ok, end of olympics=start of mugging
YAH RITE. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I SAID I HAVE TO STUDY? dun even bother counting. u're just gonna lose count.
first time i stayed up to watch the women's vball finals... it was exciting, but SOOOO irritating and LONG. can u believe the first set was 30-28? i was lying on the sofa, half awake, thinking, "enough alreadY! can't someone jkust win this set?" well, russia won the set. and the next. but china took the next 3 sets. YIPPEEE!!! hahah... china finished 5th 4 yrs ago. they are good, and they really pia their hearts out... oh btw, the match was at 1... and tt one set took about an hour... ended up giving up watching it halfway and gg off to slp at 3 soemthing. the game was only into its third set. -_-" i was there drifting in and out of sleep. hahaha... dunno hwo my sis can find the energy to finish watching the game... even the men's one the next day, which was at 12.... goodness.... i guess coz its brazil playing... she loves brazil, says they play like kampong kias... hahaha... sorta liek the way they play soccer... born naturals... =)
watching the olympics makes me wish i was born with some spectacular sports talent.... like superhuman stamina or somehting.... but then, there's a downside to this, coz sports is a cruel side of life. yep, winning is cool, but losing... well, its damn painful. i watched the handball finals on sunday, denmark vs korea. well, i dun really understand handball, but i can sure understand the feelings of the players... the game was tied at 34-34, and to solve the prob, there was the penalty shootout. korea lost when the danish goalkeeper managed to save 2 goals. i nvr expected such a rush of emotion as i watched the players explode at the end of the game. the koreans were huddled together crying, while the danish were piled on top of one another in a group hug (kinda weird if u ask me...) and were kissing each other. they were doing funny things, like rolling around on the floor... hmm... but well, there rose in me rather conflicting emotions: overwhelming happiness for the winners, a sense of pain and loss for the losers. its like, they've come so far, played so hard, and they lost. its sorta like bringing up a person to the heavens then bringing them crashing down to earth just when they believed they could reach their destinations.
well, tts a side of sports i guess, showing the realities of life, like giving us an awareness that life is not always smooth-sailing. even a world no1 like lin dan could lose to susilo. but still, though tts the truth bout sports, and it still attracts ppl, its still painful and cruel. so wat if a team had trained hard? everything falls apart when the team is off-form, or when luck is not on their side. at tt time, who cares how much effort they had put in before?
haha... sounds rather negative eh? well.... *shrugs* this entry might spark off some aruments i guess, but it'll do my chatterbox some good to have some lively arguments there... haha... guess my argument is pretty one-sided... i'd love to hear the other side of this argument, if anyone has it.... haha... it might come out for gp u know, like mebbe ' "entertaining but absolutely of zero content". discuss this view of sports. ' hahah... then we can pull out this argumen.... hahaha.... all thanks to me!!!
haha... i tend to get carried away... dun mind me.... well, it just occurred to me this has been the longest entry since.... dunno when... hahaha.... k, my eyes are drifting shut. gtg. CIAO! hahah...
Saturday, August 28, 2004
i need to get my life back and find my balance once again... hehe, feel like i'm like "a man sliding into dark waters seeks to find a momentary footing on the slippery stones", just struggling to find my balance before i fall. tt balance has been lost since the common test. guess i was getting too complacent...
oh well, i think i have to remain a recluse in order to find my balance again. school is taking up too much time... haha... bet commando was plotting to make me come to school everyday.... plan the timetable until there is no day i can skip. haha...
i just realised tt i get emotionally claustrophobic. my heart gets all itchy and i turn hot, then cold, and irritable. i lost concentration in everything i do, and i guess tt's how i lost my balance. never knew tt bout myself until recently. hmm... must be the exams.... argh...
ok, i gtg get ready to go back to sch.... got so many qns to ask mrs neo.... hai...... where is my A????
oh well, i think i have to remain a recluse in order to find my balance again. school is taking up too much time... haha... bet commando was plotting to make me come to school everyday.... plan the timetable until there is no day i can skip. haha...
i just realised tt i get emotionally claustrophobic. my heart gets all itchy and i turn hot, then cold, and irritable. i lost concentration in everything i do, and i guess tt's how i lost my balance. never knew tt bout myself until recently. hmm... must be the exams.... argh...
ok, i gtg get ready to go back to sch.... got so many qns to ask mrs neo.... hai...... where is my A????
Saturday, August 21, 2004
AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW SHITES!!!!! li jiawei lost!!! *sob sob* it was such a painful match to watch!
when i turned on the tv, the score was 3-3, and both sides had drawn, with 3games to 3 games. the seventh game was the rubber set, meant to decide who would advance to the next round.... it was like, 3-3, then 4-3, then 4-4... all the way to 9-8 in favour of jiawei, then kim hyang mi caught up. -_-" it was SOOO sad to watch i tell u... even as a tv spectator dunno how many thousand miles away from athens, i was rather overcome by emotion, and could acty feel the tension li jiawei mus have been feeling at that time... i bet its hell to be brought up so high, and led to believe she was capable of doing so much, then suddenly losing it by such a small margin. tt's y its so painful... i imagines it being me, and i almost cried... hee... call me a sentimental emotional fool, but.... well, there u are.... =)
anyway, li jiawei did put up a good fight. she tried her best... guess we just have to wait for the next olympics, where mebbe s'pore will have better luck... this is just like 4 yrs ago, when most of s'pore tuned in to watch jing junhong play in the semis... we still lost, but by a larger margin. this time, we were so near, yet so far.... *sighs heavily*
nvm, we still have robotics competitions and math olympiads to look forward to for our gold medals...... =)
when i turned on the tv, the score was 3-3, and both sides had drawn, with 3games to 3 games. the seventh game was the rubber set, meant to decide who would advance to the next round.... it was like, 3-3, then 4-3, then 4-4... all the way to 9-8 in favour of jiawei, then kim hyang mi caught up. -_-" it was SOOO sad to watch i tell u... even as a tv spectator dunno how many thousand miles away from athens, i was rather overcome by emotion, and could acty feel the tension li jiawei mus have been feeling at that time... i bet its hell to be brought up so high, and led to believe she was capable of doing so much, then suddenly losing it by such a small margin. tt's y its so painful... i imagines it being me, and i almost cried... hee... call me a sentimental emotional fool, but.... well, there u are.... =)
anyway, li jiawei did put up a good fight. she tried her best... guess we just have to wait for the next olympics, where mebbe s'pore will have better luck... this is just like 4 yrs ago, when most of s'pore tuned in to watch jing junhong play in the semis... we still lost, but by a larger margin. this time, we were so near, yet so far.... *sighs heavily*
nvm, we still have robotics competitions and math olympiads to look forward to for our gold medals...... =)
hey.... just heard yesterday morning tt li jiawei won the quarter-finals and is on her way to the semis, playing against tt korean girl zhang xueling lost to... hehe... to be honest, i nvr really believed she would beat wang nan- after all, wang nan had beaten jing junhong 4 yrs ago in the semis, and jing is a more experienced player... *shrugs* oh well, its great news after all! =) it was an upset all rite... 4-1... oh man.... cool! =)
haha... hopefully Singapore will earn a place on the medal tally board... even a bronze is good... =)
haha... hopefully Singapore will earn a place on the medal tally board... even a bronze is good... =)
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
CRAP. got a bleedin' headache now, which is SOOOO at the wrong time, just when i need my brainpower to do the Silas Marner essay. its fun acty, but NOT fun when i have to do it with a headache and a non-working paracetamol. argh.... the damn thing is pounding away merrily now, while i figure out how to phrase my sentences to form a coherent argument so as to pose a challenge for the rip-the-essay event tml... haha.... well... let's just hope the essay is relevant, and the arguments made are strong and not too unfocused, as is always my problem in essays. so far, i have managed to reach the second page, but i'm not halfway through. the min requirement for an essay? 4 sides. GREAT.
so wat the hell am i doing here, u might ask? haha, i have no idea myself, perhaps to take a li'l break? hehe, i have like until 12 midnight to complete this essay... cos at 12, cuba is gonna play against china in the vball event... haha, this should be an interesting match... =) if the headache persists, mebbe it wuld be time to take stronger action... hai... ponstan.... though i have to wait 3 hours for the thing to take the capsule, coz i just took paracetamol... haha.... perhaps i should try to find something enjoyable bout the pain? sort of like, if i can't beat the pain, i gotta join them kinda thing? hahah... sounds sadistic? well.. i've found it works sometimes... hahaha... just like eating chilli, i found tt a way to not let the chilli get to u is to just sit still, and just concentrate on the sensation of the chilli on ur lips and tongue. haha... must concentrate fully, otherwise it gets a mite unbearable... hehe... when u really concentrate, the feeling becomes kinda interesting... ahaha..... somewhat better than drinking water i feel... water makes it worse somehow... =)
so sad bout susilo's match rite? the last 2 matches brought him to the heavens, then this brought him crashing back down to earth. the last set was a real disappointment. he nvr seemed to be able to hold on to his service... hai.... feel badminton is a cruel game. tough on the body and the mind... like beach vb acty... hmm..... he was so close to the semis, but now.....
oh well... though singapore has had no gold medals in sports, at least we have plenty of gold medals in the areas of robotics and maths olympiads... haha.... guess we know where our comparative advantage lies now, eh? =)
so wat the hell am i doing here, u might ask? haha, i have no idea myself, perhaps to take a li'l break? hehe, i have like until 12 midnight to complete this essay... cos at 12, cuba is gonna play against china in the vball event... haha, this should be an interesting match... =) if the headache persists, mebbe it wuld be time to take stronger action... hai... ponstan.... though i have to wait 3 hours for the thing to take the capsule, coz i just took paracetamol... haha.... perhaps i should try to find something enjoyable bout the pain? sort of like, if i can't beat the pain, i gotta join them kinda thing? hahah... sounds sadistic? well.. i've found it works sometimes... hahaha... just like eating chilli, i found tt a way to not let the chilli get to u is to just sit still, and just concentrate on the sensation of the chilli on ur lips and tongue. haha... must concentrate fully, otherwise it gets a mite unbearable... hehe... when u really concentrate, the feeling becomes kinda interesting... ahaha..... somewhat better than drinking water i feel... water makes it worse somehow... =)
so sad bout susilo's match rite? the last 2 matches brought him to the heavens, then this brought him crashing back down to earth. the last set was a real disappointment. he nvr seemed to be able to hold on to his service... hai.... feel badminton is a cruel game. tough on the body and the mind... like beach vb acty... hmm..... he was so close to the semis, but now.....
oh well... though singapore has had no gold medals in sports, at least we have plenty of gold medals in the areas of robotics and maths olympiads... haha.... guess we know where our comparative advantage lies now, eh? =)
CRAP. got a bleedin' headache now, which is SOOOO at the wrong time, just when i need my brainpower to do the Silas Marner essay. its fun acty, but NOT fun when i have to do it with a headache and a non-working paracetamol. argh.... the damn thing is pounding away merrily now, while i figure out how to phrase my sentences to form a coherent argument so as to pose a challenge for the rip-the-essay event tml... haha.... well... let's just hope the essay is relevant, and the arguments made are strong and not too unfocused, as is always my problem in essays. so far, i have managed to reach the second page, but i'm not halfway through. the min requirement for an essay? 4 sides. GREAT.
so wat the hell am i doing here, u might ask? haha, i have no idea myself, perhaps to take a li'l break? hehe, i have like until 12 midnight to complete this essay... cos at 12, cuba is gonna play against china in the vball event... haha, this should be an interesting match... =) if the headache persists, mebbe it wuld be time to take stronger action... hai... ponstan.... though i have to wait 3 hours for the thing to take the capsule, coz i just took paracetamol... haha.... perhaps i should try to find something enjoyable bout the pain? sort of like, if i can't beat the pain, i gotta join them kinda thing? hahah... sounds sadistic? well.. i've found it works sometimes... hahaha... just like eating chilli, i found tt a way to not let the chilli get to u is to just sit still, and just concentrate on the sensation of the chilli on ur lips and tongue. haha... must concentrate fully, otherwise it gets a mite unbearable... hehe... when u really concentrate, the feeling becomes kinda interesting... ahaha..... somewhat better than drinking water i feel... water makes it worse somehow... =)
so sad bout susilo's match rite? the last 2 matches brought him to the heavens, then this brought him crashing back down to earth. the last set was a real disappointment. he nvr seemed to be able to hold on to his service... hai.... feel badminton is a cruel game. tough on the body and the mind... like beach vb acty... hmm..... he was so close to the semis, but now.....
oh well... though singapore has had no gold medals in sports, at least we have plenty of gold medals in the areas of robotics and maths olympiads... haha.... guess we know where our comparative advantage lies now, eh? =)
so wat the hell am i doing here, u might ask? haha, i have no idea myself, perhaps to take a li'l break? hehe, i have like until 12 midnight to complete this essay... cos at 12, cuba is gonna play against china in the vball event... haha, this should be an interesting match... =) if the headache persists, mebbe it wuld be time to take stronger action... hai... ponstan.... though i have to wait 3 hours for the thing to take the capsule, coz i just took paracetamol... haha.... perhaps i should try to find something enjoyable bout the pain? sort of like, if i can't beat the pain, i gotta join them kinda thing? hahah... sounds sadistic? well.. i've found it works sometimes... hahaha... just like eating chilli, i found tt a way to not let the chilli get to u is to just sit still, and just concentrate on the sensation of the chilli on ur lips and tongue. haha... must concentrate fully, otherwise it gets a mite unbearable... hehe... when u really concentrate, the feeling becomes kinda interesting... ahaha..... somewhat better than drinking water i feel... water makes it worse somehow... =)
so sad bout susilo's match rite? the last 2 matches brought him to the heavens, then this brought him crashing back down to earth. the last set was a real disappointment. he nvr seemed to be able to hold on to his service... hai.... feel badminton is a cruel game. tough on the body and the mind... like beach vb acty... hmm..... he was so close to the semis, but now.....
oh well... though singapore has had no gold medals in sports, at least we have plenty of gold medals in the areas of robotics and maths olympiads... haha.... guess we know where our comparative advantage lies now, eh? =)
Sunday, August 15, 2004
haha.... we got a new puppy!!!! he's a miniature shnauzer, 7 weeks old... he's salt and pepper, though mostly black than grey... and he's sooooo adorable!!!! he's the total opposite of peke though, who was mostly barkative. this new puppy is so quiet!!!
err... we haven found a name for him yet.. haha... we called him Thumper at first, but now papa and mummy say tt name sounds better on a bigger dog, so... *shrugs* we are now considering calling him shnauzee.... hahaha... cute rite?
hehe, i haven managed to take photo of him yet.. will try to soon.... =)
err... we haven found a name for him yet.. haha... we called him Thumper at first, but now papa and mummy say tt name sounds better on a bigger dog, so... *shrugs* we are now considering calling him shnauzee.... hahaha... cute rite?
hehe, i haven managed to take photo of him yet.. will try to soon.... =)
Saturday, August 14, 2004
"Where Is The Love"
If ever a boy stood on the moon
All the heavens would call them angels 'round
Stop the tears from troubled sky's....from
Falling...falling...falling.
If ever the river could whisper your name,
Would the choices you made still be the same?
Like a flower that dies from angry rain,
Why do we hurt ourselves?
Where is the love that lets the sunlight in to start again?
The love that sees no color lines?
Life begins with love,
So spread your wings & fly,
Guide your spirit safe & sheltered,
A thousand dreams that we can still believe.
If ever a boy stood on the moon,
Carrying all of his treasures from the stars
To a rainbow which leads to where we are.
Together we'd chase the sun.
Where is the love that lifts my brother's voice to the skies?
The love that answers a mother's cry?
Life begins with love,
So spread your wings & fly,
Guide your spirit safe & sheltered.
A thousand dreams that we can still believe.
A boy stood on the moon
The ancient souls can still discover
A thousand dreams that we can still believe
That we can still believe
We can still believe
We can still believe
-------- Celine Dion
it's a beautiful song... jsut realised i had this song in one of her albums... just fell in love with the song... haha... then again, all of celine dion's songs are nice *shrugs* her voice is GREAT.... i wonder if they still sell her greatest hits album, though there should be more songs added to her list by now since she came into the music world again.... =) go dl it or something!!!
anyone know where i can get the html codes for this song?
If ever a boy stood on the moon
All the heavens would call them angels 'round
Stop the tears from troubled sky's....from
Falling...falling...falling.
If ever the river could whisper your name,
Would the choices you made still be the same?
Like a flower that dies from angry rain,
Why do we hurt ourselves?
Where is the love that lets the sunlight in to start again?
The love that sees no color lines?
Life begins with love,
So spread your wings & fly,
Guide your spirit safe & sheltered,
A thousand dreams that we can still believe.
If ever a boy stood on the moon,
Carrying all of his treasures from the stars
To a rainbow which leads to where we are.
Together we'd chase the sun.
Where is the love that lifts my brother's voice to the skies?
The love that answers a mother's cry?
Life begins with love,
So spread your wings & fly,
Guide your spirit safe & sheltered.
A thousand dreams that we can still believe.
A boy stood on the moon
The ancient souls can still discover
A thousand dreams that we can still believe
That we can still believe
We can still believe
We can still believe
-------- Celine Dion
it's a beautiful song... jsut realised i had this song in one of her albums... just fell in love with the song... haha... then again, all of celine dion's songs are nice *shrugs* her voice is GREAT.... i wonder if they still sell her greatest hits album, though there should be more songs added to her list by now since she came into the music world again.... =) go dl it or something!!!
anyone know where i can get the html codes for this song?
Friday, August 13, 2004
just tried to upload my photos into the computer... unfortunately, i cannot... dunno wat's wrong with the software... argh.... i would like to ask kenny kor kor, but well... dun think he's in the mood to do so anyway... hai... =(
feeling so.... so... *yawns* sleeeeeeepyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.... i did sleep just now, but well... eyes are still tired.. wonder y... hai...
ok, nth else to say, just tt the weekend is here!!! and i bought 8 days! so i have the olympics schedule!!! yay!! but then, the games i wanna watch are all either in the wee hours in the morning, or when i'm in sch... -_-" i wish i could stay at home on wed to watch the cuba vs russia volleyball match, but cannot!!! tt would mean an MC!!! but then again, i haven taken any mc this term... mebbe its time i took one... *wiggles eyebrows* hahaha... just a thot... but not likely tt i'd do it... MAN!!! cuba vs russia!! how exciting is tt?!?!?! *Moans* i wan to watchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... .
hahah... better stop acting childish... ok, gg to tok to my sisters... haha.. bye!! =)
feeling so.... so... *yawns* sleeeeeeepyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.... i did sleep just now, but well... eyes are still tired.. wonder y... hai...
ok, nth else to say, just tt the weekend is here!!! and i bought 8 days! so i have the olympics schedule!!! yay!! but then, the games i wanna watch are all either in the wee hours in the morning, or when i'm in sch... -_-" i wish i could stay at home on wed to watch the cuba vs russia volleyball match, but cannot!!! tt would mean an MC!!! but then again, i haven taken any mc this term... mebbe its time i took one... *wiggles eyebrows* hahaha... just a thot... but not likely tt i'd do it... MAN!!! cuba vs russia!! how exciting is tt?!?!?! *Moans* i wan to watchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... .
hahah... better stop acting childish... ok, gg to tok to my sisters... haha.. bye!! =)
Wednesday, August 11, 2004
went to school in a daze today... seriously, my brain was barely functioning at all. it was as if the thing was just stuffed full of cotton wool and air... hehe... sounds like i'm exaggerating? believe me, i'm not. been feeling like tt often... esp this yr, particularly for lit... it's like, i feel i have no more to give to lit anymore. zilch [u hear tt squashing sound when u say "zilch"? cool eh? =)]. i just feel drained of any sensible emotion anymore. hehe... yep, its true... melodramatic? perhaps. but i just cant seem to find the emotion nor the words to express wat i feel for the texts anymore. i think i just need rest, though tt sounds rather moronic, since we all just came back from 4 days of national day. hahaha.... big joke, i did not do any work... hehe... was bz playing and tokking to laura (oh, i had a great time btw, so Laura, DUN U DARE TO SAY SORRY. YOU WILL NOT BE FORGIVEN) and tricking alvin and alan... hee.... =) ironic ain't it? tt i didn do anything productive, and yet feel drained? sickening if u ask me...
i wanna pon school!!!!! i need time at home to study!!!! seriously, i'm desperate for ponning sch, just tt the thot tt i'm gonna have to go get mc and wait so long and then next day borrow notes from another poor soul who oso needs it for her work, and then bring home to copy....... it's so tedious, i might as well drag up my lazy and getting fatter body out of my nice, comfy warm bed and begin the preparation for sch. on lucky days, i get to board 21 and wun have to walk so much. on unlucky days... well.... have to take 18... argh... i dun like to walk... ehehe.... then again, i'm lazy... =p
anyway, on to more lighthearted things.... did u know tt the lemon tree guy was from dhs?!!??!? i didn know either... hehe, until i read XY's blog.. will have to find out his name soon though... hehe... =)
oh yah, more lighthearted stuff!! FRIDAY is COMING!!!!! hahaha.... FINALLY...
oh well... its getting late... let's hope tml wun be such a dazy day for me.... i'm crossing my fingers.... pray hard for me k? =)
i wanna pon school!!!!! i need time at home to study!!!! seriously, i'm desperate for ponning sch, just tt the thot tt i'm gonna have to go get mc and wait so long and then next day borrow notes from another poor soul who oso needs it for her work, and then bring home to copy....... it's so tedious, i might as well drag up my lazy and getting fatter body out of my nice, comfy warm bed and begin the preparation for sch. on lucky days, i get to board 21 and wun have to walk so much. on unlucky days... well.... have to take 18... argh... i dun like to walk... ehehe.... then again, i'm lazy... =p
anyway, on to more lighthearted things.... did u know tt the lemon tree guy was from dhs?!!??!? i didn know either... hehe, until i read XY's blog.. will have to find out his name soon though... hehe... =)
oh yah, more lighthearted stuff!! FRIDAY is COMING!!!!! hahaha.... FINALLY...
oh well... its getting late... let's hope tml wun be such a dazy day for me.... i'm crossing my fingers.... pray hard for me k? =)
Monday, August 09, 2004
haha.... yesterday was a greeeat day! it started out fine... then we went to hougang sports hall to watch the match tt mel told me was made up of 'Iron Ladies'. unfortunately, we went too late. we weren't even in time to watch the players shake hands *shakes head*. haha... anyway, we were in time to watch the Police Academy vs the Singapore Combined Schools. the Police Academy guys were good! the Combined Schools.... well..... they didn really live up to our expectations... after all, they are supposed to be the best from their schools, and probably the future national team players... hmm... but there was an age difference between the two teams though... and fitness i guess. hehe... =) i guess the oldest in the COmbined Schools was our age? the POlice Academy, however, have been released from NS (hmm.. am i rite?). isnt the age difference a factor in this? the match got better as the players got in to the second and third sets. i think the combined schools team sent in their second six for the first set... they were thrashed k.... 25-5... the other 2 sets were better, though they lost as well... 25-25, 25-21 i think... i must say though, the combined schools did their best... =) it was an exciting match altogether... =)
after that was FUN!!!!! we all (Laura, evon, yi lun and me) went to meet alvin at marina bay to buy present for bernice jiejie... her 21st bday is coming, and her bf wanted to do something sweet for her by contacting laura and asking her to collect the presents from the other cousins, which he would mail to her in NZ... Awwwwwwww.... haha.. .we decided to get her a kite, thanx to TC's idea of a kite representing freedom, and we ended up spending $25... for a kite!! hahaha.. we nvr expected a kite to cost tt much! too bad alan was having the flu, otherwise all the cousins (well, almost all) would have had a great time together! the kite we bought came with a packet of 10 mini-kites, which we tried to fly altogether in the field... hahaha... in the end, we ended up flying only two, on separate strings, coz we werent able to make them fly... -_-" it was fun though, everyone running like mad just trying to get the kites to get up. goodness! we couldn even match up to a little boy flying a kite! argh... hahaha... guess our kites were just too small... nevertheless, we all had the time of our lives!!!!
we wanted to take a photo altogether, but unfortunately there was no one we could ask. since alvin had already taken a photo with alan, he took a pic for the 4 of us... hahaha... we went mad though in one of the photos, posing like mao zedong. hehe... will try to post it up... if i can... =) we should take a whole group photo!!!
i seriously can't wait for Nov to come... yah yah... i know... there's the dreaded A levels, but then, ALL the cousins are coming! well... mebbe not all, coz penny, linda and george are not coming, but well, the rest are!!! we MUST take photos together!!!! Nan2 de2 yi1 ci4 we get to get together... come to think of it, we have NEVER got together like tt... i have only just talked to kenette last year, can u believe it, when i've known bout his existence for all my life... *shakes head* we only got reacquainted last yr. pathetic aint it? blame it on the geographicval distance... can't wait to see lynette jie jie!!!!! hahaha... she's a v fun person to be around!! mad mad one... hehe... wish kenette could bring his gf though.. i wanna see her!!!
can u imagine the fun we'll have?!?!?!?!? hopefully they'll stay until after my As, then we can all go tour Singapore together... then after tt we go back malaysia together... hehe... book the budget airlines and all of us get in.. it'll be like our private airline!!! hahahahahahah.... COOL!!! now, if only As didn end so late...........
anyway, if i wanna enjoy myself freely when they come, i better go continue my work. otherwise, there will be a dampener on my mood when i go out with them and keep thinking of how i did for my paper or if i've finished my revision....
ah xiang korkor's wedding is on 20th nov mah..... right smack in the middle of my exams.... hopefully by then i'll be surer of my work to be able to go out like once or twice with my cousins and attend the wedding!! let's hope all the cousins can sit together, without my niece trying to squeeze in.... *shudders*
after that was FUN!!!!! we all (Laura, evon, yi lun and me) went to meet alvin at marina bay to buy present for bernice jiejie... her 21st bday is coming, and her bf wanted to do something sweet for her by contacting laura and asking her to collect the presents from the other cousins, which he would mail to her in NZ... Awwwwwwww.... haha.. .we decided to get her a kite, thanx to TC's idea of a kite representing freedom, and we ended up spending $25... for a kite!! hahaha.. we nvr expected a kite to cost tt much! too bad alan was having the flu, otherwise all the cousins (well, almost all) would have had a great time together! the kite we bought came with a packet of 10 mini-kites, which we tried to fly altogether in the field... hahaha... in the end, we ended up flying only two, on separate strings, coz we werent able to make them fly... -_-" it was fun though, everyone running like mad just trying to get the kites to get up. goodness! we couldn even match up to a little boy flying a kite! argh... hahaha... guess our kites were just too small... nevertheless, we all had the time of our lives!!!!
we wanted to take a photo altogether, but unfortunately there was no one we could ask. since alvin had already taken a photo with alan, he took a pic for the 4 of us... hahaha... we went mad though in one of the photos, posing like mao zedong. hehe... will try to post it up... if i can... =) we should take a whole group photo!!!
i seriously can't wait for Nov to come... yah yah... i know... there's the dreaded A levels, but then, ALL the cousins are coming! well... mebbe not all, coz penny, linda and george are not coming, but well, the rest are!!! we MUST take photos together!!!! Nan2 de2 yi1 ci4 we get to get together... come to think of it, we have NEVER got together like tt... i have only just talked to kenette last year, can u believe it, when i've known bout his existence for all my life... *shakes head* we only got reacquainted last yr. pathetic aint it? blame it on the geographicval distance... can't wait to see lynette jie jie!!!!! hahaha... she's a v fun person to be around!! mad mad one... hehe... wish kenette could bring his gf though.. i wanna see her!!!
can u imagine the fun we'll have?!?!?!?!? hopefully they'll stay until after my As, then we can all go tour Singapore together... then after tt we go back malaysia together... hehe... book the budget airlines and all of us get in.. it'll be like our private airline!!! hahahahahahah.... COOL!!! now, if only As didn end so late...........
anyway, if i wanna enjoy myself freely when they come, i better go continue my work. otherwise, there will be a dampener on my mood when i go out with them and keep thinking of how i did for my paper or if i've finished my revision....
ah xiang korkor's wedding is on 20th nov mah..... right smack in the middle of my exams.... hopefully by then i'll be surer of my work to be able to go out like once or twice with my cousins and attend the wedding!! let's hope all the cousins can sit together, without my niece trying to squeeze in.... *shudders*
Saturday, August 07, 2004
haha... seen the new additions on my blog?!?!?!? hehe... just learnt them today... thanx go to LAURA, my LOVERLY COUSIN!!! haha.. she's staying over for the hols, and she knows so much bout html!! hahaa..... amazing, eh? hee, tt's y i'm so happy now. got new music, new animation, new polls, new hugs.... haha...
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ok i'm tokking crap. haha, but i'm so pleased.... i'm laughing like a loon now for goodness' sake!!! arghh.... i better stop... pls give me feedback on wateva is on my blog... haha... thanx!
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ok i'm tokking crap. haha, but i'm so pleased.... i'm laughing like a loon now for goodness' sake!!! arghh.... i better stop... pls give me feedback on wateva is on my blog... haha... thanx!
Monday, August 02, 2004
GREAT. just when i have no time to change my blogskin or even look for a new one, the bandwidth just has to expire. i thot i had saved the image onto my comp... apparently, i hadn. could someone pls tell me the correct way to do it PLS?!?!??!??!? i cant go on like tt!!!!!
ah well... been having experiencing conflicting emotions these days... (Alvin, will tell u bout it... as soon as i go online... which is like when?!?!?!?) and its getting on my nerves, and i cant concentrate! argh. which reminds me. tml is the econ essay test, and wonderful me has not studied it yet. GREAT. i dun even know if the labour market is coming out, coz if it is, i am so gonna die. i can just surrender down there lor... not tt i dun understand wat's gg on.. if i read it of course i'll know (crosses fingers) but thing is, i dunno how to apply! WONDERFUL, aint it? -_-"
ok, i better stop complaining in this blog... seems like my life appears real unhappy on the blog these days, and lest u all think i'm some complain queen... welll..... hmm... i dunno wat to say.. hahaha... =)
just read the forum page in today's newspaper. frankly, it shocked me. Do parents mean to say tt only now do they realise their children are being robbed of their childhood?!?!?!?! tsk tsk.... how slow they are... dun tell me they nvr knew their children were not allowed to play wildly during recess, before and after sch?!?! and had to do silent reading (not tt i minded tt v much.. i quite enjoyed silent reading, by the way ^_^) oh man..... and yes, for parents' info, the children are growing up much too fast for their own good. i mean, a LIFE SCIENCES CLUB in pri sch where students learn to EXTRACT DNA?!?!?! in my time, we didn even know wat the hell DNA was. if u had told me there was such a thing as RNA, i would have been reminded of Ribena. yes, i am speaking seriously. sounds dumb, i know... but at least i knew tt i led a more normal childhood than children now. at least i got to go downstairs and play all sorts of games with my neighbours and learnt how to ride a bike or something... haha.. at least tt let me learn something more bout the world.
frankly, i think if children are allowed to play more, they discover more bout the world. there is joy in learning, and i feel schools would do well to remember tt. i remember my mother used to bring us down for walks and while talking to us, she would tell us stuff, like wat mimosas were, their special characteristics, wat the names of other plants and flowers were.... u know, those just made us more eager to learn more? yah yah... i'm in arts now, but so wat? at least i enjoyed learning wateva it was tt i learnt... didn regret it btw... =) ah well... those were the good old days.
u know, if i could get my way, i'd let children learn chinese in a more fun way. i'd let them watch chinese shows- NO, not those Chinese shows by MOE (they're BORING!!!), by MEdiaCorp or MediaWorks. then, we'd discuss them and learn words. and then, we'd oso watch CHINESE MOVIES. hmm... mebbe meteor garden all those as well... hahaha.... u'd be surprised at how much pri sch children know bout these shows man... by niece and nephew are proof of tt... in this, at least there's incentive in learning chinese! at least it's better than gg to class and learning (translate this to chi on ur own... i cant type it here) "My sister has a red bag. My brother has a blue bag. My parents go to work everyday" u know, all those kind of things? well, who the heck cares wat colour bags ur bro and sis carry?!?!?!?! i carry ablack one and u dun see me gg around telling everyone, do u? and i dun have a bro, thank u v much. oh well... i'm just being lame here...
haha/.... tell me ur views! liven up my chatterbox! ARGUE!!!!!!
ok, this is anticlimatic, but i have to do article review and revise econ now.
ah well... been having experiencing conflicting emotions these days... (Alvin, will tell u bout it... as soon as i go online... which is like when?!?!?!?) and its getting on my nerves, and i cant concentrate! argh. which reminds me. tml is the econ essay test, and wonderful me has not studied it yet. GREAT. i dun even know if the labour market is coming out, coz if it is, i am so gonna die. i can just surrender down there lor... not tt i dun understand wat's gg on.. if i read it of course i'll know (crosses fingers) but thing is, i dunno how to apply! WONDERFUL, aint it? -_-"
ok, i better stop complaining in this blog... seems like my life appears real unhappy on the blog these days, and lest u all think i'm some complain queen... welll..... hmm... i dunno wat to say.. hahaha... =)
just read the forum page in today's newspaper. frankly, it shocked me. Do parents mean to say tt only now do they realise their children are being robbed of their childhood?!?!?!?! tsk tsk.... how slow they are... dun tell me they nvr knew their children were not allowed to play wildly during recess, before and after sch?!?! and had to do silent reading (not tt i minded tt v much.. i quite enjoyed silent reading, by the way ^_^) oh man..... and yes, for parents' info, the children are growing up much too fast for their own good. i mean, a LIFE SCIENCES CLUB in pri sch where students learn to EXTRACT DNA?!?!?! in my time, we didn even know wat the hell DNA was. if u had told me there was such a thing as RNA, i would have been reminded of Ribena. yes, i am speaking seriously. sounds dumb, i know... but at least i knew tt i led a more normal childhood than children now. at least i got to go downstairs and play all sorts of games with my neighbours and learnt how to ride a bike or something... haha.. at least tt let me learn something more bout the world.
frankly, i think if children are allowed to play more, they discover more bout the world. there is joy in learning, and i feel schools would do well to remember tt. i remember my mother used to bring us down for walks and while talking to us, she would tell us stuff, like wat mimosas were, their special characteristics, wat the names of other plants and flowers were.... u know, those just made us more eager to learn more? yah yah... i'm in arts now, but so wat? at least i enjoyed learning wateva it was tt i learnt... didn regret it btw... =) ah well... those were the good old days.
u know, if i could get my way, i'd let children learn chinese in a more fun way. i'd let them watch chinese shows- NO, not those Chinese shows by MOE (they're BORING!!!), by MEdiaCorp or MediaWorks. then, we'd discuss them and learn words. and then, we'd oso watch CHINESE MOVIES. hmm... mebbe meteor garden all those as well... hahaha.... u'd be surprised at how much pri sch children know bout these shows man... by niece and nephew are proof of tt... in this, at least there's incentive in learning chinese! at least it's better than gg to class and learning (translate this to chi on ur own... i cant type it here) "My sister has a red bag. My brother has a blue bag. My parents go to work everyday" u know, all those kind of things? well, who the heck cares wat colour bags ur bro and sis carry?!?!?!?! i carry ablack one and u dun see me gg around telling everyone, do u? and i dun have a bro, thank u v much. oh well... i'm just being lame here...
haha/.... tell me ur views! liven up my chatterbox! ARGUE!!!!!!
ok, this is anticlimatic, but i have to do article review and revise econ now.
Thursday, July 29, 2004
OK! admit it! my chatterbox is boring! tt's y nobody toks in it!!!!!
hhaa... kidding... i admit, i've hardly done anything to make it more interesting... hehe....
anyway, tt's not wat i wanted to blog in here... well, it was, but tt's not e main point. frankly, now tt i'm here, i'm not sure wat my main point is...
oh well... mebbe jus to say tt i finally found this spurt of motivation to do my revisions... i wonder if this spurt will disappear together with the morrow. well... just came back from econ tuition, and i got to thinking tt if i dun have more organisation in my life anytime soon, my messed up notes and stuff will take on a symbol of my future a level results- messy. yep. u should take a look at my shelves. on the surface, everything looks fine and dandy. take out all the files, and u'll be hit by an avalanche of papers. yes, papers. loose papers, to be exact. hahahhahahahahahahahha.... oh man.... tt sux... i have to get my life back in order.... preferably sometime this year.... SOMEBODY! ANYBODY! HELP!!! haha... kidding...
guess this kinda thing is only up to me...
oh well... haven manaaged to get hold of hilda mak for the past THREE DAYS!! WHY?!?!?!??! she's like so elusive! just like e quote in the poem today "She leaves just as i enter" haha... my CIP hours are not approved yet!! goodness!!!
i realised tt i'm v long-winded, and i dun keep to answering questions to the point (oh FINE... i didn JUST realise... i realised it long ago.... bleah) gotta try to be as concise as possible, and try not to use useless redundant words to crowd my essay. RITE. Let's just see me try tt.... i must try.... otherwise how the heck am i gonna get my A? i'm NOT gonna waste money on tuition just ending up getting a C. NONONONONO. No Sirreeee...
hahaa... its late now, gtg.... feels like i'm on adrenaline... well, let's hope the chicken soup i just drank will help me sleep.... nite....
"If only wishes could be dreams
And all my dreams could come true..."
----------let me get all my As rite now... without studying.....
"Mirror Mirror i wish u could lie to me...."
----------tell me it's sat tml...
"Mirror Mirror lie to me
Show me wat i wanna see....."
----------All As in my result slip.....
hhaa... kidding... i admit, i've hardly done anything to make it more interesting... hehe....
anyway, tt's not wat i wanted to blog in here... well, it was, but tt's not e main point. frankly, now tt i'm here, i'm not sure wat my main point is...
oh well... mebbe jus to say tt i finally found this spurt of motivation to do my revisions... i wonder if this spurt will disappear together with the morrow. well... just came back from econ tuition, and i got to thinking tt if i dun have more organisation in my life anytime soon, my messed up notes and stuff will take on a symbol of my future a level results- messy. yep. u should take a look at my shelves. on the surface, everything looks fine and dandy. take out all the files, and u'll be hit by an avalanche of papers. yes, papers. loose papers, to be exact. hahahhahahahahahahahha.... oh man.... tt sux... i have to get my life back in order.... preferably sometime this year.... SOMEBODY! ANYBODY! HELP!!! haha... kidding...
guess this kinda thing is only up to me...
oh well... haven manaaged to get hold of hilda mak for the past THREE DAYS!! WHY?!?!?!??! she's like so elusive! just like e quote in the poem today "She leaves just as i enter" haha... my CIP hours are not approved yet!! goodness!!!
i realised tt i'm v long-winded, and i dun keep to answering questions to the point (oh FINE... i didn JUST realise... i realised it long ago.... bleah) gotta try to be as concise as possible, and try not to use useless redundant words to crowd my essay. RITE. Let's just see me try tt.... i must try.... otherwise how the heck am i gonna get my A? i'm NOT gonna waste money on tuition just ending up getting a C. NONONONONO. No Sirreeee...
hahaa... its late now, gtg.... feels like i'm on adrenaline... well, let's hope the chicken soup i just drank will help me sleep.... nite....
"If only wishes could be dreams
And all my dreams could come true..."
----------let me get all my As rite now... without studying.....
"Mirror Mirror i wish u could lie to me...."
----------tell me it's sat tml...
"Mirror Mirror lie to me
Show me wat i wanna see....."
----------All As in my result slip.....
Wednesday, July 28, 2004
it's been a rather event early week, with mon first starting off with dinner out with my relatives, and me entertaining or babysitting my niece.... shant tell u i think she's a brat... oops! i just did ;) anyway, alvin, alan, laura, u all get my drift... i shant oso tell u how hard it was just to have a normal conversation without her interrupting every few min trying to get my attention with some anecdote she thinks will brighten up my oh-so-dull life, such as, "AOR!!! Sun Ho is my teacher! really!" -_-" OH WOW! REEEEALLLY?! and here dumb old me was thinking she was a singer! *slaps head* ... anyway... i think i better shut up bout her.... though its like, i can't help it i tell u, she's so domineering and so attention seeking, and she's a liar.... do u know, she took my hp and REFUSED to return it to me!? she made phonecalls using my phone, and when questioned, she lied about it and DARED to laugh at me for accusing her!!!
ok, on to the next day, before u all start thinking i'm some nutcase who hates little children. i dun, u know, just for the record. i like children. i used to like her until she terrorised my sisters and me. yes.
ok, i guess u all have heard of xian liang's death by now. he died the day before. i wanted to blog here yesterday, but after coming back from his wake, i had to go finish off my hw... hee... paiseh... anyway, i still think it's a shock to know tt someone i know- or used to know has passed away. i know i didn really know him very well, but we've like, known each other since pri sch... guess there's some kind of familiarity, no matter how little? it was kinda surreal to go to his wake and look down at his coffin and think, "i knew this guy. he was smart and somewhat of an all-rounder. we were in the same class before. he? gone? " it was also kinda weird looking at his coffin, reading "Mr Goh Xian Liang. Departed: 26/7/04. Age: 18 years old" it all sounded so final. he looked peaceful, and i guess the makeup artist who made him up did a good job, though there was a certain waxiness about him... he looked like one of those wax figures.... it's sad, u know, like, i suddenly realised how fragile life is. i used to think tt with our mind, we could defeat anything. now, i think when one's life comes to an end, nobody can defeat it.
i wonder if mrs sim knows bout this... should i try to contact her? guess i should rite? but based on how fast news travels, i would think she knows bout it now..
hopefully xian liang's at peace now...
ok, on to the next day, before u all start thinking i'm some nutcase who hates little children. i dun, u know, just for the record. i like children. i used to like her until she terrorised my sisters and me. yes.
ok, i guess u all have heard of xian liang's death by now. he died the day before. i wanted to blog here yesterday, but after coming back from his wake, i had to go finish off my hw... hee... paiseh... anyway, i still think it's a shock to know tt someone i know- or used to know has passed away. i know i didn really know him very well, but we've like, known each other since pri sch... guess there's some kind of familiarity, no matter how little? it was kinda surreal to go to his wake and look down at his coffin and think, "i knew this guy. he was smart and somewhat of an all-rounder. we were in the same class before. he? gone? " it was also kinda weird looking at his coffin, reading "Mr Goh Xian Liang. Departed: 26/7/04. Age: 18 years old" it all sounded so final. he looked peaceful, and i guess the makeup artist who made him up did a good job, though there was a certain waxiness about him... he looked like one of those wax figures.... it's sad, u know, like, i suddenly realised how fragile life is. i used to think tt with our mind, we could defeat anything. now, i think when one's life comes to an end, nobody can defeat it.
i wonder if mrs sim knows bout this... should i try to contact her? guess i should rite? but based on how fast news travels, i would think she knows bout it now..
hopefully xian liang's at peace now...
Sunday, July 25, 2004
WATEVER. i dun want to care how important treachery is central in the theme within A&C. I dun want to care how labour market works in the factor market. Neither do i want to care about the probability of the number of red balls that can be taken out of a bag with blue, green and yellow balls... hell... there arent even ANY red balls... WATEVER. however, if i want to be a successful product in this graduate factory called Singapore, i HAVE to care. if i want to survive in this dog eat dog world, i HAVE to care. i have to care wat the angle of elevation is between where i'm standing and the Pan Pacific Hotel. WOW!!! *claps hands sarcastically* honestly, do u think i even have to know tt?!
=Þ this gets on my nerves sometimes... no, make tt most of the time. i dun mind lit, or maths, or econ. but i mind tt my whole life just has to revolve around them for the next god knows how many weeks. acty, i know how many weeks it is, i just dun feel like putting it down. all the teachers are telling us to revise. WOW! WAT A REVELATION!!! and how are we supposed to do revision when we are supposed to come to sch everyday, and complete their hw and do the assigned group works?! I KNOW!! WE HAVE LIKE, 48 HOURS EVERYDAY!! WHERE OUT OF THEM, 36 HOURS ARE SPENT STUDYING!!! oh wow, tt's like, fantastic!!! -_-" watever. i guess i'm sounding darn bitchy now... yah yah... can't help it. have to let it out or else tml u all will see a mad yi ling. oh well, kinda hard to believe rite? well, i do try to control my emotions when i'm in sch... *smiles sweetly*
ok, i better go lose myself in antony's world again. frankly, i dun see how he can be seen as a tragic hero. as far as i can see, he deserved wat he got. he was the one who was so mule-headed bout fighting by sea. he chose to listen to Cleopatra in the first place instead of his lieutenants. the only tragic thing i see is tt he botched up his own suicide, only to find out tt Cleopatra had acty bluffed him about her death.
Oh wait! i think i get it... he's tragic coz he did all he did coz of Cleopatra. he loves her. oh well... guess this is wat they mean by love blinds a person to all reason. his love for her led to his downfall. sad ah? well..... guess from this play, there isn such thing as being a middle ground for being both pragmatic and romantic. something has to be given up. for Antony, it was his life and his empire. well... at least he reconciled himself at the end of the play, though it was only at the end of his life tt he did tt.... hmm... i guess i gained something by complaining here..... well.... bye.......
=Þ this gets on my nerves sometimes... no, make tt most of the time. i dun mind lit, or maths, or econ. but i mind tt my whole life just has to revolve around them for the next god knows how many weeks. acty, i know how many weeks it is, i just dun feel like putting it down. all the teachers are telling us to revise. WOW! WAT A REVELATION!!! and how are we supposed to do revision when we are supposed to come to sch everyday, and complete their hw and do the assigned group works?! I KNOW!! WE HAVE LIKE, 48 HOURS EVERYDAY!! WHERE OUT OF THEM, 36 HOURS ARE SPENT STUDYING!!! oh wow, tt's like, fantastic!!! -_-" watever. i guess i'm sounding darn bitchy now... yah yah... can't help it. have to let it out or else tml u all will see a mad yi ling. oh well, kinda hard to believe rite? well, i do try to control my emotions when i'm in sch... *smiles sweetly*
ok, i better go lose myself in antony's world again. frankly, i dun see how he can be seen as a tragic hero. as far as i can see, he deserved wat he got. he was the one who was so mule-headed bout fighting by sea. he chose to listen to Cleopatra in the first place instead of his lieutenants. the only tragic thing i see is tt he botched up his own suicide, only to find out tt Cleopatra had acty bluffed him about her death.
Oh wait! i think i get it... he's tragic coz he did all he did coz of Cleopatra. he loves her. oh well... guess this is wat they mean by love blinds a person to all reason. his love for her led to his downfall. sad ah? well..... guess from this play, there isn such thing as being a middle ground for being both pragmatic and romantic. something has to be given up. for Antony, it was his life and his empire. well... at least he reconciled himself at the end of the play, though it was only at the end of his life tt he did tt.... hmm... i guess i gained something by complaining here..... well.... bye.......
Friday, July 23, 2004
OK... today is the end of the week. FINALLY!!! haha... we had the inter- fac volleyball finals today, and guess what? we got second! haha... at first we didn really have much confidence in winning candice's team in the semis, but we did it! hee.. they put up a good fight, u know.... =) then after tt, we met science B in the finals... man, they are good, and i must say, we nvr expected to win them. we lost to them 2-1 by the way, hehe... we gave them a run for their money man!!! =) we beat them 15-4 in the first set, then they won us 15-11 (i think) 15-13... come to think of it, it was a close fight, eh? hehe... oh well... second is not bad oso lar, and the finals was the best game we have had for the whole of the inter-fac vball tournament... there was real teamwork... =)
oh yah, EXCITING NEWS!!! haha, i won Borrowed Heaven by The Corrs on wed night! i messaged Power 98, telling the dj, "could i please please please have the cd by The Corrs? i love them but i haven had time to buy their cd coz i've been busy studying". guess wat? the dj called me back!!!!!! haha... only jas heard me though... haha... and i think i sounded so weird on the radio... my voice was so low! but then again, i was doing lit when the dj called, and it was at, like, 11+ and i was SOOOOOOOOO sleepy!! haha, so i guess it's natural tt i sounded sian sian on the phone. nevertheless, i WON!! haha, listening to the cd now... it's great!! got 2 new cds this week... one by FIR, a fantastic one- my sis bought it at bugis village for $7!! haha... the song "Tarot Cards" and the piano version of "Lydia" are fantastic! acty, FIR is a great band... they dun have the usual elements of mandarin pop. it's more unique in the sense tt it doesn conform to the mould mandarin songs usually follow, which is why i rather like them. needless to say, the other cd is by THE CORRS!!! hahah.... wow, i'm starting to build up my collection of original cds... hehe.... but of course, i have to save money lar.... -_-"
anyway, i gtg if i plan to finish my hw anytime this weekend.... need to have time for revision somemore. seriously, i'm considering not going to sch like at least once a week after the whole syllabus has been finished, which is like, now..... but then, i dun exactly relish the thought of spending 3 hours in a polyclinic just for an mc... not really worth it. uh uh *shakes head* just imagine: in a day, we spend like 9 hours in sch. imagine if one day, we didn go to sch. we would prob wake up at 8am, which means there are 8 hours of sch left (assuming tt sch starts at 7..) then we have breakfast, until about maybe 9. then, probably procrastinate about the house, which takes mebbe 1/2hr? then get ready to see the doctor. the trip down prob takes another 1/2hr, which means tt by then we have 6 hours of sch left. we wait for the doctor, which, on a normal weekday, takes mebbe 3 hours? (ok, mebbe if we are lucky, an hour). tt leaves like 3 hours of sch left. ok, the 1/2 hour trip back home, further procrastination, oh yah, forgot lunch! altogether mebbe take up another 1 1/2 hours? ok, tt leaves another 1 1/2 hours to do wateva we took the mc for. now, tell me, is it worth it to forgo 9 hours of lectures and tuts to waste 7 1/2 hours preparing to do the thing as i have demonstrated?
of course, different ppl may have diff ways of doing things, and thus may criticise my breakdown of time. of course u are entitled to ur own breakdown of ur time! after all, ppl have different time managements... haha... but tt's how i perceive mcs... oh well.... looks like my plan to take mcs goes down the drain... now, if i could just convince the lazy part of me to believe tt.........
oh yah, EXCITING NEWS!!! haha, i won Borrowed Heaven by The Corrs on wed night! i messaged Power 98, telling the dj, "could i please please please have the cd by The Corrs? i love them but i haven had time to buy their cd coz i've been busy studying". guess wat? the dj called me back!!!!!! haha... only jas heard me though... haha... and i think i sounded so weird on the radio... my voice was so low! but then again, i was doing lit when the dj called, and it was at, like, 11+ and i was SOOOOOOOOO sleepy!! haha, so i guess it's natural tt i sounded sian sian on the phone. nevertheless, i WON!! haha, listening to the cd now... it's great!! got 2 new cds this week... one by FIR, a fantastic one- my sis bought it at bugis village for $7!! haha... the song "Tarot Cards" and the piano version of "Lydia" are fantastic! acty, FIR is a great band... they dun have the usual elements of mandarin pop. it's more unique in the sense tt it doesn conform to the mould mandarin songs usually follow, which is why i rather like them. needless to say, the other cd is by THE CORRS!!! hahah.... wow, i'm starting to build up my collection of original cds... hehe.... but of course, i have to save money lar.... -_-"
anyway, i gtg if i plan to finish my hw anytime this weekend.... need to have time for revision somemore. seriously, i'm considering not going to sch like at least once a week after the whole syllabus has been finished, which is like, now..... but then, i dun exactly relish the thought of spending 3 hours in a polyclinic just for an mc... not really worth it. uh uh *shakes head* just imagine: in a day, we spend like 9 hours in sch. imagine if one day, we didn go to sch. we would prob wake up at 8am, which means there are 8 hours of sch left (assuming tt sch starts at 7..) then we have breakfast, until about maybe 9. then, probably procrastinate about the house, which takes mebbe 1/2hr? then get ready to see the doctor. the trip down prob takes another 1/2hr, which means tt by then we have 6 hours of sch left. we wait for the doctor, which, on a normal weekday, takes mebbe 3 hours? (ok, mebbe if we are lucky, an hour). tt leaves like 3 hours of sch left. ok, the 1/2 hour trip back home, further procrastination, oh yah, forgot lunch! altogether mebbe take up another 1 1/2 hours? ok, tt leaves another 1 1/2 hours to do wateva we took the mc for. now, tell me, is it worth it to forgo 9 hours of lectures and tuts to waste 7 1/2 hours preparing to do the thing as i have demonstrated?
of course, different ppl may have diff ways of doing things, and thus may criticise my breakdown of time. of course u are entitled to ur own breakdown of ur time! after all, ppl have different time managements... haha... but tt's how i perceive mcs... oh well.... looks like my plan to take mcs goes down the drain... now, if i could just convince the lazy part of me to believe tt.........
Thursday, July 22, 2004
ah ha! i found my ring!! luckily williana left it with the clerk... i almost had a heart attack when i went to the lost and found section and saw the mess there. how the heck would i be able to find it?! anyway, i went thru the things, but surprise surprise! it wasn inside.. i was losing hope already, until tabbi reminded me tt major tham keeps the lost items that are valuable. so i asked him, but it wasnt with him. tt left only one more clerk. i was hoping and praying tt she had it with her. IT WAS!!! YAY!!! haha...
anyway, yesterday was the sea carnival. our class took part in the 'Make a Raft' competition. haha, it was fun! we ended up winning best design and third in the race. acty, the third prize was by luck, coz 2 of the rafts had either capsized or come apart before or during the race... hee... well, though we were slow, we were STABLE. no thanx to those who questioned the stability and function of our raft! =p haha... but thanx to all those who helped, which is like so many ppl... anyway, u know who u all are... those who attended e sea carnival to the end to support us... HURUL!! for ur fish burger, XUEFANG!! for ur raffia, JUN!! for helping us clear up after tt, WARDAH!! for also helping us clear up, and of course, THE REST for coming to support us. haha.. first time our class joined something as a class and we did it rite and well...=) oh yah, here's a trivia: the name of our raft was "Antony and Cleopatra's Love Boat", in memory of the poetic verses by Enobarbus... can't remember wat they were, but they were very luxurious and rich and full... haha... =) oh btw, tt was me lying on the fluorescent green float on the raft... hee... it was fun, come to think of it, but it's a pity that i didn have enough guts to take on the persona of Cleopatra... hahaha.... tt would have been a real treat, wouldn it? ;)
anyway, yesterday was the sea carnival. our class took part in the 'Make a Raft' competition. haha, it was fun! we ended up winning best design and third in the race. acty, the third prize was by luck, coz 2 of the rafts had either capsized or come apart before or during the race... hee... well, though we were slow, we were STABLE. no thanx to those who questioned the stability and function of our raft! =p haha... but thanx to all those who helped, which is like so many ppl... anyway, u know who u all are... those who attended e sea carnival to the end to support us... HURUL!! for ur fish burger, XUEFANG!! for ur raffia, JUN!! for helping us clear up after tt, WARDAH!! for also helping us clear up, and of course, THE REST for coming to support us. haha.. first time our class joined something as a class and we did it rite and well...=) oh yah, here's a trivia: the name of our raft was "Antony and Cleopatra's Love Boat", in memory of the poetic verses by Enobarbus... can't remember wat they were, but they were very luxurious and rich and full... haha... =) oh btw, tt was me lying on the fluorescent green float on the raft... hee... it was fun, come to think of it, but it's a pity that i didn have enough guts to take on the persona of Cleopatra... hahaha.... tt would have been a real treat, wouldn it? ;)
Monday, July 19, 2004
hello!!! haha... been away for a record of almost 10 days... oh well... been bz catching up with hw... and when i came back here, i realised blogger had acty made so many changes! now its more convenient and more fun to type in my entries! yay! i love technology. SOMETIMES.
there was one BLACK CLOUD in my sky today. i lost the ring i had been given jus 3 days ago! goodness! tt ring was worn by me when i was a baby ( i nvr realised tt), and it was returned to me last sat by my father, who said my grandmother had kept it for me, for fear tt i would put it in my mouth and swallow it. well, i guess the ring is not fated to be with me. today i wore it to sch, and guess wat WONDERFUL thing happened? the ring dropped from the string i put it thru. and u know wat the worst thing was?
there was one BLACK CLOUD in my sky today. i lost the ring i had been given jus 3 days ago! goodness! tt ring was worn by me when i was a baby ( i nvr realised tt), and it was returned to me last sat by my father, who said my grandmother had kept it for me, for fear tt i would put it in my mouth and swallow it. well, i guess the ring is not fated to be with me. today i wore it to sch, and guess wat WONDERFUL thing happened? the ring dropped from the string i put it thru. and u know wat the worst thing was?
- something had told me to take it off before pe. i refused to listen to tt voice
- after pe, i heard ppl asking who had lost a ring. i just checked to make sure the string was there. i didn even bother to pull the string out to check if the ring was still inside.
u know wat? i only found out after i had reached home and found the string lying on the floor. DAMN! i really almost cried. tt ring means so much to me. it's like a part of my past, and i just let it get lost so carelessly! wat the heck is wrong with me!?!?!?!?!
i found out tt a girl from S14 (Williana, from my spe class), had taken it. thanks to grace, xue fang, and lai yee, i was able to track who had taken the ring! thank u all of u! the ring was put in the lost and found counter in the general office. oh man... hopefully i find it still there tml... it has been there for a day... i do hope nobody noticed the ring and took it away... all my hopes are banked on the counter... if it isn there, i really dunno wat i'd do... the ring is v impt to me... dunno y oso, but i kinda feel something when i wear it... a kind of security i guess... dun ask me y... i dunno.... i dun usually wear jewellery to sch, and this was an exception, because of the feeling it gives me when i wear it... and now, look wat happened?! it does seem silly to wear gold to sch rite? esp for pe? i cant explain it myself... maybe u'll have to keep an open mind bout my reasons? its just something i cannot explain... mebbe i was tempting fate... *shrugs*
ARGH!! now i just cant wait for tml when i can go to sch to really find out if it's still there... pray hard for me that i'll find it pls?!?!?!?!?!?!?! i need all the help i can get man....
let's hope tml will be a better day.... i promise not to be so stupid to wear the ring to school... if only i can find it.... will update u tml, just hopefully with good news. rite now, i have to go into battle with mcq for nov 2000. hope i win. today and tml........
Saturday, July 10, 2004
haha... back again after 2 quiz results.. =p anyway, i just gotta tell u bout the buffet i went to yesterday.. oh omy GOSH! it's just sooooooo worth every cent of the 20 odd dollars we paid for it. it was an international buffet, at Sakura Restaurant at Downtown East. NTUC club members can get a 20% discount for one more person i think.. not v sure. anyway, back to the topic. its like the best buffet i've ever been to.
u know how other buffets are, there's only like how many kinds of beverages available, but not this. they have like 5-6 different kinds of drinks, the usual fast food drinks (u know, those in the dispensers in the fast food restaurants?), smoothies or frosties or slurpies (dunno wat u call em, but there were like 3 different flavours), and coffee (in a coffee maker) tea (green tea or english tea). there were so many kinds!!!
ok, on to food. there were so many kinds of japanese food- tempura, sashimi, sushi, and all of them were subdivided into SOOOOOOOOOOOOO many varieties. chi food had dim sum, fried rice, curry, fried noodles, veggie (the boring stuff, except the curry, which was duck and v nice). Dessert was FANTASTIC. so many cakes, and most were chocolate (my best friend!). there was jelly (but texture wasnt tt great), kuehs, bubor chacha. soups were shark's fin (dun like it, coz the thot of sharks being killed puts me off) and mushroom soup... am i making u drool? oh yah, and oysters, mussels and scallops and prawns and lobster and salads... the shellfish could be taken raw or baked... OH MY GOD!!! i'm just feeling sad now coz i didn get to eat all the food!!!!! ARGH!!!!!! everything was nice, though i think the oysters are... hmm... a little lacklustre as compared with the other shellfish. I WANT TO GO THERE AGAIN!!!! hahahaha.. had the best time last nite. we stayed there for 2 and a half hours, just eating and talking. oh yah, i forgot to add that there was teppanyaki!!!! there's an assortment of meat and veggie, then u can choose wat u want, and give to the chefs to fry!!! and one bonus is, IT'S HALAL!!! haha... saw a few muslims there, so i gatehred it is, and come to think of it, there werent any food with pork, so i guess it should be halal... was bz thinking of the food to see whether there was the halal sign... =)
hehe, guess i sound like a pig lah.. haha... but i dun mind going anywhere where there's nice food. as long as the food makes up for the surroundings, anywhere is fine. i once had laksa in penang at this roadside stall, and flies were flying around everywhere- on top of the noodles, ingredients, etc. however, the food made everything worthwhile... haha, and the fact that they soaked everything in boiling water made it a little better. hehe, overall, it was great. i wouldn mind going there again.... =)
if u have any good recommendations on food, pls tell me!!!!!!!!!! haha... guarantee u we will go the next weekend... hahaha... =)wat can i say? *shrugs* my family loves food... haha =)
ok... guess some ppl wanna kill me now, for talking so much bout food... hahah... better stop.. got alot of hw to do... so i guess i better go... byebye!
u know how other buffets are, there's only like how many kinds of beverages available, but not this. they have like 5-6 different kinds of drinks, the usual fast food drinks (u know, those in the dispensers in the fast food restaurants?), smoothies or frosties or slurpies (dunno wat u call em, but there were like 3 different flavours), and coffee (in a coffee maker) tea (green tea or english tea). there were so many kinds!!!
ok, on to food. there were so many kinds of japanese food- tempura, sashimi, sushi, and all of them were subdivided into SOOOOOOOOOOOOO many varieties. chi food had dim sum, fried rice, curry, fried noodles, veggie (the boring stuff, except the curry, which was duck and v nice). Dessert was FANTASTIC. so many cakes, and most were chocolate (my best friend!). there was jelly (but texture wasnt tt great), kuehs, bubor chacha. soups were shark's fin (dun like it, coz the thot of sharks being killed puts me off) and mushroom soup... am i making u drool? oh yah, and oysters, mussels and scallops and prawns and lobster and salads... the shellfish could be taken raw or baked... OH MY GOD!!! i'm just feeling sad now coz i didn get to eat all the food!!!!! ARGH!!!!!! everything was nice, though i think the oysters are... hmm... a little lacklustre as compared with the other shellfish. I WANT TO GO THERE AGAIN!!!! hahahaha.. had the best time last nite. we stayed there for 2 and a half hours, just eating and talking. oh yah, i forgot to add that there was teppanyaki!!!! there's an assortment of meat and veggie, then u can choose wat u want, and give to the chefs to fry!!! and one bonus is, IT'S HALAL!!! haha... saw a few muslims there, so i gatehred it is, and come to think of it, there werent any food with pork, so i guess it should be halal... was bz thinking of the food to see whether there was the halal sign... =)
hehe, guess i sound like a pig lah.. haha... but i dun mind going anywhere where there's nice food. as long as the food makes up for the surroundings, anywhere is fine. i once had laksa in penang at this roadside stall, and flies were flying around everywhere- on top of the noodles, ingredients, etc. however, the food made everything worthwhile... haha, and the fact that they soaked everything in boiling water made it a little better. hehe, overall, it was great. i wouldn mind going there again.... =)
if u have any good recommendations on food, pls tell me!!!!!!!!!! haha... guarantee u we will go the next weekend... hahaha... =)wat can i say? *shrugs* my family loves food... haha =)
ok... guess some ppl wanna kill me now, for talking so much bout food... hahah... better stop.. got alot of hw to do... so i guess i better go... byebye!
Monday, July 05, 2004
当你
By : Cyndi Wang Xin Ling
如果有一天 我回到从前
回到最原始的我 你是否会觉得我不错
如果有一天 我离你遥远
不能再和你相约 你是否会发觉我已经说再见
当你的眼睛眯着笑 当你喝可乐当你找
我想对你好 你从来不知道 想你想你 也能成为嗜好
当你说今天的烦恼 当你说夜深你睡不着
我想对你说 却害怕都说错 还喜欢你 知不知道
如果有一天 梦想都实现
回忆都成了永远 你是否还会记得今天
如果有一天 我们都发觉
原来什么都可以 无论是否还会停留在这里
当你的眼睛眯着笑 当你喝可乐当你找
我想对你好 你从来不知道 想你想你 也能成为嗜好
当你说今天的烦恼 当你说夜深你睡不着
我想对你说 却害怕都说错 还喜欢你 知不知道
也许可是让我想得太多 也许该回到没我
梦里和相遇 就毫不犹豫 大声的说我要说
当你的眼睛眯着笑 当你喝可乐当你找
我想对你好 你从来不知道 想你想你 也能成为嗜好
啦 啦 啦
我想对你说 却害怕都说错 还喜欢你 知不知道
啦 啦 啦
By : Cyndi Wang Xin Ling
如果有一天 我回到从前
回到最原始的我 你是否会觉得我不错
如果有一天 我离你遥远
不能再和你相约 你是否会发觉我已经说再见
当你的眼睛眯着笑 当你喝可乐当你找
我想对你好 你从来不知道 想你想你 也能成为嗜好
当你说今天的烦恼 当你说夜深你睡不着
我想对你说 却害怕都说错 还喜欢你 知不知道
如果有一天 梦想都实现
回忆都成了永远 你是否还会记得今天
如果有一天 我们都发觉
原来什么都可以 无论是否还会停留在这里
当你的眼睛眯着笑 当你喝可乐当你找
我想对你好 你从来不知道 想你想你 也能成为嗜好
当你说今天的烦恼 当你说夜深你睡不着
我想对你说 却害怕都说错 还喜欢你 知不知道
也许可是让我想得太多 也许该回到没我
梦里和相遇 就毫不犹豫 大声的说我要说
当你的眼睛眯着笑 当你喝可乐当你找
我想对你好 你从来不知道 想你想你 也能成为嗜好
啦 啦 啦
我想对你说 却害怕都说错 还喜欢你 知不知道
啦 啦 啦
Sunday, July 04, 2004
i'm bored!!!! haha.... after 2 days of languishing around the house doing nothing but reading, i can now say tt there's nothing to do in the house. studying?!?!?!?!?!?!? oh man.... dun remind me... and STOP!!! NOT bout how near the As are either pls! i know how near they are... they are like creeping up behind my back... eeew... can feel their slimy crawly legs all over my body.... now they are at the back of my knees... slowly but steadily creeping up my back.... am i making a lick of sense? hope so... =)
anyway, just read yanfang's blog... she went to watch the Asian vball tournament!!! AAAAHHH! haha... acty i wanted to watch, but i was bz mugging for the common test. haha... wat a life... mebbe i can catch it next yr? or whenever it is... hehe... i found out a few months ago that our sch bookshop auntie's niece is one of the national team players. she's currently in SAJC.. one yr older than us, but she retained (forgot her name. it's at the tip of my tongue). haha... yanfang, yy they all were cursing their luck... hehe... =) well, she's good... and her auntie went to support her the day of the finals. YES, SINGAPORE GOT INTO THE FINALS IN THE ASIAN VB CHAMPIONSHIPS!!! hahaa... they lost to thailand 3-0 though, 15-25, 13-25, 13-25, and got second. wow. couldn believe the newspaper when i read it man... =) anyway, it's rather good news, isn't it? tt singapore got something... one of the players got the best something... forgot wat oso... server i think... hmm... can;t really remember though... ;)
next week is the start of the inter-fac vball tournament, and i wun be able to play on fri!!!!! i gtg ajc for some focus-group session bout pw. oh man... wat is there to say?! anyway, guess i'll go there and listen to wat the other jcs have to say about pw, and mebbe i'll have somethign to add in as well? haha... dun wanna go there and be like a blockhead.. ;)
anyway, enough crapping.. gtg get ready to go out...
CIAO! =)
anyway, just read yanfang's blog... she went to watch the Asian vball tournament!!! AAAAHHH! haha... acty i wanted to watch, but i was bz mugging for the common test. haha... wat a life... mebbe i can catch it next yr? or whenever it is... hehe... i found out a few months ago that our sch bookshop auntie's niece is one of the national team players. she's currently in SAJC.. one yr older than us, but she retained (forgot her name. it's at the tip of my tongue). haha... yanfang, yy they all were cursing their luck... hehe... =) well, she's good... and her auntie went to support her the day of the finals. YES, SINGAPORE GOT INTO THE FINALS IN THE ASIAN VB CHAMPIONSHIPS!!! hahaa... they lost to thailand 3-0 though, 15-25, 13-25, 13-25, and got second. wow. couldn believe the newspaper when i read it man... =) anyway, it's rather good news, isn't it? tt singapore got something... one of the players got the best something... forgot wat oso... server i think... hmm... can;t really remember though... ;)
next week is the start of the inter-fac vball tournament, and i wun be able to play on fri!!!!! i gtg ajc for some focus-group session bout pw. oh man... wat is there to say?! anyway, guess i'll go there and listen to wat the other jcs have to say about pw, and mebbe i'll have somethign to add in as well? haha... dun wanna go there and be like a blockhead.. ;)
anyway, enough crapping.. gtg get ready to go out...
CIAO! =)
Saturday, July 03, 2004
LOVING ONE. You need safety in your relationship.
You want to be sure in his/her arms, knowing
that he will protect you and you can be totally
devoted to your other. At this point you are
very vulnerable. You open yourself and dont
even think that he/she could cheat you. You
totally trust your partner in every single way.
SO if you find out that she/he lied to you or
played a game this trust is broken. You may try
to forgive your other but this will be very
difficult.He/She has to be friendly and
trustworthy.
PLEASE VOTE, I want to know what you think about my
quiz, I worked hard on it.
You can always message me or tell me how I can
improve that quiz. Ill sure write back.
~THE big LOVE TEST!! What do you need? With PICS! For girls and boys!~
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hahaa.... exams are finally over, and bet u're wondering y i didn immediately leave an entry here the moment my papers ended... well...... I WAS BUSY SLACKING!!! hahaha... was acty reading harry potter and the order of the phoenix after all the papers, and got rather hooked onto it, so there was not much motivation going anywhere but my bed and the chairs to read it. do u know, though this is the second time i have read the book, i'm still in denial that sirius black died? oh man...somehow i dun think he died u know... he was still alive when the stunning spell got him (well... it was red light and not a green light...) mebbe like wat evon says, he's among the land of the dead, where he's still alive. anyway, i feel there are loopholes bout tt, so mebbe jk rowling might come up with something bout sirius black's death in the next book, which, as evon told me, the title is harry potter and the half-blood prince... =) wonder when it's gonna come out though...
ok... after the paper last thurs, in the evening, i went out with grace, xuefang and jasmine to watch Windstruck- a korean movie which is quite touching acty... hgahaha...the beginning made all of us laugh like anything, but the end... well... the end made us cry... u should wathc the show acty... it's quite lengthy to acty say it here, so i shall not spoil it for u... =) even at the sad moments, there were times when it was just funny as well. a good movie, i would say. but then again, i'm a sucker for romance. =) i would encourage u to watch it though... =)hehe...
after the movie we went to take neoprints, and just when we reached the shop, the shutters were just coming down. grace and xf went to plead with the shopkeepers, telling them we only wanted to take one shot, so they let us in. but that one shot was FUN! hahaha... we were the only customers inside the shop, so we were laughing and talking loudly. well acty, tt was the most fun i've had in taking neoprints... =)
anyway, tt's all the updating, and well, i've had fun slacking the past few days... how does one get used to slacking? hahahaha.... it's been very absent in my life these days, so i guess i better savour it... hehehe...
bye!
=)
ok... after the paper last thurs, in the evening, i went out with grace, xuefang and jasmine to watch Windstruck- a korean movie which is quite touching acty... hgahaha...the beginning made all of us laugh like anything, but the end... well... the end made us cry... u should wathc the show acty... it's quite lengthy to acty say it here, so i shall not spoil it for u... =) even at the sad moments, there were times when it was just funny as well. a good movie, i would say. but then again, i'm a sucker for romance. =) i would encourage u to watch it though... =)hehe...
after the movie we went to take neoprints, and just when we reached the shop, the shutters were just coming down. grace and xf went to plead with the shopkeepers, telling them we only wanted to take one shot, so they let us in. but that one shot was FUN! hahaha... we were the only customers inside the shop, so we were laughing and talking loudly. well acty, tt was the most fun i've had in taking neoprints... =)
anyway, tt's all the updating, and well, i've had fun slacking the past few days... how does one get used to slacking? hahahaha.... it's been very absent in my life these days, so i guess i better savour it... hehehe...
bye!
=)
Wednesday, June 30, 2004
blahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblah.... i DUN FEEL LIKE STUDYING ALREADY!!!
tomorrow's the last paper, and my energy's flagging... can't drag myself up from the computer to acty go read the notes on gothic, but... oh well... i still have to... i'll prob just burst out of the hall tml screaming bloody murder after the paper.. haha... all hell's broken loose, coz i'm madd!!!!hmm... on hindsight, forget wat i just said... many wouldnt believe i'm capable of doing tt... frankly, neither am i. haha... =)
one thing i know for sure is, NO MORE LAST MIN STUDYING OF LIT FOR ME. EVER AGAIN. oh man... studying for it at the last minute last nite was pure torture, not to mention stressful. can't remember much. take my advice. lit is not for last min. oh man... i can feel premature white hairs grwoing... and premature aging is so not evident in my family line... guess some new gene just developed halfway today tt;s like gonna be some recessive gene tt will turn dominant if and when i marry someone with a premature ageing gene in his DNA. hahah... so bio rite? it just came out of my memory like some long lost.... memory?
hehe... ok, i'm off teaching my sis how to earn points on the myscenedolls.com website hurul intro-ed on her blog... haha... its so bimbotic its fun! hahahahahahahahah
tomorrow's the last paper, and my energy's flagging... can't drag myself up from the computer to acty go read the notes on gothic, but... oh well... i still have to... i'll prob just burst out of the hall tml screaming bloody murder after the paper.. haha... all hell's broken loose, coz i'm madd!!!!hmm... on hindsight, forget wat i just said... many wouldnt believe i'm capable of doing tt... frankly, neither am i. haha... =)
one thing i know for sure is, NO MORE LAST MIN STUDYING OF LIT FOR ME. EVER AGAIN. oh man... studying for it at the last minute last nite was pure torture, not to mention stressful. can't remember much. take my advice. lit is not for last min. oh man... i can feel premature white hairs grwoing... and premature aging is so not evident in my family line... guess some new gene just developed halfway today tt;s like gonna be some recessive gene tt will turn dominant if and when i marry someone with a premature ageing gene in his DNA. hahah... so bio rite? it just came out of my memory like some long lost.... memory?
hehe... ok, i'm off teaching my sis how to earn points on the myscenedolls.com website hurul intro-ed on her blog... haha... its so bimbotic its fun! hahahahahahahahah
Wednesday, June 23, 2004
hey alvin, thanx so much for ur help in the strike thru thing!!! hahah.... u made it nicer!!!! =)
just chatted with kenette's gf. she's a NICE girl! wow, kenette realyl has good taste man... character nice, face oso nice... hai... oh btw, he's my cousin.. hahah... feel happy for him.. =) oh well, i htink they are a good match acty, both are great ppl, inside and out, and they have brains to complement each other.... xian mu si wo le!!!!!!
oh well... on the heavier side of things, I HAVE TO GET BACK TO WORK. wat a dampener. been slacking sicne this morning... hahahahahaha.... so my conscience is driving me to do work. but first, lunch. bye!
just chatted with kenette's gf. she's a NICE girl! wow, kenette realyl has good taste man... character nice, face oso nice... hai... oh btw, he's my cousin.. hahah... feel happy for him.. =) oh well, i htink they are a good match acty, both are great ppl, inside and out, and they have brains to complement each other.... xian mu si wo le!!!!!!
oh well... on the heavier side of things, I HAVE TO GET BACK TO WORK. wat a dampener. been slacking sicne this morning... hahahahahaha.... so my conscience is driving me to do work. but first, lunch. bye!
Tuesday, June 22, 2004
sometimes i think tt i'm just doing a pre-death struggle. u know, like before a person drowns, they make this last-ditch desperate attempt to keep themselves afloat? yep, i soooo feel like tt... hahaa....
just kinda think there's not much point in studying anymore for the common test, though it would be a lie to say tt i have acty done much. sian. its so sickening lar. cant concentrate, and i'm so dreading the time when i have to go back to sch. *GASP* horror of horrors! it's next week! i guess i shall have to forgo this common test, do the best i can for it and just keep to my long term goal of the prelims and a levels. tts e best i can do at the moment i guess. getting tired. haha... just hope i dun seriously burn out by the end of the year. oh well. i just need to get thru this common test, then i'll contemplate wat i should do until the prelims. it also doesn help tt there are no shows to watch on tv at 7 and 9pm! oh man! its all BORING!!! now i only look forward to tues 8pm's Daddy's Girls (which is like so bimbotic and rather brainless if u ask me, but i watch it coz it doesn need the mind haha) and thurs 1045pm's meteor garden 2. ahahhahahahah. wat a no-life i am.
i seriously can't wait to break out of this cage man. its getting so depressing. haha. but mebbe, once i break out of this cage tt seems to be getting smaller for me, will i find myself in another cage, though this time it's much more spacious, but filled with ppl of even more hidden facades? well.... stay tuned..... ;)
just kinda think there's not much point in studying anymore for the common test, though it would be a lie to say tt i have acty done much. sian. its so sickening lar. cant concentrate, and i'm so dreading the time when i have to go back to sch. *GASP* horror of horrors! it's next week! i guess i shall have to forgo this common test, do the best i can for it and just keep to my long term goal of the prelims and a levels. tts e best i can do at the moment i guess. getting tired. haha... just hope i dun seriously burn out by the end of the year. oh well. i just need to get thru this common test, then i'll contemplate wat i should do until the prelims. it also doesn help tt there are no shows to watch on tv at 7 and 9pm! oh man! its all BORING!!! now i only look forward to tues 8pm's Daddy's Girls (which is like so bimbotic and rather brainless if u ask me, but i watch it coz it doesn need the mind haha) and thurs 1045pm's meteor garden 2. ahahhahahahah. wat a no-life i am.
i seriously can't wait to break out of this cage man. its getting so depressing. haha. but mebbe, once i break out of this cage tt seems to be getting smaller for me, will i find myself in another cage, though this time it's much more spacious, but filled with ppl of even more hidden facades? well.... stay tuned..... ;)
Saturday, June 19, 2004
can't stand studying can't stand studying can't stand studying can't stand studying can't stand studying can't stand studying can't stand studying can't stand studying can't stand studying can't stand studying can't stand studying can't stand studying can't stand studying!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it's like the last week of june hols and i haven finished my revision yet!! oh man!! have a feeling i'm gonna do badly esp for econ... i just looked at the questions mrs loh compiled for us, and i was just thinking that if prelims and A levels are gonna give tt kind of questions, i am so gonna die.
i'm too tired to think or do work anymore. hmm... a little rain and less sun would do a WHOLE WORLD OF GOOD!!!! coz i hate hot weather. i loooooove rainy days... hot weather just makes me wanna sleep the day away, coz it's too hot to be able to do anything else!!! sian we were so close to a thunderstorm yesterday evening, but in the end, there was only very strong wind. -_-" and yes, my mood is still braindead- if u can see the picture.
i just saw my personal horoscope thing which i stupidly signed up for. i so regret it now, coz there was no insightful analysis to my character, but only some self-recommendations and self praise bout the pshychic person herself. now i'm worried if she'll do anything to me. not going to reply to her forms or send in any testimonials though. y the heck was i so stupid to do tt? argh... anyway, astro.com one is not bad though..... guess i just stereotyped everything together.
not looking forward to going back to start work. hate econs.
it's like the last week of june hols and i haven finished my revision yet!! oh man!! have a feeling i'm gonna do badly esp for econ... i just looked at the questions mrs loh compiled for us, and i was just thinking that if prelims and A levels are gonna give tt kind of questions, i am so gonna die.
i'm too tired to think or do work anymore. hmm... a little rain and less sun would do a WHOLE WORLD OF GOOD!!!! coz i hate hot weather. i loooooove rainy days... hot weather just makes me wanna sleep the day away, coz it's too hot to be able to do anything else!!! sian we were so close to a thunderstorm yesterday evening, but in the end, there was only very strong wind. -_-" and yes, my mood is still braindead- if u can see the picture.
i just saw my personal horoscope thing which i stupidly signed up for. i so regret it now, coz there was no insightful analysis to my character, but only some self-recommendations and self praise bout the pshychic person herself. now i'm worried if she'll do anything to me. not going to reply to her forms or send in any testimonials though. y the heck was i so stupid to do tt? argh... anyway, astro.com one is not bad though..... guess i just stereotyped everything together.
not looking forward to going back to start work. hate econs.
Thursday, June 17, 2004
| How to make a Yi Ling |
| Ingredients: 3 parts intelligence 1 part crazyiness 3 parts empathy |
| Method: Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Serve with a slice of sadness and a pinch of salt. Yum! |
Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com
Tuesday, June 15, 2004
i wonder if one should have expectation of wat one wants in a partner in life. some say tt if u have expectations, u are likely not to find someone u will be happy with. u will tend to compare him/her to the image u have in ur mind. the perfect guy/ girl. however, if u dun have any requirements, how do u know when u have met the right one? wat if u are never able to pinpoint y u feel there's something lacking in the relationship?
sometimes i feel i'm like christina rossetti. u know, always looking for the perfect person, and nvr being happy with wat i have... sometimes i really worry if i will ever find someone i feel completely happy with. after all, there isn something as a perfect person in the world. while they may appear perfect, and everything u could ever want in a person, this self-doubt sometimes crops up, like, "is this person for real? he/she is too good to be true!" or sometimes, tt person may conceal himself/herself so well that u are not even aware of anything until it's probably too late. maybe one would be aware of some undercurrents of inconsistency, but never be able to point exactly to wat it is.
maybe wat grace said is right. when a person is too perfect, u cannot trust him/her. they made themselves out to be perfect. in other words, manufactured. i admire frankness in a person, and i guess i would be disillusioned if someone i was interested in was acty wat he was not made out to be. i'd rather a person just was himself, showing his faults as well as his good points. well... wat's the point of hiding the truth? nothing lies under the carpet for long, coz there will be a spring cleaning one day, and all the dirt under the carpet or any other skeletons one might have in his/her closet will be taken out. no one is able to be such a great actor tt they are able to continuously act the same role their whole life 24/7. it's tiring. and one day, the inner self will threaten to burst out. wat happens then? nobody knows.
sometimes i feel i'm like christina rossetti. u know, always looking for the perfect person, and nvr being happy with wat i have... sometimes i really worry if i will ever find someone i feel completely happy with. after all, there isn something as a perfect person in the world. while they may appear perfect, and everything u could ever want in a person, this self-doubt sometimes crops up, like, "is this person for real? he/she is too good to be true!" or sometimes, tt person may conceal himself/herself so well that u are not even aware of anything until it's probably too late. maybe one would be aware of some undercurrents of inconsistency, but never be able to point exactly to wat it is.
maybe wat grace said is right. when a person is too perfect, u cannot trust him/her. they made themselves out to be perfect. in other words, manufactured. i admire frankness in a person, and i guess i would be disillusioned if someone i was interested in was acty wat he was not made out to be. i'd rather a person just was himself, showing his faults as well as his good points. well... wat's the point of hiding the truth? nothing lies under the carpet for long, coz there will be a spring cleaning one day, and all the dirt under the carpet or any other skeletons one might have in his/her closet will be taken out. no one is able to be such a great actor tt they are able to continuously act the same role their whole life 24/7. it's tiring. and one day, the inner self will threaten to burst out. wat happens then? nobody knows.
Sunday, June 13, 2004
i finally found a BEAUTIFUL blogskin!!! hahaa, this is so nice! i love it! hehe...
i hope u can see e pic though, coz it sometimes doesn appear...
been thinking i often give ppl the wrong impression tt i dun wish to mix with them i think... coz i can appear so cold sometimes- at least tt's wat i think... hmm... but the truth of it is, i'm just thinking of other things, or wateva i'm thinking of always like fully consumes my whole attention, so i dun seem to pay attention to wateva is happening around me. it happens ALL the time, i dunno why... it just happens, though i often try to show more enthusiasm when i'm in this kind of mood. i do try to give ppl my attention whenever they speak to me, but sometimes my subconscious takes over and i lapse into tt kind of.... dunno wat u call it.... so, sorry to whoever has felt like tt with me!!!!
anyway, i gtg do work, and likely submerge myself in tt kind of... mindset(?) again... cya!
oh yah, feel free to drop a few lines bout wateva u want on my chatterbox... PLEASE!!!!!!! it's so QUIET!!!!
i hope u can see e pic though, coz it sometimes doesn appear...
been thinking i often give ppl the wrong impression tt i dun wish to mix with them i think... coz i can appear so cold sometimes- at least tt's wat i think... hmm... but the truth of it is, i'm just thinking of other things, or wateva i'm thinking of always like fully consumes my whole attention, so i dun seem to pay attention to wateva is happening around me. it happens ALL the time, i dunno why... it just happens, though i often try to show more enthusiasm when i'm in this kind of mood. i do try to give ppl my attention whenever they speak to me, but sometimes my subconscious takes over and i lapse into tt kind of.... dunno wat u call it.... so, sorry to whoever has felt like tt with me!!!!
anyway, i gtg do work, and likely submerge myself in tt kind of... mindset(?) again... cya!
oh yah, feel free to drop a few lines bout wateva u want on my chatterbox... PLEASE!!!!!!! it's so QUIET!!!!
Thursday, June 10, 2004
been thinking of my blogging style, and i've been slowly coming to the realisation that my writing style is somewhat like one of my friends'. goodness! where's my originality?! where's each person's unique individuality?! i've been toying around with the idea of changing my tone, but in whichever way i come up with, i find tt it just sounds so much like her. well, there are exceptions, of course, like those when i was feeling really bad, u know, the ones on peke (hmm, even those sound so much like her)and, not forgetting, the one on the stupid doctor from grace polyclinic....
i tried going to blogskins just now to look for a new skin, but guess wat? i think many ppl are logging into it now, so it took a REALLY long time to get into the site alone. then, when i wanted to log in, there was another long wait. forget it. i shall bear with this skin first. know y i wanna change this? coz there's no way i can put my chatterbox up here! or rather, i dunno how to do it. i only can do it when the skin says, "place your tagboard here". pathetic, aren't i? oh well........
i will try not to sound melancholic in the future. i realise tt's the tone used in my friend's blog. yes. melancholic and wistful with a touch of added mystery. it's nice sometimes, but when one has read it a few times and finds tt it pervades every or most entries, the tone gets rather questionable. oh man. am i sounding condemning? damn... there isn any maliciousness involved... really! i oso think my blog has touches of this kind of melancholy and wistfulness to it tt kinda sounds like i'm writing an essay in primary sch. oh man....
better stop condemning writing styles. i'm going way off tangent, and i'm working myself into a frenzy. hahaha... anyway, i've taken a long enough break from my revision, so cya!
i tried going to blogskins just now to look for a new skin, but guess wat? i think many ppl are logging into it now, so it took a REALLY long time to get into the site alone. then, when i wanted to log in, there was another long wait. forget it. i shall bear with this skin first. know y i wanna change this? coz there's no way i can put my chatterbox up here! or rather, i dunno how to do it. i only can do it when the skin says, "place your tagboard here". pathetic, aren't i? oh well........
i will try not to sound melancholic in the future. i realise tt's the tone used in my friend's blog. yes. melancholic and wistful with a touch of added mystery. it's nice sometimes, but when one has read it a few times and finds tt it pervades every or most entries, the tone gets rather questionable. oh man. am i sounding condemning? damn... there isn any maliciousness involved... really! i oso think my blog has touches of this kind of melancholy and wistfulness to it tt kinda sounds like i'm writing an essay in primary sch. oh man....
better stop condemning writing styles. i'm going way off tangent, and i'm working myself into a frenzy. hahaha... anyway, i've taken a long enough break from my revision, so cya!
Sunday, June 06, 2004
so sian.. back from a bout of giddiness which had something to do with liquid in my middle ear, making my ears ring and affecting my sense of balance... oh man.. i can't even begin to tell u how HORRIBLE it was... it was like being seasick, only this time, i was unable to keep anything inside my stomach. anthing that went in came back.. i was so hungry! and everytime i turned, the world turned along with me. argh! do u know wat tt meant? tt meant giving up watching Harry Potter 3: The Prisoner of Azkaban. we had booked the tickets somemore!!! then i just had to give up my tickets to yi lun's friend. ARGH!!
come to think of it, it's quite funny... one day i woke up feeling fine and dandy, the next dyai woke up feeling like my world was upside down. goodness! it's like tt A*teens song, Upside Down- "Upside Down, bouncing on the ceiling, inside out, stranger to this feeling". tt feeling was a stranger all right...
-_-"
thank god after a jab my world righted itself, and now i'm OK!!!! YAY! and i finally can catch up on my work. coz of this bout of dizziness i almost couldn make it for the SATs, and i missed quite a lot of catching up with my work. Thanks alot to grace for helping me to collect my work! u're a saviour man! =)
anyway, i'm just so thankful that my world is back where it belongs now, tt i feel quite energetic! hahaa.... i'm serious u know... for the first time, i didn sleep in the afternoon... how great is tt? =) hehe... anyway, i gtg already... bye!
come to think of it, it's quite funny... one day i woke up feeling fine and dandy, the next dyai woke up feeling like my world was upside down. goodness! it's like tt A*teens song, Upside Down- "Upside Down, bouncing on the ceiling, inside out, stranger to this feeling". tt feeling was a stranger all right...
-_-"
thank god after a jab my world righted itself, and now i'm OK!!!! YAY! and i finally can catch up on my work. coz of this bout of dizziness i almost couldn make it for the SATs, and i missed quite a lot of catching up with my work. Thanks alot to grace for helping me to collect my work! u're a saviour man! =)
anyway, i'm just so thankful that my world is back where it belongs now, tt i feel quite energetic! hahaa.... i'm serious u know... for the first time, i didn sleep in the afternoon... how great is tt? =) hehe... anyway, i gtg already... bye!
Monday, May 31, 2004
SO SIAN!!!! i dun feel like going upstairs to help 'supervise' the workers, coz i can't concentrate on my work upstairs!! nooooooooooo, it's not because of the workers, darlings, it's gotta do with the fengshui or something... haha! =)in case u are wondering, nope, there's no eye-candy upstairs ;)
the whole day, i've been trying to do the gp compre mrs tan gave us, and i STILL haven finished... goodness -_-" hah, jus hope i get to finish a satisfactory amt of work by this wk, otherwise i'm gonna scream....
just realised tt i'm gonna have to cut off contact from cyberspace from sept hols onwards, so tt i will be devoid of temptations... hahaha, this is a repression of my spirit, which is channelled into studying for the IMPORTANT (-_-") exams. hopefully, this repression won't rear its ugly head in grotesque forms, like in the form of, say, violence? hahaa.. ok, i'm lame... forget it.... i'm just tokking rubbish to prolong my stay downstairs, so tt i dun have to go up... feel so out of place there... i'm alone! so boring somemore! hai...
anyway, ther's no putting off the inevitable... gtg, cya'll! =)
the whole day, i've been trying to do the gp compre mrs tan gave us, and i STILL haven finished... goodness -_-" hah, jus hope i get to finish a satisfactory amt of work by this wk, otherwise i'm gonna scream....
just realised tt i'm gonna have to cut off contact from cyberspace from sept hols onwards, so tt i will be devoid of temptations... hahaha, this is a repression of my spirit, which is channelled into studying for the IMPORTANT (-_-") exams. hopefully, this repression won't rear its ugly head in grotesque forms, like in the form of, say, violence? hahaa.. ok, i'm lame... forget it.... i'm just tokking rubbish to prolong my stay downstairs, so tt i dun have to go up... feel so out of place there... i'm alone! so boring somemore! hai...
anyway, ther's no putting off the inevitable... gtg, cya'll! =)
Friday, May 28, 2004
tml is GP common test!! ARGH!!! pushed reading thru the materials to now, and i seriously regret it, though i have this nasty suspicion tt i'm gonna repeat the same thing for prelims and As... horrible thought... *shudders*
it's only now tt i realise how much material i didn't read last yr, and man, i think i better constantly read newspapers, though i dunno when i can find time... i know... i'm probably sounding like a busy freak, but i'm serious! i dunno how come i dun have time to read newspapers while everyone around me can. can someone PLEASE tell me?! I'M DESPERATE!!!!
it's ironic, u know, that i find tt i think i can acty do better when i dun read the notes.. they kinda restrict me, but like a typical singaporean, i still feel insecure when i dun read them. argh... haha... it's like the same for the chinese As, when it's like, u know tt it's useless to read thru e chinese words booklet, coz the probability of the words coming out from there is so slim, but u still think u should, in case it does come out. there is tt false sense of security as well... like it works.
-_-" tt's only temporary, i tell u... haha... when u read the question paper, u think, "what the hell did i even waste time reading tt booklet for?!" haha.... oh well, i guess we all need a little security when studying for exams, dun we?
anyway, i gtg liao...
ahaha..... wish me luck for tml! =)
it's only now tt i realise how much material i didn't read last yr, and man, i think i better constantly read newspapers, though i dunno when i can find time... i know... i'm probably sounding like a busy freak, but i'm serious! i dunno how come i dun have time to read newspapers while everyone around me can. can someone PLEASE tell me?! I'M DESPERATE!!!!
it's ironic, u know, that i find tt i think i can acty do better when i dun read the notes.. they kinda restrict me, but like a typical singaporean, i still feel insecure when i dun read them. argh... haha... it's like the same for the chinese As, when it's like, u know tt it's useless to read thru e chinese words booklet, coz the probability of the words coming out from there is so slim, but u still think u should, in case it does come out. there is tt false sense of security as well... like it works.
-_-" tt's only temporary, i tell u... haha... when u read the question paper, u think, "what the hell did i even waste time reading tt booklet for?!" haha.... oh well, i guess we all need a little security when studying for exams, dun we?
anyway, i gtg liao...
ahaha..... wish me luck for tml! =)
Thursday, May 27, 2004
Ahhhhhhhhhh.... holidays are finally here, after 10 weeks!! after sat, i will be FREE!! well, not free exactly, but at least i will be able to wake up later than usual, and HOPEFULLY catch up with my work. haha, goodness knows i'm so far behind in my work.. mrs loh is beginning to get a bad impression of me liao, better buck up...
well, today we had to draw diagrams for econ, and i drew 2 extra diagrams which are totally redundant in the question!! argh! but my argument was somewhat on the right track, just tt mine was the last transparency she put up, so she assumed everything else was just like the previous person's (well, our diagrams were the same... haha.. ) and did not look at my argument... sigh... haha...
nvm... will make my comeback next term, where i will make sure she changes her mind bout me... haha, that is, hopefully, of course, so wish me luck! =) i just hope i do manage to complete my revision in time... =)
hai... not looking forward to the Rossetti essay i'm gonna have to do tonight... it's another troublesom essay! but then again, when have essays never been troublesome? i just have to get it done asap, then i will be able to enjoy tv in peace!!! yay!!!
i just wonder who's gonna win the American Idol tonight. while Fantasia is a great singer, her fan base isnt really as big as Diana's, i think. Diana is cute, but she cannot really sing. well, she can, but last night's performance was not really good. her song last week, "Don't Cry Out Loud", was sensational, but when she sang it last night, it was disappointing. her voice broke a few times due to nerves i think... hmm... it isn easy to be an idol.. u have to please everyone... *looks pensive* i dun really know who i want to win either, coz i like them equally, haha...
i wanna watch so many movies!! was supposed to watch Shrek 2 with yi lun tml, but she has the soccer finals tml.. hai... troy looks good, van helsing too, and of course, can't wait to watch harry potter!!!!!haha... just hope i have enough money to watch them, or is anyone gonna treat me? *bats eyelashes*
well, today we had to draw diagrams for econ, and i drew 2 extra diagrams which are totally redundant in the question!! argh! but my argument was somewhat on the right track, just tt mine was the last transparency she put up, so she assumed everything else was just like the previous person's (well, our diagrams were the same... haha.. ) and did not look at my argument... sigh... haha...
nvm... will make my comeback next term, where i will make sure she changes her mind bout me... haha, that is, hopefully, of course, so wish me luck! =) i just hope i do manage to complete my revision in time... =)
hai... not looking forward to the Rossetti essay i'm gonna have to do tonight... it's another troublesom essay! but then again, when have essays never been troublesome? i just have to get it done asap, then i will be able to enjoy tv in peace!!! yay!!!
i just wonder who's gonna win the American Idol tonight. while Fantasia is a great singer, her fan base isnt really as big as Diana's, i think. Diana is cute, but she cannot really sing. well, she can, but last night's performance was not really good. her song last week, "Don't Cry Out Loud", was sensational, but when she sang it last night, it was disappointing. her voice broke a few times due to nerves i think... hmm... it isn easy to be an idol.. u have to please everyone... *looks pensive* i dun really know who i want to win either, coz i like them equally, haha...
i wanna watch so many movies!! was supposed to watch Shrek 2 with yi lun tml, but she has the soccer finals tml.. hai... troy looks good, van helsing too, and of course, can't wait to watch harry potter!!!!!haha... just hope i have enough money to watch them, or is anyone gonna treat me? *bats eyelashes*
Sunday, May 23, 2004
Haha... i'm feeling quite smug at the moment, coz i've just completed the most horrible of all essays- the A&C essay!! yay!! haha... i wasnt looking forward to doing it AT ALL, firstly coz i have absolutely ZERO confidence in doing well for it (which reduces my enthusiasm by a significant amount), and secondly coz it's a loooong essay with many aspects. come on! the question was asking for so many things! the question was 'Examine the exact nature of Cleopatra’s “infinite variety”. Is she a great queen or merely a “triple-turned whore”?'. If i really get this kind of question for the A levels, i'm seriously just gonna slam the paper on the table and start bawling... haha... am i making u cringe at tt thought? hehe, it's food for thought, though, coz it just occurred to me how much reading up i have to do just for lit alone, and add to tt math and econ also need an equal amount of attention. OH MAN!!!! HOW DO I LIVE?! to make things worse, while doing the essay just now and planning the Rossetti essay (also another headache one)last night, i realised how much i dunno my texts, especially for Rossetti. argh... i think i should seriously listen to Reynolds, and start reading one Rossetti essay a day... haha...
anyway, just came online to voice all these out, and i thnk i feel SLIGHTLY better... haha, jus tt there's still a mountain of work left... 4 essay outlines for GP to do, a DR for econ, and math assignment!!!! ARGH!!! HELP!!!
anyway, just came online to voice all these out, and i thnk i feel SLIGHTLY better... haha, jus tt there's still a mountain of work left... 4 essay outlines for GP to do, a DR for econ, and math assignment!!!! ARGH!!! HELP!!!
Tuesday, May 18, 2004
i miss peke, but i think i've got over the sadness... it's just that whenever i think about his last moments, tears just come into my eyes and i will feel like crying. perhaps it seems like i am over-reacting, but well, all i can say is, watever. i dun really expect others to understand (hmm... no offenses intended), coz this is like something one has to experience to feel the real pain. imagining it is usually not enough, not unless u acty have a great imagination....
anyway, i just realised tt the reason y my proposal for cip at the library hasn been approved yet. the tr in charge nvre even received the modified proposal! oh man! i just hope the letter from nlb to the school was received and kept properly, otherwise i'll just sit down on the floor in the middle of the foyer in school and bawl my eyes out!!! coz tt would mean that i have to make another 2 or more trips down to the library to find e person in charge and get her to write a letter again and THEN go down and collect it again. and from the timetable, when can i do tt?!
argh... just sounding so pitiful now... haha... indulge me... =)
anyway, THANKS to ALVIN my cousin!!! THANK U THANK U THANK U!! haha... without his help, i think i'd still not be able to modify the stupid thing...
ARGH!! u know wat?! just as i was thanking alvin and going over the moon with the fact tt i am finally able to modify the proposal, there was a BROWSER ERROR. can u believe my luck?! to do all these and have tt?!
WATEVER.
feel like gg to mrs yoong again tml and telling her bout it again. argh. i wanna get this thing done and over with! my cip hours are still at 11.5 hours, and it's getting kinda too late to start signing up for cips to boost my hours.....
anyway, i just realised tt the reason y my proposal for cip at the library hasn been approved yet. the tr in charge nvre even received the modified proposal! oh man! i just hope the letter from nlb to the school was received and kept properly, otherwise i'll just sit down on the floor in the middle of the foyer in school and bawl my eyes out!!! coz tt would mean that i have to make another 2 or more trips down to the library to find e person in charge and get her to write a letter again and THEN go down and collect it again. and from the timetable, when can i do tt?!
argh... just sounding so pitiful now... haha... indulge me... =)
anyway, THANKS to ALVIN my cousin!!! THANK U THANK U THANK U!! haha... without his help, i think i'd still not be able to modify the stupid thing...
ARGH!! u know wat?! just as i was thanking alvin and going over the moon with the fact tt i am finally able to modify the proposal, there was a BROWSER ERROR. can u believe my luck?! to do all these and have tt?!
WATEVER.
feel like gg to mrs yoong again tml and telling her bout it again. argh. i wanna get this thing done and over with! my cip hours are still at 11.5 hours, and it's getting kinda too late to start signing up for cips to boost my hours.....
Friday, May 14, 2004
God Must Have Spent a Little More Time on You
Yeah....
Oh yes
Ohhh..yeah..
Can this be true?
Tell me, can this be real?
How can I put into words what I feel?
My life was complete
I thought I was whole
Why do I feel like I'm losing control?
I never thought that love could feel like this
and you've changed my world with just one kiss.
How can it be that right here with me
there's an angel?
It's a miracle...
Your love is like a river
Peaceful and deep
Your soul is like a secret
That I never could keep
When I look into your eyes
I know that it's true
God must have spent...
A little more time
On you...
(A little more time, yes he did baby)
In all of creation
All things great and small
You are the one that surpasses them all
More precious than
Any diamond or pearl
They broke the mold
When you came in this world
And I'm trying hard to figure out
Just how I ever did without
The warmth of your smile
The heart of a child
That's deep inside
Leaves me purified
Your love is like a river
Peaceful and deep (and deep)
Your soul is like a secret
That I never could keep
When I look into your eyes
I know that it's true
God must of spent...
A little more time
On you...
(on you, on you, on you, you....on you, on you, on you, you..) ohhh...
(on you, on you, on you, you....on you, on you, on you, you..) yeah...
Never thought that love could feel like this
and you changed my world with just one kiss.
How can it be that right here with me
There's an angel?
It's a miracle...
Your love is like a river
Peaceful and deep (peaceful and deep)
Your soul is like a secret
That I never could keep
When I look into your eyes
I know that it's true
God must of spent...
A little more time
On you...
(on you, on you, on you, you..)
God must of spent...
A little more time
on you
(on you, on you..you....you..oooh..yeah)
A little more time
on you...ohhh
thank you, peke
Yeah....
Oh yes
Ohhh..yeah..
Can this be true?
Tell me, can this be real?
How can I put into words what I feel?
My life was complete
I thought I was whole
Why do I feel like I'm losing control?
I never thought that love could feel like this
and you've changed my world with just one kiss.
How can it be that right here with me
there's an angel?
It's a miracle...
Your love is like a river
Peaceful and deep
Your soul is like a secret
That I never could keep
When I look into your eyes
I know that it's true
God must have spent...
A little more time
On you...
(A little more time, yes he did baby)
In all of creation
All things great and small
You are the one that surpasses them all
More precious than
Any diamond or pearl
They broke the mold
When you came in this world
And I'm trying hard to figure out
Just how I ever did without
The warmth of your smile
The heart of a child
That's deep inside
Leaves me purified
Your love is like a river
Peaceful and deep (and deep)
Your soul is like a secret
That I never could keep
When I look into your eyes
I know that it's true
God must of spent...
A little more time
On you...
(on you, on you, on you, you....on you, on you, on you, you..) ohhh...
(on you, on you, on you, you....on you, on you, on you, you..) yeah...
Never thought that love could feel like this
and you changed my world with just one kiss.
How can it be that right here with me
There's an angel?
It's a miracle...
Your love is like a river
Peaceful and deep (peaceful and deep)
Your soul is like a secret
That I never could keep
When I look into your eyes
I know that it's true
God must of spent...
A little more time
On you...
(on you, on you, on you, you..)
God must of spent...
A little more time
on you
(on you, on you..you....you..oooh..yeah)
A little more time
on you...ohhh
thank you, peke
been thinking of peke the whole day today. i was just thinking bout all the things he did, the silly antics he always came up with, and how he always managed to charm all of us into sneaking food to him.
i remember the time when i dropped a cube of ice on the kitchen floor. being the greedy dog he was, he rushed towards it, trying to get it into his mouth. alas! it was too cold and slippery, and it came out of his mouth again. he tried again and again, at different angles, but to no avail. it seemed like he was developing strategies to get the ice cube, coz he kept trying to catch it 'off-guard'.
i remember how he always looked when we brought him downstairs for his walks. he was always so excited, rushing around us like trying to make us go faster, the bliss on his face as he relieved himself, and the way he looked like a little furry ball jumping among the tall grass.
i remember how he always went into hiding under the table whenever he committed a 'crime'. he would hide under and refuse to come out. papa used to use food to tempt him to come out so tt he could teach him a lesson, and it worked a few times, until one day, it didn work anymore. how we all laughed to see that! peke was really very smart. he learnt things fast. he tried to escape punishments, but somehow, he always nvr escaped. it's so sad. but he had a forgiving nature. though papa always whacked him, he nvr stopped trying to get close to him.
now, i look at all the markings on the marble floor in my house, and i remember how he vomitted on them. they are the marks left behind by him.
we used to scold him for committing ' crimes', but we nvr ever meant it. they were all said and done, and things were forgotten the next moment. isn this like family? we may quarrel and fight, but at the end of the day, our ties still hold us together. this is the same for peke. he's family.
i remember the time when i dropped a cube of ice on the kitchen floor. being the greedy dog he was, he rushed towards it, trying to get it into his mouth. alas! it was too cold and slippery, and it came out of his mouth again. he tried again and again, at different angles, but to no avail. it seemed like he was developing strategies to get the ice cube, coz he kept trying to catch it 'off-guard'.
i remember how he always looked when we brought him downstairs for his walks. he was always so excited, rushing around us like trying to make us go faster, the bliss on his face as he relieved himself, and the way he looked like a little furry ball jumping among the tall grass.
i remember how he always went into hiding under the table whenever he committed a 'crime'. he would hide under and refuse to come out. papa used to use food to tempt him to come out so tt he could teach him a lesson, and it worked a few times, until one day, it didn work anymore. how we all laughed to see that! peke was really very smart. he learnt things fast. he tried to escape punishments, but somehow, he always nvr escaped. it's so sad. but he had a forgiving nature. though papa always whacked him, he nvr stopped trying to get close to him.
now, i look at all the markings on the marble floor in my house, and i remember how he vomitted on them. they are the marks left behind by him.
we used to scold him for committing ' crimes', but we nvr ever meant it. they were all said and done, and things were forgotten the next moment. isn this like family? we may quarrel and fight, but at the end of the day, our ties still hold us together. this is the same for peke. he's family.
Thursday, May 13, 2004
peke died just now.
no. he didn die. he passed away. there is a difference btw dying and passing away. dying sounds undignified and dying without any loved ones and not peacefully. passing away sounds nicer, and more peaceful. at least, we hope it was peaceful.
he died of kidney failure. it was at the last stage, and all i wanna do is to kick myself for not stroking him more, for not paying more attention to him, for not taking photos or videos with him. u see, i assumed. i assumed he was gonna stay for a long long time. i thot he would nvr die. u see, i made an ass out of u and me.
he lost a lot of weight. drastically. we all thot it was just fussiness on his part. he wasnt active. we thot he was just being proud. we were wrong. he was sick. he started vomitting blood, and we all thot it was just temporary. how wrong we were.
i know it's too late to blame anyone, but i think it's pedigree's fault. u know why? the plant in thailand was found to have mould on the food. and the vet immediately asked my sis if she had heard about the pedigree case.
anyway, it's too late. we must learn from our lesson.
peke was losing temperature and weight fast. his liver was gg down, and his kidneys were spoiled. i just wish we could have brought him to the vet more regularly. see! this just shows we can't take the people around us for granted. yes, i treat peke as a human. he has human characteristics. just tt he can't tok. so wat? he's much more sensible and generous than we can ever imagine. he was there when i needed a shoukder to cry on, he was there when i had problems, he has been there for me thru these 8 yrs. but i think the one who should feel the saddest is evon.
she did the most for him. she cared for him when he was sick. she prepared food for him when food ran out. she bathed him when he became smelly. she was like his mother, more than any of us. i think, peke trusted her the most, and tt he knew she already did her best by him. she was the one who was unselfish enough to persuade papa to go to the vet. she knew it was time to let him go.
i was selfish. i hid behind a wall of self-delusion, thinking tt as long as peke wasnt sent to the vet, he would be ok. i wanted him alive because i didn want to be sad. evon wanted him to pass on simply because she loved him.
"If you love someone, set him free". that's wat she did. it's the hardest thing anyone can do, to let go of a loved one just so he/she will be better off. i admire that. though she's younger than me, i do have to learn tt from her.
evon, i'm proud of u.
peke, always remember that u are the best friend and brother anyone could have. i hope u will be happy wherever u are, away from ur pain already, and that always remember that we will love u and remember u. be happy.
no. he didn die. he passed away. there is a difference btw dying and passing away. dying sounds undignified and dying without any loved ones and not peacefully. passing away sounds nicer, and more peaceful. at least, we hope it was peaceful.
he died of kidney failure. it was at the last stage, and all i wanna do is to kick myself for not stroking him more, for not paying more attention to him, for not taking photos or videos with him. u see, i assumed. i assumed he was gonna stay for a long long time. i thot he would nvr die. u see, i made an ass out of u and me.
he lost a lot of weight. drastically. we all thot it was just fussiness on his part. he wasnt active. we thot he was just being proud. we were wrong. he was sick. he started vomitting blood, and we all thot it was just temporary. how wrong we were.
i know it's too late to blame anyone, but i think it's pedigree's fault. u know why? the plant in thailand was found to have mould on the food. and the vet immediately asked my sis if she had heard about the pedigree case.
anyway, it's too late. we must learn from our lesson.
peke was losing temperature and weight fast. his liver was gg down, and his kidneys were spoiled. i just wish we could have brought him to the vet more regularly. see! this just shows we can't take the people around us for granted. yes, i treat peke as a human. he has human characteristics. just tt he can't tok. so wat? he's much more sensible and generous than we can ever imagine. he was there when i needed a shoukder to cry on, he was there when i had problems, he has been there for me thru these 8 yrs. but i think the one who should feel the saddest is evon.
she did the most for him. she cared for him when he was sick. she prepared food for him when food ran out. she bathed him when he became smelly. she was like his mother, more than any of us. i think, peke trusted her the most, and tt he knew she already did her best by him. she was the one who was unselfish enough to persuade papa to go to the vet. she knew it was time to let him go.
i was selfish. i hid behind a wall of self-delusion, thinking tt as long as peke wasnt sent to the vet, he would be ok. i wanted him alive because i didn want to be sad. evon wanted him to pass on simply because she loved him.
"If you love someone, set him free". that's wat she did. it's the hardest thing anyone can do, to let go of a loved one just so he/she will be better off. i admire that. though she's younger than me, i do have to learn tt from her.
evon, i'm proud of u.
peke, always remember that u are the best friend and brother anyone could have. i hope u will be happy wherever u are, away from ur pain already, and that always remember that we will love u and remember u. be happy.
Wednesday, May 12, 2004
haha... went for the sea carnival heats today. it was quite fun acty, with like bout 1/3 of our class taking part... haha... we took part in the dragonboating, together with A05. though we lost, it was a good experience, and good training for my left arm, which has been lying dormant. hee...=)quite fun too, acty.. ;)
hehe, we saw yummy in yummy clothes! heh, jun and hurul didn believe how yummy yummy was until they saw him like tt. heh,they were like, "whoa, yummy is really yummy". haha... he can join manhunt u know, got the physique, and i hear the character as well. haha... =)
there was one thing though. i feel rather bad bout the relay thing. u see, i knew we had to paddle to the shore, but when we reached the orange balls, i saw ppl like turning lidat, so i turned. it didn occur to me tt they were just probably losing control of the boat. DAMN! then we were disqualified. my teammates (grace, hurul, jas, jun, and jiun pey) weren't upset with me, but i still feel tt i let them down. can u imagine?! first person to do the relay and b4 anyone else could get the chance to kayak, i spoilt it for them. argh. anyway, they said dun think bout it, but i gotta get it out of my chest. after this, chapter closed. dun be a follower anymore. argh. look where tt got me.
but there's safety in numbers, u know? like when there are many ppl doing something, u somehow feel as if u are doing e right thing, and u are not as scared to do it anymore? yep, tt prob explains y i'm often more of a follower than a leader. trying to develop more character for myself, though i think it's quite hard. the hardest thing anyone can do is to change one's natural instincts and character.
wat am i doing here? hai... i should be reading thru the econ, but i dun seem to have anymore energy. haha... i just wanna sleep! should i watch american idol? they are now down to the top 4. personally, i think jasmine trias should have been out long ago, instead of geroge huff. just coz of one performance, the contestants get kicked out? tt happened with jennifer hudson. u can't say she hasn got talent. look at the uproar her elimination caused! fantasia even said, "you are MY American Idol!!" ah well, i guess it's fate. some things just cant be forced. jus like i have to face the fact tt i have to go read econ now. argh.
the price of rationality.
insanity.
hehe, we saw yummy in yummy clothes! heh, jun and hurul didn believe how yummy yummy was until they saw him like tt. heh,they were like, "whoa, yummy is really yummy". haha... he can join manhunt u know, got the physique, and i hear the character as well. haha... =)
there was one thing though. i feel rather bad bout the relay thing. u see, i knew we had to paddle to the shore, but when we reached the orange balls, i saw ppl like turning lidat, so i turned. it didn occur to me tt they were just probably losing control of the boat. DAMN! then we were disqualified. my teammates (grace, hurul, jas, jun, and jiun pey) weren't upset with me, but i still feel tt i let them down. can u imagine?! first person to do the relay and b4 anyone else could get the chance to kayak, i spoilt it for them. argh. anyway, they said dun think bout it, but i gotta get it out of my chest. after this, chapter closed. dun be a follower anymore. argh. look where tt got me.
but there's safety in numbers, u know? like when there are many ppl doing something, u somehow feel as if u are doing e right thing, and u are not as scared to do it anymore? yep, tt prob explains y i'm often more of a follower than a leader. trying to develop more character for myself, though i think it's quite hard. the hardest thing anyone can do is to change one's natural instincts and character.
wat am i doing here? hai... i should be reading thru the econ, but i dun seem to have anymore energy. haha... i just wanna sleep! should i watch american idol? they are now down to the top 4. personally, i think jasmine trias should have been out long ago, instead of geroge huff. just coz of one performance, the contestants get kicked out? tt happened with jennifer hudson. u can't say she hasn got talent. look at the uproar her elimination caused! fantasia even said, "you are MY American Idol!!" ah well, i guess it's fate. some things just cant be forced. jus like i have to face the fact tt i have to go read econ now. argh.
the price of rationality.
insanity.
Tuesday, May 11, 2004
AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! i can't stand it anymore!!! hate hate hate hate doing homework!!!!!stupid stupid!!!! i'm soooo friggin sleepy now!!!!!!!! but if i dun do these stupid stories, i'm gonna have to rush thru them tml, and there's econ case studies!! there's so much to read thru and she wants it done by thurs?! wat madness is tt? is there even like 48 hours in a day?! if there is SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME, cos i'm DYING here!!!! but anyway, even if there was, most of the time would AGAIN be taken over by hw. wats so damn new?! school would take up like 12 hrs, bout 1/4 of our friggin time. argh!!!!! i need to revise my maths!!!!! it's so cock up now lor....
heh... i sound like i'm on the verge of throwing everything around eh? well, i cant though, coz everything's so heavy, and i'm still too rational to do tt. i think tt;s wat i am. too rational. tt's y i seem to have such control over my behaviour. but sometimes it just gets so hard to hold on to tt rationality, i just wanna snap. on the other hand, my rationality would step in and tell me tt if i do tt, the consequences are gonna be ugly, so i dun do it. ironic, isn it? one moment i'm gonna snap, and the next my rationality takes over. i dun really know wat i am... so full of contradictions... haha...
it's not tt i had a bad day today.. serious! in fact, other than the weather, my day has been fine. napfa went according to wat i had planned- got a silver, which i started aiming for ever since my 2.4 got a D... and my sit and reach and shuttle run were better than i expected.... =) guess it was just some little spontaneous little burst of frustration just now, coupled with the wonderful little nagging conscience that i haven put in much effort for my SAT and GP, the subjects tt need my attention at the moment. WONDERFUL! just wat i need to spice my life up. a guilty conscience. over GP and SAT. after doing the GP quiz.
our lives are just so bloody intertwined around work, school, bloody scholarships and climbing up to the tallest ladders of our careers, only to act as baits for other ppl to pull down. is this wat life is? if so, i might as well go be a nun. argh.
heh... i sound like i'm on the verge of throwing everything around eh? well, i cant though, coz everything's so heavy, and i'm still too rational to do tt. i think tt;s wat i am. too rational. tt's y i seem to have such control over my behaviour. but sometimes it just gets so hard to hold on to tt rationality, i just wanna snap. on the other hand, my rationality would step in and tell me tt if i do tt, the consequences are gonna be ugly, so i dun do it. ironic, isn it? one moment i'm gonna snap, and the next my rationality takes over. i dun really know wat i am... so full of contradictions... haha...
it's not tt i had a bad day today.. serious! in fact, other than the weather, my day has been fine. napfa went according to wat i had planned- got a silver, which i started aiming for ever since my 2.4 got a D... and my sit and reach and shuttle run were better than i expected.... =) guess it was just some little spontaneous little burst of frustration just now, coupled with the wonderful little nagging conscience that i haven put in much effort for my SAT and GP, the subjects tt need my attention at the moment. WONDERFUL! just wat i need to spice my life up. a guilty conscience. over GP and SAT. after doing the GP quiz.
our lives are just so bloody intertwined around work, school, bloody scholarships and climbing up to the tallest ladders of our careers, only to act as baits for other ppl to pull down. is this wat life is? if so, i might as well go be a nun. argh.
Monday, May 10, 2004
we just went thru this poem in Lit today. i kinda like it, though i can't esactly put my finger as to why i like it. maybe coz the tone of it is so elusive? as in one can read it as a love poem , but in a way, it can read as a poem of defiance to the people of the poet's time. u see, this poem was written at a time when there was a rift btw the Protestants and the cavaliers. the Protestants believed in not having a monarchy, while the cavaliers supported the King. this guy, Richard Lovelace, was one such cavalier, and he got thrown into prison because he was singing the praises of the king. well... hope it's enough background for u to read it! =)
Song, to Althea, from Prison
When Love with unconfined wings
Hovers within my gates,
And my divine Althea brings
To whisper at the grates;
When I live tangled in her hair,
And fetter'd to her eye,
the gods that wanton in the air
Know no such liberty.
When flowing cups runs swiftly round
With no allaying Thames, Our careless heads with roses bound,
Our hearts with loyal flames;
When thirsty grief in wine we steep,
When healths and draughts go free,
Fishes that tipple in the deep
Know no such liberty.
When like committed linnets, I
With shrill throat shall sing
The sweetness, mercy, majesty
And glories of my king;
When I shall voice aloud how good
He is, how great should be;
Enlarged wings that curl the flood
Know no such liberty.
Stone walls do not a prison make,
Nor iron bars a cage;
Minds innocent and quiet take
That for a hermitage;
If i have freedom in my love,
And in my sould am free,
Angels alone that soar above
Enjoy such liberty.
Richard Lovelace, (1618-1657)
Song, to Althea, from Prison
When Love with unconfined wings
Hovers within my gates,
And my divine Althea brings
To whisper at the grates;
When I live tangled in her hair,
And fetter'd to her eye,
the gods that wanton in the air
Know no such liberty.
When flowing cups runs swiftly round
With no allaying Thames, Our careless heads with roses bound,
Our hearts with loyal flames;
When thirsty grief in wine we steep,
When healths and draughts go free,
Fishes that tipple in the deep
Know no such liberty.
When like committed linnets, I
With shrill throat shall sing
The sweetness, mercy, majesty
And glories of my king;
When I shall voice aloud how good
He is, how great should be;
Enlarged wings that curl the flood
Know no such liberty.
Stone walls do not a prison make,
Nor iron bars a cage;
Minds innocent and quiet take
That for a hermitage;
If i have freedom in my love,
And in my sould am free,
Angels alone that soar above
Enjoy such liberty.
Richard Lovelace, (1618-1657)
Saturday, May 08, 2004
AFFIRMATION - Savage Garden:
I believe the sun should never set upon an argument,
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands.
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you,
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do.
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem,
I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone.
I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned,
I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned.
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side,
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye.
I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality,
I believe that trust is more important than monogamy.
I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul,
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold.
I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair,
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires.
I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned,
I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned.
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side,
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye.
I believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness,
I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed.
I believe that God does not endorse TV evangelists,
I believe in love surviving death into eternity.
I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned,
I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned.
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side,
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye.
I believe the sun should never set upon an argument,
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands.
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you,
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do.
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem,
I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone.
I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned,
I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned.
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side,
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye.
I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality,
I believe that trust is more important than monogamy.
I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul,
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold.
I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair,
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires.
I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned,
I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned.
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side,
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye.
I believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness,
I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed.
I believe that God does not endorse TV evangelists,
I believe in love surviving death into eternity.
I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned,
I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned.
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side,
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye.
Friday, May 07, 2004
Oh. My. God. just went to watch Passion of the Christ just now with Xinyi. been wanting to watch tt movie for a loooong time, and had a hard time persuading my parents to let me go.... oooh, it blew me away! contrary to wat xinyi thinks about it (DUN believe wat she says. hers is a biased account, because she is scared of gore... hee... )
it was full of blood and violence, yes, but it was also touching. i'm seldom touched by all these, and i NEVER cry at cinemas, but this time, the scenes got to me. yep, i cried at the violence parts, coz it was just too painful. it was the same as watching it first-hand, u know? like u were a witness there. anyway, the violence tt Jesus went thru is simply unbearable for humans, and he showed great strength in going thru with all of it. do u know, they whipped him, not only with canes of different thickness, but also these rod-like things with tiny hooks chained onto them. when they are used to whack a person, these hooks will claw e victim's flesh. tt happened to Jesus, and there was an instant when the hooks got caught in his flesh. the guy just pulled it out mercilessly, and he was at an angle tt would PULL OUT the most flesh. OH MAN! just watching it made me cry. no, i didn just bawl my eyes out on the spot like SOMEBODY expected me to do... tears just rolled out... the soldiers were enjoying every single torturous minute of it. when blood splashed onto their faces, they laughed with satisfaction and happiness. should i say with a sort of orgasmic glee? i swear, it was like they were obtaining some sort opf pleasure (bordering on sexual) with all the shouts and satisfaction u could hear from them.
another time when i cried was when Jesus could not stand the weight of the corss anymore and fell down. his mother was nearby, and tt reminded her of a time during his childhood when he had fallen down and she had rushed to him in the same way she was rushing to him at that moment. only this time, there was no way she could cradle him in her arms and comfort him. this time, there is no consolation, only the fact tt Jesus knew wat he was doing was to clear the sins of the people. even then, when he said, "Look, Mama, I'm making them all new again" it was just so heart wrenching! there was this childlike innocence in that sentence alone, that hope that everything would be all right again, once he had goen thru his trials.
the heart-wrenching parts didn end there. there was another one when the soldiers were hammering the nails into Jesus. You could really hear the bones in Jesus' palms and ankle breaking, and the blood was spurting everywhere. one doesn have to acty experience it to know the pain. u just have to look. the worst thing was, the soldiers enjoyed it. you could see from the grins on their faces, the laughs they were having, and the sneers that were on their faces when they were nailing Jesus. one of them even deliberately pulled Jesus' arm towards a point tt was impossible to reach, and in the end, the arm was pulled out of its socket. tok about malice and sadism. they absolutely ENJOYED torturing. it was just so...... so pititful and... sad, the way Jesus was tortured by them...i know... sad is too general a term to describe this, but it's like, i can't seem to find any other words to describe this.
now i really understand y in Angela Carter's "Peter and the Wolf", Peter always lashed himself on Good Friday. it was to clear his sins and to experience the same kind of pain Jesus went thru, to remind himself of the ordeal god went thru to salvage the ppl.
however, while the movie let us feel the pain and humiliation Jesus went thru, there was not really much feeling of his love for his people, despite his repeated cries of anguish, telling God, his Father, "Father, forgive them! They do not know what they are doing!". although this was supposed to demonstrate God's benevolent and generous love, there was no feeling coming thru. in the aftermath of the movie, that is wat i realised about it. perhaps tt was y the movie did not get the full 5 stars from LIFE!.
despite the above criticism, i still feel this movie is worth watching, whether one is a Christian or not. i'm not a christian, but i enjoyed the movie. i found it v touching and... in a way, it reaches the hearts of viewers thru the violence and gore of the scenes.
it was full of blood and violence, yes, but it was also touching. i'm seldom touched by all these, and i NEVER cry at cinemas, but this time, the scenes got to me. yep, i cried at the violence parts, coz it was just too painful. it was the same as watching it first-hand, u know? like u were a witness there. anyway, the violence tt Jesus went thru is simply unbearable for humans, and he showed great strength in going thru with all of it. do u know, they whipped him, not only with canes of different thickness, but also these rod-like things with tiny hooks chained onto them. when they are used to whack a person, these hooks will claw e victim's flesh. tt happened to Jesus, and there was an instant when the hooks got caught in his flesh. the guy just pulled it out mercilessly, and he was at an angle tt would PULL OUT the most flesh. OH MAN! just watching it made me cry. no, i didn just bawl my eyes out on the spot like SOMEBODY expected me to do... tears just rolled out... the soldiers were enjoying every single torturous minute of it. when blood splashed onto their faces, they laughed with satisfaction and happiness. should i say with a sort of orgasmic glee? i swear, it was like they were obtaining some sort opf pleasure (bordering on sexual) with all the shouts and satisfaction u could hear from them.
another time when i cried was when Jesus could not stand the weight of the corss anymore and fell down. his mother was nearby, and tt reminded her of a time during his childhood when he had fallen down and she had rushed to him in the same way she was rushing to him at that moment. only this time, there was no way she could cradle him in her arms and comfort him. this time, there is no consolation, only the fact tt Jesus knew wat he was doing was to clear the sins of the people. even then, when he said, "Look, Mama, I'm making them all new again" it was just so heart wrenching! there was this childlike innocence in that sentence alone, that hope that everything would be all right again, once he had goen thru his trials.
the heart-wrenching parts didn end there. there was another one when the soldiers were hammering the nails into Jesus. You could really hear the bones in Jesus' palms and ankle breaking, and the blood was spurting everywhere. one doesn have to acty experience it to know the pain. u just have to look. the worst thing was, the soldiers enjoyed it. you could see from the grins on their faces, the laughs they were having, and the sneers that were on their faces when they were nailing Jesus. one of them even deliberately pulled Jesus' arm towards a point tt was impossible to reach, and in the end, the arm was pulled out of its socket. tok about malice and sadism. they absolutely ENJOYED torturing. it was just so...... so pititful and... sad, the way Jesus was tortured by them...i know... sad is too general a term to describe this, but it's like, i can't seem to find any other words to describe this.
now i really understand y in Angela Carter's "Peter and the Wolf", Peter always lashed himself on Good Friday. it was to clear his sins and to experience the same kind of pain Jesus went thru, to remind himself of the ordeal god went thru to salvage the ppl.
however, while the movie let us feel the pain and humiliation Jesus went thru, there was not really much feeling of his love for his people, despite his repeated cries of anguish, telling God, his Father, "Father, forgive them! They do not know what they are doing!". although this was supposed to demonstrate God's benevolent and generous love, there was no feeling coming thru. in the aftermath of the movie, that is wat i realised about it. perhaps tt was y the movie did not get the full 5 stars from LIFE!.
despite the above criticism, i still feel this movie is worth watching, whether one is a Christian or not. i'm not a christian, but i enjoyed the movie. i found it v touching and... in a way, it reaches the hearts of viewers thru the violence and gore of the scenes.
Wednesday, May 05, 2004
oh my god!! i feel SOOOOOOOOOO guilty!!! i just kicked my dog in the eye!!! goodness.... there's already something wrong with his eye and i JUST had to kick it... but well... not say i want to say lar, but i just say lar, it's not really my fault lor.. the whole livning room and corridor was so dark, and he usually stays under the dining table, how would i know he was lying in the middle of the corridor? then again, i could have switched on the lights, couldn i? well.... soemthing was telling me to switch on the lights, but it was just PLAIN LAZINESS on my part... -_-" have u ever experienced something like this? like something telling u to do something, but u ignore it, but when tt thing really happens, u go," aiyah! i should have done this! something was telling me to do this!!!" well, yah, it ALWAYS happens to me, and i ALWAYS never learn from it, coz the feeling is so absurd. talk about having a sixth sense and not using it. -_-"
getting worried about peke though. he hasn been eating much, but he has been vomitting alot. some of his vomits are dark brown. my sis says he even vomitted blood once. oh man.... to add on to this, he still can afford to be fussy! we gave him meat mixed with rice, and he ONLY ATE THE MEAT, leaving behind the rice! if there's any fussier eater, it's peke. he's already skin and bones (and yah, fur), and yet he still chooses his food?! come on! we are trying to help him!! does he appreciate it? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO *shakes head vehemently*
well, yah, tt's abt it... alot more things i'd love to blog here, but looking at the time........ it doesn't permit me to do so. still have to decipher Poe's 3 stories, and write a log abt them, and do their post tut for last wk. thank god less than one story was discussed... hehe... =)
getting worried about peke though. he hasn been eating much, but he has been vomitting alot. some of his vomits are dark brown. my sis says he even vomitted blood once. oh man.... to add on to this, he still can afford to be fussy! we gave him meat mixed with rice, and he ONLY ATE THE MEAT, leaving behind the rice! if there's any fussier eater, it's peke. he's already skin and bones (and yah, fur), and yet he still chooses his food?! come on! we are trying to help him!! does he appreciate it? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO *shakes head vehemently*
well, yah, tt's abt it... alot more things i'd love to blog here, but looking at the time........ it doesn't permit me to do so. still have to decipher Poe's 3 stories, and write a log abt them, and do their post tut for last wk. thank god less than one story was discussed... hehe... =)
Tuesday, May 04, 2004
hai... been trying to read the next 4 stories of angela carter (The Snow Child, Black Venus, The Kiss and The Cabinet of Edgar Allan Poe), and the end result is an increase in the degree of shortsighted-ness of my eyes. Goodness! these 4 are the worst stories i have seen so far in anela carter. not the worst, acty, but the most inaccessible. i have no idea wat she is talking about in the stories, so how am i gonna do the log for this?! worse still, NOBODY has any idea which group of stories we are doing tml- our group or fahmy, mastura, ida and diyah's group. -_-" this means tt instead of doing 4 stories, we have to prepare 8. GOODNESS!!!! while i agree that doing e 8 stories means i wun have to do log next wk, the thing is, this is TORTURE!!! i'm running dry of things to glean from the stories. well, not running dry exactly, but mentally exhausted. my brain feels like switching channels now to perhaps other things... haha...
anyway, i can't get stacie oricco's song I Promise out of my head... so i shall post the lyrics here... this song is so nice!! nope, i wun do an analysis or explanation of the song. haha....
I Promise – Stacie Oricco
Will I always be there for you?
When you need someone, Will I be that one you need?
Will I do all my best to, to protect you?
When the tears get near your eyes
Will I be the one that's by your side?
Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will
Will I take tender tender care of you?
Take your darkest night and make it bright for you
Will I be there to make you strong and to lean on?
When this world has turned so cold
Will I be the one that's there to hold?
Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will
Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will
Yeah
And I love you more every day
And nothing will take that love away
When you need someone
I promise I'll be there for you (there for you)
I promise
Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will
And I promise (and I promise)
I promise (oh I promise you)
I will be there when you call me (when you call me)
I promise (I promise)
I promise I will
anyway, i can't get stacie oricco's song I Promise out of my head... so i shall post the lyrics here... this song is so nice!! nope, i wun do an analysis or explanation of the song. haha....
I Promise – Stacie Oricco
Will I always be there for you?
When you need someone, Will I be that one you need?
Will I do all my best to, to protect you?
When the tears get near your eyes
Will I be the one that's by your side?
Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will
Will I take tender tender care of you?
Take your darkest night and make it bright for you
Will I be there to make you strong and to lean on?
When this world has turned so cold
Will I be the one that's there to hold?
Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will
Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will
Yeah
And I love you more every day
And nothing will take that love away
When you need someone
I promise I'll be there for you (there for you)
I promise
Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will
And I promise (and I promise)
I promise (oh I promise you)
I will be there when you call me (when you call me)
I promise (I promise)
I promise I will
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