Deep, Dark Secrets of His and Her Brains

haha, be sure and go read this article; it suggests that the differing behaviours of men and women acty lie in the differing structures of their brains.

1 particular quote from the article: "Women's brains, for instance, seem to be faster and more efficient than men's." perhaps this explains the general conception that women are better able to multi-task than men?

another quote: "All in all, men appear to have more gray matter, made up of active neurons, and women more of the white matter responsible for communication between different areas of the brain."

and another: "Overall, women's brains seem to be more complexly corrugated, suggesting that more complicated neural structures lie within, researchers at UCLA found in August."

oh yes, the size of each gender's brain doesn affect the intelligence level of each gender (as in, the brain size of men and women), cos though men's brains are generally larger than women's, women have 12% more neurons than men do, which means that females are so NOT any stupider than males. so there. those old stick in the muds who prefer males to females and think that males are superior to females can just think about that.

i haven finished reading this article, but it's been interesting so far. do u think discrimination will reach new heights again when concrete evidence is found that the brain structures of each person defines a certain characteristic that he/she has?

Peke

here's a picture of peke, for those who've nvr seen him before... =) or u can go to my yahoo photo album to see him too! =)

Bidding

hurul, NOW i know where the fun is in bidding on internet auction sites. it IS fun! =)

oh man... haha i think something got into me yesterday, possessing me to bid on this pink billabong top which was selling for $35. i BID for it! it was only after i had happily put down my offer that the truth sank in. i was making a commitment to buy it. after tt was a jumble of mixed emotions. though there was tt sense of euphoria at having acquired something i like, there was the consequence of $35 less from my wallet, and the fact that the price i paid for it is bout the same as that sold in shops. there is one consolation though: i haven seen this design in singapore. i dunno if that is supposed to be one great consolation, but at least there's one bright spot. =) i'm going to meet the seller later to claim it, and maybe i'll put the picture up. just dun come knocking my head coz the top doesn look worth $35 k? and while the fact that i'm going to lay my hands on my first purchase, i've gone and bid on another thing- a book. yah, u read that rite. a book. it's "The Piano Tuner" by Daniel Mason. it looks like a good book. remember someone (was it hurul or xuefang?) read it in the sch library last yr, and said it was quite good. anyway, b4 u can slap ur forehead in exasperation, the book was going at $2. haha, u read that rite too. =) there was the "Princess Diaries" book by Meg Cabot, and it was going for $0.59. oooh yes, i can sure see the fun in bidding and visiting aution sites. *vigorous nod*

now, if i could just get my itchy fingers off the bidding button.......

oh, just to sidetrack a little, do u like my new blogskin? i love this design!! =)

had a nice dinner last night with maternal relatives. the dinner was courtesy of alvin and alan's father, who gave us the treat, so THANK YOU jiu jiu! =) haha though the table was too large for everyone to converse properly, those in the same generations were able to converse, coz we were all seated according to generation. ( ok this is v hard to describe, so try to bear with me). anyway, the location was at this seafood restaurant called "Red House Restaurant", which is at East Coast beach. with wonderful company, and wonderful food, we lacked nothing to make the night wonderful. conversation btw the adults flowed as freely as wine does at a banquet, but for the younger generation (us), i think it was a little awkward... hee... perhaps alvin and alan felt a little left out coz it was mostly girls there...? dunno... but they were rather quiet. =) (to alvin and alan: i meant no offense!) ok anyway, it was nice to see everyone gathered together round a table, talking and laughing. it's even better than CNY acty, where though everyone was gathered in the house, there were cliques evident, thus reducing the chances of relatives and family catching up with everyone else. so i guess the scientific theory about round objects being better able to distribute heat properly applies to interaction btw ppl as well? (well the theory is vague to me now, coz i think tt's a p6 memory, so update me if i'm wrong k?)

after the dinner, everyone took a stroll along the beach, and we stopped in front of the waves in the middle of the road and started tokking again. well, the adults started it first, so we followed suit. talk soon turned towards the trip to song, sarawak at the end of the yr, when we would be going back to celebrate my maternal grandma's 80th birthday. so exciting! perhaps the WHOLE family will be reunited again? well, that's provided kenette, lynette jiejie etc can make it back to song as well, and that alvin, alan etc are coming too. haha, cant wait. initially, we thot there might be a reunion at ah bin kor kor's wedding, but alas! lynette jiejie has an exam on the day of his wedding. hai....

laura has agreed to take us around sibu to shop! haha, according to her, clothes are rather cheap there, but well... while i'm looking forward to it, i'm kinda hesitant as well, coz well.... sibu isn really known for being a shopping paradise, is it? hmm we should all make a date to go wild wild wet during the dec hols oso, yes?

looking forward to end of this week, when i'll be going out with von and lun again! i so need to get a wallet, coz mine's spoilt. it's literally disintegrating. everytime i hold it in my hands, there are black colour bits of the wallet sticking to my palm. eugh!

ok i gtg back to reading up on psychology. better buck up this time, if i wanna make something of my life.... but i'm hungry! i'm always hungry these days.

oh yes, bernice jie jie is coming back today. haha, so if u're reading this entry, bernice jie jie, welcome back! =)

i love the song whose lyrics i just posted below. i know it's kinda late to post a tribute for Fathers' Day, esp since i already posted an entry after Fathers' Day. hee...

anyway, i think this song epitomises wat our fathers do for us. not all the lyrics apply of cos, but listening to the song just so reminded me of wat my father had/has done for me all this while, and when i first heard the song and thot bout those things, i just cried. haha, call it hormones or watever, but whenever i think back on the lyrics, i get all teary. =p weird rite?

anyway, though there's only a small chance that my father will chance upon this entry, i'll just like to say, 'Thank you, Pa, for all that u have done for me this past 19 yrs. love u LOTS!" =)

oh man. i'm starting to tear up again. -_-"

Daddy's Hands

I remember daddy's hands folded silently in prayer
And reachin' out to hold me, when I had a nightmare
You could read quite a story in the callous' and lines
Years of work and worry had left their mark behind

I remember daddy's hands how they held my mama tight
And patted my back for something done right
There are things that I'd forgotten that I loved about the man
But I'll always remember the love in daddy's hands...

Chorus:
Daddy's hands were soft and kind when I was cryin'
Daddy's hands were hard as steel when I'd done wrong
Daddy's hands weren't always gentle but I've come to understand
There was always love in daddy's hands.

I remember daddy's hands workin' 'til they bled
Sacrificed unselfishly just to keep us all fed
If I could do things over, I'd live my life again
And never take for granted the love in daddy's hands

(Chorus)
Daddy's hands were soft and kind when I was cryin'
Daddy's hands were hard as steel when I'd done wrong
Daddy's hands weren't always gentle but I've come to understand
There was always love in daddy's hands.

(Repeat Chorus)
Daddy's hands were soft and kind when I was cryin'
Daddy's hands were hard as steel when I'd done wrong
Daddy's hands weren't always gentle but I've come to understand T
here was always love in daddy's hands.

---- Holly Dunn

random ramblings

i'm now using the company's comp to blog. again. haha... i've finished keying in my orders already, if tt's wat u're wondering... okok, i'll admit, i did surf the net while keying in orders, BUT that was done coz i was trying to drag doing it. there was too little to do. hehe, and if i finished earlier, there wouldn be anything else to do u see.... =)

boring boring.

i thot of a topic i wanted to blog about just now while doing my data entry. unfortunately, it slipped my mind.

hmm... i have to change my layout. i want to design my own!! but i dunno how to do it. i dun even know how some ppl manage to get adobe photoshop. do they buy it? or do they download it? if they download it, how?!?!?! i cant seem to be able to dl it..... it keeps getting into that stupid winrar prog that unzips everything into its small components, and i DUN understand a single thing.

i wanna go shopping again!! i have this nasty feeling that i've spent WAAAAY over my budget already, and the amt of money in my bank account is dwindling. a signal to me to curb my spending. unfortunately, i cant curb the urge. the urge to go out buy something to make me feel satisfied and happy. that feeling of euphoria. that jolt of adrenaline that courses thru my veins with a purchase that i love and have lusted for a loooong time. that jolt of excitement and pleasure at finally making something that u like yours. that.... well, u get the meaning. =) it's an addiction, shopping. i can never have enough bottoms, tops, bags.... others might think they are more than enough, but.... somehow, wouldn u get sick of wearing the same things over and over again? the thrill dies off after while, rite? hmm... if i could just get some money to go shopping again... to buy clothes for uni...? after all, since i'm gonna stay at the hostel, i'll be taking quite a few clothes, and i oso have to leave some for lun, rite? ;) oh, and i need a wallet. my current one is falling to pieces. i wonder if Fossil still has that wallet i saw last yr....?

Joey

HAHA! "Joey" (the sitcom) is hilarious. hehe i cant decide if he's dumb or if he's just plain innocent and naive. while he might seem stupid in the show with his silly antics and his speech, wat he says makes sense sometimes, and is often wat we dun see until he points it out. well, at least I dun see it until he points it out. or is watever he says just his observation from a totally innocent point of view? i cant decide.

i mean, sometimes, ppl whom we might deem to be not insightful coz of their mental ability - children, autistic children etc- might sometimes make statements which surprise us, and make us realise, "yah, why didn i ever think of that?" or even realise that we have been making mountains out of molehills all along, when things were really that simple. some ppl say humans complicate lives, and i couldn agree more. when some children meet strangers, they hold nothing back, pouring out watever they think; but adults? its more often than not that they might think that they have to put up a front to perhaps impress strangers, and mebbe even complicate the whole thing, by thinking "shit. i just told him wat my parents do. would he think i'm rich/boastful for saying that?" (u know, those kind of things?). whereas children on the other hand, nvr think twice bout wat they say. wat they say is wat they feel. period. so why complicate things?

i cant say that i dun think too much bout the actions and statements of those around me, but sometimes i think that it's just so tiring to keep trying to second-guess wat the other person is trying to say or do. wat if that action was really done innocently or unconsciously? wouldn i be making a stupid fool out of myself for wasting so much energy trying to decipher wat he/she meant? but sometimes, i feel that this is easier said than done, and i guess it takes alot of self-confidence to assure urself that wat the other person said was unintentional, and had no double meaning watsoever.

hmm. or issit just me?

PS: sheesh! this entry was supposed to be gushing about "Joey". now it has turned into some kind of philosophical piece. -_-" haha, forgive me for spoiling the mood. =) (ok and now i've gone and done it again....)

i ABSOLUTELY hate filling in forms. idiotic stupid unnecessary things. how many times have i filled in my cca participation? tell me!! and now they want it AGAIN?! i mean, dun schools update their database? and besides, if nus has ALL the details of our lives, surely ntu has them too? wat for ask us how many siblings including deceased ones we have? its not like they'll let them in just because they have siblings in the uni, rite? argh.

and why the hell are there so many different dates? i'm getting all confused now just thinking of which form i have to hand in next. and when do i have to make payment for the hostels? everything is happening so fast its like there's barely time to acty make sense of it. i did make a list of when to hand in wat, but i still have tt nagging feeling that that's not all there is. sheesh.

Denise Keller chose "Volfgang" (Wolfgang, acty... it's how she pronounces his name. haha... )!! oh man!! poor howard looked sooooo crushed when she broke her decision to him. he looked like he didn know wat to do, and in the end he just took the first step to hug denise, and wished her all the best and to have fun in europe with wolfgang. AWWWWWWWW...

but while i had wished for howard to win the fair Denise's heart, i have to admit they didn look as nice as denise does with wolfgang and to be honest, i htink wolfgang suits her. still.........

Congratulations Tay Yi Ling, you are...

Scarlett Ting of joewei.blogspot.com

You are independent, smart and beautiful. Its too bad you don't see that yourself because life's little difficulties brought down a lot of your self confidence. As a result, you talk cryptic and you don't trust people easily. You care a lot for your friends and your loved ones, sometimes even more than you care for yourself, although they don't always seem to appreciate it. Don't let that affect you. As the saying goes, you don't miss the water till the well runs dry. So hang in there, you're a star in the making.

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Work

working now, and wishing i was home. haha, yah yah i know... its bad work attitude, but well, how else can i feel when my whole family is going shopping later in the afternoon, and then going to JB for satay (dun ask me y they go to JB just to eat satay. i'm puzzled too) ? i wanna go too!!!! perhaps one advantage of not going with them is tt i'll be able to earn more money perhaps? but well, at the moment all i can think of is going out. haha... the thot of going out far outweighs the thot of money entering my bank account at the moment. =p

with the end of my working experience drawing nearer everyday (end of this month, which is 2 more weeks), i'm starting to have bittersweet emotions. when i started work at the beginning of the yr, i nvr expected to work this long, nor feel such an attachment to my fellow colleagues. while the thot of going to work (waking up early esp during the hols when everyone is still aslp) is rather irritating, seeing my colleagues does add a little sweetener to work. at least working doesn turn out so boring, coz we can talk, joke, etc in this little room of ours. so while i'm happy that my working experience is coming to an end (i can finally wake up late yay!!!), i feel a little sad that i'd have to part with these colleagues. i know i've blogged bout them b4, so i shall not bore u with the details. suffice it to say that they have made my 6 mths of work in Spring more than pleasant, and a little less afraid of wat to expect next time i come out to work. =)

i think whether one enjoys one's work really depends largely on the type of colleagues/team one has at work. otherwise, how is one expected to perform well at work if one is constantly facing strangers or, worse, ppl who dun like him/her? going to work would soon become a chore and soon, there would be a lack of motivation to work. hmm. so there would be a loss in productivity, and... well, u know wat will happen, being smart econs students u are. =)

unfortunately, though i had a rather pleasant time working at Spring, i think i'm not experiencing the full aspect of a working life.

1. i dun have any responsibilities, nor any leadership role to play. so it means little or no burden on me and i can sleep easy at nite. no responsibilities oso mean i can turn up for work and leave anytime i want. not tt i do that, mind u. i was merely listing out the reasons why i htink i might not be experiencing the full aspect of a working life. on the other hand, the full-time workers have to deal with difficult customers, worry about when the next shipment is arriving, or bout when the clients will withdraw their projects etc.

2. i'm working as a data entry worker. on top of that, i'm always enclosed inside a room, where i'm working with the same 3 other ppl. chances of meeting other ppl outside the dept or in the other parts of the company are slim. add to the fact tt i'm a temp, and the chances of me interacting with those who have nothing to do with our dept gets slimmer. thus, the commonly lamented office politics will hardly be experienced by me. well, i did experience it once in the beginning of my stint here, but i htink tt's chicken feed compared with wat others experience in larger companies or even in the bigger depts of this company.

3. i'm a temp, so no one pays any mind to me, and thus i dun get involved in office politics. not tt i wanna get involved in it, but well, we all know office politics are part and parcel of one's working life.

4. i'm still young (relatively to the other staff in the company), so the adults usually take care of me like i'm still this little girl. therefore, not much or nothing is held against me when i say or do somethign tt might sound a mite childish. =)

5. one company doesn represent all of them.

ok. i think all the reasons have to do with the fact that i'm a temp and my age, but u get the picture. =)

now tt i've finished keying in all the order entries, guess i'll surf the net to while away the time... yah, and get fat while sitting down. -_-"

INFATUATED

OOOOOOO i'm looking at Vic Zhou AKA Zai Zai's photos now. *drools*

haha... excuse me while i'm flooding my keyboard with you-know-wat. haha, he's soooooo cute!! his eyes can give out electricity man. when i was watching Mars, wow, the more i looked at him, the more i wished the show would go on forever. haha, i can just sit in front of the tv looking at him. he looks great from all sides, with all expressions. oooooh!

haha, i guess i'm sounding v disgusting right now, going goo-goo ga-ga over an idol... but wow, have u seen his smile? ;)

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Your blog is the story of your life - a living diary.If it happens, you blog it. And make it as entertaining as possible.

What kind of blogger are you?

What A Girl Wants?

watched Eye For A Guy 2 last night. it was season finale part 1, where the last 2 guys remaining each got to spend a full day with Denise Keller (DK) and make one last attempt to win her heart. i must say, wat each of them did was great and very daring. each put their hearts and prides on the line, and planned 2 wonderful days to spend with her. wat each did was bound to make any girl get swept off her feet. howard brought DK to the carnival, where they had a portrait done together oso, of howard carrying DK, and the 2 of them in swimming suits. then they went on to dinner where he presented her with a fairy tale with her as the main character. it was a fairy tale written in poetry form to boot! then, they went back to the carnival, and started dancing in the moonlight- after he had kissed her. the whole scene was so wonderfully romantic. any girl was bound to feel as if she's the world's luckiest girl if she was in DK's shoes. =) the scenes of howard and DK were so sweet!! haha, it made me wanna support him in winning over DK. i mean, he always manages to think of ways to get her to notice him, and make her laugh. the things he does are not extravagant, but it did convince me that watever he did for her was done with her in mind, solely her. the video in the last episode wasn fantastically made with special effects etc, but they just captured his sincerity. his gestures strike me as innocent, with the sole intent on making DK happy. yep.

wolfgang... he's suave, charismatic, and the perfect gentleman in the sense that he knows the proper things to say or do. he impressed me when he managed to handle the situation regarding the "Little Red Box" pretty well. while all the other guys were disturbing him bout it, he was just calmly handling it. he impressed DK's friends, particularly her female friend, who asked pretty direct qns and was rather... well, a little on the catty side. he just calmly answered all her qns, and there seemed to be no pretences put on when he answered the qns. it seemed like he had nothing to hide. well, tts wat i could see on tv. i wouldn know in real life =) after all, the way they lead their lives is more than the 1/2 hour we see weekly on Ch 5 rite? wolfgang is smooth and confident in his pursuit of DK, and thing is, he's confident in every situation he's put into, and tt is a trait that would impress girls, since it brings a sense of security, isn it?

yep, so there u have it. 2 guys with 2 different wooing tactics. which would u go for? the one who makes u feel like u are the centre of his universe and goes all out to make u feel treasured thru gestures which are not necessarily extravagant? or the one who's worldly, confident, and sophisticated?

haha, if u ask me, a mix would be nice, but how many ppl are there who are like tt? after all, which girl wouldn like to be wined and dined? on the other hand, which girl wouldn like to receive gestures that are so sweet and sincere? not to say tt wining and dining doesn show sincerity, but someitmes, sincerity is not necessarily shown thru the amt of money one spends, rite?

think bout it.

We are what we eat, wear, read

found this article that was linked to one of the blogs i was surfing. aint it true to the title of today's entry?

Love thy stuff

Consumer identity is shaped by love of objects

How does the saying go? Love what you drive, don't drive what you love? The premise is that a sturdy, reliable car is a more prudent purchase than a flashy, speedy car. Whether practical or not, an article in the June 2005 issue of the Journal of Consumer Research reveals that love of one's possessions can play an exceptionally important role in a person's identity.

"Consider the vast number of objects and consumption activities that come and go in our lives; groceries, hobbies, vacations, clothing, clubs, gifts, tools, cars, movies, investments, computers, newspapers, art, books, furniture," argues Aaron Ahuvia (University of Michigan). "From this vast sea only a handful are loved. It is not surprising then that these few loved objects and activities play a special role in consumers' understandings of who they are as people."

Ahuvia's research explores how consumers construct their perceptions of who they are. In creating a narrative of self, possessions play an essential role.

"The people and things we love have a strong influence on our sense of who we are," explains Ahuvia. "This article investigates the possessions and activities that consumers love, and their role in the construction of a coherent identity narrative."

In today's world of consumerism, notes Ahuvia, it's impossible for a person's relationship with objects--some of which they love--to not impact who they are and who they want to be.

"Sometimes love-objects assist with symbolically demarcating the boundary between the self and identities that the consumer rejects. In other instances love-objects help to symbolically support an identity which combines potentially conflicting aspects of self--such as tensions between the consumer's past identity versus the person they want to become, or the conflicts between ideals of who the consumer should be, which are advocated by socializing agents."

yesterday, today, and.... mebbe tomorrow

we took half day off yesterday, the whole data entry dept. crystal didn go for work, so we met her at orchard. haha, we meant to have lunch at Crystal Jade, but in the end we ended up at coffee club in takashimaya. ooohhhhh!! the tiramisu al cafe is glorious!! i was in heaven during the 15 minutes i savoured the cake. i'm salivating rite now. oh man....... *desktop is flooded with saliva* (okok i know i'm disgusting)

it was so fun going out with jes, shirley and crystal. we went to the different boutiques in taka- LV, burberrys, gucci etc. it was my first time going into such boutiques, and well, it was a nice experience. haha, dun say i've nvr been there lar. anyway, the stuff there are soooo expensive! goodness, one LV watch costs above $2000, and there was one tt cost $22 000 +++!! *whistles* thing is, it was CROWDED in LV k... i suppose there was a sale on, but to be honest, it didn seem like one to me. or maybe i'm too suaku lar. haha... jes was looking for a key pouch cum coin purse for her bf, so tts the reason y we were in those boutiques. wow, we really walked the whole of taka k... and i wore the wrong footwear. -_-" i was wearing slippers. oh man. if i had known we were gonna walk so much, i would have worn sports shoes. hahahahaa... oooh and i almost bought 2 pairs of slippers at charles and keith, but i had to think twice bout it coz i wasn v sure if i have the clothes to match it and if i would wear it often. oh yes, not forgetting the price. i'm STILL waiting to go thailand or some other shopping paradise to shop. i think singapore's gss doesn seem like much of a sale leh.... nonetheless, i still feel like going. contradictory, arent i?

lun's at her Leo Camp today, and it'll last till tml. hai... much as i hate to admit it coz her head will inflate so much tt we will have to move into an airplane hangar, i'll miss her, coz there wun be anyone to tok to me!!!!!! hai... oh yes, and while she was packing last night, i found a good excuse for shopping- we need a toiletries bag. yes, we do. haha, lame reason though it seems, it's a good enough reason to get my adrenaline coursing thru my veins. or issit the caffeine tts running thru my veins now? anyways, i'm on a high now.

wat should i eat for lunch today? just had burger king for breakfast, and thus have no appetite for lunch. nothing stirs my palate now, coz i'm soooooooo full! the thot of food now turns my stomach a little.

thank god it's friday today man... i'm falling asleep at my desk already, but unfortunately i still have to drum up enthusiasm to go help CS outside. they're overloaded with work theses days, and thus need our help. unfortunately, though i'm in data entry dept and it was agreed that we would help with data entry should CS need it, i'll have to do the Undels later. oh, Undels are the undeliverables. bleah. its a simple task lar, but boring and tedious. oh yah, and it takes up alot of space.

tml.... i hope to go out, but i think its unlikely, coz von has to study, my father is going to work, and my mother...... hm i think she;s working oso. so i'm like the free-est person in the house. oops. i htink i'm gonna have to bathe schnoozee. it sounds easy, but do u know wat it entails? carrying him into the toilet where he will act as if i'm gonna slaughter him or try to drown him with a shower head, and then fighting with me over the towel which is supposed to be used to dry him, and then struggle as i carry him to the common area to let him dry in the sun, and there he will fight for the towel with me again and run around like a mad dog. there i will be, sweaty and wet and smelly. wow. okok, to be fair, he's a cute li'l guy. when he's being bathed, he'll look at u with those innocent blue-black eyes and his fringe falling in his face, which just melts ur heart i tell u.... he'll look at u, as if saying, "ok, u got wat u wanted, i have to trust u now, but pls drown me with as much compassion as u can muster." yah... and after tt, when he's drier, he'll run downstairs to look for his beloved evon, leaving me- the one who bathed him and suffered his scratches- to clear up the mess he made upstairs. tok about gratitude. tsk tsk. nonetheless, i still love him. ;)

ok. this is a boring entry and i sound bitchy. shoot me someone!!

going to slp. bye.

Shoulda Woulda Coulda

People say that together we were both sides of the same coin
That we would shine like Venus in a clear night sky
We thought our love could overcome the circumstances
But my ambition wouldn't allow for compromise

I could see in the distance all the dreams that were clear to me
Every choice that I had to make left you on your own
Somehow the road we started down had split asunder
Too late to realise how far apart we'd grown.
How I wish I, wish I'd done a little bit more

Now "Shoulda woulda coulda", means I'm out of time
Coz "Shoulda woulda coulda", can't change your mind
And I wonder, wonder, wonder what I'm gonna do
"Shoulda woulda coulda" are the last words of a fool

People ask how it feels to live the kind of life others dream about
I tell them everybody gotta face their highs and their lows
And in my life there's a love I put aside, cause I was busy loving something else
So for every little thing you hold on to, you've got to let something else go

Fool if I would now forsake the opportunities are fate
I know I'm right where I belong
But sometimes when I'm not so strong I..

Now "Shoulda woulda coulda", means I'm out of time
Coz "Shoulda woulda coulda", can't change your mind
And I wonder, wonder, wonder what I'm gonna do
"Shoulda woulda coulda" are the last words of a fool

Now "Shoulda woulda coulda", means I'm out of time
Coz "Shoulda woulda coulda", can't change your mind
And I wonder, wonder, wonder what I'm gonna do
"Shoulda woulda coulda" are the last words of a fool...

Beverly Knight