Tuesday, May 31, 2005

Memories

smells can trigger lots of memories. just today, the smell of the perfume i'm wearing now brings back many memories; in particular, memories of year 1. haha... i guess tt's coz i wore this scent when i was in yr 1. =) memories of lit classes, econ lectures (of all things) and TP were the clearest memories. as i keyed order entries at work, images of when i was in yr 1 kept drifting idly into my mind. weird... haven thot bout yr 1 for quite awhile, esp bout econ lectures, and now, i feel like i'm back in tt time, mugging and doing essay outlines for miss wee, and rushing thru the lit logbooks just before lit lesson, particularly reynolds'. images of the 'mini-gathering' in the canteen before flag raising oso appeared in my mind- mel, her cj, TP... and esp the time before the yr 2s' physics prelims. haha, TP's classmates were crowding around asking him qns. i remember feeling damn extra down there at that time. haha... everyone tokking bout physics, and there i was, doing a hist essay outline. -_-" how different can tt be?

which brings back doubts and uncertainties regarding things done in the past. could i have done tt better? wat would have happened if i had done this? wat would have happened if i had done otherwise? would the result have been any different from now? is tt the beauty of memories? the imperfection of it, tt makes it all the more real and treasured and the most thot about? after all, the fact tt we are unable to amend anything tt happend in the past probably makes us feel helpless, and we thus keep thinking back on it and wondering. perhaps its thus treasured, coz we cant bear to tear ourselves away from thinking wat could be done, wat shouldn have been done in the memory, and thus arent able to let go of it? perhaps some ppl can acty let go of the past and not look back, but come on, have they NEVER thot back to their past and viewed some memories with regret, and some with joy? or issit that they CHOOSE not to think bout them, and stuff the memories into a box in their brains marked "PAST: DO NOT OPEN"? or do they just forget bout it? or does it just occur naturally?

i know we have to learn to let go of the past, but does letting go mean forgetting?

do optimistic ppl find it better to let go?

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

Messing Around

i'm soooooo sleepy now!! yawn~~~ still at spring, where we have FINALLY finished keying in the orders. i cant imagine if i had to key ALL the entries today. think i'll just die. haha... crystal and shirley are supposed to do order testing from yesterday to tml, so since jes is on leave, i have to be the only one to cover the order entries. unfortunately, the new system is faulty today, so order testings cant be done after all, so... i had help today! much as i would like to try finishing the orders by myself, the sad truth is that i'm unable to do so. *sob sob* i tried doing so yesterday, and ended up almost killing myself. oh man!!

next news. i'm gonna extend my work at spring till the end of june. wow. its extended by another 2 weeks. i agreed partly coz of the extra money i'd be able to earn, and oso coz they;re short of staff here. goodness knows wat the hr dept is doing. they haven found a new worker yet. i feel quite sad bout not being able to leave earlier though, coz there goes 2 weeks of my potential hol!!! *sniff sniff* ah well... hopefully the money will more than make up for it.

i'm so bored at the office now. i think u can tell it from the contents of this blog. totally random and without any emotion. haha. bye.

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

'Sarcasm' Brain Areas Discovered

Scientists say they have located the parts of the brain that comprehend sarcasm - honestly.

By comparing healthy people and those with damage to different parts of the brain, they found the front of the brain was a key to understanding irony.

Damage to any of three different areas could render individuals unable to understand sarcastic comments.

The Israeli team from Haifa University told Neuropsychology how their findings might help to explain autism features.

Autistic children can have problems interpreting sarcasm as well as other social cues such as emotions.

This same skill is sometimes lost in people with brain damage, suggesting similar brain regions may be involved in autism.

Brain scan studies of autistic children have shown that they have different activity in the frontal lobe to other children.

Dr Simone Shamay-Tsoory and colleagues studied 25 people with prefrontal lobe damage, 16 with damage to the posterior lobe of the brain and 17 healthy volunteers.

They played the study participants tape-recorded stories, some sarcastic and some neutral.
An example of sarcasm was "Joe came to work, and instead of beginning to work, he sat down to rest. His boss noticed and said to Joe 'don't work too hard.'"

In fact, what Joe's boss actually meant by his comment was "you are a slacker".

In the neutral version Joe came to work and began work immediately. His boss made the same "don't work too hard" comment, but this time, he actually meant that Joe was a hard worker.

The volunteers who had damage to their prefrontal lobes were unable to correctly interpret the sarcastic story, while all of the other participants could.

Anatomy
Dr Shamay-Tsoory said this fitted with what is already known about the anatomy of the brain.
She said language areas on the left hand side of the brain interpret the literal meaning of words and the frontal lobes and the right side of the brain understand the social and emotional context.
An area called the right ventromedial prefrontal cortex then integrates the literal meaning with the social/emotional context, which will reveal any sarcasm.

"A lesion in each region in the network can impair sarcasm, because if someone has a problem understanding a social situation, he or she may fail to understand the literal language," she said.

A spokeswoman from the National Autistic Society said: "The causes of autism are still being investigated.

"Many experts believe that the pattern of behaviour from which autism is diagnosed may not result from a single cause.

"There is strong evidence to suggest that autism can be caused by a variety of physical factors, all of which affect brain development." --- BBC News


Well. now we know where we are able to understand irony and sarcasm. I always thot irony was somethign tt was learnt, and hence programmed into the brain. now i know better. aint it cool to learn tt bout the brain? =)

Saturday, May 21, 2005







Your #1 Match: ENFJ




The Giver

You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and usually succeed.
Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections.
Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down.
You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine.

You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist.





haha... so does that mean i chose the right course for uni? not sure bout social situations though,... i dun like big crowds, and i sure as certain dun shine in them.....




You Are Strawberry Pocky





Your attitude: fresh and sweet
Comforting, yet quirky ... quietly hyper
You always see both sides to everything




hehe bernice jiejie, well i got strawberry flavour, a "yummy flavour" as u put it.. =) but seriously, i think green tea's great too! it looks so calm and well, green.... but issit really sold on the market?
yay!! music's up!

Friday, May 20, 2005

"Whose Line Is It Anyway" is HILARIOUS!! haha... i know i know, i'm lagging by many yrs regarding this show, but it was only recently that i finally got round to downloading it and watching 2 episodes of them. haha... and i must say, it's good. no wonder i hear such rave reviews bout it from ppl who have watched it. =)

had a WONDERFUL breakfast today. haha... been looking forward to buying Burger King meal breakfast for bout a month already, but due to my typical procrastination, i haven got a chance to eat it until today. -_-" why? u may ask. well, i had a coupon for the breakfast bout a month ago, and i kept it until it expired. THEN i received another same coupon, and i still kept it. until today. haha... i meant to buy Mc's big breakfast (jes gave me the coupon... its $2.50 for a big breakfast... is it cheaper i wonder?), but for some reason, lately when i wanna buy Mc, i cant seem to meet a queueless Mc. Today, unfortunately, was no exception. there was a Long queue there. argh. a big crowd in fact. why issit then when i dun wan to buy Mc, there's no queue, and when i wan to, there is a long queue?!!??! and i jsut ate q-bread yesterday, all becoz smart me had left my wallet in the office the day before. applaude me, darlings. NO WAY am i gonna waste more money buying something which i had no intention of buying (well, unless it's an emergency). $1.30 for a bun is expensive u know... it's not as if my salary can stretch THAT far.....

I hope my father has sent the digicam for repair... i wanna take pics of schoozee to put up!! and hopefully of jes, crystal and shirley... haha... though i think they'll be quite unwilling to, and it does seem like i'm makign a big fuss out of my first workign experience, arent i? hai... but they have made my working experience so comfortable and great. it's like, though we have rather large age gaps btw us (one of them can be my mother liao... ) they never made me feel like I'm too young to tok to them, or made me feel conscious of my age. instead, they all included me in all their conversations, and often oso share their viewpoints with me. i mean, ppl of different ages have different ways of thinking, so when we tok in the office, i feel like i have learnt 3 different viewpoints from the one i hold. furthermore, i can get an inkling of how ppl of various ages view the same issues. well i know 3 ppl of different ages is barely enough to form a conclusion, but somehow, the difference in their views is evident. i'm not saying those of the same age will share the same views, but rather the mentality and the degree with which they look at things are different. yep. back to wat i was saying before. besides making me feel like i belong, they take care of me. haha, i'm the youngest there, so they often take the time to explain their experiences to me, and advise me. yah yah i know... sounding sappy here... but thinking bout 4 weeks later, when i'll not be working there anymore, i feel a little sad. it feels only like yesterday when i was a new worker there and jes was giving me the cold shoulder. yep, she did! haha, and she continued to do so for the next few weeks. oh man... the first few weeks were the most anxious ones... haha, coz not only was i anxious bout doing my job well, i was anxious to get along well with everyone i was working with. jes not tokking to me made me feel... well.. it made me feel uncomfortable. haha, then crystal told me she's like tt with all the temps, so... yah... it was only recently that i asked her bout it. hehe... she said she usually observes first. hmm... i guess i passed her observations then... *crosses fingers* anyway, i'll miss all of them when i have to leave, but i'm also kinda looking forward to stopping work, coz i wannna sleep! yes, lazy, i know, but i do miss waking up late and having totally nothing to do!! hee... but the money's attractive, and so's the company at Spring.

sheesh! i'm digressing! yah, i just asked my father, he hasn sent the digicam for repair... hai... frankly, i wish we could get another digicam....... but it's friggin expensive... hai... i'm currently salivating over the Sony Cybershot. Oooooh!! it's so super ultra slim, and looks so sleek! but well, the price is sleek too... it costs bout $700 ++ at best denki. wonder how much it costs in sim lim? anyways, i am in no financial position to get one for myself. if i do, i'll prob have to work another month at spring.not tt i'm complaining, but if i do, there goes my sleep... *waves byebye to sleep*

yes. the cd i still owe my friend. it's been with me for the past yr, and i've been msging him for every week for the past month (except for the last 2 weeks). every week ok.... now i'm wondering if i should msg him. haha... i mean, i've been msging like almost every week, i feel so paiseh now leh. on the other hand, if i stop meging, would it seem like i'm insincere bout returning the cd? could someone PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE advise me?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? I'M BEGGING U!! yep, u. =)

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

argh!! i put music into my blog (a nice song too u know... "Almost Here" by brian McFadden and Delta Goodrem) but while i can preview the changes made and hear the song, i cant hear anything after i have published the thing! wat the hell is going on can someone tell me pls?!

Friday, May 13, 2005

Dear Peke,

It's been a year since u left, and haha, there's not a day when we dun tok about u and remember the things u used to do, and compare u with schnoozee, whom we got bout 3 mths after u left, coz the house just felt so empty and lonely and von and lun were moping about the house. do u know, von even got my parents to buy her terrapins so that she could have something to take care of? though i balk at the idea of taking care of terrapins coz i think they are boring and troublesome to look after, i can understand y she needed that. she needed the distraction, and she needed someone to care for. she used to take such good care of u, remember? she was always the one who bathed u, who put ur tick medicine on u etc? i think she was quite devastated on the day u left. papa said he could see/sense her collapsing when the vet said u had to be put down. it was the next kindest thing to do for u, seeing as u were in such pain. if u had not been put down that day, perhaps u might have left us the next day, or the day after. but the person in the most pain was perhaps von already, coz she was the one who was the closest to u, and u, her. she had to make the decision to put u down, and... well, i can just imagine the pain she went thru to come to that decision. i mean, when u love someone, set him/her free. u were in pain and difficulty, i think she oso couldn bear to see u suffering anymore either. thanks for the 8 yrs u gave us, peke. they'll always be in my memory. =)

i put ur picture on my desktop in the office, and after keying my orders, sometimes i would just look at ur pic and smile. the pic was quite well taken, if u ask me. they capture the softness of ur fur, and ur large, expressive eyes that always gave away any indication that u were pissed off and was getting ready to bite us. when i see that pic, peke, it almost feels like i could reach thru the comp to touch u, u know, that little corner under ur mouth? i used to like tickling u there. i can see it in the photo now, and man! do i wish so much to be able to tickle u there again. haha... the photo looks so real, so touchable, that sometimes when i stare at u for too long, i kinda manage to kid myself into thinking u are still alive. u look so alive inside! it's only when i remind myself that schnoozee is at home instead of u that i realise u have been gone, and i shan't ever get to touch u again, however much i wish to, and that thot immediately brings me to another thot: u have turned to ashes already. a year ago, i couldn bear to imagine u being thrown into a pile among other dogs to be sent to the crematorium, where, from the once recognisable and active peke u were, u had become an unrecognisable and... well, a pile of ash that no one can be sure it is u. a year later, i still can't. i just cant bring myself to think of u as a pile of unrecognisable ashes in goodness knows where- probably in someone's potted plants or something- and relate u to a concrete version of u.

the above may seem like i'm using schnoozee as ur substitute, but i dun think so. schooze is himself. there's no similarity btw the 2 of u, though we wish he wasnt as hyper as u, and that he knew where he could do his business and where he couldn. i wish u could tell me wat made u stop peeing in the house. nonethelss, he's a gem of a dog, as were u. both of u have ur individual personalities, which i bet all my money that none of the other dogs have. perhaps it's coz animals have characters just like humans do, but i like to think that it's coz both of u are unique. call it self-delusionary, but i like tt thot. hahaa.. =)

peke, i hope u are fine, healthy and happy wherever u are, if there is indeed a heaven and hell,or an afterlife. we all miss u lots. =)

Thursday, May 12, 2005

sheesh. heels are hell to walk on i tell u. haha, its so hard to balance and walk! and i kinda suspect the slippers are just a tad too small, though they fit comfortably. they feel tight though. oh man... just when i thot i could go home in a car, i remembered i'm gonna meet yanting today to return her her Da Vinci Code. not blaming u, yanting, i'm blaming my shortsightedness. =) and i never knew that i had to avoid drains- u know, those with the grates on them, the bars?- when wearing heels. the heels tend to get caught between the bars. -_-" that happened several times this morning when i was rushing to the bus stop to catch my bus. luckily it didn get trapped too far in the grates, but... i'm still not counting my lucky stars. =p on the bright side though, i think i might have kicked my bad habit of shuffling my feet when wearing slippers!!! yay! tt's the reason y u seldom see me wearing footwear without straps when i go out. i'd much rather wear shoes. and i still prefer shoes. =)

ok, gonna help von set up her blog account before its too late. bye! =)

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

ok jt and jp- i've done my research, and i've found tt jetstar asia has better flight timings to and form bangkok, and that first hotel is better than asia hotel in that it's cheaper. other than tt, asia hotel is definitely more convenient than first hotel, coz it's linked to the mrt station, which means we dun have to walk v much to our desitnations!!! yay! erm... i tried to post it up here, but its too much info... haha... will print it out and let's see wat happens k?

frankly, i dun really think this trip will materialise, coz firstly, my financial state, and second, global probs- terrorism. sheesh! just heard on the radio that southern thailand is threatened yet again by terrorists. argh. i know bangkok is not near the south of thailand, but it sure is enough reason for my parents to disallow me from going there. hai... not tt i can argue with tt. if they were to be the ones to go thailand, leaving von, lun and me behind, i would strongly discourage them from doing so too. after all, we wouldn know wat would happen there rite? nonetheless, the trip might be fun too, if indeed it materialises. shopping galore and shopping with friends! it'd be a different experience travelling with friends. fun fun fun! haha, guess i'll just have to cross my fingers and hope for the best when i ask my parents again sometime in july... wish me luck k? ;)

anyone wants to come too? =)

tempted to buy the Book of Answers too, but i'm a little apprehensive. haha... remember the book, xf and jp? ;)

Friday, May 06, 2005

yay!! day off today! unfortunately, it's oso don and siying's last day at work today, so cant see them... hai... shall miss them lots =) haha, and don's entertainment. =D

just brought schnoozee downstairs for a walk, and in the end, it WASNT a walk at all. it was a RACE. yep, u heard rite. the moment the elevator doors opened, he DASHED out, leaving me running after him holding onto the leash for dear life. goodness... i almost fell down so many times ok?! besides, the leash is not the retractable kind, so while he was rushing ahead, he was oso pulling on the leash. as a result, he was choking as he was running. argh. and there i was, racing to catch up with him. do u know how long i haven been running? and to run like i did just now was certainly tiring ok... run, stop, run, stop, pick up his shit, run, stop, run, stop, pick up his shit.... the process went on 3 times k... yep, that's how much faeces he has inside him. i was sweating BULLETS by the time we went back upstairs. and u know wat? the moment he was let back inside the house, he shitted again. YES HE DID! one would think that after clinching so many 'big deals' downstairs he would have finished. but NOOOOOO.. he had a 'merger' to clinch. sheesh. a VERY big merger this one was, too. -_-" ok. i dun quite like to use the word "shit", coz i think it's quite a colloquial term, and sounds a little... rude... hee... so are there any other terms anyone can suggest besides faeces? "doing business" is not not bad, but it's a little long... haha =)

back to schnoozee. and now, he's walking around the house like he owns it, biting anything that looks bite-able, which is, well, anything he lays his eyes on. even stones. yep. those who have seen my house will know that there are alot of stones and shells in the living room. yah, he bites shells too, and some of the stones have been bitten into half. uh huh, u heard it rite. i dunno wat kind of dog i have, but i'm sure he's not normal. he takes great delight in chewing wires, and LEAVES. particularly long and yellowed ones. i dunno y, dun ask me, but i've a hunch that it's coz they are crunchy, particularly in this weather. do u know, he has bitten off TWO friggin' fax wires already? he bites off the heads CLEAN off the wires, and some of the copper wires inside have been exposed. do u know, i really wonder if he can live as long as peke did, or even longer. he's gonna kill himself one day from chewing anything and everything he can in the house.

he's a murderer too!! he eats beetles and lizards! yuck! while i absolutely detest lizards, i htink its damn cruel of him to do so. argh. yah yah, i know he's just a dog, and he doesn know any better, but peke never did anything like tt before!!!

ok i better stop now and go look after him before he turns my whole house upside down and makes it such a mess i absolutely have to kill him. bye and have a nice day! =)

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

*blinks hard* my eyes are so tired now!! and they are making it dry as a result. oh man... i'm so tempted to close my eyes and sleep. not tt i can't, coz i've finished my work for the day and there's nobody in the room (acty, even with ppl in the room, i still can, coz we're in the room, so no one can see... haha =)), but coz i'll end up feeling groggy and disoriented later. haha. and on the 'goody goody' side, it's unethical to sleep during working hours. *wags an admonishing finger at imaginary audience*.

it's boring!!! i need retail therapy. yes yes, i know i just had it with von and lun last fri, but it isn enough lar... we only started walking around at like 8 something, and we barely covered the whole first level of far east. yep, tt's rite. it was SLOW. loved dinner that nite- if it can be counted as dinner in the first place. haha... we went to shi lin, the taiwan snack shop (xiao3 chi1, as it's called) to buy their fried chicken which i hear from quite a lot of ppl tt's quite nice. lun was interested in their oyster mee sua (which i think was not v wonderful, if u know wat i mean), and so we got a takeaway of tt as well on top of ordering beer battered fish and chips from Chippy, the British takeaway next door. welll..... . the chicken was not bad, quite crispy, the oyster mee sua.... read above comments, fish and chips... ok lar- the fries were not bad, but the fish tasted kinda weird. all in all, i loved the dinner tt night coz of the novelty. =) ooooo and the next highlight: we had gelare! 3 of us shared a tropical fruity sundae, which had 3 scoops of differently flavoured ice cream of our choice, with strawberries, bananas, and a BIG PEACH. love peaches!! and wafer oso. =) wild strawberry was a bit of a disappointment, coz we were looking forward to eating something tt was a little sour. passionfruit and raspberry sorbet satisfied our craving, but wild strawberry tasted more like strawberries and cream. not bad, just tt we were looking for somehting more sour.

looking forward to this fri. taking one day leave, and then meetign von and lun for songfest in the evening. hahahahaha. heard utt is going there, but dunno how accurate the info is. hopefully the candidates for songfest will be as good as the past yrs this yr. =)