whew... finally finished keying the 1000+ coupons and 100-200+ orders. NIGHTMARE!!! my shoulders are stiff liao.. haha, dun ask me y... they just are. by rights it should be the fingers, shouldn it? but weirdly enough, my shoulder-the left one- is the one tt's in pain, and stiff. hmm.... mebbe its my posture.

gonna knock off work soon... cant wait! tonight is jue shi shuang jiao (The Proud Twins), starring jimmy lin and tae. oooooooooohhh!! eye candy!! haha... the show is... quite ok- the traps set by the 'twins' and chang chun are quite ingenius, so it's quite a pleasure to watch how they set the trap to capture the villains. =) unfortunately, the price i have to pay is my slp. the show ends at 1230, so i guess i'll become a walking zombie tml, despite my having made up for lost slp (did i?) last nite.

i have come to the conclusion that i will nvr get enough slp no matter how many hours i slp, but somehow, i just cant help it. or maybe i'm just a pathologically tired. yep, there's such a thing. i read from the back of an NZ coupon yesterday that 1/3 of young adults in the world are pathologically tired. tt's scary. haha i like sleeping though, it allows me to forget watever worries i have for the day, and when i'm aslp, nth can bother me, and watever happens outside is not really my prob, coz i wasn a part of it for the duration i was aslp. peaceful, aint it? i sound like an escapist, dun i? hmm... i like being awake too, coz being awake reminds me that i'm still alive, haha, but sometimes, i just find the world getting too complicated and too imposing, that the only way to escape from it all is to just go to slp. everything is shelved for the time being. does dreaming use up the same amt of energy from the brain as when we are daydreaming or studying or working? anyone has any idea?

i really should read better books. i've been saying it for ages i know, but i cant seem to drum up the enthusiasm to do so. my "Divine Comedies" has been at the same pg for a few months already, and so far, the only quality book i've read is "The Da Vinci Code", which is really not bad when one is reading it. however, on hindsight when i think bout the book and its plot, i find it too 'hollywood', as yanting puts it. there's a kind of superficial aftertaste to the book's plot, so there is no feeling of wanting to reread the book to re-feel the drama and suspense of the book. *shrugs* well... this is my personal opinion of the book, so if u feel otherwise, and feel as if i have mortally (or is it morally?) insulted the book, i'm sorry. =) 've been reading and re-reading romance novels, which makes me feel nice and warm, but does absolutely nothing to increase my mental power or vocab strength. haha, not tt the romance in the books ever happens in real life, but like taiwanese idol dramas, where the most ordinary girl gets the guy, these books do give one hope. HAHAHAHAHAHA i'm sounding hopelessly pathetic. -__-"

shikes! coupon quantity's monstrous today...!! gotta complete 1000+++ coupons by tml.. oh man... god bless me...

my eyes are closing too.....

OMG OMG OMG!!! I GOT INTO NTU PSYCHOLOGY!

haha... it was a pleasant surprise for me, coz i was so worried i wouldn be able to get indue to my dismal results... hmm... i was offered double major too... isn it weird? or mebbe they offer it to everyone who manages to enter the uni? i'm tempted to take it up, but we all know wat happens when i get too ambitious. i fall. flat on my face. yep. well it happened in sec sch, when i took 9 subj. in the end, i kicked myself in the butt, coz i had taken on too much to handle. i ended getting results that were neither here nor there. then in jc yr 1, took 4 subjects, but in the end, wat happened? i ended up dropping hist coz it was too much to handle and my promo results were just so-so. oh well. i have to take things as they come i guess, and not overestimate myself, though to know tt i'm eligible for it is rather flattering. oh well, i know there's not much point in being too happy bout being offered it. after all, most everyone i know did much better than me, so being offered double major is nothing to boast about... =)

spent quite a bit just now... treated my family to thai express (the food at siglap is not as good as paragon to be frank), which came out to $ 61.20... oh well, i had expected it to cost more acty, so... though the bill was rather high, it's still lower than my expectations. then we went on to gelare, which was supp to be my mother's treat, but somehow, while we were waiting for our ice creams, my father and mother were nowhere to be found, so i ended paying for the ice cream.
-_-" but it's ok lar... i've nvr treated my family to anything anyway, when my parents have been paying for everything everyday. this bit is like a drop in the ocean in comparison with the amt they have spent on us for bout 19 coming to 20 yrs... *shrugs* =)

遗失的美好

歌手:张韶涵 专辑:海豚湾恋人电视原声

海的思念绵延不绝
终于和天在地平线交会
爱如果走得够远
应该也会跟幸福相见

承诺常常很像蝴蝶
美丽的飞盘旋然后不见
但我相信你给我的誓言
就像一定会来的春天

我始终带著你爱的微笑
一路上寻找我遗失的美好
不小心当泪滑过嘴角
就用你握过的手抹掉

再多的风景也从不停靠
只一心寻找我遗失的美好
有的人说不清哪里好
但就是谁都替代不了

承诺常常很像蝴蝶
美丽的飞盘旋然后不见
但我相信你给我的誓言
就像一定会来的春天

我始终带著你爱的微笑
一路上寻找我遗失的美好
不小心当泪滑过嘴角
就用你握过的手抹掉

再多的风景也从不停靠
只一心寻找我遗失的美好
有的人说不清哪里好
但就是谁都替代不了

在最开始的那一秒有些事早已经注定要到老
虽然命运爱开玩笑真心会和真心遇到

我始终带著你爱的微笑
一路上寻找我遗失的美好
不小心当泪滑过嘴角
就用你握过的手抹掉

再多的风景也从不停靠
只一心寻找我遗失的美好
有的人说不清哪里好
但就是谁都替代不了

aaaah.... finally can surf the net liao, after like almost an hour of trying again and again.

had boring lunch just now... hokkien mee at the nearby coffee shop. it's boring compared to wat we had for lunch yesterday- mcdonalds!!! yay! we ordered mc delivery, and then we had a 'party' in the pantry. hahaha so fun!!! jes and shirley were so funny. i've nvr seen anyone eating apple pie the way they do. jes likes to eat the crust of the apple pie, while shirley likes to eat the fillings. so jes cut the apple pie longitudinally, and separated the crusts, and shirley scraped out the apples into the bowl. i watned to take a photo of how they ate it, but figured it wouldn be v nice, coz when i suggested it, thye looked at me like i was mad... so well, i can take the hint.... hmm... mebbe i'll take a photo of me doing it... haha.... initially wat they intended to do was to squeeze the fillings out of the crust and then eat it. it sounds so disgusting rite? i think it would have been more interesting to take a photo of that than the cutting of the pie... more disgusting. hahahahahah i'm so evil. in any case, yesterday's lunch was so fun! hopefully we can do more of tt b4 i leave... mebbe with pizzas??? *looks hopeful and crosses fingers*

i know i sound quite suaku getting so happy over mc's lunch, but well, wat to do??? my workplace has BORING food.... though there are 3 hawker centres here, the variety of food is limited, coz they sell the SAME THING!!! and the standards are bout the same. so everyday, i have to wrack my brain bout wat to eat for lunch. luckily i dun have to eat dinner here as well. whew! one thing good though, is that i only spend $3 at the most everyday. that is, if i dun go to the biscuit factory, which i go quite often now, since yanting likes to go there too. the biscuits i buy always finish so fast!!!! they are cheap too, in comparison to the prices outside. so in a way, working here is kinda nice... =)

don just came into the room. tt guy is an entertainer man... he doesn mean to, but he just is funny. the things he says ah, just makes ppl wanna laugh. he just made jes laugh so much when he tokked bout his height. i have no idea y its so funny, but somehow, coming from him, it just sounds hilarious. yesterday, he just made us burst out laughing when he innocently asked wat the navel was called. he didn call it the navel. he said, "is this (the navel) the umbilical cord?" when we all laughed hilariously and said no, and explained wat the umbilical cord is, he said, "Oh, then it's called the umbilical hole? Must be rite, coz it connects the umbilical cord to the mother?" logical, yes, but the way he ssaid it was so innocent, and so full of conviction that we just had to laugh at him. too bad my hp cant upload photos. hahaha i should take a photo of him and publish it in my yahoo album. oh, in case u are wondering, i dun like him in that way. just mentioned him coz he's a regular guest in the room, and he's so often an entertainer in this room and (i think) a feature of my work place that i just have to mention him on my blog. hmm... i'll try to find a way to get his photo. goodness knows y he likes to come into the room we are working in. he says he likes being scolded by jes and shirley, that the more they scold him, the more shiok he feels. Crazy rite? oh well, i guess he must like it, coz he comes in everyday. he takes insults well, and laughs them off. oh well. *throws my hands up*

just heard new ppl are moving into the room next door, and jes and shir were so excited when they heard a guy called Tim's coming to work beside us. apparently, he's handsome... *shrugs* nvr seen him b4, but wait till they come- i'll tell u how they look, k? hopefully they really are good looking. but jes says they find him handsome coz his looks are good relative to the looks of the rest of the guys at my workplace. if so, then i guess.... normal lor... just better-looking than the average Singaporean guy. hahahahha

i really should try to shorten my blog. issit hard to read my blog? is the font too small?

oh yah, and in case u are wondering bout whether i got any slp tt day, yep, i did. my head was so painful i just had to slp. hee...

well i DID try to update my blog, but to no avail. goodness knows wat;s wrong with the company's comp, and i just got the itnernet connection TODAY. i've been trying to go online in the office these past few days, but somehow, i htink the evil IT dept restricted the websites... hai....

i was trying to blog last wk, and i did manage to type. thing is, when i wanted to either save my entry as a draft or publish it, "the page u requested cannot be displayed". it happened twice in 1 hr! can u believe it?! so now i have like 1 wk's worth of update to do, which i'm not going to, coz it's 11 plus at nite and i have to work tml. i have another prob now. wat do i wear to work tml? brainless i know... but i'm so sick of my clothes liao... haha.... i'm a bimbo... anyway, back to wat i was saying just now. figure i'm just not supposed to criticise my clients. watever. suffice it to say that the person put in charge of this proj in my client's company is troublesome. ok. is tt too horrible a term? i hope not....

i have decided to extend my job to the 2nd wk of june. seems like CR really needs another person, and from the quantities that have been coming in recently, i think they cant afford the time to train another person. and anyway, i need the money. the more the merrier, hahaha. i wont be able to earn my own money if and when i start sch again, so i better make use of this opportunity... =) acty, i was thinking of stopping work at the end of may, so i could rest until july. however, yanting just informed me that sch starts in aug. erm... is that rite? could someone pls enlighten me bout the uni term schedule...? i'm clueless, i'm embarrassed to say..... hai... but i'll be really lonely if i work until the 2nd wk of june, coz yanting and siying wont be working here anymore! those workers around my age will be off to sch... leaving me behind....!!! hai... nvm... at least i have jes, shirley and crystal.... if shirley decides to extend her contract, that is. they are older than me though, and well, i like them, but i dun think our viewpoints are quite the same. i do learn quite a lot from them though, like life experiences and wat to eat and wat not to eat. nvr knew milo was heaty until they told me. hmm... did u know tt? or am i the only one in the whole world not to know milo is heaty?

though the quantity's getting higher- which means that there's more work to do, which means that i cant slack in the office anymore, which means that it's good- i feel really bored... i mean, it's keying the same things over and over again. granted, the products keyed in are different, but the method of keying them is the same! and while coupons might be interesting to type, they are tedious. type hundred over of them and u'll see wat i mean. the working envt's good though, and tt's wat's keeping me on acty. not tt they are desperate to have me here, but well... they could use an extra worker. fingers are getting suan though... haha... papa said my fingers would turn stiff from not playing the piano for such a long time, but i dun think so, coz my fingers are always moving on the keyboard, just like now, and i key coupons and orders everyday, so i dun think they will turn THAT stiff..... i miss the piano a little though.... but everytime when i am free, i just dun feel like playing it. hmm... am i contradicting myself here?

hey, laura, when will u be free? when u are free then u tell me k? then we start asking the rest if they wanna meet... haha.... wanna go kite flying? ;) bernice jiejie, when are u coming back to s'pore?

whew. finished data entrying already. haha, we received both nz and aust orders today, so the quantity was bout 600+, thus allowing us to have more to do. i'm not complaining; this is better than sitting in the office with nothing to do but surf the net and freeze in the office =p.

i have no internet connection at home anymore!!! we just disconnected the starhub maxonline in favour of singtel's broadband. singtel was offering $58.50 a mth for 2 yrs for a speed of 1500kbps (is that counted fast? i'm not v sure), which was cheaper than starhub's. this opportunity was too good to pass up, so my parents bit the bullet and decided to connect it. alas (in a dramatic tone)! we had to pay the price of going without internet connection until the 12th. oh well, till then, i'll be doing stuff on the internet in the office only. let's just hope the it dept upstairs is not paying attention to wat i'm doing. =X

so sleepy now!!! i'm just so sleepy i feel a headache coming on. i slept so well last nite i didn even hear lun waking up this morning, when i usually do. to have been woken up so rudely by my hp in the middle of my wonderful slp was the main contributor to my tiredness. argh. i tell u, everytime i hear Beethoven's Symphony now, i am reminded of my alarm. Oh! Save me!!!!! cant bring myself to use the other ringtones in my phone, coz i'm afraid i'll run out of tones to use as my ringtones. it doesn matter wat tone i use for my alarm- i'll end up hating the tone by the end of the week, coz of the meaning it would have taken on in my mind. haha. so acty, there's absolutely NO point in changing the alarm tone. haha. =)

oh man... cant keep my eyes open. cant wait for 6 when i can go home and perhaps catch a few min of slp. hmm.... but i htink that wun be possible, coz schnoozee will be waiting impatiently for me to let him out to pee. goodness... sometimes i wonder y von doesn let him out, but i guess she's tired too after a day of sch. but she finishes sch earlier than i finish work! on the other hand though, data entrying doesn take alot of brain power, particularly in my job, coz i finish my work at bout 4 30 the latest these days. so i guess i should be less tired. argh. but i do wish she'd let him out herself sometimes............

i wanna go shopping again!!! had so much fun with von last fri. though we only shopped from like 7 to 9, with dinner in between, we had so much fun coz we went into EVERY clothes shop that we could see, from bugis to citylink to suntec. hahahahahahahhaha. von says she likes british clothes shops, coz they make her feel smaller. but von isn TT big. i think her figure's perfect, but since when did we ever think our bodies were perfect? didn manage to shop enough though. i spent half my budget, but... i only bought 3 tops, and i soooo still feel like buying more tops...... stop itching my naughty fingers!!! i'm planning to buy a bottom with the other half of my budget. bottoms mostly cost bout 40+ rite? err... i'm not v sure but s'pore prices... could someone advice me pls? i saw this skirt at fox, which i was sooo tempted to buy!!! it's black, and above the knee (but it's not THAT short, believe me), made of cotton, and has embroidery on it. the embroidery is in black, by the way. it's ruffly at the bottom, and made of cotton. it costs 33. hmm... is it worth it? i sooo wanted to buy it, but von reminded me that that kind of cotton is hard to match, and i must say, i agree with her. nonetheless, my heart and fingers are still itchy....... von's a great shopping partner. haha. she encourages me to buy clothes when they suit me, and they are within my budget, but still brings me down to earth bout some of the clothes that i'm tempted to buy. case in point: the fox skirt. hehe, should go out with her more often, but i think it's not gonna be v often, coz she has her As this yr. dun want her to end up with lousy results like me. =S hey, if YOU (yes, u, reading this entry) wanna go shopping, CALL ME!!!!! haha.... i can go out anytime, but it has to be after 6 on weekdays. =)

haha i'm sounding like a bimbo now. oh well.... after earning my salary i wanna think of wat to spend a portion of it on mah.... haha, and in case u are wondering, YES, i DO SAVE MY MONEY. i only spend a small portion of it. believe me. after all, after working for a month, i think it's not too unreasonable to spend a small portion of it on things i like... rite? =) and now i can have more freedom to buy things which i used to lust after.... hahaha.... like an mp3 player, clothes, bags(!!!), a new watch (well, i've been wearing my baby-g for like 8 years), and a new puzzle!!!!!! haha... dun worry... i dun blow my whole month's salary on ALL of them. i plan wat i wanna buy in the next mth so i'll have something to look forward to. hahahah motivation to go to work and earn money ;). oh yes. add harry potter and other kinds of books to my list as well. ooooooo cant wait for end of the month =)

i love how my friends' and relatives' blogs are written. everyone has their own unique style that reflects their personality. just read them and u'll know wat i mean. just love their style, and wish i could develop a style of my own. hmm.... mine seems to be more conforming to society. ahahah. others have quirky styles of writing that sometimes bring a smile to my face when i read them coz of wat they say bout their observations of life and their lives. haha, if u are wondering who i'm talking bout, no need to wonder anymore. just click on "links" at the side of the screen, and u can read all of them. all of them are good writers in their own right. really!! i'm not being patronising!!

ok. 45 min more to 6pm. 45 min more to sleeping. or maybe, 45 min to schnoozee's freedom. will tell u the result tml. bye!!!

who on earth is albert?!?!?!?

i've finished data entrying. wonderful. now there's nothing else to do except wait for lunch and then go out to CS to start answering phone calls.

my father was so touched to see the bday cake we bought for him yesterday! we meant to buy durian cake from Angie's the Choice for him, but it just so happened that the shop has closed down. aint it such a coincidence?! then, yi lun and i had to walk to TM's basement to see wat we could find there. well, we found bengawan solo, four leaves and breadtalk. by rights, we should have been spoilt for choice. in the end though, there wasn much of a choice. my father doesn like choc cake, though he still eats it (well, there is a lack of enthusiasm when we end up choosing choc cake....), tiramisu.... he doesn really like it, though the rest of the family likes it, but well... it's his bday after all =). Mango.... hmm... that was one of our choices, but we ended up buying absolutely mocha from breadtalk simply coz the design was nice and the description sounded good. well... guess we're suckers for packaging... =p

the planning to buy the cake was so disorganised! hee... well, i admit... it was a rather last minute thing... i had put it to the last possible moment, so it ended up that everyone had to have dinner late coz they were waiting for lun and me. =S

i was soooo sleepy last night! but i had to accompany my father to send my grandmother to the airport. she has to go back to australia to renew her passport or somthing. since evertone else in the family has to go to school the next day, and the flight was at 11:40 at night, i had to go with my father. haha... kept almost dozing off in the car and at the airport. wanted to go into all the shops, but i think it wouldn have been polite coz my auntie and uncle were there too... nevertheless, i went into "Perfumes and Cosmetics" to look at the perfumes. i was especally curious bout Britney Spears' "Curious" perfume. i wanted to see how bad it actually smelt, judging from all the bad reviews it got. hmm... it's not tt bad acty, it smells sweet, a little vanilla-ish, so i guess that wouldn have sat well with some ppl's tastes. i tested Lancome's "Miracle" (or something along tt line), and it's nice! it smells fresh, like flowers, and kinda makes the 'smeller' feel good. it's a little matured though... reminds me of a confident, independent career woman who knows wat she wants, and will get it. yep, it does! "Curious" on the other hand, smells younger, but it does bring to mind a young female who tries to have the best of both worlds- the innocence and sweetness of a young girl, yet still trying to attain the confidence and self-assurance of a more matured woman. kinda reminds me of Britney Spears' "I'm Not a Girl, Not Yet a Woman". hmm... my favourites, though, are still D&G's "Light Blue", and Elizabeth Arden's "Lemon Tea". both have fresh yet natural scents. =)

haha, got no fate with serene lar. i thot i could go find her or something when i went to the airport last nite. alas! it was her off day! haven seen her and ee hui and huan ling and ying chao for such a loooooong time... hmm... hopefully we can meet up soon.... =)

cant wait for lunch. haha... food's all i think about these days, coz there's nth else to think about. in the past, there was hardly any time to think of food, wat with tests, assignments, hw etc. is there any surprise that i'm feeling heavier? seriously! i'm seriously not being paranoid here. i guess the fat doesn show on my body, but within it, is another story. feeling oily and fatty inside. eeew!! mebbe the fats are clogging inside my body, around my organs....!!! wait. did i get my facts rite? when fat doesn show on the body, there is a possibility that it's inside the body rite? tt's y skinny ppl can oso suffer from hypertension and high cholesterol? given all my bio knowledge back to my teachers... sheesh... cant really remember much... now when i help my sisters with their work, i find i have to read thru first b4 i acty teach them. wat an irony. i got such a shitty grade for Econs, and i'm teaching lun econs?!?!?!?!?!? it's kinda like the blind leading the blind... heh.. math... still ok, though i think i'll have to start revising integration soon after i teach von poisson. goodness... hope i dun have to re-do all my tutorials when i have to start teaching integration, though i think it's quite likely, coz i've forgotten bout 80% of watever i learnt liao. oh man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok, think i've crapped enough. 35 min to lunch, and a new work envt. not really looking forward to it, coz of the lack of calls i'm sure to have, and a lack of entertainment. the only thing i'm looking forward to is meeting von after work to go shopping!!! hopefully i can bear to part with my pay... hahaha.... i always feel so tempted to buy things, but somehow, i feel so... bu she de when i acty have to go pay with the money... hahaha.... i sound so kiam rite? i guess that's wat my parents mean when they say "You will know the pinch when u start working" oh well. now i know. i'm still going shopping though. let's hope i do find some great bargains and buy nice stuff!!! so exciting! but one prob. where am i gonna have dinner?

damn... cant find the rubber band i always leave in the work room. my hair is getting in the way... its now in the not long not short stage, so it keeps tickling my neck, or gets kinda folded at my neck, between my jacket and my top. argh. i wonder where i put it... hmm....

anyway, its another early day for me (just took half day off yesterday), coz we finished our data entrying early again today. before lunch. hahaha yep =) we dun have to open letters anymore now, after the missing cash fiasco which is SOOOO totally not our fault. we have absolutely no use for AU$6000 cash. and anyway, how the hell would we be able to walk out of the company with so much money with 4 ppl in a room? there would hardly be time to take the money out of every envelope attached to every order form, and staple the envelope back perfectly, making it look untouched.

i forecast another boring day ahead of me tml. i will be doing my current job for the first half of the day, and then after lunch, i'll be going outside to do customer service. i dun mind doing it, i think it would be quite fun, but the thing is, there are v few phone calls for me to pick up, and there won't be anyone to tok to me!!! mui leng will be bz doing her own work, while yanting will be on leave. tt leaves me sooooo alone!!!!! and i'll be OUTSIDE! in the OPEN!! that means that however bored i am, i will not be able to surf the net like i'm doing now, or take out a book to read. oh yah, and tml's the first day the Customer Service (CS) director takes over. if wat i hear is true, he's v strict bout the staff being too free. yep, tt means no sms, no hp calls, no surfing of internet, no reading tml. oh wow. my heart's fluttering wildly at that prospect. -_-"

going to buy angie the choice's durian cake today! yay! it's my father's birthday today, and i'm gonna buy him a bday cake as a surprise!! hmm... i think he suspects it already too. haha, i told him i'm meeting a friend after work at tm... not as if he doesn know me well enough to know that i WILL go home punctually today no matter wat, coz its his bday. hehe... anyway, i'm gonna play dumb...

ok gonna go surfing again. yep, and try to put up my tagboard... hehe...

hi! heh, i know i haven been blogging for a loooooooooooong time... well, been pretty lazy to log onto blogger.com to blog, and part of the reason's coz the website is in CHINESE! goodness knows y my homepage is now in chinese, neopets is in chinese, and blogger is in chinese! OMG. i know... i can read it, but i dun feel like translating them in my mind and figuring out which thumbnail/link i should click on to get to where i wanna go. anyone has any ideas wat i can do to get rid of the chinese words?

why am i blogging now at this weird time and on such a weird day? well, the reason is simple: i'm in the office blogging.

why do i blog now? haha, good question. coz i've just finished keying in my order entries and there are no other things i can do until 6pm. so i've decided to surf the net. but there're only so many websites i can surf, so i decided to do something which i've been putting off for a long time- blog. SHHHHHHHHHHHH.... i'm not supposed to surf the net in the office acty... the IT dept will question us... something bout using the company's system to surf the net when we should be working.... hmm... tts true... but we've finished our work! crystal's playing book worms (i should get round to playing tt) now, jesmine's teaching shirley how to exercise at work, and shirley's bz laughing at jes' actions. haha... this is a crazy bunch of colleagues i tell u... but they add alot of entertainment into a boring working life. acty, i believe colleagues are the ones who help to brighten our otherwise boring working lives. i mean, can u imagine spending the whole day facing the silent and still computer keying orders without talking to anyone? oh man.... i think its utterly boring. but i guess tt's part of the job. well, i guess i'm lucky to be inside a separate room with my 3 other colleagues. haha... we're practically living in a world of our own. we just turn on the music and joke and laugh as we key data. its nice, but well, there is politics everywhere, even in a space taken up by 4 ppl. my supervisor was recently pulled out from the room, coz of strife btw her and 2 other colleagues. things got sore up to the pt where they werent talking to one another. just think: a few weeks ago they were all still going out together, and then, they weren talking to one another. the atmosphere in the room was so tense, one just had to get of the room often to get a breather. well, now that my supervisor's out of the room, the atmosphere is more relaxed.

acty, i think the supervisor is a nice lady, just given to taji-ing work to the others. as an individual, she's v v nice. however, as a co-worker.... well, that's another story entirely.

i'm kinda bored with data entry. there's only so much to fa hui.... i wanted to transfer to the customer service dept initially, coz i realised i should acty learn how to tok properly over the phone, and deal with ppl. this would also (hopefully) train me to think faster when facing problems. unfortunately, there's no vacancy. nvm, jay said she'll call me when they need me on my next hol. hmm... the words "next hol" are a huge assumption on my part, of course, assuming if i manage to get a place in the uni. i'm hoping to get into the psych faculty at ntu... haha... HOPEFULLY i can make it there.

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err *sheepish smile*.... haha... i will get round to my tagboard. soon. i promise. but after so many mths of inactivity on my blog, i hope u all will still tok on my tagboard? pls? it'll be boring there if no one talks *looks beseechingly at you*.

As for blogskin... well.... can someone advise me on how i can design one of my own? i know the ones at blogskins are nice, but well... i feel like trying my hand at it. anyone can offer to give me some pointers? speaking of blogskins, i did find one v v cute one just now... it has babies as its theme... cute!!

ok.... i think i've blogged alot... i hope i'll continue blogging...... if i dun... well, u know wat's become of me. i've become to fat and lazy.... =)

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i just read the blog of the late grace chow,of whom perhaps some of u may have read about.... she was from rotterdam, netherlands, and she was suffering form a rare tumour at the base of her neck, called chordoma. her blog is about the last 9 days of her life, when she began blogging. the website is
dyingis.blogspot.com

go read it when u have the time... her words are beautiful, and they make u think of life and death and at they bring in another way. it's sad that someone with so much spark and optimism in her in the face of death should have to die. why is it that ppl who have the enthusiasm for life should leave it earlier whilst those who just live their lives just because they have nth better to do should live long lives? i once read a theory in "Chicken Soup for the Soul", where a little boy's dog had passed away, yet he was not upset. when questioned why he was not sad, the boy simply said, " God sent (the dog) to us to bring us happiness. now that he has completed his job, God wants him to go back, because Heaven needs happiness too." so could it be that these ppl who pass away early have acty made a difference in the lives of ppl around them, whereas those who lead long lives still have not made a difference in anyone's lives? if so, does that mean that all of us were put on earth for a difference?

oh yes, to those enlisting on the 6 and 7 jan, goodbye and all the best for ur ns days! =)

i just went to irc to try to dl music, but unfortunately, the channels have shut down! how? does anyone know where i can download songs?

my comp is driving me crazy. everything is in chinese! i dunno wat is wrong with it. i checked the encoding as TC said, but everything is normal. wat else is wrong? can someone tell me? it wouldn be so bad if i could type in chinese words, but there is no way i can, coz i dun have the software! urgh.

i'm bored!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

not tt there is anything to be happy abt in the new year as far as i can see... heh.. there wasn a good start to 2005 as everyone around the world can see.... well yah, i'm talking bout the tsunami.... it's real sad isn it? thousands of innocent lives just lost like tt. there wasn even any reason for it! it was just unexpected and.... motiveless! overnight, ppl with families found themselves homeless and family-less, couples found themselves singles, children found themselves orphans.... goodness.... so many ppl had their dreams and hopes smashed just like tt... like ppl who had set up businesses by the seaside, or families which went but only one or 2 ppl went home...

but wat impresses me is the way singaporeans acty volunteered their services to help those in need. seriously! u know, we always think singaporeans are an apathetic lot, but acty, how true is it? (erm yah, i used to think so, and i think it's a rather widely held opinion). the moment news broke out bout the disaster, organisaitons, companies, and individuals stepped in to help. temples, and racial groups also chipped in. it was like showing a united front in times of disaster, which is quite heartening, even in such depressing circumstances.

yah, i know i'm probably sounding like propaganda, but well, i cant help but be impressed at the show of unity. i went to one of the temples tt offers help, and wow, the whole place was inundated with clothes, food, necessities, etc, and there was no lack of ppl dropping by helping out with the packing or donating stuff. even in rainy weather, ppl were still going to these places to help in any way they can. if this is not called charitable, and kindness and- well, i cant think of a word- then wat is this?

oh yes, mel, haha... my index finger decided to follow wat u did to ur hands last yr... haha... when i got out of the car to go to the temple, i closed the door on it. yes, i did, and i'm wondering how the heck i managed to do get out of the car and keep my finger- yah, only one finger- between the car and the door. it hurt like anything, and the whole finger turned numb. goodness... it was worse than when i sprained my ankle! luckily the bone wasnt broken, but the whole finger swelled like a sausage and there was internal bleeding in both the nail and the finger. sound disgusting rite? haha... well, it was at first, but it got better. thankfully. however, it still hurts like the devil, and there's no strength in it yet... cant even type with it, and now i'm typing with my third finger instead of my index. now i know how impt the index finger is to me. thank god its not broken.

let's all hope tt 2005 will be a better yr, with fewer terorist attacks, fewer disease outbreaks in both man and beast, and fewer natural disasters. happy new year everyone.

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

It has been quite a fun day today, quite full of activities acty. haha, in the morning, we watched Mars (well i bought the vcd with my first paycheck, and i dun think i feel guilty bout it... hee... ;) ), and i think zai zai is soooooo good-looking. hahaha =) do i sound like an airhead? heh, guess i do, but oh well... he IS! =p anyway, after that we went to have lunch, then came back and baked apple crumble. i baked it! haha, quite proud of myself acty, coz its the first time i acty get to bake something by myself from scratch, and it tastes good!!!!

i just got home from my neighbour's christmas party acty, and... well, let's just say that it was uneventful. we didn know anyone there, coz the guests are my neighbour's friends and relatives, and they seemed to know one another. it was only us who didn know anyone other than the hosts. nonetheless, my parents did a rather good job at socialising, which is more than wat i can say for myself... hee... i'm rather embarrassed to say tt i was too shy to approach anyone to tok. however, it wasn like there was any encouragement from the other parties as well, coz they did do their part in looking aloof and above it all... the children i mean. when i said "hi" to a pair of sisters, they looked at me like i had grown two heads. i mean, i was trying to be nice! hmm... oh well, mebbe coz we are still strangers to them, which explains their behaviour.... =)

oh man, i'm addicted to Mars... keep thinking bout the show. hehe... guess i better make a beeline for the tv before my parents come back. once again, merry christmas! =)

my job officially ended yesterday. acty, it ended the day before, but we still had to go back to the expo to clear up. do u know, the other promoters get paid for their efforts in clearing up, but liling and i didn? oh man... and we spent more time than the other promoeters in clearing up coz we went back to the boss' office to tear off the price tag. hai.... we had to go tothe office to await our paycheck, so they told us to help peel the tags to pass the time. tok bout free labour man, haha... =)

but frankly though, i was feeling a little sorry that the job had ended. i had a rather good time working there. my boss is acty quite nice. not as strict and rigid as other bosses, and much friendlier. just more stingy... ahha.. =)besides the job, i made friends with other promoters as well, and ahem, there was quite a bit of eye-candy, though, sad to say, they are younger than me, so... hands off for me! =) this auntie who was working there as a promoter took my number in case there are other jobs. true enough, i just got another call from her last nite. haha.... there's this opening at the industrial estate behind tampines safra, doing data entry-ing, and they are looking for A-Level students waiting for results. oh well, i might as well try out the job, only i cant get the person in charge. i wonder if that is a sign that i'm not destined for it? hmm.....
hopefully i get the job though, coz i do need money... hee =)

Last but not the least, Merry Christmas everybody! =)

ok i'm back after almost a month... haha... so many things have happened in just this one mth. i screwed up my As, found a job, went prom, and well, tts about it.

A levels... well, there isn much to say bout it. i think i pretty much summed it all up in the first para, so let's go on to the job.

i'm working at the expo now, selling classic pooh stuff tt's mostly for children. haha, business is NOT good. Uh-uh... its mostly standing around the counter for eleven hours then leaving, usually selling not more than 20 items... hai... its so quiet down there! the pay... well, at first it might seem rather much, coz its $50 a day, but once u hear tt its $50 for 11 hours, well, u might come to the same conclusion tt it's 50 hard-earned dollars. yep. oh well, experience i guess. i made many new friends, and... haha.... at least there's a certain amount of eye-candy.... hahaha.... nth to do mah.... =) i'm hoping for business to pick up, so life there won't be so boring... hahaa.. now i'm hoping to get another job... relief teaching perhaps, but i wqouldn mind working at the airport as some admin person either. i love the airport. =) hmm... any other jobs would be fine i guess... anyone has any lobang? if u do, pls tell me k? ;)

ok on to the prom. well.... i had fun there, and hmm, it was the first time i acty dressed up to the nines like tt. haha, jieting said she has nvr seen tt side of me before. oh well, jieting darling, i dun think u are likely to see tt side again... haha... =) tt was one rare opportunity that i got to dress like tt. frankly, as airheaded as it may sound, i rather liked it, just tt its rather troublesome. oh, i highlighted my hair as well. it's something i've been wanting to do, but didn have the opportunity to, coz it would be a waste of money to do it during the term- troublesome, too, to worry bout looking over my shoulder to see if edward chew is coming. hahah... .well, now i'm free! oh yes, thanks to mel and serene, for helping me to do my make-up! u two did a wonderful job! hahaa... i know, its a little late to say tt, but well.... i didn really find an urge to blog until today... i've been out practically everyday since the end of the As... not totally enjoying though.... i had to work... -_-" when i've posted up the pics for the prom then i'll mention it, k? now i cant, coz my DARLING digicam spoilt on me the night before the prom, so i had to use my father's ultra super large camera to take photos. mel , dun snigger. hahahah... it was so embarrassing to carry it, coz like everyone was dressed to the nines, and there i was, carrying this purse and struggling to carry the large camera. oh man... -_-"

oh yes! forgot to mention... we had a 4C class gathering! from wat i heard, the gathering this time was more successful than last yr's, when only 5 ppl turned up. well, this time, bout 12 ppl turned up (i think). we caught up with old times, and watched a movie. we watched "Look At Me", a French movie. it was rather nice acty, though i felt like slapping the father a few times. he's one of those big shot guys who's always thinking bout himself and totally insensitive bout others, though he often doesn mean for his words to come out mean. he doesn see anyone but himself. nonetheless, the movie was also quite funny in its own way with the father's insensitive jokes and the dialogue btw the characters. hmm, its a movie worth watching. really! hehe, there are subtitles. =)

i cant wait for christmas to come, but i kinda can at the same time, coz when christmas is here, it means the new year is coming, and with it, the sense tt i'm gonna have to face reality soon- the results. oh man....... i'm kinda like living in denial right now.... but some part of me is telling me to wake up. i cant, coz if i do, the next time u see me i'll be having dark circles around my eyes. y? coz i'm bz thinking bout the consequences of not doing well.....

ok. one more day to the big battle. expect lots of blood, tears and sweat... haha... well, let's all get ready for the ride! =S

the wake board world cup 2004 has been on yesterday, and only today do i finally utilise the binoculars to look at the reservoir... haha... its amazing u know... all those bodylicious wakeboarders down there doing their stuff... felt too lazy to go down acty, hehe... dun feel like walking all that way down, so i decided to watch it from the comforts of my living room with the binoculars... haha... its a perfect view btw, albeit a little far... haha

i must say though, its a little disappointing, coz we dun see the contestants wakeboarding over ramps etc here. instead, we see them somersaulting all the time. its exciting i guess, but when u watch all of them doing the same thing, it gets kinda predictable. =) anyway, i gotta take my hat off to them for being able to do those. i can barely even do the basic rolling on the floor... u know, the eggroll? the one where u tuck ur legs into ur chest and roll headfirst? yep, tt... haha... been getting fat lar, whole day eat then slp after coming home from sch.... but i guess during exam periods, everyone's entitled to gain weight. haha... excuses excuses. anyway, i feel REAL lazy to exercise. god knows how many times my parents have asked me to go swimming with me. haha...

we just brought shnoozee down for his first walk 2 days ago. oh man.. his reaction was not quite wat we expected. he was unlike peke, who took to putting on the collar and leash with aplomb. instead, he was S.C.A.R.E.D... yep, he was. not of walking downstairs i think, but of the leash. he keept trying to wriggle out of it (but of cos we know tt isnt possible) and trying to bite it. well, we expected tt he would try to bite it, coz it moves, and he so loves to put anything tt moves into his mouth. but wriggle out of it? we nvr expected tt. besides, we put it on him while he was in his fence, and he refused to come out of it until we let go of the leash. i wonder wat's wrong with him? could it be tt he smelt peke's scent on it tt's y he was scared? its not possible though, coz peke has been gone for like 6 mths, his scent should have been removed by now.... rite? and typical shnoozee behaviour: when we brought him down, he ABSOLUTELY refused to do his business, which was where we expected him to do it. instead, he just HAD to wait till he came home, and do it in the living room. oh god. i tell u, i think i can safely say i'm his personal cleaner. yep, i clean his.. err... his waste. -_-" but i guess its only to be expected, coz we chose to have a pet after all...=)

speaking of shnoozee the great, i'm gonna get disfigured for life if he carries on his barbaric ways. at least, my leg is. haha... everytime i let him out, he jumps all over me, and i guess he doesn know his strength and the fact tt his nails are long, coz he bites and climbs. argh. his nails dig into my skin! so now there are like claw marks running up and down my leg, and his teeth have drawn blood in 2 places on my calf already. tt wasn done on purpose i think, coz he was sliding down my leg and his teeth somehow sank into my calf. hai.... cant complain though, coz he was too overwhelmed with happiness at being let out. haha... =) besides, he's such a good natured dog. yes he is, regardless of wat i told u. he jumps all over ppl coz he's ecstatic to see them really! other than tt, he's jus so innocent and so forgiving... haha... he has absolutely NO temper, which is something to be said, coz peke was rather temperamental last tiem.... shnoozee is not a bit possessive. whenever we take one of his 'toys' away, he'll just find some other thing to play with. with peke however, touch his things at ur own peril, exp when he's eating. for shnooze, u can even insert ur finger into his mouth to extract wateva he's eating. he'll let u. hmmm.... tt said, i think he's innocent to the point of being silly? hehe... oh well.... but he's an endearing character. come see him, u'll know wat i mean! but u'll have to wait until after exams i guess, haha... =)

anyway, i thnk this will be the last entry until the end of exams, coz i dun think there'll be much to say over the next 3 wks... haha.... dun think there'll be much time anyway. ok cya and for any yr 2 students or sec 4 students who happen to read this entry, good luck for ur exams!! =)

The Voice Within- Christina Aguilera

Young girl, don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl, it's all right
Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly

When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within

Young girl, don't hide
You'll never change if you just run away
Young girl, just hold tight
And soon you're gonna see your brighter day

Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you're lost outside look inside to your soul

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within

Yeah...Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you're learning
You'll find all you'll ever need to know

(Be strong)
You'll break it
(Hold On)
You'll make it
Just don't forsake it because
No one can stop you
You know that I'm talking to you

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within
Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall

S.H.I.T

ALL THE PHOTOS I TOOK WITH THE CLASS LAST FRI ARE BLOODY WELL GONE! WAT THE HELL JUST HAPPENED TO THE STUPID CAMERA!!!

stupid stupid stupid!! i cant say enough of it. just when i finally managed to find the cable for the camera and i installed everything into the comp and everything was in order, ALL THE PHOTOS HAD TO BE DELETED. my sis' photos, peke's photos, and those pics that i took with the vballers last yr and the photos i took on fri!!! GOODNESS!!! AND ALL OF THEM ARE GONE!!!! this is one of those occasions tt just makes me want to cry. argh!!!

Jas, so sorry u cant see the pics we took last fri here.... ARGH.... can we take somemore soon pls?

this request goes out to all of u who took photos with me last fri.... plsplsplsplsplsplsplspslsplspls can we take photos again?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!

i'm so sorry!!! u can just murder me. but pls murder me after we've taken the photos and finished the A levels......

haven quite got over the SI thing yet.. haha.... anyway, let's all just hope for fairer outcomes for the competition... *crosses fingers*

just visited some of ur blogs, and realised that they, too, like mine, have remained stagnant for quite a while.. hehe... bet the stress is getting to all of us. my whole family's dropping like flies because of the flu... well, not my whole family maybe, coz my father is the only one unaffected by it. wanted to stay at home today to rest, but i realised there are a few commitments to be carried out today, and i can't possibly go back on my word once i've given it, can i? =) cant not go to sch tml either, coz there's lit, so the next best day would be on wed. i am predicting tt wed will be asthma attack day, coz my flu takes place in diff stages:

1. sore throat and/or body aches
2. stupid blocked nose that doesn allow me to sleep
3. coughs and asthma attacks

so far, 1 and 2 have been accomplished. now i just have to await the arrival of the asthma attack. coughs have started. so i guess by wed, the flu will reach its peak. hahaha... =) however, flu's not as bad as it was when i was in pri sch. whenever i had the flu and asthma attacks started, i'd have to be sent to the doctor for the nebulizer. u know, the oxygen like tank thing with a mask? yep, i was a frequent patroniser of that tank thing... hmm... i quite miss it though. haha... the smell's quite nice. sweet... =) but for some reason, it makes my nose run continuously, so tt's the bad side of it i guesss, along with the cost. luckily the intensity of the attacks has died down over the years, so i just need to rely on the inhaler.

i've just been looking thru the scholarships programmes, and i realised that i cant apply for so many of them, partly coz i dun take S paper, and partly coz i am not in the sci stream. i'd love to try applying to be a speech therapist acty... but tt requires a Bachelor of Sci. SPH scholarship... well... i guess i could try to apply for it, but as i slowly wake up from my delusions of grandeur, i realise tt i cant write. not at all. just feel my style seems childish. not matured and sophisticated like grace's, nor as full of content as jieting's. my lang is not bad i guess, but when i have to pit myself against the others with a much better command of the lang than i have, well...... the rest can be left unsaid. thus, should i be thick-skinned and go ahead with the scholarships application?

OH. MY. GOD.

WAT THE BLOODY FREAKING HELL JUST HAPPENED ON SINGAPORE IDOL, CAN SOMEONE PLS ENLIGHTEN ME?

why wasn't Christopher Lee voted out? why was Jerry Ong in the safe group? why was David Yeo kicked out?

whywhywhy?

jerry ong managed to kick out the good singers. isn it high time he got out? if he had gotten out today, its only a matter of time that christopher lee got out, rite? so wat the heck happened?
could someone tell me WHY they still managed to stay on in the competition? david yeo got kicked out because of ONE performance. jerry ong and christopher lee remained in the running though they had made god knows how many lacklustre performances. wat the hell??????? are their fanbases so large?

if everything goes the way it has done since SI started, jerry ong will win the award. olinda will be the next to get kicked out, followed by.... hmm... i dunno... leandra perhaps? then taufik, then maia, then daphne... then.... dunno who.

do i sound totally childish? perhaps i do. haha... but its just so amazing that results can acty turn out this way. oh man! its so painful to watch it, seriously. i guess reality tv does evoke violent tendencies in ppl... hehe...

dbjfoifdbgiouf testing....

while trying to revise econs, this thot kept recurring in my mind (useless thots keep recurring just when i should be utilising my brain for more pract purposes -_-" anyway, i'm digressing): wat is madness? is it when a person totally loses all consciousness of his surroundings but just continues to exist in a seemingly semi-conscious state behaving in a way tt is not socially acceptable? or does madness exist when a person has subconsciously decided to lock its conscious self in a place deep in the recesses of the mind where it is unreachable? in other words, is madness a withdrawal of the mind from the real world?

i just finished watching san shi feng yu lu (dunno the eng title, but i think its "Trials of Time" or something), and Zinan had gone mad coz of her foiled attempt to be with the guy she has loved since childhood- Rui-an, her cousin. acty i'm not sure when she started going mad, but i think the foiled attempt was the last straw. anyway, back to the story. when zinan was first sent to prison and her mother went to visit her, zinan was like a doll being dragged by the policewoman to the visiting place. there, she just sat limply while her mother pleaded with her to say something, all the while having an impassive face, and dull, sightless eyes. i suspected that zinan had already gone round the bend, but i was forced to rethink this when i saw a tear rolling down her cheeks, which could only mean that zinan had heard her mother's words, just that she still remained the same- limp, impassive, with sightless eyes. it made me have a feeling that while she was seemingly untouchable, a part of her- the sane and logical conscious part of her- was touched, just that it was already buried too deep inside her mind. was her mind already rejecting wat is real, accepting emptiness or the memories of the past? subsequently, as there was a fast forward to 2004, a scene showed zinan in a mental hospital (i think), who had seriously gone beyond reach. was this the final act of the deadening of her consciousness? i dunno. wat was still with her, though, was her memories of her past with Rui-an, which, i suspect, were her most treasured memories.

i'm not sure if u understood my analysis. it all looks confusing to me. nonetheless, the bottom line is that does madness mean locking away our consciousness and leaving only the memories we want? if so, does that mean that madness is curable, coz if madness is wat i think it might be, isnt it the conscious effort of the subconscious to lock away all that is painful and logical, and just bury it? or issit incurable, coz, like "Goblin Market", "One can lead a horse to water, Twenty cannot make him drink"- a person's mind is stronger than anything else?

i mean, u see, even Poe suggests this. in "The System of Dr Tarr and Prof Fether", the patients in the mental hospital seemed to have gone mad coz of a rejection of the social conventions imposed on them from society. in order to buck these conventions, they withdraw from the real world, and retreat into an imaginary world (somewat like a world not unlike that in "Alice in Wonderland") of them being teapots, donkeys and chickens. however, a point of consideration is this: was their bucking of social conventions conscious or unconscious? could there have been someting that happened to them that caused this, or did they just suddenly wake up one morning and found that the world they lived in was too harsh, too cold, too.... real?

ok, i better stop here... i'm making myself confused... now i think both the possibilities of madness are interlinked, though i feel there is a difference. cant really figure out the difference now anyway. hmm.... mebbe u can air ur views on my tagboard?

my final stand, though, is this: madness does seem to be a conscious effort of the subconscious in locking away the sane and the real, and the subsequent withdrawal of the mind into a deeper, darker, 'safer' place, where one cannot be touched by the harshness of the real world. it is a form of escapism, into a world made up one's own fantasies. so, while that person is living, awake, he or she is acty living a fantasy world deep within himself or herself, just like zinan, who lives in her past, when she was 11, knitting a scarf for Rui-an. a fantasy, a memory, which remains unchanged regardless of anything, and hence, stable and safe.

i meant to update the entries on sat, but.. well.... was too sleepy to do so... haha.... finally met up with serene, ee hui, ying chao after almost 2 yrs of postponing my meeting them... wow. hahaha... =) well, i caught up with them on most things, and found out how much i'd missed out on their lives this past 1 1/2 yrs. oh man... lets just hope it isn too late to really catch up on everything... haha... i really miss them man, just meeting them like tt reminded me of the old times, when we used to go to ee hui's house. i miss the times when we just sat down to tok bout so many things just like tt day. haha... it's like, all my friends are different... in different groups, we tok bout different things, and it was just so nice to be able to tok bout... things with them... haha, dun ask me wat we tokked bout... we tokked bout so many things...

it was a really interesting day acty. instead of going out to have lunch, we cooked our own spaghetti in ee hui's house. first, however, we went shopping at parkway. haha. we met too early though, and had breakfast at ya kun's, where we chatted. i must admit i felt a little.... left out, but then, i guess tt's only to be expected since i haven seen them for SOOOOOOOOO long!! anyway, we spent quite a bit of time at ee hui's house tokking b4 we went to start cooking. MAN! the food was GOOD!!! haha... =) mebbe the company added to the entire cookign and eating experience. =)

hehe, the funny part came when we had dessert. we made our own fondue! or rather, ee hui did it for us. she melted chocolate on a saucepan, and cut apples, bananas, pears and strawberries. then she opened a bottle of red wine and 4 of us trooped down to the poolside to eat all these. haha... can u imagine, 4 ppl, one carrying a bottle of wine, one carrying fruits and a pot holder, one holding wine glasses, and another carrying the saucepan, and we went down to the poolside to eat and... yep, watch guys, coz ee hui said there were many caucasians on sat swimming tt day. hehe/.... =) the children were SOOO cute! well the guys... nth much to say, coz they were either too young or too old. hehe... ;) anyway, i felt rather self-conscious... after all, its not everyday one goes to the poolside to drink red wine and eat fondue! haha... to add to this, ee hui's wine glasses were huge! =) those who walked past us were staring at our glasses. someone finally said, "those are the largest wine glasses i've ever seen!"hehe... oh well.... =) a new experience after all. i can't say if i got drunk, coz i didn feel woozy, but i did feel REAL sleepy... haha... i was in danger of dozing off several times! i could walk in a straight line though... ;) yep... hmm... my chest did feel a little tight after drinking the wine, but there wasnt a full-blown asthma attack, as i had anticipated. i dunno y, though... perhaps those times when i drank wine and got asthma attacks were coincidences?lemme try somemore next time... hahaha... hypothesis testing... hehe... =)

yep, adn tt was one of the best gatherings i've had... hehe... i must make a note to catch up with all the others after the As.... =)

Ooops... think i told grace the wrong description of my blog.. hehe... its not a toddler puckering up... its... (hold on... i go check) a little girl looking proud of herself... hmm.... bad with images these days. i have a strong suspicion my brain cells are on the verge of dying. oh man... tt would make me like the youngest person in the world to suffer from Alzheimer's. oh man... seriously! i could remember different conversations with different ppl for a long time after i tokked to them, and i could attach names to faces easily. now, i'd be lucky if i can remember wat i said to my sis this morning. wow.

anyway, there are 2 more papers left to go. maths paper2 and the gothic paper. shikes. both are my weak areas. i cant decide which io'm weaker in. i've always been BAAAAD with stats. =p cant stand them. as for gothic, i'm nvr sure how to argue my case for the essay qns. and i have to do reasonably well for these papers, coz i bombed last wk's papers, just the way the Americans bombed hiroshima and nagasaki in...err... 1945 (did i get tt rite?)... bad bad bad feeling all round. bet ms lam's gonna look at my rossetti essay and go "WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?" and my silas essay is gonna be so lacking in points... i only tokked bout setting as integral to the central themes of the novel. didn tok about the use and importance of imagery, the narrative voice. Double SHIKES. AAAARGHG!!!! and WAS there insecurity in the drama extract? i cant decide. oh shEEEEEEET (screeeches)

ok enough bout lit. its depressing. need i go on about the other subj? suffice it to say that they were equally disastrous. nvr felt so positive bout failing gp. ohmanohmanohman.........

ok i think i better shut up. hahaha....

on to lighter stuff, Schnoozee can go down the stairs!! haha, just trained him to when i came home just now. knwoing he has a fear of heights, i placed him at the top stair while i went to unearth the slippers he had snuck under the sofa. then, when i came, he had climbed up the stairs. i had to coax him down the stairs with treats. for every step he took, he got a treat. he's funny u know, he thinks tt by climbing upwards, it can acty ease his agony of climbing down. *shrugs*

and i think i've got a mad puppy. he's tearing round the house now as we speak, stealing slippers and socks and door wedges. yes, door wedges. and, to add on to all these, he just ran out of the house. to make things worse, he doesn recognise his name yet. can u imagine the panic we all feel when he runs out of the house and he doesn appear? we dun even know whether he's in the house or not. argh. my house is 15 storeys aboveground. this stupid daredevil dog has no fear of anything. can u imagine if he acty went thru the fence? he'd fall to his death and be as squashed as... well, as someone who just jumped from the 15th storey. other than that, he's cute and lovable. jsut tt i wish he wasn so hyper. argh.... no luck in the toilet training area too, coz he does his business anywher BUT the newspaper when we let him out. however, whenever he's back in his place, he pees at the same spot. i dun understand!!!

HELP!!!!

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what the hell just happened?!?!?!?!??! what paper did i just take just now? f maths?! oh man oh man..... i'm SOOOO gonna fail today....

can u believe i acty FORGOT how to do stupid linear inequalities?! it was so easy too... oh man!!! how the heck to apply overseas lidat?!?!

i so dun feel like studying in s'pore already... haha, i came to tt conclusion after reading xy's blog and thinking thru it... mebbe i should go away, see other parts of the world... mebbe it wun be as stressful as here.... hai...

ok gtg byebye!

ok, end of olympics=start of mugging

YAH RITE. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I SAID I HAVE TO STUDY? dun even bother counting. u're just gonna lose count.

first time i stayed up to watch the women's vball finals... it was exciting, but SOOOO irritating and LONG. can u believe the first set was 30-28? i was lying on the sofa, half awake, thinking, "enough alreadY! can't someone jkust win this set?" well, russia won the set. and the next. but china took the next 3 sets. YIPPEEE!!! hahah... china finished 5th 4 yrs ago. they are good, and they really pia their hearts out... oh btw, the match was at 1... and tt one set took about an hour... ended up giving up watching it halfway and gg off to slp at 3 soemthing. the game was only into its third set. -_-" i was there drifting in and out of sleep. hahaha... dunno hwo my sis can find the energy to finish watching the game... even the men's one the next day, which was at 12.... goodness.... i guess coz its brazil playing... she loves brazil, says they play like kampong kias... hahaha... sorta liek the way they play soccer... born naturals... =)

watching the olympics makes me wish i was born with some spectacular sports talent.... like superhuman stamina or somehting.... but then, there's a downside to this, coz sports is a cruel side of life. yep, winning is cool, but losing... well, its damn painful. i watched the handball finals on sunday, denmark vs korea. well, i dun really understand handball, but i can sure understand the feelings of the players... the game was tied at 34-34, and to solve the prob, there was the penalty shootout. korea lost when the danish goalkeeper managed to save 2 goals. i nvr expected such a rush of emotion as i watched the players explode at the end of the game. the koreans were huddled together crying, while the danish were piled on top of one another in a group hug (kinda weird if u ask me...) and were kissing each other. they were doing funny things, like rolling around on the floor... hmm... but well, there rose in me rather conflicting emotions: overwhelming happiness for the winners, a sense of pain and loss for the losers. its like, they've come so far, played so hard, and they lost. its sorta like bringing up a person to the heavens then bringing them crashing down to earth just when they believed they could reach their destinations.

well, tts a side of sports i guess, showing the realities of life, like giving us an awareness that life is not always smooth-sailing. even a world no1 like lin dan could lose to susilo. but still, though tts the truth bout sports, and it still attracts ppl, its still painful and cruel. so wat if a team had trained hard? everything falls apart when the team is off-form, or when luck is not on their side. at tt time, who cares how much effort they had put in before?

haha... sounds rather negative eh? well.... *shrugs* this entry might spark off some aruments i guess, but it'll do my chatterbox some good to have some lively arguments there... haha... guess my argument is pretty one-sided... i'd love to hear the other side of this argument, if anyone has it.... haha... it might come out for gp u know, like mebbe ' "entertaining but absolutely of zero content". discuss this view of sports. ' hahah... then we can pull out this argumen.... hahaha.... all thanks to me!!!

haha... i tend to get carried away... dun mind me.... well, it just occurred to me this has been the longest entry since.... dunno when... hahaha.... k, my eyes are drifting shut. gtg. CIAO! hahah...

i need to get my life back and find my balance once again... hehe, feel like i'm like "a man sliding into dark waters seeks to find a momentary footing on the slippery stones", just struggling to find my balance before i fall. tt balance has been lost since the common test. guess i was getting too complacent...

oh well, i think i have to remain a recluse in order to find my balance again. school is taking up too much time... haha... bet commando was plotting to make me come to school everyday.... plan the timetable until there is no day i can skip. haha...

i just realised tt i get emotionally claustrophobic. my heart gets all itchy and i turn hot, then cold, and irritable. i lost concentration in everything i do, and i guess tt's how i lost my balance. never knew tt bout myself until recently. hmm... must be the exams.... argh...

ok, i gtg get ready to go back to sch.... got so many qns to ask mrs neo.... hai...... where is my A????

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW SHITES!!!!! li jiawei lost!!! *sob sob* it was such a painful match to watch!

when i turned on the tv, the score was 3-3, and both sides had drawn, with 3games to 3 games. the seventh game was the rubber set, meant to decide who would advance to the next round.... it was like, 3-3, then 4-3, then 4-4... all the way to 9-8 in favour of jiawei, then kim hyang mi caught up. -_-" it was SOOO sad to watch i tell u... even as a tv spectator dunno how many thousand miles away from athens, i was rather overcome by emotion, and could acty feel the tension li jiawei mus have been feeling at that time... i bet its hell to be brought up so high, and led to believe she was capable of doing so much, then suddenly losing it by such a small margin. tt's y its so painful... i imagines it being me, and i almost cried... hee... call me a sentimental emotional fool, but.... well, there u are.... =)

anyway, li jiawei did put up a good fight. she tried her best... guess we just have to wait for the next olympics, where mebbe s'pore will have better luck... this is just like 4 yrs ago, when most of s'pore tuned in to watch jing junhong play in the semis... we still lost, but by a larger margin. this time, we were so near, yet so far.... *sighs heavily*

nvm, we still have robotics competitions and math olympiads to look forward to for our gold medals...... =)

hey.... just heard yesterday morning tt li jiawei won the quarter-finals and is on her way to the semis, playing against tt korean girl zhang xueling lost to... hehe... to be honest, i nvr really believed she would beat wang nan- after all, wang nan had beaten jing junhong 4 yrs ago in the semis, and jing is a more experienced player... *shrugs* oh well, its great news after all! =) it was an upset all rite... 4-1... oh man.... cool! =)

haha... hopefully Singapore will earn a place on the medal tally board... even a bronze is good... =)

CRAP. got a bleedin' headache now, which is SOOOO at the wrong time, just when i need my brainpower to do the Silas Marner essay. its fun acty, but NOT fun when i have to do it with a headache and a non-working paracetamol. argh.... the damn thing is pounding away merrily now, while i figure out how to phrase my sentences to form a coherent argument so as to pose a challenge for the rip-the-essay event tml... haha.... well... let's just hope the essay is relevant, and the arguments made are strong and not too unfocused, as is always my problem in essays. so far, i have managed to reach the second page, but i'm not halfway through. the min requirement for an essay? 4 sides. GREAT.

so wat the hell am i doing here, u might ask? haha, i have no idea myself, perhaps to take a li'l break? hehe, i have like until 12 midnight to complete this essay... cos at 12, cuba is gonna play against china in the vball event... haha, this should be an interesting match... =) if the headache persists, mebbe it wuld be time to take stronger action... hai... ponstan.... though i have to wait 3 hours for the thing to take the capsule, coz i just took paracetamol... haha.... perhaps i should try to find something enjoyable bout the pain? sort of like, if i can't beat the pain, i gotta join them kinda thing? hahah... sounds sadistic? well.. i've found it works sometimes... hahaha... just like eating chilli, i found tt a way to not let the chilli get to u is to just sit still, and just concentrate on the sensation of the chilli on ur lips and tongue. haha... must concentrate fully, otherwise it gets a mite unbearable... hehe... when u really concentrate, the feeling becomes kinda interesting... ahaha..... somewhat better than drinking water i feel... water makes it worse somehow... =)

so sad bout susilo's match rite? the last 2 matches brought him to the heavens, then this brought him crashing back down to earth. the last set was a real disappointment. he nvr seemed to be able to hold on to his service... hai.... feel badminton is a cruel game. tough on the body and the mind... like beach vb acty... hmm..... he was so close to the semis, but now.....

oh well... though singapore has had no gold medals in sports, at least we have plenty of gold medals in the areas of robotics and maths olympiads... haha.... guess we know where our comparative advantage lies now, eh? =)

CRAP. got a bleedin' headache now, which is SOOOO at the wrong time, just when i need my brainpower to do the Silas Marner essay. its fun acty, but NOT fun when i have to do it with a headache and a non-working paracetamol. argh.... the damn thing is pounding away merrily now, while i figure out how to phrase my sentences to form a coherent argument so as to pose a challenge for the rip-the-essay event tml... haha.... well... let's just hope the essay is relevant, and the arguments made are strong and not too unfocused, as is always my problem in essays. so far, i have managed to reach the second page, but i'm not halfway through. the min requirement for an essay? 4 sides. GREAT.

so wat the hell am i doing here, u might ask? haha, i have no idea myself, perhaps to take a li'l break? hehe, i have like until 12 midnight to complete this essay... cos at 12, cuba is gonna play against china in the vball event... haha, this should be an interesting match... =) if the headache persists, mebbe it wuld be time to take stronger action... hai... ponstan.... though i have to wait 3 hours for the thing to take the capsule, coz i just took paracetamol... haha.... perhaps i should try to find something enjoyable bout the pain? sort of like, if i can't beat the pain, i gotta join them kinda thing? hahah... sounds sadistic? well.. i've found it works sometimes... hahaha... just like eating chilli, i found tt a way to not let the chilli get to u is to just sit still, and just concentrate on the sensation of the chilli on ur lips and tongue. haha... must concentrate fully, otherwise it gets a mite unbearable... hehe... when u really concentrate, the feeling becomes kinda interesting... ahaha..... somewhat better than drinking water i feel... water makes it worse somehow... =)

so sad bout susilo's match rite? the last 2 matches brought him to the heavens, then this brought him crashing back down to earth. the last set was a real disappointment. he nvr seemed to be able to hold on to his service... hai.... feel badminton is a cruel game. tough on the body and the mind... like beach vb acty... hmm..... he was so close to the semis, but now.....

oh well... though singapore has had no gold medals in sports, at least we have plenty of gold medals in the areas of robotics and maths olympiads... haha.... guess we know where our comparative advantage lies now, eh? =)

haha.... we got a new puppy!!!! he's a miniature shnauzer, 7 weeks old... he's salt and pepper, though mostly black than grey... and he's sooooo adorable!!!! he's the total opposite of peke though, who was mostly barkative. this new puppy is so quiet!!!

err... we haven found a name for him yet.. haha... we called him Thumper at first, but now papa and mummy say tt name sounds better on a bigger dog, so... *shrugs* we are now considering calling him shnauzee.... hahaha... cute rite?
hehe, i haven managed to take photo of him yet.. will try to soon.... =)

"Where Is The Love"

If ever a boy stood on the moon
All the heavens would call them angels 'round
Stop the tears from troubled sky's....from
Falling...falling...falling.

If ever the river could whisper your name,
Would the choices you made still be the same?
Like a flower that dies from angry rain,
Why do we hurt ourselves?

Where is the love that lets the sunlight in to start again?
The love that sees no color lines?
Life begins with love,
So spread your wings & fly,
Guide your spirit safe & sheltered,
A thousand dreams that we can still believe.

If ever a boy stood on the moon,
Carrying all of his treasures from the stars
To a rainbow which leads to where we are.
Together we'd chase the sun.

Where is the love that lifts my brother's voice to the skies?
The love that answers a mother's cry?
Life begins with love,
So spread your wings & fly,
Guide your spirit safe & sheltered.
A thousand dreams that we can still believe.

A boy stood on the moon
The ancient souls can still discover
A thousand dreams that we can still believe
That we can still believe
We can still believe
We can still believe

-------- Celine Dion

it's a beautiful song... jsut realised i had this song in one of her albums... just fell in love with the song... haha... then again, all of celine dion's songs are nice *shrugs* her voice is GREAT.... i wonder if they still sell her greatest hits album, though there should be more songs added to her list by now since she came into the music world again.... =) go dl it or something!!!

anyone know where i can get the html codes for this song?

just tried to upload my photos into the computer... unfortunately, i cannot... dunno wat's wrong with the software... argh.... i would like to ask kenny kor kor, but well... dun think he's in the mood to do so anyway... hai... =(

feeling so.... so... *yawns* sleeeeeeepyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.... i did sleep just now, but well... eyes are still tired.. wonder y... hai...

ok, nth else to say, just tt the weekend is here!!! and i bought 8 days! so i have the olympics schedule!!! yay!! but then, the games i wanna watch are all either in the wee hours in the morning, or when i'm in sch... -_-" i wish i could stay at home on wed to watch the cuba vs russia volleyball match, but cannot!!! tt would mean an MC!!! but then again, i haven taken any mc this term... mebbe its time i took one... *wiggles eyebrows* hahaha... just a thot... but not likely tt i'd do it... MAN!!! cuba vs russia!! how exciting is tt?!?!?! *Moans* i wan to watchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... .
hahah... better stop acting childish... ok, gg to tok to my sisters... haha.. bye!! =)

went to school in a daze today... seriously, my brain was barely functioning at all. it was as if the thing was just stuffed full of cotton wool and air... hehe... sounds like i'm exaggerating? believe me, i'm not. been feeling like tt often... esp this yr, particularly for lit... it's like, i feel i have no more to give to lit anymore. zilch [u hear tt squashing sound when u say "zilch"? cool eh? =)]. i just feel drained of any sensible emotion anymore. hehe... yep, its true... melodramatic? perhaps. but i just cant seem to find the emotion nor the words to express wat i feel for the texts anymore. i think i just need rest, though tt sounds rather moronic, since we all just came back from 4 days of national day. hahaha.... big joke, i did not do any work... hehe... was bz playing and tokking to laura (oh, i had a great time btw, so Laura, DUN U DARE TO SAY SORRY. YOU WILL NOT BE FORGIVEN) and tricking alvin and alan... hee.... =) ironic ain't it? tt i didn do anything productive, and yet feel drained? sickening if u ask me...

i wanna pon school!!!!! i need time at home to study!!!! seriously, i'm desperate for ponning sch, just tt the thot tt i'm gonna have to go get mc and wait so long and then next day borrow notes from another poor soul who oso needs it for her work, and then bring home to copy....... it's so tedious, i might as well drag up my lazy and getting fatter body out of my nice, comfy warm bed and begin the preparation for sch. on lucky days, i get to board 21 and wun have to walk so much. on unlucky days... well.... have to take 18... argh... i dun like to walk... ehehe.... then again, i'm lazy... =p

anyway, on to more lighthearted things.... did u know tt the lemon tree guy was from dhs?!!??!? i didn know either... hehe, until i read XY's blog.. will have to find out his name soon though... hehe... =)

oh yah, more lighthearted stuff!! FRIDAY is COMING!!!!! hahaha.... FINALLY...

oh well... its getting late... let's hope tml wun be such a dazy day for me.... i'm crossing my fingers.... pray hard for me k? =)

haha.... yesterday was a greeeat day! it started out fine... then we went to hougang sports hall to watch the match tt mel told me was made up of 'Iron Ladies'. unfortunately, we went too late. we weren't even in time to watch the players shake hands *shakes head*. haha... anyway, we were in time to watch the Police Academy vs the Singapore Combined Schools. the Police Academy guys were good! the Combined Schools.... well..... they didn really live up to our expectations... after all, they are supposed to be the best from their schools, and probably the future national team players... hmm... but there was an age difference between the two teams though... and fitness i guess. hehe... =) i guess the oldest in the COmbined Schools was our age? the POlice Academy, however, have been released from NS (hmm.. am i rite?). isnt the age difference a factor in this? the match got better as the players got in to the second and third sets. i think the combined schools team sent in their second six for the first set... they were thrashed k.... 25-5... the other 2 sets were better, though they lost as well... 25-25, 25-21 i think... i must say though, the combined schools did their best... =) it was an exciting match altogether... =)

after that was FUN!!!!! we all (Laura, evon, yi lun and me) went to meet alvin at marina bay to buy present for bernice jiejie... her 21st bday is coming, and her bf wanted to do something sweet for her by contacting laura and asking her to collect the presents from the other cousins, which he would mail to her in NZ... Awwwwwwww.... haha.. .we decided to get her a kite, thanx to TC's idea of a kite representing freedom, and we ended up spending $25... for a kite!! hahaha.. we nvr expected a kite to cost tt much! too bad alan was having the flu, otherwise all the cousins (well, almost all) would have had a great time together! the kite we bought came with a packet of 10 mini-kites, which we tried to fly altogether in the field... hahaha... in the end, we ended up flying only two, on separate strings, coz we werent able to make them fly... -_-" it was fun though, everyone running like mad just trying to get the kites to get up. goodness! we couldn even match up to a little boy flying a kite! argh... hahaha... guess our kites were just too small... nevertheless, we all had the time of our lives!!!!

we wanted to take a photo altogether, but unfortunately there was no one we could ask. since alvin had already taken a photo with alan, he took a pic for the 4 of us... hahaha... we went mad though in one of the photos, posing like mao zedong. hehe... will try to post it up... if i can... =) we should take a whole group photo!!!

i seriously can't wait for Nov to come... yah yah... i know... there's the dreaded A levels, but then, ALL the cousins are coming! well... mebbe not all, coz penny, linda and george are not coming, but well, the rest are!!! we MUST take photos together!!!! Nan2 de2 yi1 ci4 we get to get together... come to think of it, we have NEVER got together like tt... i have only just talked to kenette last year, can u believe it, when i've known bout his existence for all my life... *shakes head* we only got reacquainted last yr. pathetic aint it? blame it on the geographicval distance... can't wait to see lynette jie jie!!!!! hahaha... she's a v fun person to be around!! mad mad one... hehe... wish kenette could bring his gf though.. i wanna see her!!!

can u imagine the fun we'll have?!?!?!?!? hopefully they'll stay until after my As, then we can all go tour Singapore together... then after tt we go back malaysia together... hehe... book the budget airlines and all of us get in.. it'll be like our private airline!!! hahahahahahah.... COOL!!! now, if only As didn end so late...........

anyway, if i wanna enjoy myself freely when they come, i better go continue my work. otherwise, there will be a dampener on my mood when i go out with them and keep thinking of how i did for my paper or if i've finished my revision....

ah xiang korkor's wedding is on 20th nov mah..... right smack in the middle of my exams.... hopefully by then i'll be surer of my work to be able to go out like once or twice with my cousins and attend the wedding!! let's hope all the cousins can sit together, without my niece trying to squeeze in.... *shudders*

haha... seen the new additions on my blog?!?!?!? hehe... just learnt them today... thanx go to LAURA, my LOVERLY COUSIN!!! haha.. she's staying over for the hols, and she knows so much bout html!! hahaa..... amazing, eh? hee, tt's y i'm so happy now. got new music, new animation, new polls, new hugs.... haha...

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haha... .cool eh? hehehee..... yep, pls pls pls pls take part in these!! hahaha... gimme face lar.... hahahahahhahaahahah....

ok i'm tokking crap. haha, but i'm so pleased.... i'm laughing like a loon now for goodness' sake!!! arghh.... i better stop... pls give me feedback on wateva is on my blog... haha... thanx!

GREAT. just when i have no time to change my blogskin or even look for a new one, the bandwidth just has to expire. i thot i had saved the image onto my comp... apparently, i hadn. could someone pls tell me the correct way to do it PLS?!?!??!??!? i cant go on like tt!!!!!

ah well... been having experiencing conflicting emotions these days... (Alvin, will tell u bout it... as soon as i go online... which is like when?!?!?!?) and its getting on my nerves, and i cant concentrate! argh. which reminds me. tml is the econ essay test, and wonderful me has not studied it yet. GREAT. i dun even know if the labour market is coming out, coz if it is, i am so gonna die. i can just surrender down there lor... not tt i dun understand wat's gg on.. if i read it of course i'll know (crosses fingers) but thing is, i dunno how to apply! WONDERFUL, aint it? -_-"

ok, i better stop complaining in this blog... seems like my life appears real unhappy on the blog these days, and lest u all think i'm some complain queen... welll..... hmm... i dunno wat to say.. hahaha... =)

just read the forum page in today's newspaper. frankly, it shocked me. Do parents mean to say tt only now do they realise their children are being robbed of their childhood?!?!?!?! tsk tsk.... how slow they are... dun tell me they nvr knew their children were not allowed to play wildly during recess, before and after sch?!?! and had to do silent reading (not tt i minded tt v much.. i quite enjoyed silent reading, by the way ^_^) oh man..... and yes, for parents' info, the children are growing up much too fast for their own good. i mean, a LIFE SCIENCES CLUB in pri sch where students learn to EXTRACT DNA?!?!?! in my time, we didn even know wat the hell DNA was. if u had told me there was such a thing as RNA, i would have been reminded of Ribena. yes, i am speaking seriously. sounds dumb, i know... but at least i knew tt i led a more normal childhood than children now. at least i got to go downstairs and play all sorts of games with my neighbours and learnt how to ride a bike or something... haha.. at least tt let me learn something more bout the world.

frankly, i think if children are allowed to play more, they discover more bout the world. there is joy in learning, and i feel schools would do well to remember tt. i remember my mother used to bring us down for walks and while talking to us, she would tell us stuff, like wat mimosas were, their special characteristics, wat the names of other plants and flowers were.... u know, those just made us more eager to learn more? yah yah... i'm in arts now, but so wat? at least i enjoyed learning wateva it was tt i learnt... didn regret it btw... =) ah well... those were the good old days.

u know, if i could get my way, i'd let children learn chinese in a more fun way. i'd let them watch chinese shows- NO, not those Chinese shows by MOE (they're BORING!!!), by MEdiaCorp or MediaWorks. then, we'd discuss them and learn words. and then, we'd oso watch CHINESE MOVIES. hmm... mebbe meteor garden all those as well... hahaha.... u'd be surprised at how much pri sch children know bout these shows man... by niece and nephew are proof of tt... in this, at least there's incentive in learning chinese! at least it's better than gg to class and learning (translate this to chi on ur own... i cant type it here) "My sister has a red bag. My brother has a blue bag. My parents go to work everyday" u know, all those kind of things? well, who the heck cares wat colour bags ur bro and sis carry?!?!?!?! i carry ablack one and u dun see me gg around telling everyone, do u? and i dun have a bro, thank u v much. oh well... i'm just being lame here...

haha/.... tell me ur views! liven up my chatterbox! ARGUE!!!!!!

ok, this is anticlimatic, but i have to do article review and revise econ now.