay (also another headache one)last night, i realised how much i dunno my texts, especially for Rossetti. argh... i think i should seriously listen to Reynolds, and start reading one Rossetti essay a day... haha...

anyway, just came online to voice all these out, and i thnk i feel SLIGHTLY better... haha, jus tt there's still a mountain of work left... 4 essay outlines for GP to do, a DR for econ, and math assignment!!!! ARGH!!! HELP!!!

i miss peke, but i think i've got over the sadness... it's just that whenever i think about his last moments, tears just come into my eyes and i will feel like crying. perhaps it seems like i am over-reacting, but well, all i can say is, watever. i dun really expect others to understand (hmm... no offenses intended), coz this is like something one has to experience to feel the real pain. imagining it is usually not enough, not unless u acty have a great imagination....

anyway, i just realised tt the reason y my proposal for cip at the library hasn been approved yet. the tr in charge nvre even received the modified proposal! oh man! i just hope the letter from nlb to the school was received and kept properly, otherwise i'll just sit down on the floor in the middle of the foyer in school and bawl my eyes out!!! coz tt would mean that i have to make another 2 or more trips down to the library to find e person in charge and get her to write a letter again and THEN go down and collect it again. and from the timetable, when can i do tt?!

argh... just sounding so pitiful now... haha... indulge me... =)

anyway, THANKS to ALVIN my cousin!!! THANK U THANK U THANK U!! haha... without his help, i think i'd still not be able to modify the stupid thing...

ARGH!! u know wat?! just as i was thanking alvin and going over the moon with the fact tt i am finally able to modify the proposal, there was a BROWSER ERROR. can u believe my luck?! to do all these and have tt?!

WATEVER.

feel like gg to mrs yoong again tml and telling her bout it again. argh. i wanna get this thing done and over with! my cip hours are still at 11.5 hours, and it's getting kinda too late to start signing up for cips to boost my hours.....

God Must Have Spent a Little More Time on You

Yeah....
Oh yes
Ohhh..yeah..
Can this be true?
Tell me, can this be real?
How can I put into words what I feel?
My life was complete
I thought I was whole
Why do I feel like I'm losing control?
I never thought that love could feel like this
and you've changed my world with just one kiss.
How can it be that right here with me
there's an angel?
It's a miracle...


Your love is like a river
Peaceful and deep
Your soul is like a secret
That I never could keep
When I look into your eyes
I know that it's true
God must have spent...
A little more time
On you...
(A little more time, yes he did baby)


In all of creation
All things great and small
You are the one that surpasses them all
More precious than
Any diamond or pearl
They broke the mold
When you came in this world
And I'm trying hard to figure out
Just how I ever did without
The warmth of your smile
The heart of a child
That's deep inside
Leaves me purified

Your love is like a river
Peaceful and deep (and deep)
Your soul is like a secret
That I never could keep
When I look into your eyes
I know that it's true
God must of spent...
A little more time
On you...
(on you, on you, on you, you....on you, on you, on you, you..) ohhh...
(on you, on you, on you, you....on you, on you, on you, you..) yeah...

Never thought that love could feel like this
and you changed my world with just one kiss.
How can it be that right here with me
There's an angel?
It's a miracle...

Your love is like a river
Peaceful and deep (peaceful and deep)
Your soul is like a secret
That I never could keep
When I look into your eyes
I know that it's true
God must of spent...
A little more time
On you...
(on you, on you, on you, you..)
God must of spent...
A little more time
on you
(on you, on you..you....you..oooh..yeah)
A little more time
on you...ohhh


thank you, peke

been thinking of peke the whole day today. i was just thinking bout all the things he did, the silly antics he always came up with, and how he always managed to charm all of us into sneaking food to him.

i remember the time when i dropped a cube of ice on the kitchen floor. being the greedy dog he was, he rushed towards it, trying to get it into his mouth. alas! it was too cold and slippery, and it came out of his mouth again. he tried again and again, at different angles, but to no avail. it seemed like he was developing strategies to get the ice cube, coz he kept trying to catch it 'off-guard'.

i remember how he always looked when we brought him downstairs for his walks. he was always so excited, rushing around us like trying to make us go faster, the bliss on his face as he relieved himself, and the way he looked like a little furry ball jumping among the tall grass.

i remember how he always went into hiding under the table whenever he committed a 'crime'. he would hide under and refuse to come out. papa used to use food to tempt him to come out so tt he could teach him a lesson, and it worked a few times, until one day, it didn work anymore. how we all laughed to see that! peke was really very smart. he learnt things fast. he tried to escape punishments, but somehow, he always nvr escaped. it's so sad. but he had a forgiving nature. though papa always whacked him, he nvr stopped trying to get close to him.

now, i look at all the markings on the marble floor in my house, and i remember how he vomitted on them. they are the marks left behind by him.

we used to scold him for committing ' crimes', but we nvr ever meant it. they were all said and done, and things were forgotten the next moment. isn this like family? we may quarrel and fight, but at the end of the day, our ties still hold us together. this is the same for peke. he's family.

peke died just now.

no. he didn die. he passed away. there is a difference btw dying and passing away. dying sounds undignified and dying without any loved ones and not peacefully. passing away sounds nicer, and more peaceful. at least, we hope it was peaceful.

he died of kidney failure. it was at the last stage, and all i wanna do is to kick myself for not stroking him more, for not paying more attention to him, for not taking photos or videos with him. u see, i assumed. i assumed he was gonna stay for a long long time. i thot he would nvr die. u see, i made an ass out of u and me.

he lost a lot of weight. drastically. we all thot it was just fussiness on his part. he wasnt active. we thot he was just being proud. we were wrong. he was sick. he started vomitting blood, and we all thot it was just temporary. how wrong we were.

i know it's too late to blame anyone, but i think it's pedigree's fault. u know why? the plant in thailand was found to have mould on the food. and the vet immediately asked my sis if she had heard about the pedigree case.

anyway, it's too late. we must learn from our lesson.

peke was losing temperature and weight fast. his liver was gg down, and his kidneys were spoiled. i just wish we could have brought him to the vet more regularly. see! this just shows we can't take the people around us for granted. yes, i treat peke as a human. he has human characteristics. just tt he can't tok. so wat? he's much more sensible and generous than we can ever imagine. he was there when i needed a shoukder to cry on, he was there when i had problems, he has been there for me thru these 8 yrs. but i think the one who should feel the saddest is evon.

she did the most for him. she cared for him when he was sick. she prepared food for him when food ran out. she bathed him when he became smelly. she was like his mother, more than any of us. i think, peke trusted her the most, and tt he knew she already did her best by him. she was the one who was unselfish enough to persuade papa to go to the vet. she knew it was time to let him go.

i was selfish. i hid behind a wall of self-delusion, thinking tt as long as peke wasnt sent to the vet, he would be ok. i wanted him alive because i didn want to be sad. evon wanted him to pass on simply because she loved him.

"If you love someone, set him free". that's wat she did. it's the hardest thing anyone can do, to let go of a loved one just so he/she will be better off. i admire that. though she's younger than me, i do have to learn tt from her.

evon, i'm proud of u.

peke, always remember that u are the best friend and brother anyone could have. i hope u will be happy wherever u are, away from ur pain already, and that always remember that we will love u and remember u. be happy.

haha... went for the sea carnival heats today. it was quite fun acty, with like bout 1/3 of our class taking part... haha... we took part in the dragonboating, together with A05. though we lost, it was a good experience, and good training for my left arm, which has been lying dormant. hee...=)quite fun too, acty.. ;)

hehe, we saw yummy in yummy clothes! heh, jun and hurul didn believe how yummy yummy was until they saw him like tt. heh,they were like, "whoa, yummy is really yummy". haha... he can join manhunt u know, got the physique, and i hear the character as well. haha... =)

there was one thing though. i feel rather bad bout the relay thing. u see, i knew we had to paddle to the shore, but when we reached the orange balls, i saw ppl like turning lidat, so i turned. it didn occur to me tt they were just probably losing control of the boat. DAMN! then we were disqualified. my teammates (grace, hurul, jas, jun, and jiun pey) weren't upset with me, but i still feel tt i let them down. can u imagine?! first person to do the relay and b4 anyone else could get the chance to kayak, i spoilt it for them. argh. anyway, they said dun think bout it, but i gotta get it out of my chest. after this, chapter closed. dun be a follower anymore. argh. look where tt got me.

but there's safety in numbers, u know? like when there are many ppl doing something, u somehow feel as if u are doing e right thing, and u are not as scared to do it anymore? yep, tt prob explains y i'm often more of a follower than a leader. trying to develop more character for myself, though i think it's quite hard. the hardest thing anyone can do is to change one's natural instincts and character.

wat am i doing here? hai... i should be reading thru the econ, but i dun seem to have anymore energy. haha... i just wanna sleep! should i watch american idol? they are now down to the top 4. personally, i think jasmine trias should have been out long ago, instead of geroge huff. just coz of one performance, the contestants get kicked out? tt happened with jennifer hudson. u can't say she hasn got talent. look at the uproar her elimination caused! fantasia even said, "you are MY American Idol!!" ah well, i guess it's fate. some things just cant be forced. jus like i have to face the fact tt i have to go read econ now. argh.

the price of rationality.

insanity.

AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! i can't stand it anymore!!! hate hate hate hate doing homework!!!!!stupid stupid!!!! i'm soooo friggin sleepy now!!!!!!!! but if i dun do these stupid stories, i'm gonna have to rush thru them tml, and there's econ case studies!! there's so much to read thru and she wants it done by thurs?! wat madness is tt? is there even like 48 hours in a day?! if there is SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME, cos i'm DYING here!!!! but anyway, even if there was, most of the time would AGAIN be taken over by hw. wats so damn new?! school would take up like 12 hrs, bout 1/4 of our friggin time. argh!!!!! i need to revise my maths!!!!! it's so cock up now lor....

heh... i sound like i'm on the verge of throwing everything around eh? well, i cant though, coz everything's so heavy, and i'm still too rational to do tt. i think tt;s wat i am. too rational. tt's y i seem to have such control over my behaviour. but sometimes it just gets so hard to hold on to tt rationality, i just wanna snap. on the other hand, my rationality would step in and tell me tt if i do tt, the consequences are gonna be ugly, so i dun do it. ironic, isn it? one moment i'm gonna snap, and the next my rationality takes over. i dun really know wat i am... so full of contradictions... haha...

it's not tt i had a bad day today.. serious! in fact, other than the weather, my day has been fine. napfa went according to wat i had planned- got a silver, which i started aiming for ever since my 2.4 got a D... and my sit and reach and shuttle run were better than i expected.... =) guess it was just some little spontaneous little burst of frustration just now, coupled with the wonderful little nagging conscience that i haven put in much effort for my SAT and GP, the subjects tt need my attention at the moment. WONDERFUL! just wat i need to spice my life up. a guilty conscience. over GP and SAT. after doing the GP quiz.

our lives are just so bloody intertwined around work, school, bloody scholarships and climbing up to the tallest ladders of our careers, only to act as baits for other ppl to pull down. is this wat life is? if so, i might as well go be a nun. argh.

we just went thru this poem in Lit today. i kinda like it, though i can't esactly put my finger as to why i like it. maybe coz the tone of it is so elusive? as in one can read it as a love poem , but in a way, it can read as a poem of defiance to the people of the poet's time. u see, this poem was written at a time when there was a rift btw the Protestants and the cavaliers. the Protestants believed in not having a monarchy, while the cavaliers supported the King. this guy, Richard Lovelace, was one such cavalier, and he got thrown into prison because he was singing the praises of the king. well... hope it's enough background for u to read it! =)

Song, to Althea, from Prison

When Love with unconfined wings
Hovers within my gates,
And my divine Althea brings
To whisper at the grates;
When I live tangled in her hair,
And fetter'd to her eye,
the gods that wanton in the air
Know no such liberty.

When flowing cups runs swiftly round
With no allaying Thames, Our careless heads with roses bound,
Our hearts with loyal flames;
When thirsty grief in wine we steep,
When healths and draughts go free,
Fishes that tipple in the deep
Know no such liberty.

When like committed linnets, I
With shrill throat shall sing
The sweetness, mercy, majesty
And glories of my king;
When I shall voice aloud how good
He is, how great should be;
Enlarged wings that curl the flood
Know no such liberty.

Stone walls do not a prison make,
Nor iron bars a cage;
Minds innocent and quiet take
That for a hermitage;
If i have freedom in my love,
And in my sould am free,
Angels alone that soar above
Enjoy such liberty.

Richard Lovelace, (1618-1657)

AFFIRMATION - Savage Garden:

I believe the sun should never set upon an argument,
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands.
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you,
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do.
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem,
I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone.

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned,
I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned.
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side,
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye.

I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality,
I believe that trust is more important than monogamy.
I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul,
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold.
I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair,
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires.

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned,
I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned.
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side,
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye.

I believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness,
I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed.
I believe that God does not endorse TV evangelists,
I believe in love surviving death into eternity.

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned,
I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned.
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side,
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye.

Oh. My. God. just went to watch Passion of the Christ just now with Xinyi. been wanting to watch tt movie for a loooong time, and had a hard time persuading my parents to let me go.... oooh, it blew me away! contrary to wat xinyi thinks about it (DUN believe wat she says. hers is a biased account, because she is scared of gore... hee... )

it was full of blood and violence, yes, but it was also touching. i'm seldom touched by all these, and i NEVER cry at cinemas, but this time, the scenes got to me. yep, i cried at the violence parts, coz it was just too painful. it was the same as watching it first-hand, u know? like u were a witness there. anyway, the violence tt Jesus went thru is simply unbearable for humans, and he showed great strength in going thru with all of it. do u know, they whipped him, not only with canes of different thickness, but also these rod-like things with tiny hooks chained onto them. when they are used to whack a person, these hooks will claw e victim's flesh. tt happened to Jesus, and there was an instant when the hooks got caught in his flesh. the guy just pulled it out mercilessly, and he was at an angle tt would PULL OUT the most flesh. OH MAN! just watching it made me cry. no, i didn just bawl my eyes out on the spot like SOMEBODY expected me to do... tears just rolled out... the soldiers were enjoying every single torturous minute of it. when blood splashed onto their faces, they laughed with satisfaction and happiness. should i say with a sort of orgasmic glee? i swear, it was like they were obtaining some sort opf pleasure (bordering on sexual) with all the shouts and satisfaction u could hear from them.

another time when i cried was when Jesus could not stand the weight of the corss anymore and fell down. his mother was nearby, and tt reminded her of a time during his childhood when he had fallen down and she had rushed to him in the same way she was rushing to him at that moment. only this time, there was no way she could cradle him in her arms and comfort him. this time, there is no consolation, only the fact tt Jesus knew wat he was doing was to clear the sins of the people. even then, when he said, "Look, Mama, I'm making them all new again" it was just so heart wrenching! there was this childlike innocence in that sentence alone, that hope that everything would be all right again, once he had goen thru his trials.

the heart-wrenching parts didn end there. there was another one when the soldiers were hammering the nails into Jesus. You could really hear the bones in Jesus' palms and ankle breaking, and the blood was spurting everywhere. one doesn have to acty experience it to know the pain. u just have to look. the worst thing was, the soldiers enjoyed it. you could see from the grins on their faces, the laughs they were having, and the sneers that were on their faces when they were nailing Jesus. one of them even deliberately pulled Jesus' arm towards a point tt was impossible to reach, and in the end, the arm was pulled out of its socket. tok about malice and sadism. they absolutely ENJOYED torturing. it was just so...... so pititful and... sad, the way Jesus was tortured by them...i know... sad is too general a term to describe this, but it's like, i can't seem to find any other words to describe this.

now i really understand y in Angela Carter's "Peter and the Wolf", Peter always lashed himself on Good Friday. it was to clear his sins and to experience the same kind of pain Jesus went thru, to remind himself of the ordeal god went thru to salvage the ppl.

however, while the movie let us feel the pain and humiliation Jesus went thru, there was not really much feeling of his love for his people, despite his repeated cries of anguish, telling God, his Father, "Father, forgive them! They do not know what they are doing!". although this was supposed to demonstrate God's benevolent and generous love, there was no feeling coming thru. in the aftermath of the movie, that is wat i realised about it. perhaps tt was y the movie did not get the full 5 stars from LIFE!.

despite the above criticism, i still feel this movie is worth watching, whether one is a Christian or not. i'm not a christian, but i enjoyed the movie. i found it v touching and... in a way, it reaches the hearts of viewers thru the violence and gore of the scenes.

oh my god!! i feel SOOOOOOOOOO guilty!!! i just kicked my dog in the eye!!! goodness.... there's already something wrong with his eye and i JUST had to kick it... but well... not say i want to say lar, but i just say lar, it's not really my fault lor.. the whole livning room and corridor was so dark, and he usually stays under the dining table, how would i know he was lying in the middle of the corridor? then again, i could have switched on the lights, couldn i? well.... soemthing was telling me to switch on the lights, but it was just PLAIN LAZINESS on my part... -_-" have u ever experienced something like this? like something telling u to do something, but u ignore it, but when tt thing really happens, u go," aiyah! i should have done this! something was telling me to do this!!!" well, yah, it ALWAYS happens to me, and i ALWAYS never learn from it, coz the feeling is so absurd. talk about having a sixth sense and not using it. -_-"

getting worried about peke though. he hasn been eating much, but he has been vomitting alot. some of his vomits are dark brown. my sis says he even vomitted blood once. oh man.... to add on to this, he still can afford to be fussy! we gave him meat mixed with rice, and he ONLY ATE THE MEAT, leaving behind the rice! if there's any fussier eater, it's peke. he's already skin and bones (and yah, fur), and yet he still chooses his food?! come on! we are trying to help him!! does he appreciate it? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO *shakes head vehemently*

well, yah, tt's abt it... alot more things i'd love to blog here, but looking at the time........ it doesn't permit me to do so. still have to decipher Poe's 3 stories, and write a log abt them, and do their post tut for last wk. thank god less than one story was discussed... hehe... =)

hai... been trying to read the next 4 stories of angela carter (The Snow Child, Black Venus, The Kiss and The Cabinet of Edgar Allan Poe), and the end result is an increase in the degree of shortsighted-ness of my eyes. Goodness! these 4 are the worst stories i have seen so far in anela carter. not the worst, acty, but the most inaccessible. i have no idea wat she is talking about in the stories, so how am i gonna do the log for this?! worse still, NOBODY has any idea which group of stories we are doing tml- our group or fahmy, mastura, ida and diyah's group. -_-" this means tt instead of doing 4 stories, we have to prepare 8. GOODNESS!!!! while i agree that doing e 8 stories means i wun have to do log next wk, the thing is, this is TORTURE!!! i'm running dry of things to glean from the stories. well, not running dry exactly, but mentally exhausted. my brain feels like switching channels now to perhaps other things... haha...

anyway, i can't get stacie oricco's song I Promise out of my head... so i shall post the lyrics here... this song is so nice!! nope, i wun do an analysis or explanation of the song. haha....

I Promise – Stacie Oricco

Will I always be there for you?
When you need someone, Will I be that one you need?
Will I do all my best to, to protect you?
When the tears get near your eyes
Will I be the one that's by your side?
Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Will I take tender tender care of you?
Take your darkest night and make it bright for you
Will I be there to make you strong and to lean on?
When this world has turned so cold
Will I be the one that's there to hold?

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Yeah
And I love you more every day
And nothing will take that love away
When you need someone
I promise I'll be there for you (there for you)
I promise

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

And I promise (and I promise)
I promise (oh I promise you)
I will be there when you call me (when you call me)
I promise (I promise)
I promise I will