Monday, March 19, 2007
Tomorrow
Song: Tomorrow
The sun'll come out
Tomorrow
Bet your bottom dollar
That tomorrow
There'll be sun!
Just thinkin' about
Tomorrow
Clears away the cobwebs,
And the sorrow
'Til there's none!
When I'm stuck a day
That's gray,
And lonely,
I just stick out my chin
And Grin,
And Say,
Oh!
The sun'll come out
Tomorrow
So ya gotta hang on
'Til tomorrow
Come what may Tomorrow!
Tomorrow!
I love ya Tomorrow!
You're always
A day
A way!
Haha I put up this song cos it sounded so inspiring, so positive. Hope you all liked it. It was played in the documentary on children with Tourette's Syndrome, and I just thought it was so touching the way they find the courage to carry on with life, regardless of the way people look at them cos of their twitches. Some of them even found the inspiration to want to educate the others about the disorder, and I find that really brave. Or maybe cos they are just children. But... for children to have that kind of mentality, I think it shows how matured they are. Haha I just wish I had that kind of courage. This song was actually composed for a play/musical called "Annie", a story about an English orphan girl. I don't know what the story of this play/musical is, but I think it's quite a famous one. I must research on it after my exams. Haha so many things to do.. Hope I manage to accomplish them!!
Monday, March 12, 2007
Is there a light?
My relatives are here over the weekend, and I sooo wish I could stay home to talk to them. Haha, I like them, and the house is really more lively when there are visitors whom you know and feel rather comfortable with. Now that Yi Lun is still in UK, the house is really quiet. Luckily I have assignments and reports to keep me busy so I don't think about it that much. But still... I do wish I could have more time to interact with them, though I'm like one generation younger. Politics is so much fun. But it would be a different story if anyone were to stay in the same place long-term I guess, so perhaps it's the novelty that's making me wanna stay home. That, and my sense of escapism, which is becoming stronger. The need to sleep is getting stronger too, an indication that all I wanna do is to escape and hibernate until the holidays are here.
But the reality of it all is that life still goes on, doesn't it? Doesn't matter if a person dies, or something catastrophic happens to anyone. The people left behind still have to go on and live life, otherwise they'll die. What's the relation between this topic and the paragraph before? I'm not sure too, but I suppose what I was trying to say is that there's really no point in escapism, since if I decide to escape, I'm just making the consequences more inevitable and much worse than they can get than if I can confront them. Easy words to type and say, but difficult to fulfill.
The need to escape from school's getting stronger too. Beginning to dislike checking sms-es and webmail, for fear that something else is gonna come up that has to be attended to immediately, and disrupting the schedule that I planned in my mind. Oh, if any of you reading this is thinking I'm targetting it at you, don't worry, it's not you, it's the circumstances. I know it's inevitable that communication has to go on in order to get the thing at hand done, but I just don't like it. Don't stop the communication, coz it's necessary. Otherwise, the consequences will suck. Haha, I'm just being bitchy old me, so just treat it like I'm just complaining for the sake of complaining k?
Ahhhhh holidays are coming, I'm sooo looking forward to it. Maybe I should consider 1 week of closing myself up at home. Haha, the prospect of watching tv all I want is just soooo tempting!!!
To all of you who are feeling stressed now, Jiayou!! We'll get through this again!!
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
I need...
2) better time management
3)to escape from school!!! and work!!!
haha ok i'm back to my complaining mode again, just humour me lahhhhhhhhh haha...
Monday, March 05, 2007
Relapse
There was a watch spree too! And I was reminded of my love for Fossil watches. Damn but they are such beauties! But one costs at least $135. I saw one that cried out for my money, but alas, I'm a poor church mouse. Gotta scrimp and save first before I can buy you. Even then, perhaps I'd have another new love. Haha. Maybe I should have a new goal for myself- to be a millionaire by a certain age. Probably I'd be more thrifty then.
I gotta find a job during the hols. Definitely. If I don't go on exchange, that is.
Thursday, March 01, 2007
My Handphone and other gripings
On another not much more pleasant note, I am sick of eating. Do you know how much time is wasted on eating? Imagine how much time can be saved if one meal can settle everything for the whole day. If you've read Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, you'd know about the bubblegum which Violet Beauregarde ate. That bubblegum contains 3 meals in one sweet, and after eating that, we don't have to worry about eating for the rest of the day. Argh. Just eating that one sweet, and chewing it while doing work... I can just imagine how much time it will save. I wonder if the bubblegum will make me feel sleepy after eating it. It would be good if it didn't, then I can do so much more. I know it's a stupid thing to wish for something like that, coz we usually treat meals as breaks from work, and without stopping for meals, we are little better than machines which are recharged by bubblegum... But it's really frustrating to feel hungry then spend half an hour to an hour eating and then spending about another hour battling sleepiness. That's up to an hour wasted.
I like my food. I really do. But I can't stand it when I have so many things to do and my stupid stomach goes rumbling away and I start feeling dizzy. Just wish I didn't have to eat.
Sunday, February 25, 2007
Evolution
And just to remind us that we, the "weaker sex" have to bear children next time, periods come with cramps. What is this- adding insult to injury? Argh. Sometimes I wish I could just take out the uterus and just wring all the blood out of it. Do you know how much trouble will be saved if we could do that?
I guess some of you may be a tad embarrassed by this entry. Haha, it's not what I'd usually type on my blog too, but I'm feeling too bitchy to care right now. Maybe I'll take this entry off tomorrow. Or maybe I shan't.
^%^%#$(*&_(*Y&*&^&^%#%@#&^*()_+_)(*&^%$#@!
Friday, February 23, 2007
My current favourite song
Wow if my future boyfriend sings it to me next time I'll be soooo touched. Haha I think the lyrics are quite cute leh, quite nice. The music's not bad too. Of course, if you wanna talk about the voice, maybe there's much left to be desired, but I think the lyrics and music make up for it lar... haha =)
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Eek!
I dreamt I married a cousin from my father's side! Talk about weird. And to add on to the weirdness, this cousin is not someone whom I talk to often. I only talk to him on Chinese New Year, and the topics talked about are just restricted to "Hello!" and "Come and eat!". Yes, so isn't it weird that I dreamt about him? It's disturbing I tell you, especially when you think about what Freud says about dreams symbolising the unconscious. Argh. But I can assure you, I have no feelings towards that cousin. Funny how that dream came the day before Valentine's Day. Hmm...
Well, my dream aside, this Valentine's Day has been the same as always, quite sad eh? Haha I'm waiting for Elvin Ng to come ask me out! =p Haha an equivalent would do too! =)
Friday, February 09, 2007
Name: Yi Ling
Birth Date: 20/2/86
Current Status: single
Eye Color: black
Hair Color: black with fading highlights. Man I gotta do it again after my hair has rested enough. =p
Righty or Lefty: Righty
Zodiac Sign: Pisces
Layer TWO - On the inside
Your Heritage: chinese
Your Fears: confrontations, embarrassing situations, family members and those that I care about having something happening to them, not getting good honours!! =S
Your Weaknesses: Bleah. Procrastination is my middle name. Hating confrontations.
Your Perfect Pizza: chilli, cheese, seafood. Don't really like Hawaiian. Haha, but will eat it if I have to. =)
Layer THREE - Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
Your thoughts first waking up: Crap I have to wake up. Why does time pass so fast?
Your Bedtime: 130-2am
Your most missed memory: When I was a child.
Layer FOUR - Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke: Used to be Pepsi, but now Coke. It's less sweet and I like the bite of the gas.
McDonald’s or Burger King: McDonald's! I'm a McDonald's fan! Haha
Adidas or Nike: Adidas. Love the clothes, just no money. Sheesh.
Lipton tea or Nestea: Nestea's Ice Lemon Tea!
Chocolate or vanilla: This is a no-brainer. Chocolate!
Cappuccino or coffee: Haha makes no difference to me. Don't really drink coffee- gives me a headache and makes me feel like I'm on steroids. Eew
Layer FIVE -Do you
Smoke: No and I don't plan to.
Curse: Hee yes...
Layer SIX -In the Past Month
Drank alcohol: Does one sip count?
Gone to the mall: No I haven't but I'm going shopping today! Yay!
Been on stage: Nope
Eaten sushi: No. So sad. I wanna eat Sushi Buffet but no money! Argh.
Dyed your hair: Nope. But maybe during June hols.
Layer SEVEN - Have You Ever?
Played a stripping game: No. Nothing to show lar. And I don't plan to.
Changed who you were to fit in: Yes. I'm a conformist.
Layer EIGHT
Age you’re hoping to be married: ??? See when attached first then I tell you. Haha
Layer NINE - In a Girl/Guy
Best eye colour: Black?
Best hair colour: Black or brown. I don't like guys who dye their hair blonde or lighter. I like good boys. Haha
Short or long hair: Short! Unless they can look like Zaizai!
Layer TEN - What Were You Doing
1 minute ago: Giving out the last questionnaire for the session
1 hour ago: Preparing for the experiment that's going on now
4.5 hours ago: Sleeping lar. Don't be mean. I can't wake up that early.
1 month ago: Still slacking in school.
1 year ago: In school, probably running experiments?
Layer ELEVEN - Finish the sentence
I love: my family, chocolate, sleeping, reading, doing nothing, and the course I'm doing now. Hmm would saying friends (I think you know who you are) be a bit dodgy?
I feel: like I'm procrastinating too much. There's a friggin test next week.
I hate: feeling stupid, mental blocks, not being able to sleep.
I hide:Muahaha. Let me continue hiding it lar, don't lidat!!
Sometimes.I miss: the days when I was a child. And maybe JC days. And....
I need: to stop wasting my time.
Layer TWELVE - Tag 5 people.
Nobody. Do it if you are interested!
Haha I realised that while I was doing this, I was thinking of the various contexts I am usually in. Is this typical Asian behaviour? Tell me!
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
Chocolate Buffet at Swissotel Merchant Court
This is the chocolate fountain they had there. In front of the fountain are a bowl of honeydew and I think pineapple. If you think they are weird, I would agree with you. No strawberries! What a pity. Instead, they had honeydew, water apple (?!?!?!), and pineapple. Are you going "hmmm....". Haha I was too. I thought they might have strawberries and kiwis!
One of the things I was looking forward to during the buffet- hot chocolate made for you on the spot by the chef! Contrary to what you all might think about there only being 3 flavours of chocolates, you'd be pleasantly surprised. On top of dark chocolate, there exists another type of chocolate: strong bitter dark chocolate. Yep, this is for those who don't like their chocolate too sweet. I opted for this, coz I wanted to see how bitter bitter chocolate can get. Well, it wasn't sweet, if you're wondering, but not really chocolatey either, but I enjoyed it. I reckon dark chocolate would have been just nice in terms of chocolatey-ness and sweetness. I don't think I'd try the white chocolate though, never been a fan of it. I didn't try milk chocolate either, I figured it might taste like Milo. =p
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
BLEAH
Maybe I should blog about the chocolate buffet.
Watch this spot.
Yes. I know some of you will tell me you were watching this spot. Good for you. Carry on.
Forget it. I'm going to do it tomorrow.
Monday, January 29, 2007
SHE Concert!!
Special guests Fei Lun Hai (haha Si Wei: Ai dao~ Ai dao~) and Stephanie Sun!! Haha Fei Lun Hai's good looking! And it was an experience to see Stephanie Sun in person! Haha...
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
Friday, January 19, 2007
It's a sad sad life
Yes, so here's an announcement:
Please don't sms me! Email me if there's anything, or you can call me at home if you know my house number. I promise to check my mail more often!!
Ok, I'm out.
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Foodie Food!!
Well and over the weekend I signed up for the trip to Big Fish Seafood Grill. What wonderful timing it is. At least at that time taste levels were up higher than yesterday's, which meant I could roughly taste, and feel the butteriness of the food. But the real taste of the fish eluded me, which was rather sad, though I think Big Fish can be given a try. The presentation of the food and the taste of the brownies and mashed potatoes have convinced me that their fish should not be too far off the mark, so hopefully I'll be able to make a trip down again when I recover. For those interested in Big Fish, it's at 85 Upper East Coast Road. If you need the contact number, ask me or drop a tag, I'll find it and give you. Haha I'm too lazy to check it now. My wallet's within reach, but I don't feel like reaching out. =p
And then that same night, I went to try the Sarawak Chili Noodles, as recommended by some foodie blogger who was recommended to me by LeRoy, one of the Deli Aprecio Club members. The description sounded good and so tempting- the description of how hot the chili was made me reaaaal tempted to go try it out. But again, I overestimated the recovery of my tastebuds, and was disappointed that I couldn't actually give a proper judgement of the noodles. BUT one thing's for sure, the chili's not very hot. I barely felt the bite. And... the texture of the noodles was rather disappointing, nothing different from other stalls. As for the taste, based on my parents' verdicts, wasn't great either. It made us wonder if we had gone to the wrong stall, but... couldn't be, right? There was a queue! And people around us were eating it happily. Hmmm... Maybe it just didn't suit us. I lost interest in the noodles after awhile, sad to say. Well but if you're looking for value for money noodles, then this stall is the one for you. They give prawns, pork ribs (bah kut), fish cakes and alot of noodles. Rather worth the $3, if you ask me. If you're interested to give the chili mee a try, it's at Golden Mile Food Centre, #01-59 (I think). Or you can visit this website: http://ieatishootipost.blogspot.com/2006/10/chilli-mee-3-gen-sarawak-receipe-golden.html to find out more. Who knows, you might like it! One man's meat is another man's poison, after all. =) If you do try it, tell me!
Ok I've procrastinated long enough... Still haven't finished the first set of Prof Chang's notes. Argh. I wanna sleeppppppppppppppppppppppppp......
Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
Sunday, January 07, 2007
December Trip to Sarawak
Roaming around. On the left is a picture from a hill in Song. We were on our way to the "town" area, known more commonly as pasar (market place). On the right is an oil barge owned by my uncles. It's a Shell station, and supplies oil to boats. Let me introduce my cousins here: (clockwise from left) Alvin, Alan, Me, George, Acalia, Laura.
Playing Heart Attack and Uno. Yes yes, I know most of you have probably not played these games for a long time, but we played this at the request of George and Acalia. And... frankly, it was quite fun. Heart Attack was so noisy that we had to migrate upstairs to play. Even then, the adults claimed that they could still hear us. -_-"
All the cousins slept together for 2 nights, and this was how our sleeping quarters looked:
Entertainment was also provided by George and Acalia:
Notice the red-colour lantern like things hanging from the ceiling near the lights? That's a big catcher. Quite ingenous, really, it's raffia string bundled together, and then torn into strips, then soaked in oil until it becomes rancid. The raffia strings then become sticky, and thus trap any bugs rude enough to intrude in our dinner.
Another IHG Gone...
I, for one, played like crap. Oh, the first set started off good. I managed to receive all the balls, and hardly made any mistakes. But at the end of the second set and the beginning of the third set, my smart brain decided to switch off. There was one ball where I just WATCHED the damn ball land in front of me. It wasn't even a fast ball, and I wasn't fast enough to bend down. It wasn't even an ambiguous ball. It was MY ball. Argh. One point down.
If I were to talk about the mistakes I made, it would just bore you all to death. I just wish I was smart enough, alert enough, mentally and physically strong enough to play. Maybe we might have been able to save the points I lost.
Ah well. IHG is over already, and I guess we'll just have to practise harder for next year's. I do hope I'll be able to play for Hall 6 again, coz the teammates are one of the best teammates I've ever had the pleasure of playing with. Though I hardly talked much to any of them, what I liked about the team was that they accepted that everyone was different, but still treated them the same. There was no hierarchy. Reserves weren't looked down upon, and all players were treated equally. Sure, there would be concentration on the main team or perhaps the important players, but I felt that the others were never made to feel as if they didn't belong there. Mistakes weren't scolded at, but taught, and told patiently. We could have had the best players, but the most politics, if there was elitism. But there was none, and that's what I think makes the most comfortable team to play with, and that's the main reason why I like to play for Hall 6, and why I feel so bad that I caused them to lose the valuable points that we needed.
Ah well, let's just hope I can stay back in Hall 6 again, eh? Hopefully next time I'll really be able to make a difference, and also improve. =)
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
Hiatus etc
I think everyone's born a good person, really, like we are born clean slates, and have to be taught about what goes on in the the world and how to react and cope with it. These reactions and coping strategies may not be the best choices some of the time, and may not seem like behaviour befitting good people, but I think, at the end of the day, these reactions and behaviours are really just the methods that we adopt in order to survive. Some people may find being mean an easier method of getting what they want than being nice, so they just adopt it, and pretty soon, it kinda becomes second nature to be mean.
But another question arises. What makes people adopt the various methods that they adopt? Perhaps it's the environment? But some might also question how some people manage to grow up unaffected by their environments. Genetics? How would you explain some people with good genes to turn out bad? Perhaps, like what the textbook always says, there's a balance between the two. And personally, I agree, but I also think relying only on genetics and the environment seems to mean that the person is really just a product of other factors which he or she has no control over. I don't like to think of people having no control over what they are and who they can be. I think there's gotta be something unique inside everyone, that 3rd elusive factor that decides which types of methods and behaviours we adopt when we confront various situations. And this is where individual differences come in. There's gotta be different types of that something in each person. Genes and the environment are perhaps superficial explanations of everything.
We could look at the world in various ways, and that makes each of us unique. But what makes us able to click with each other, and people who perceive the world in different ways? Well I'm not sure either, but perhaps it's the dominance of the 3rd factor. The 3rd factor could coexist with other types of 3rd factor, which enable some people who seem very different to be actually be similar in some ways. Like how sometimes we feel like we are a mess of contradictory personalities, such as wanting to be alone yet wanting to be with someone but outwardly showing wanting to be alone? The dominant 3rd factor could be wanting to be alone, but it coexists with the factor that likes to be around people. Am I making sense here?
People are interesting, aren't they? And so mysterious that they can be darn irritating.
Thursday, November 23, 2006
Cultural Psych
I do hope tomorrow's paper is not as bad as I am expecting it to be...
And don't even mention the past two papers. I just hope I can get decent grades.
Please remind me not to be so bloody ambitious next time. 5 subjects will do.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
This is a very sweet song! I wish I could have found the original singer's music video with his real voice, but this singer is nice too. Enjoy! Below are the lyrics...
Back when I was a child, before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high and dance with my mother and me and then
Spin me around ‘til I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure I was loved
If I could get another chance, another walk, another dance with him
I’d play a song that would never, ever end
How I’d love, love, love
To dance with my father again
When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way, I would run from her to him
He’d make me laugh just to comfort me
Then finally make me do just what my mama said
Later that night when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he would be gone from me
If I could steal one final glance, one final step, one final dance with him
I’d play a song that would never, ever end
‘Cause I’d love, love, love
To dance with my father again
Sometimes I’d listen outside her door
And I’d hear how my mother cried for him
I pray for her even more than me
I pray for her even more than me
I know I’m praying for much too much
But could you send back the only man she loved
I know you don’t do it usually
But dear Lord she’s dying
To dance with my father again
Every night I fall asleep and this is all I ever dream
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
Look what my Dog Did
Would you believe an dog that looks like this:

would make my things look like this:

My Post-its!!!
and this:

My eraser!!!
I wanna slap him, I really do! I just dropped my post-its and my eraser for a little while and the next time I looked, they were like that. Do you know how hard I tried to preserve the paper around my eraser and keep my eraser nice and clean?! And the silly boy has to spoil my efforts. Even my Post-its were not spared... From a nice and clean state, they became like.... like... RUBBISH!! Now both of my things have his saliva! Eau de Schnoozee. Does it have a nice ring to it? Oh man... Luckily the smell has faded somewhat from the eraser, and... I don;t think I wanna use the post-its anymore... What a pity. The size of the Post-its was PERFECT for note-taking...
Argh. But what can I do? It's like having a naughty child. We can't abandon our children even if they are mischievous can we? I can't bear to abandon him either. Haha!!
The Imp of the Perverse
Ever heard the story of The Imp of the Perverse by Edgar Allan Poe? It's very Freudian (Si Huan, you'll probably like it), talking about the perverseness in people, like how we would purposely do something to get ourselves into trouble when we know we can actually keep away from it by taking preventive measures. It's kinda like the death instinct Freud talked about, isn't it? Here's a paragraph from the story:
We stand upon the brink of a precipice. We peer into the abyss – we grow sick and dizzy. Our first impulse is to shrink from the danger. Unaccountably we remain. By slow degrees our sickness, and dizziness, and horror, become merged in a cloud of unnameable feeling. By gradations, still more imperceptible, this cloud assumes shape, as did the vapor from the bottle out of which arose the genius in the Arabian Nights. But out of this our cloud upon the precipice's edge, there grows into palpability, a shape, far more terrible than any genius, or any demon of a tale, and yet it is but a thought, although a fearful one, and one which chills the very marrow of our bones with the fierceness of the delight of its horror. It is merely the idea of what would be our sensations during the sweeping precipitancy of a fall from such a height. And this fall – this rushing annihilation – for the very reason that it involves that one most ghastly and loathsome of all the most ghastly and loathsome images of death and suffering which have ever presented themselves to our imagination – for this very cause do we now the most vividly desire it. And because our reason violently deters us from the brink, therefore, do we the more impetuously approach it. There is no passion in nature so demoniacally impatient, as that of him, who shuddering upon the edge of a precipice, thus meditates a plunge. To indulge for a moment, in any attempt at thought, is to be inevitably lost; for reflection but urges us to forbear, and therefore it is, I say, that we cannot. If there be no friendly arm to check us, or if we fail in a sudden effort to prostrate ourselves backward from the abyss, we plunge, and are destroyed.
Examine these and similar actions as we will, we shall find them resulting solely from the spirit of the Perverse. We perpetrate them merely because we feel that we should not. Beyond or behind this, there is no intelligible principle. And we might, indeed, deem this perverseness a direct instigation of the Arch-Fiend, were it not occasionally known to operate in furtherance of good.
Isn't this like how we always go after the forbidden fruit? We know we should not go after it, but we still do, just to know what it's like. We can never be content that what we have is good. There must often, if not always, be something done to spoil the peace and goodness of what we have.
Defensive pessimism, I think, is the opposite of perverseness. What is defensive pessimism? Well it's an action taken by a defensive pessimist. OK, I know this sounds very duh and doesn't explain everything; I shall attempt to explain it further. A defensive pessimist is someone who anticipates failure, and thus does everything in his/her power to prepare to make whatever he/she is doing to make it a success. The thing is, all the while the defensive pessimist is preparing against the failure, he/she is always convinced that the project is doomed to failure. This is like preparing for disappointment. Don't you agree that the concepts of defensive pessimism and perverseness are like opposites? One is doing everything you can to prevent it, while thinking that the whole thing will be a failure, whereas the other is doing everything you can to get yourself into trouble, all the while convinced that if you were to keep quiet about it, everything will be fine.
You know what? I think the fact that life is full of ups and downs is caused by human's perverseness. Of course, it's hard to accept that we are perverted in the sense that we like to cause our own downfall, but think about it: why is it that quite a large number of high-flyers declare themselves bankrupt when they seemingly have it all? Why do some educated people turn to smoking when it's widely known that smoking causes lung cancer and other horrible consequences?
Hehe I welcome your rebuttals- there are lots of loopholes in this argument, and I admit, it's rather one-sided to state this argument like that. Haha, but I won't promise that I won't agree with you. So come on, share your views! Ahh... but don't sue me... =)
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
When I'm 64
When I get older losing my hair,
Many years from now.
Will you still be sending me a valentine
Birthday greetings bottle of wine.
If I'd been out till quarter to three
Would you lock the door,
Will you still need me, will you still feed me,
When I'm sixty-four.
You'll be older too,
And if you say the word, I could stay with you.
I could be handy, mending a fuse
When your lights have gone.
You can knit a sweater by the fireside
Sunday mornings go for a ride,
Doing the garden, digging the weeds,
Who could ask for more.
Will you still need me, will you still feed me,
When I'm sixty-four.
Every summer we can rent a cottage,
In the Isle of Wight, if it's not too dear
We shall scrimp and save
Grandchildren on your knee
Vera ,Chuck & Dave
Send me a postcard, drop me a line,
Stating point of view
Indicate precisely what you mean to say
Yours sincerely, wasting away
Give me your answer, fill in a form
Mine for evermore
Will you still need me, will you still feed me,
When I'm sixty-four.
Sunday, November 12, 2006
An Amusing Analogy
Imagine your exams have started, and you just passed one stressful week of exams. The next week is much more relaxed, coz you've already revised all that you had to revise in the first week. However, there's still that dilemma within you- you badly want to relax because you were under SOOOO much stress the last week, but you know that you'd never forgive yourself if you relaxed and didn't study and the next week's exams are difficult. You know that heart very itchy feeling?
This is a bit like when you need to answer the small call of nature very very badly. However, while you are answering halfway, you find that you can't go all the way. Now, isn't this feeling very painful? You're so near to the goal, but... you can't go all the way!
Hope you enjoyed it! =)
Saturday, November 11, 2006
Happy Pepero Day!

It's a packet of 4 peperos!
Why did I receive this?
Well, according to Wikipedia and Camella, Pepero or Pocky Day (depending on which country you are from), is day in South Korea similar to Valentine's Day. It is named after the Korean snack Pepero and held on November 11 (today), since the date "11/11" resemble four sticks of Pepero. Or, if you're from Japan, it's Pocky Day, since the equivalent of Pepero is Pocky. This day is celebrated mostly by young people and couples, who exchange Pepero sticks, other candies, and romantic gifts.
According to the story, Pepero Day was started in 1994 by students at a girls' middle school in Busan, where they exchanged Pepero sticks as gifts to wish one another to grow "as tall and slender as a Pepero" (Pepero means "thin like a stick"). However, it is more likely it was initiated by Lotte, the company which produces Pepero.
While in most countries of the world, November 11th is a day of remembrance (since it signaled the end of World War I), in Korea, Japan, Vietnam (according to Camella) and Philippines (according to Mira), it is a day of romanceMany students are truant on this day to celebrate with their friends.
In Japan, a similar Pocky Day was held on November 11 in 1999, which was the 11th year of the Heisei era. The date, 11/11 of the 11th year, resembled 6 sticks of Pocky. According to Korean sources this day was based on the Pepero Day.
From what I heard, some people actually go to the trouble to buy plain pocky sticks (think Yan Yan without the cream) and then dip it into their own chocolate and then decorate it with the colourful rice candy. But generally, I think the trend is buying Pepero or Pocky and then dividing them into groups of 4 or 6, then wrapping them in nice bags or paper.
Camella was real sweet to think to give us a packet! =D
Yep, and now you know that there's a Pepero Day! Cheers to an increase in general knowledge! =p
Thursday, November 09, 2006
Careless Whisper
Time can never mend
The careless whispers of a good friend
To the heart and mindIgnorance is kind
There's no comfort in the truth
Pain is all you find
Should have known better, yeah
I feel so unsure
As I take your hand
And lead you to the dance floor
As the music dies
Something in your eyes
Calls to mind a silver screen
And all its sad goodbyes
I'm never gonna dance again
Guilty feet have got no rhythm
Though it's easy to pretend
I know you're not a fool
I should have known better than to cheat a friend
And waste a chance that I've been given
So I'm never gonna dance again
The way I danced with you
Time can never mend
The careless whispers of a good friend
To the heart and mind
Ignorance is kind
There's no comfort in the truth
Pain is all you find
I'm never gonna dance again
Guilty feet have got no rhyhthm
Though it's easy to pretend
I know you're not a foolI should have known better than to cheat a friend
(Should have known better, yeah)
And waste a chance that I've been given
So I'm never gonna dance again
The way I danced with you
(Never without you)
Tonight the music seems so loud
I wish that we could lose this crowd
Maybe it's better this way
We'd hurt eachother with the things we want to say
We could have been so good together
We could have lived this dance forever
But now who's gonna dance with me
Please stay
And I'm never gonna dance again
Guilty feet have got no rhythm
Though it's easy to pretend
I know you're not a fool
I should have known better than to cheat a friend
And waste a chance that I've been given
So I'm never gonna dance again
The way I danced with you
Now that you're gone
Now that you're gone
Now that you're gone
Was what I did so wrong
So wrong that you had to leave me alone
- George Michael
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
On a lighter note....

Hehe this is actually sold by an Australian lingerie shop. You can view it here: http://www.caryn.com.au/index.htm Naughty naughty design!! Haha!!
And I know just who would be interested in this. Unfortunately, though I was tempted to order one online for you, it costs AUD60, which is a whopping SGD$71.9984. No way am I gonna spend that much man... Haha maybe on your 21st birthday, then I'll order it for you. Or you could ask that special someone to do it? ;)
Yep, I must admit, it's quite creative, but.... a li'l too explicit, don't you think?
Motivation!!
I need to find the motivation to concentrate!!!!!
Monday, October 30, 2006
Birthday
She has just given me the earliest and a VERY expensive 21st birthday. She's sponsoring half the cost of the ticket to SHE's concert next year. It's a whopping $148 and she's paying half... whoa... Hey, you like SHE so much ah?
Haha I've never watched a live concert before. SHE's concert should be quite fun. I heard from Merrilyn that SHE's concerts always have a certain standard, which is good. Plus this time I'm getting premier seats! Yay!! I'm not very familiar with SHE, but so far I like their songs, and I like them. But ask me their biodata and things about them, and I won't know how to answer. So Jorene, be prepared! I don't really know much about them!!!
=D
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
Happy Land
The mosquitoes don't suck blood. They suck nectar.
The sun doesn't get too hot. It's like a bi-metallic strip, where, when the temperature gets too hot, it'll stop rising. Yeah, it's like auto-summer 365 days long. We won't ever have to travel to California or even dream about it, and Evon can stop yearning to go to some beachy place, coz NZ will be hot enough and sunny enough to get tanned. No more winters!!
The carnivores will be herbivores, and animals like the zebras and tigers will be Maths teachers. They teach the younger generation how to count. Like, counting the number of stripes on them. They will even teach abstract subjects like philosophy, such as whether the colour of the tiger is black stripes on orange or vice versa, and whether the zebra is white stripes on black.
Oh did I mention what the flowers look like? They all have plump petals and large centres between the petals. They will all have faces just like how you imagined them in Enid Blyton story books.
Whether there'll be humans or not is rather debatable, coz we realised that once there's the presence of humans, they'll try to change the landscape and the way the world operates. But then, because I'm the creator of the story, I'll say there'll be no humans in utopia. There's no such thing as a perfect human. You're welcome to invite them into your story if you want... ;)
Sunday, October 08, 2006
Lazaayyyyyyyyyyyyyy
I really don't have confidence for any of the projects and presentations that are coming up. Did I tell you? I screwed up a presentation last week. I READ ENTIRELY FROM THE WHOLE BLOODY SCREEN. That's something I haven't done in a long time, and, unlike most events, it wasn't a thrilling experience. It was bloody embarrassing. I hope I won't screw up anymore, coz the next time(s), presentation counts for alot.
I just wanna escape. I wanna turn off all communication devices and just... I don't know, hide or something. But the moment I do that, when I turn on the communication devices once again, reality will set in and I'll be there slapping myself for turning them off. That's the horrid consequence. Backlog of work to be done. Yep, so I've planned something. I have an announcement to make.
ON THE FIRST OF DECEMBER 2006, MY HANDPHONE WILL BE TURNED OFF, MY MSN STATUSES WILL BE OFFLINE AND MY HOUSE PHONE WILL NOT BE PICKED UP. I WILL BE WATCHING TV AND STAYING HOME AND SLEEPING.
Yeah!! =D And I absolutely can't wait for that. So... yep, I hope you understand if I don't reply on that day... I've been looking forward to it so long that I think I'll really push whatever suddenly crops up that day to another day. I need a day to do mindless stupid things like watching tv. Yes, and if you're wondering, I'll be watching "Princess Hours". No detective/horror/suspense etc shows for me. That day's not for using my brain... Haha....
Yes well, I guess this entry will make some of you think I'm an escapist or a coward or a spineless weakling who can't stand the hardships of life. All right. Whatever you say. I probably am, but one thing: don't YOU get sick of obligations and social norms and whatever that comes with surviving in society?
On a lighter note, we went out to celebrate my mother's birthday yesterday at No Signboard Restaurant (Well I think the name's an irony, really, but that's for another discussion another day)!! The food was good. I liked the vermicelli with crayfish. The crayfish was so fresh and juicy and the sauce on the vermicelli was good- thick and spicy and tasty. The vermicelli was juicy (can u imagine?), and it was just the right texture, not too hard and not too soft. That's why every mouthful was also full of the sauce. Yum... The crabs were not bad too. We had pepper crab, and it was peppery, but not so peppery that it overpowered the taste of the crab. Ahh... we had sambal mussels too, and that was good. The mussels were JUICY, not fried till they were dry like some places tend to fry it. Yam ring... well that was ok, not bad, but I think other places which specialise in zhu chao would have done it better. Yam ring's just not a seafood food. A large chunk of my salary from the RA job done last month went into the meal =S but it was worth it. The food was good, the company was good, the weather was.... errr.... at least it didn rain (though a weather without the blasted haze could have been better). I wish I had taken photos. I brought the camera, but realised that my father hadn't put in the XD card after he used it for another camera -_-", otherwise I'd show you all the dishes!!
Von: Mummy says you'll get a chance to go there when you come back! But really, Kelong still wins in terms of price, and maybe the taste is slightly better there (kelong i mean...). Come back soon!!
It's now 11.55am, and I still haven't done anything. Yippeeeeeeeeeeee
Saturday, October 07, 2006
Chivalry Doesn't Fade With Age
Yesterday, I was on the train to Toa Payoh. There was this elderly man who boarded the train at City Hall with me. There was a younger lady beside him, and the train was full. He found the seat first, and therefore sat down. When he saw that lady, he immediately gave up his seat for her. The lady was rather shocked, and, I think embarrassed, so she tried to refuse the seat- I mean, how could u take the seat someone older offered to you? Well the older man refused to let her say no- I think he said, "You're a lady" and in the end she sat down.
I was impressed with the man's behaviour. In this day and age, he showed that chivalry's not dead, and that it doesn't stop when a person gets older. That's what I call graciousness. =)
Sunday, October 01, 2006
Road to Redemption
With every word, I learn to keep it
With every criticism, I learn to understand
With every ego, I learn about humility
With every step, I learn to be careful
With every mistake, I learn to improve
With every doubt, I learn to believe
With every injury, I learn about healing
With every cry, I learn about regret
With every smile, I learn about sincerity
With every sin, I learn to repent
With every prayer, I learn about confidence
With every prostration, I learn to be grateful
With every pleasure, God bestows upon us
This poem (I think) is by a 40-year-old woman serving a seven-year term for drug consumption, from The Straits Times
12 steps, sounding deceptively simple and fast, but actually needing alot of courage and willpower to take each step. How many of us are actually able to take any one of those steps? How many of us have experienced a cry, a critism, a bruised ego, and never advanced from there, just staying on to dwell on it, or hide from it? I know I'm probably guilty of alot of it, and I think whoever actually manages to transcend these 12 steps and get on with life probably deserves an award for never giving up or something. If there isn't such an award, well, there should be one. Yellow Ribbon Project- the project to give ex-convicts a second chance. Well, I feel they really should be given a second chance. Following my previous entry, and understanding how much support means to a person, I now can really understand how much trust and support can help a person regain his/her sense of self-worth, and just a little bit of it can actually help the person a long way. We don't have to explicitly say, "Hey, I trust you" etc. Just our little actions or attitudes will do.
Some might say it's hard to judge whether a person is trustworthy or not, especially ex-convicts. Well I wouldn't disagree with that, but... Isn't it a fact that we really can't trust anybody, those record-free people included? Maybe we should take a chance, a leap of faith. Who knows, we really might make a difference in that other person's life.
"Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experiences of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, vision cleared, ambition inspired and success achieved."
- Helen Keller
(http://en.thinkexist.com/quotes/helen_keller/2.html)
Saturday, September 30, 2006
Family Support
It was only today that I finally realise how much I need family support. Without it, I think I might have broken down or something.
There have been too many things to handle recently- projects, tests, CCAs, work etc... the list goes on and on... So many things to be done in so little time. I thought I'd be able to do it, but MAN am I so wrong. I was feeling so horrid about everything, and my temper was getting shorter and shorter... Thanks to my family, who has been so wonderful... They didn't lose their patience with me, and even tried to help me out, and tried to help me relax. Even Mira was a wonderful support, making Milo for me even though she was busy doing her work. Though they often nag at me and make me see things which I'd rather not see at the moment, they gave me the help and support I need by always being there for me.
Well, this stressful period's nowhere near over yet, but I think I'll be able to hang on till the load has gone off a bit.....
Sunday, September 17, 2006
Levi's new jeans! The Lady's Style. Isn't it nice? But I think it costs a HUUUUGE bomb, so I can only drool over it here. Enjoy!

Well I know the model is babelicious, but let's just leave that aside for now and concentrate on her jeans, shall we? Isn't it gorgeous?
Friday, September 08, 2006
I am NOT STUPID
Thursday, September 07, 2006
Anyway, I think I just had an epiphany. Muahaha. I have kan4 kai1-ed already. I'm gonna try my best for my studies, but I guess... I won't beat myself up over having too many things to catch up with. If I continue to do that, I may just end up with an anxiety disorder, and can then be a case study for the students taking Abnormal Psychology! There's no point worrying and ruminating over stuff which I can't control anymore. Things are just gonna pile and pile and what will become of me? I might not even get through second year. Yep. So I'm gonna take one day at a time. BUT that's not to say I won't work harder!! Hopefully this letting go thing will make me feel lighter and give me more energy to work harder. Hmm.. Maybe I should follow Si Huan's method, but I'm not really willing to sacrifice sleep.... Ah well, we shall just see how it goes, shall we? =)
Sunday, August 27, 2006
Passion for something...
There's just this block that prevents me from really having the desire to want to continue reading on and thinking more about it. It wasn't like this last academic year, but it seems to be now. Perhaps it's because of Cognitive Psych, or perhaps it's the textbook (which makes me rather shallow I think), or perhaps it's the increasing pressure of having to maintain my grades attained last year. Though I know it wasn't exactly very great since it wasn't first class, I like to think I've come out of my own shadow in Secondary school and have improved since then.
Or maybe it's the fact that this 2nd year has started off with several unknown variables- Research Assistant job, tuition, 6 subjects, a separate project group and a continuation of CCA in school- things which I have to take time to slowly get used to and feel my way around first. I realise now I shouldn't have been so ambitious as to take up so many commitments, but life isn't gonna be as kind to me as in school now, where I can have the option of choosing which commitments to drop and which to follow up. Furthermore, a word given is a word given. Ah, never mind, I shall take it easy and see how it goes from here. Stress and Yi Ling never goes well together, and well I should know that, from Secondary school when I insisted on taking 9 subjects when I simply shouldn't have.
Ambition, ambition. Maybe I should follow Evon's fantasy and go live as a hermit or something. Maybe then I'd recover my interest in humans. I feel rather drained. I think it's cos most of the modules I'm taking involve humans and a certain degree of empathy. I'm unable to feel that once again. This lack of empathy was what made my Lit results in Prelims so disastrous. I just felt so dried up. That's why I was a bit afraid of taking up Psychology. There was a fear I might go into something which I really felt I could feel for and then subsequently lose interest in it. Perhaps I'm not psychologist material after all after this episode, but it's the only field which I can connect with and feel a passion for.
Or perhaps this is just a result of the long holidays, where I got so used to slacking at home that subconsciously I was unhappy about the fact that I'd have to give all of that up to go back to study. I've just gotta change my mindset and get back to that studying mode.
Yep, 'nuff said. I'm gonna pull up my socks and try harder!!
Beginning of school...
Here's the picture I took with them!

From left: Me, Jonell, Bryan
Haha, what started out as a job became something of an activity. They're more like mentees rather than students, seriously. Although I never really looked forward to going for tuition (cos their tuition's after lunch and I get really sleepy), once there, I get kinda energised. You never know what kind of revelation they're gonna spring on you, seriously.
Anyway, with tuition ended, my Saturdays will be free of interruptions. Hopefully I'll get to catch up on my readings. I'm trying to keep up, but it's an uphill task. I've kinda decided to just start afresh this week and try to get my readings done. As for last week's readings... well, I guess I'm gonna have to let it slide for awhile. Man... I must get round to doing them. Especially for Cognitive Psychology, with the test one week away. Argh. How am I gonna remember the visual pathways etc etc?
DAC Welcome Tea's this coming Tuesday, and guess what? I'm gonna be the emcee for the event! Evon says it's cool to be able to do it, and would look nice on my CV yadayada, and I think it'd be a nice experience too. However, I do hope I'll be able to be interesting, cos I'm simply not the entertaining kind of speaker. I can't just pull jokes out of my head and say it in a deadpan tone that'd make people laugh. I wish I could do that. I always admire people who can think fast on their feet. No surprise why I gave up the thought of pursuing law then, eh? This is my first time emcee-ing, and it's in an LT, in front of possible 100+ people. I'm rather nervous about it, actually. It's not like presentation, where I'm presenting to a class. It's like... to a sample of the NTU population. I hope I do a good job!!
Sunday, August 13, 2006
The Five Love Languages
My primary love language is probablyQuality Time
with a secondary love language being
Words of Affirmation.
Complete set of results
| Quality Time: | 9 | |
| Words of Affirmation: | 8 | |
| Acts of Service: | 5 | |
| Physical Touch: | 5 | |
| Receiving Gifts: | 3 |
Information
Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.Take the quiz