blahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblah.... i DUN FEEL LIKE STUDYING ALREADY!!!
tomorrow's the last paper, and my energy's flagging... can't drag myself up from the computer to acty go read the notes on gothic, but... oh well... i still have to... i'll prob just burst out of the hall tml screaming bloody murder after the paper.. haha... all hell's broken loose, coz i'm madd!!!!hmm... on hindsight, forget wat i just said... many wouldnt believe i'm capable of doing tt... frankly, neither am i. haha... =)
one thing i know for sure is, NO MORE LAST MIN STUDYING OF LIT FOR ME. EVER AGAIN. oh man... studying for it at the last minute last nite was pure torture, not to mention stressful. can't remember much. take my advice. lit is not for last min. oh man... i can feel premature white hairs grwoing... and premature aging is so not evident in my family line... guess some new gene just developed halfway today tt;s like gonna be some recessive gene tt will turn dominant if and when i marry someone with a premature ageing gene in his DNA. hahah... so bio rite? it just came out of my memory like some long lost.... memory?
hehe... ok, i'm off teaching my sis how to earn points on the myscenedolls.com website hurul intro-ed on her blog... haha... its so bimbotic its fun! hahahahahahahahah
Wednesday, June 30, 2004
Wednesday, June 23, 2004
hey alvin, thanx so much for ur help in the strike thru thing!!! hahah.... u made it nicer!!!! =)
just chatted with kenette's gf. she's a NICE girl! wow, kenette realyl has good taste man... character nice, face oso nice... hai... oh btw, he's my cousin.. hahah... feel happy for him.. =) oh well, i htink they are a good match acty, both are great ppl, inside and out, and they have brains to complement each other.... xian mu si wo le!!!!!!
oh well... on the heavier side of things, I HAVE TO GET BACK TO WORK. wat a dampener. been slacking sicne this morning... hahahahahaha.... so my conscience is driving me to do work. but first, lunch. bye!
just chatted with kenette's gf. she's a NICE girl! wow, kenette realyl has good taste man... character nice, face oso nice... hai... oh btw, he's my cousin.. hahah... feel happy for him.. =) oh well, i htink they are a good match acty, both are great ppl, inside and out, and they have brains to complement each other.... xian mu si wo le!!!!!!
oh well... on the heavier side of things, I HAVE TO GET BACK TO WORK. wat a dampener. been slacking sicne this morning... hahahahahaha.... so my conscience is driving me to do work. but first, lunch. bye!
Tuesday, June 22, 2004
sometimes i think tt i'm just doing a pre-death struggle. u know, like before a person drowns, they make this last-ditch desperate attempt to keep themselves afloat? yep, i soooo feel like tt... hahaa....
just kinda think there's not much point in studying anymore for the common test, though it would be a lie to say tt i have acty done much. sian. its so sickening lar. cant concentrate, and i'm so dreading the time when i have to go back to sch. *GASP* horror of horrors! it's next week! i guess i shall have to forgo this common test, do the best i can for it and just keep to my long term goal of the prelims and a levels. tts e best i can do at the moment i guess. getting tired. haha... just hope i dun seriously burn out by the end of the year. oh well. i just need to get thru this common test, then i'll contemplate wat i should do until the prelims. it also doesn help tt there are no shows to watch on tv at 7 and 9pm! oh man! its all BORING!!! now i only look forward to tues 8pm's Daddy's Girls (which is like so bimbotic and rather brainless if u ask me, but i watch it coz it doesn need the mind haha) and thurs 1045pm's meteor garden 2. ahahhahahahah. wat a no-life i am.
i seriously can't wait to break out of this cage man. its getting so depressing. haha. but mebbe, once i break out of this cage tt seems to be getting smaller for me, will i find myself in another cage, though this time it's much more spacious, but filled with ppl of even more hidden facades? well.... stay tuned..... ;)
just kinda think there's not much point in studying anymore for the common test, though it would be a lie to say tt i have acty done much. sian. its so sickening lar. cant concentrate, and i'm so dreading the time when i have to go back to sch. *GASP* horror of horrors! it's next week! i guess i shall have to forgo this common test, do the best i can for it and just keep to my long term goal of the prelims and a levels. tts e best i can do at the moment i guess. getting tired. haha... just hope i dun seriously burn out by the end of the year. oh well. i just need to get thru this common test, then i'll contemplate wat i should do until the prelims. it also doesn help tt there are no shows to watch on tv at 7 and 9pm! oh man! its all BORING!!! now i only look forward to tues 8pm's Daddy's Girls (which is like so bimbotic and rather brainless if u ask me, but i watch it coz it doesn need the mind haha) and thurs 1045pm's meteor garden 2. ahahhahahahah. wat a no-life i am.
i seriously can't wait to break out of this cage man. its getting so depressing. haha. but mebbe, once i break out of this cage tt seems to be getting smaller for me, will i find myself in another cage, though this time it's much more spacious, but filled with ppl of even more hidden facades? well.... stay tuned..... ;)
Saturday, June 19, 2004
can't stand studying can't stand studying can't stand studying can't stand studying can't stand studying can't stand studying can't stand studying can't stand studying can't stand studying can't stand studying can't stand studying can't stand studying can't stand studying!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it's like the last week of june hols and i haven finished my revision yet!! oh man!! have a feeling i'm gonna do badly esp for econ... i just looked at the questions mrs loh compiled for us, and i was just thinking that if prelims and A levels are gonna give tt kind of questions, i am so gonna die.
i'm too tired to think or do work anymore. hmm... a little rain and less sun would do a WHOLE WORLD OF GOOD!!!! coz i hate hot weather. i loooooove rainy days... hot weather just makes me wanna sleep the day away, coz it's too hot to be able to do anything else!!! sian we were so close to a thunderstorm yesterday evening, but in the end, there was only very strong wind. -_-" and yes, my mood is still braindead- if u can see the picture.
i just saw my personal horoscope thing which i stupidly signed up for. i so regret it now, coz there was no insightful analysis to my character, but only some self-recommendations and self praise bout the pshychic person herself. now i'm worried if she'll do anything to me. not going to reply to her forms or send in any testimonials though. y the heck was i so stupid to do tt? argh... anyway, astro.com one is not bad though..... guess i just stereotyped everything together.
not looking forward to going back to start work. hate econs.
it's like the last week of june hols and i haven finished my revision yet!! oh man!! have a feeling i'm gonna do badly esp for econ... i just looked at the questions mrs loh compiled for us, and i was just thinking that if prelims and A levels are gonna give tt kind of questions, i am so gonna die.
i'm too tired to think or do work anymore. hmm... a little rain and less sun would do a WHOLE WORLD OF GOOD!!!! coz i hate hot weather. i loooooove rainy days... hot weather just makes me wanna sleep the day away, coz it's too hot to be able to do anything else!!! sian we were so close to a thunderstorm yesterday evening, but in the end, there was only very strong wind. -_-" and yes, my mood is still braindead- if u can see the picture.
i just saw my personal horoscope thing which i stupidly signed up for. i so regret it now, coz there was no insightful analysis to my character, but only some self-recommendations and self praise bout the pshychic person herself. now i'm worried if she'll do anything to me. not going to reply to her forms or send in any testimonials though. y the heck was i so stupid to do tt? argh... anyway, astro.com one is not bad though..... guess i just stereotyped everything together.
not looking forward to going back to start work. hate econs.
Thursday, June 17, 2004
| How to make a Yi Ling |
| Ingredients: 3 parts intelligence 1 part crazyiness 3 parts empathy |
| Method: Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Serve with a slice of sadness and a pinch of salt. Yum! |
Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com
Tuesday, June 15, 2004
i wonder if one should have expectation of wat one wants in a partner in life. some say tt if u have expectations, u are likely not to find someone u will be happy with. u will tend to compare him/her to the image u have in ur mind. the perfect guy/ girl. however, if u dun have any requirements, how do u know when u have met the right one? wat if u are never able to pinpoint y u feel there's something lacking in the relationship?
sometimes i feel i'm like christina rossetti. u know, always looking for the perfect person, and nvr being happy with wat i have... sometimes i really worry if i will ever find someone i feel completely happy with. after all, there isn something as a perfect person in the world. while they may appear perfect, and everything u could ever want in a person, this self-doubt sometimes crops up, like, "is this person for real? he/she is too good to be true!" or sometimes, tt person may conceal himself/herself so well that u are not even aware of anything until it's probably too late. maybe one would be aware of some undercurrents of inconsistency, but never be able to point exactly to wat it is.
maybe wat grace said is right. when a person is too perfect, u cannot trust him/her. they made themselves out to be perfect. in other words, manufactured. i admire frankness in a person, and i guess i would be disillusioned if someone i was interested in was acty wat he was not made out to be. i'd rather a person just was himself, showing his faults as well as his good points. well... wat's the point of hiding the truth? nothing lies under the carpet for long, coz there will be a spring cleaning one day, and all the dirt under the carpet or any other skeletons one might have in his/her closet will be taken out. no one is able to be such a great actor tt they are able to continuously act the same role their whole life 24/7. it's tiring. and one day, the inner self will threaten to burst out. wat happens then? nobody knows.
sometimes i feel i'm like christina rossetti. u know, always looking for the perfect person, and nvr being happy with wat i have... sometimes i really worry if i will ever find someone i feel completely happy with. after all, there isn something as a perfect person in the world. while they may appear perfect, and everything u could ever want in a person, this self-doubt sometimes crops up, like, "is this person for real? he/she is too good to be true!" or sometimes, tt person may conceal himself/herself so well that u are not even aware of anything until it's probably too late. maybe one would be aware of some undercurrents of inconsistency, but never be able to point exactly to wat it is.
maybe wat grace said is right. when a person is too perfect, u cannot trust him/her. they made themselves out to be perfect. in other words, manufactured. i admire frankness in a person, and i guess i would be disillusioned if someone i was interested in was acty wat he was not made out to be. i'd rather a person just was himself, showing his faults as well as his good points. well... wat's the point of hiding the truth? nothing lies under the carpet for long, coz there will be a spring cleaning one day, and all the dirt under the carpet or any other skeletons one might have in his/her closet will be taken out. no one is able to be such a great actor tt they are able to continuously act the same role their whole life 24/7. it's tiring. and one day, the inner self will threaten to burst out. wat happens then? nobody knows.
Sunday, June 13, 2004
i finally found a BEAUTIFUL blogskin!!! hahaa, this is so nice! i love it! hehe...
i hope u can see e pic though, coz it sometimes doesn appear...
been thinking i often give ppl the wrong impression tt i dun wish to mix with them i think... coz i can appear so cold sometimes- at least tt's wat i think... hmm... but the truth of it is, i'm just thinking of other things, or wateva i'm thinking of always like fully consumes my whole attention, so i dun seem to pay attention to wateva is happening around me. it happens ALL the time, i dunno why... it just happens, though i often try to show more enthusiasm when i'm in this kind of mood. i do try to give ppl my attention whenever they speak to me, but sometimes my subconscious takes over and i lapse into tt kind of.... dunno wat u call it.... so, sorry to whoever has felt like tt with me!!!!
anyway, i gtg do work, and likely submerge myself in tt kind of... mindset(?) again... cya!
oh yah, feel free to drop a few lines bout wateva u want on my chatterbox... PLEASE!!!!!!! it's so QUIET!!!!
i hope u can see e pic though, coz it sometimes doesn appear...
been thinking i often give ppl the wrong impression tt i dun wish to mix with them i think... coz i can appear so cold sometimes- at least tt's wat i think... hmm... but the truth of it is, i'm just thinking of other things, or wateva i'm thinking of always like fully consumes my whole attention, so i dun seem to pay attention to wateva is happening around me. it happens ALL the time, i dunno why... it just happens, though i often try to show more enthusiasm when i'm in this kind of mood. i do try to give ppl my attention whenever they speak to me, but sometimes my subconscious takes over and i lapse into tt kind of.... dunno wat u call it.... so, sorry to whoever has felt like tt with me!!!!
anyway, i gtg do work, and likely submerge myself in tt kind of... mindset(?) again... cya!
oh yah, feel free to drop a few lines bout wateva u want on my chatterbox... PLEASE!!!!!!! it's so QUIET!!!!
Thursday, June 10, 2004
been thinking of my blogging style, and i've been slowly coming to the realisation that my writing style is somewhat like one of my friends'. goodness! where's my originality?! where's each person's unique individuality?! i've been toying around with the idea of changing my tone, but in whichever way i come up with, i find tt it just sounds so much like her. well, there are exceptions, of course, like those when i was feeling really bad, u know, the ones on peke (hmm, even those sound so much like her)and, not forgetting, the one on the stupid doctor from grace polyclinic....
i tried going to blogskins just now to look for a new skin, but guess wat? i think many ppl are logging into it now, so it took a REALLY long time to get into the site alone. then, when i wanted to log in, there was another long wait. forget it. i shall bear with this skin first. know y i wanna change this? coz there's no way i can put my chatterbox up here! or rather, i dunno how to do it. i only can do it when the skin says, "place your tagboard here". pathetic, aren't i? oh well........
i will try not to sound melancholic in the future. i realise tt's the tone used in my friend's blog. yes. melancholic and wistful with a touch of added mystery. it's nice sometimes, but when one has read it a few times and finds tt it pervades every or most entries, the tone gets rather questionable. oh man. am i sounding condemning? damn... there isn any maliciousness involved... really! i oso think my blog has touches of this kind of melancholy and wistfulness to it tt kinda sounds like i'm writing an essay in primary sch. oh man....
better stop condemning writing styles. i'm going way off tangent, and i'm working myself into a frenzy. hahaha... anyway, i've taken a long enough break from my revision, so cya!
i tried going to blogskins just now to look for a new skin, but guess wat? i think many ppl are logging into it now, so it took a REALLY long time to get into the site alone. then, when i wanted to log in, there was another long wait. forget it. i shall bear with this skin first. know y i wanna change this? coz there's no way i can put my chatterbox up here! or rather, i dunno how to do it. i only can do it when the skin says, "place your tagboard here". pathetic, aren't i? oh well........
i will try not to sound melancholic in the future. i realise tt's the tone used in my friend's blog. yes. melancholic and wistful with a touch of added mystery. it's nice sometimes, but when one has read it a few times and finds tt it pervades every or most entries, the tone gets rather questionable. oh man. am i sounding condemning? damn... there isn any maliciousness involved... really! i oso think my blog has touches of this kind of melancholy and wistfulness to it tt kinda sounds like i'm writing an essay in primary sch. oh man....
better stop condemning writing styles. i'm going way off tangent, and i'm working myself into a frenzy. hahaha... anyway, i've taken a long enough break from my revision, so cya!
Sunday, June 06, 2004
so sian.. back from a bout of giddiness which had something to do with liquid in my middle ear, making my ears ring and affecting my sense of balance... oh man.. i can't even begin to tell u how HORRIBLE it was... it was like being seasick, only this time, i was unable to keep anything inside my stomach. anthing that went in came back.. i was so hungry! and everytime i turned, the world turned along with me. argh! do u know wat tt meant? tt meant giving up watching Harry Potter 3: The Prisoner of Azkaban. we had booked the tickets somemore!!! then i just had to give up my tickets to yi lun's friend. ARGH!!
come to think of it, it's quite funny... one day i woke up feeling fine and dandy, the next dyai woke up feeling like my world was upside down. goodness! it's like tt A*teens song, Upside Down- "Upside Down, bouncing on the ceiling, inside out, stranger to this feeling". tt feeling was a stranger all right...
-_-"
thank god after a jab my world righted itself, and now i'm OK!!!! YAY! and i finally can catch up on my work. coz of this bout of dizziness i almost couldn make it for the SATs, and i missed quite a lot of catching up with my work. Thanks alot to grace for helping me to collect my work! u're a saviour man! =)
anyway, i'm just so thankful that my world is back where it belongs now, tt i feel quite energetic! hahaa.... i'm serious u know... for the first time, i didn sleep in the afternoon... how great is tt? =) hehe... anyway, i gtg already... bye!
come to think of it, it's quite funny... one day i woke up feeling fine and dandy, the next dyai woke up feeling like my world was upside down. goodness! it's like tt A*teens song, Upside Down- "Upside Down, bouncing on the ceiling, inside out, stranger to this feeling". tt feeling was a stranger all right...
-_-"
thank god after a jab my world righted itself, and now i'm OK!!!! YAY! and i finally can catch up on my work. coz of this bout of dizziness i almost couldn make it for the SATs, and i missed quite a lot of catching up with my work. Thanks alot to grace for helping me to collect my work! u're a saviour man! =)
anyway, i'm just so thankful that my world is back where it belongs now, tt i feel quite energetic! hahaa.... i'm serious u know... for the first time, i didn sleep in the afternoon... how great is tt? =) hehe... anyway, i gtg already... bye!
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