"You aren't going to be his 1st, his last, or his only... he’s loved before; he will love again. But if he loves you now, what else matters? He’s not perfect - you’re not either. If he can make you laugh and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold on to him and give him the most you can. He’s not going to be thinking about you every moment of the day, but he will give you a part of him that he knows YOU can break - his heart. So don’t hurt him, don’t change him, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than he can give. Smile when he makes you happy, let him know when he makes you mad and miss him when he’s not there. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always ONE guy that is perfect for you."
I think this quote's pretty sweet. What are your thoughts on it? Share! =)
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Family
The room at home feels so empty now. No more turning to Yi Lun when I have some random thought in my head, nobody to talk to when I just want to talk, nobody to talk to me when I just woke up from a nightmare. Seriously, you really don't know how much a part of your life someone is until he or she has left. I mean, I knew how much Yi Lun was a part of my life the first time she went over to UK, I just thought I'd gotten used to it. But you don't get used to loneliness, actually. Not when you've had close to 20 years of companionship. Like I said to Yi Lun yesterday, "9 months versus 20 years leh!" It's true, 9 months cannot possibly erase the memories or comfort brought to you by someone who's been there for 20 years.
I think family's a very important part of my life; everytime I've been stressed or upset, they've been there for me to make life just that little bit easier for me to live. I give them lots of grief during this period, but they don't give me back the same grief when my stress period has passed. And I think that's what's wonderful about my family- they are always there for me. They may not know exactly what I'm stressed about, but they still stand by me. True, they nag, and I do get irritated with them, and feel a bit sian to tell them, but I know that they want the best for me. They don't always tell me things I like to hear, and though those are not easy things to hear, and they make me irritated, they are family, and therefore, those supposed irritating things are not meant to harm me. I know all these, but sometimes, it's just hard to separate knowing and feeling. But at the end of the day, I'm really glad I have them.
I really miss Evon and Yi Lun. Singapore's boring without them. Of course, I have Kok Yong, and my friends, which makes things so much better. But again, 9 months vs 20 years- the habit's hard to break.
Oh well, life still has to go on, and this is an investment for the future. Time will pass very fast, and soon December will come when I can see Evon, and I'll see Yi Lun in June! =)
I think family's a very important part of my life; everytime I've been stressed or upset, they've been there for me to make life just that little bit easier for me to live. I give them lots of grief during this period, but they don't give me back the same grief when my stress period has passed. And I think that's what's wonderful about my family- they are always there for me. They may not know exactly what I'm stressed about, but they still stand by me. True, they nag, and I do get irritated with them, and feel a bit sian to tell them, but I know that they want the best for me. They don't always tell me things I like to hear, and though those are not easy things to hear, and they make me irritated, they are family, and therefore, those supposed irritating things are not meant to harm me. I know all these, but sometimes, it's just hard to separate knowing and feeling. But at the end of the day, I'm really glad I have them.
I really miss Evon and Yi Lun. Singapore's boring without them. Of course, I have Kok Yong, and my friends, which makes things so much better. But again, 9 months vs 20 years- the habit's hard to break.
Oh well, life still has to go on, and this is an investment for the future. Time will pass very fast, and soon December will come when I can see Evon, and I'll see Yi Lun in June! =)
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Approaching Equilibrium
As my body slowly approaches equilibrium, I think my mind should start to do the same thing too. There's no more time left.
I have to focus. I cannot screw this sem up.
I have to focus. I cannot screw this sem up.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Lizards
Bloody FREAKING hell.
There was a lizard strolling on my table in hall just now! OMG. I was happily typing an email to Prof Chang regarding my mid-term essay, when I spotted something crawling around behind my laptop. Curious me looked at the thing, thinking it might be some loose paper flapping around, but noooooo it just had to be a fat, dark coloured lizard leisurely exploring my table.
I really wanted to scream at that point in time, or do something hugely dramatic to get someone's attention. But dignity and decorum won out, since there's nobody around to help me, and any sudden action might get the lizard to change course or shoot in a direction that's disadvantageous to me. So I got out of my seat as quickly and quietly as I could, all the while trying to stifle a shriek of hysteria that was gathering in my body.
As I stared at the lizard, it still happily walked around my table! OMG. It was crawling up the wall of my table towards the light, when it decided to switch course. DAMMIT! I so hoped it wouldn't move towards me. It didn't, and I guess I should thank my lucky stars for that. BUT it crawled into my file!!!!! OH MAN I SHALL NEVER LOOK AT THAT FILE IN THE SAME WAY AGAIN.
And I came back to hall with the purpose of sleeping. With the rogue lizard on the loose, how to sleep?!!!?!?! I guess I'll have to adopt the out of sight, out of mind mentality and just go to sleep.
Oh man!!!!!!!!!!
Hehe and I called Yi Lun and was hysterical with her. Poor girl couldn't do anything but just listen to me. Well I wanted someone to listen only, anyway. Nobody can help me this time except myself... Haha I just wanted an outlet to be hysterical to, so... thanks lun! Hong Hui was also one of the accidental victims of my hysteria. Haha... She called me to ask me some CGC stuff, and I told her about the lizard, coz the thumbdrive which I was supposed to check for her was near my laptop which was near the lizard. Sheesh. But I got the thumb drive! And checked the info for her! Yay me!
Ok I think I'm still suffering from the aftereffects of trauma. I'm going to sleep now.
There was a lizard strolling on my table in hall just now! OMG. I was happily typing an email to Prof Chang regarding my mid-term essay, when I spotted something crawling around behind my laptop. Curious me looked at the thing, thinking it might be some loose paper flapping around, but noooooo it just had to be a fat, dark coloured lizard leisurely exploring my table.
I really wanted to scream at that point in time, or do something hugely dramatic to get someone's attention. But dignity and decorum won out, since there's nobody around to help me, and any sudden action might get the lizard to change course or shoot in a direction that's disadvantageous to me. So I got out of my seat as quickly and quietly as I could, all the while trying to stifle a shriek of hysteria that was gathering in my body.
As I stared at the lizard, it still happily walked around my table! OMG. It was crawling up the wall of my table towards the light, when it decided to switch course. DAMMIT! I so hoped it wouldn't move towards me. It didn't, and I guess I should thank my lucky stars for that. BUT it crawled into my file!!!!! OH MAN I SHALL NEVER LOOK AT THAT FILE IN THE SAME WAY AGAIN.
And I came back to hall with the purpose of sleeping. With the rogue lizard on the loose, how to sleep?!!!?!?! I guess I'll have to adopt the out of sight, out of mind mentality and just go to sleep.
Oh man!!!!!!!!!!
Hehe and I called Yi Lun and was hysterical with her. Poor girl couldn't do anything but just listen to me. Well I wanted someone to listen only, anyway. Nobody can help me this time except myself... Haha I just wanted an outlet to be hysterical to, so... thanks lun! Hong Hui was also one of the accidental victims of my hysteria. Haha... She called me to ask me some CGC stuff, and I told her about the lizard, coz the thumbdrive which I was supposed to check for her was near my laptop which was near the lizard. Sheesh. But I got the thumb drive! And checked the info for her! Yay me!
Ok I think I'm still suffering from the aftereffects of trauma. I'm going to sleep now.
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Delusions of Persecution
I think there's a diabolical plan by the pharmaceutical company to kill me slowly.
First, they make sure I have to eat their drugs to keep my asthma under control.
Then, they make me take an overdose of the medicine. This made me hungry during class. They want to make me fat and die of heart attack or some other weight-related diseases!
Next, they just have to use those hard shiny plastic/metal capsule holders to hold the tablets, making me cut my fingers. So far I've cut 2 fingers in 2 days. Look!
Here's a close up of my poor fingers:
Goodness knows what else will happen. This morning was cutting my third finger, yesterday was cutting my index finger and overdosing. The day's only half gone.
Oh and did I tell you? the cough syrup's making me sleep and sleep. I'm going to get all fat and chubby soon. Not to mention crippled, if my back doesn't heal. -_-"
So, see? Isn't this a conspiracy theory to kill me slowly? I must say, the pharmaceutical companies are really creative. Mutilation and drugging. Wonder what's next?
Hehe did I scare you? Don't worry lar, this post was just for fun, though it's certainly true the above have occurred. Not to worry though, I'm not thinking all this is a conspiracy. I was just careless, and I think my stars are not aligned in the right way these days.... =S So please bear with me if I sound out of breath over the phone or not feel like talking online or over the phone k or keep coughing while talking to you k? *Yawn*... I so want to sleep again....
First, they make sure I have to eat their drugs to keep my asthma under control.
Then, they make me take an overdose of the medicine. This made me hungry during class. They want to make me fat and die of heart attack or some other weight-related diseases!
Next, they just have to use those hard shiny plastic/metal capsule holders to hold the tablets, making me cut my fingers. So far I've cut 2 fingers in 2 days. Look!
Here's a close up of my poor fingers:
Goodness knows what else will happen. This morning was cutting my third finger, yesterday was cutting my index finger and overdosing. The day's only half gone.
Oh and did I tell you? the cough syrup's making me sleep and sleep. I'm going to get all fat and chubby soon. Not to mention crippled, if my back doesn't heal. -_-"
So, see? Isn't this a conspiracy theory to kill me slowly? I must say, the pharmaceutical companies are really creative. Mutilation and drugging. Wonder what's next?
Hehe did I scare you? Don't worry lar, this post was just for fun, though it's certainly true the above have occurred. Not to worry though, I'm not thinking all this is a conspiracy. I was just careless, and I think my stars are not aligned in the right way these days.... =S So please bear with me if I sound out of breath over the phone or not feel like talking online or over the phone k or keep coughing while talking to you k? *Yawn*... I so want to sleep again....
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