hehe... got rid of my prev tagboard yesterday.. giving me so many problems.. now changed to this chatterbox.. hope it'll be better! =) this chatterbox website is quite nice... there are puzzles tt can be put on my blog.. but when i tried putting it in, it turned out tt e puzzles were e main focus of the blog, not my entries... hai... =)

ain't this blogskin cute? it was done by some ex-beatty sec sch girl oso called yiling.. .coincidental rite? so if u see e credits at the botton "Done by Yiling of Animeskies", it's not me.... it's this girl... again coincidentally, she's also a vballer... haha... how much freakier can this get? =)

acty, i've got like nothing to update u all on lar.. haha... juz felt like typing something in here... to push further back the fact tt i have to go do my hw... i'm BUSHED... haha... jus feel like closing my eyes and slipping into oblivion, but well, tt's not possible is it? though the empress of dreamland (i call her the sui4 niang2 niang2) would be happy to see me (and the feeling is mutual), the teachers wun be too happy with me tml... hahahahahhaah....

oh well, i can't live in self-denial mode any longer. gotta face up to reality now, so.... bye!

yesterday was the second match of the tournament for us... we lost again-
2-0. though it was somewhat expected to lose to NYJC, somehow, it hurt. i know... i probably brought this upon the whole team by not setting well AGAIN. i do wondre though, when i am gonna realise that i should be setting higher balls and ALWAYS setting, and not hooking the ball to the other side? guess my team mates are already frustrated with me for that, and i must say, i can;t really blame them. apologies are too late, and as they say, "Sorry no cure", what's done cannot be undone. i should realise the futility of words in this case, but somehow, i can't help but apologize for all these. it's e best i can do.

however, i know some of u must be thinking. " why can't u just learn from ur mistakes and try not to repeat them in the next match?" well.... when i go on court, i forget alot of things... sounds lame i know, but in the heat of the moment, i always do things on impulse. i get scared. tt makes me indecisive. u can say i'm afraid to take risks. why the hell do u think i've only had one relationship so far?

ah well.. this is all sounding so depressing, like all my previous few entries. let's all hope the mood will change the next time i blog here? =)

jus call me a loser... we lost the match 2-1 today... we could have won the second set.. the score was 25-24, and we were leading... then we missed the ball, and thus had to go for another 2 pt lead. we lost thsoe as well.

i lost confidence too easily lor... coz of a few mistakes then i got so down... well, u can say i'm weak, coz it's true. i did try to forget bout it, but the fear was still there, u know?

one other thing: i didn set properly AGAIN. esp for the ball for the centre. ALWAYS gave the ball too much ot the left. HOW MANY FREAKING TIMES MUS I BE TOLD TT THE SPIKERS ARE RIGHT HANDED?!?!?!

i'm still feeling rather bummed bout the match, mainly coz i know i let the team down. if i had set properly, we might have been able to gain points in the spikings, and i would be cheering right now. now, it doesn even matter if we win MI, coz we are out...

min ley was quite pissed with me i guess... she kept telling me the ball was too much to mel's left, and though i knew, i jus couldn control the ball. dun ask me y. i'm jus lousy. i dun blame her or anyone who got pissed off with me lar... it's like, their right lor... hmm... i can't find the right expression, but u can catch my meaning lar.... made alot of wrong judgments too... is this because of my indecisive nature?

i just hope fri's match wun be a thrashing match man.......

hihi... in response to Alvin's comments, nope, i'm not breaking down... haha... juz felt like complaining... oh well, lurve it... *evil laughter*

anyway, today was quite a good day... but it started with sucky gp... normally gp is fun.. only when we have compre which i KNOW i will fail. i didn finish the last question, and i didn complete 2 questions... tt's already like 12 marks gone... oh man.... can't seem to get any better at compre... argh... then came pe, which was qutie ok, coz our class came in first for the 12x100 relay within our group, which is not bad, considering the fact tt we had 9 runners, including a runner from another class.. =) we came in 3rd for 4x100 though, but it was after the 12x100 and was taken part by jun and jasmine, who had run twice for the 12x100. u guys did great man!!! jus felt bad tt i didn take part in the 4x100, but my legs were really shaking and my thigh muscles were aching... hee... v v low stamina... and i oso dunno how to stretch. i hate stretching, prob coz i can't stretch.. haha... =)

oh man!!! tml is the match already!! seriously speaking, i'm nervous. i jus hope the team can get thru to the next round of the tournament. jus the next round!! however, think tt will depend on me as well, coz if i dun set well or dun serve well, aha!!! also GAME OVER, rite? ;) the girls' team players are dropping like flies one by one lor... first, mel was sick. she didn go training today... she was really sick badly man... then, i learnt aien has the flu too, so she didn turn up for sch today. next, min ley has a cramped muscle. let's hope her leg doesn turn blu-black tml....ahhhhhhhhhh.... hee... let's all hope there wun be anymore casualties... *crosses fingers*

anyway, i gtg do my tys... 1045 got xi jie shao nian, second last episode liao!!! byebye!!!

hihi... in response to Alvin's comments, nope, i'm not breaking down... haha... juz felt like complaining... oh well, lurve it... *evil laughter*

anyway, today was quite a good day... but it started with sucky gp... normally gp is fun.. only when we have compre which i KNOW i will fail. i didn finish the last question, and i didn complete 2 questions... tt's already like 12 marks gone... oh man.... can't seem to get any better at compre... argh... then came pe, which was qutie ok, coz our class came in first for the 12x100 relay within our group, which is not bad, considering the fact tt we had 9 runners, including a runner from another class.. =) we came in 3rd for 4x100 though, but it was after the 12x100 and was taken part by jun and jasmine, who had run twice for the 12x100. u guys did great man!!! jus felt bad tt i didn take part in the 4x100, but my legs were really shaking and my thigh muscles were aching... hee... v v low stamina... and i oso dunno how to stretch. i hate stretching, prob coz i can't stretch.. haha... =)

oh man!!! tml is the match already!! seriously speaking, i'm nervous. i jus hope the team can get thru to the next round of the tournament. jus the next round!! however, think tt will depend on me as well, coz if i dun set well or dun serve well, aha!!! also GAME OVER, rite? ;) the girls' team players are dropping like flies one by one lor... first, mel was sick. she didn go training today... she was really sick badly man... then, i learnt aien has the flu too, so she didn turn up for sch today. next, min ley has a cramped muscle. let's hope her leg doesn turn blu-black tml....ahhhhhhhhhh.... hee... let's all hope there wun be anymore casualties... *crosses fingers*

anyway, i gtg do my tys... 1045 got xi jie shao nian, second last episode liao!!! byebye!!!

wooo... jus went to the international buffet dinner at furama hotel, and wow, it was GREAT!!! much better than tt stupid Genghis Khan one tt we went to a few years ago. tt was not worth the money. last night's one, however, is a different story. there were fresh oysters, sashimi, tempura, laksa, crayfish... and the desserts were..... oooooohh.... HEAVEN!!!! i couldn wait to work thru the main courses to get to the desserts man!! and lemme tell u, the cheese cake was heavenly........ *drools* haha....

on the serious side though, i'm starting to get worried bout e As... it's like, these few days i've been sleeping tooo early... there's simply no energy left in me to do any extra revisions. i seriously wonder wat the hell i've been doing... dun even need to tok bout revisions lah, even normal day hw oso cannot complete... -_-" and also, econs is like getting tougher... i'm not sure about my essays anymore... they seem to lack substance, and i've a feeling tt x-factor is wat is gonna be the bloody hardest to get. damndamndamn.....

tournament is next week... the first match is on tues, vs SRJC... I hope we can at least get into the next round... but from my performance during the last few trainings.... well, let's jus say i hope i won't be a disappointment to the team.... my elbow injury's been like getting worse... juz serve a few balls only then the whole damn thing gets so painful. i dun even know wat started it in the first place. true, we have not bad players this time round, but with a setter like me, HOW THE HELL AM I GONNA SET A BALL FOR THEM TO SPIKE WELL!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? seriously, i'm scared... hehe... dun be surprised if u see me shaking like wat lidat on tues onthe court... so scared i wun be able to serve or set.............

i'm sounding so depressing here... haha... but well, tt's how i feel lor.. hee... anyway, let's see how the tournament goes... for those reading the entries, wish me luck and pray hard for me k? ;)

ok, now i'm using a more reliable computer to blog- the school library's one. at least this is less prone to hanging, unlike a certain computer in my house... -_-"

as i was saying yesterday before my computer hanged, we lost the NE quiz... it's quite sad... but well, we did try our best, and that's what matters... =) and also, GREAT JOB GUYS!!!! God knows how much time they put into their research and staying back to revise their facts, including Huimin. I'm sure she styaed up most of the night before to read thru all those facts lor!

been feeling so tired these days.. think it's an accumulation of sleep debts since last week, and so far, i haven been able to return the debt. sickening. been sleeping sooooo early, and nothing seems to be working so far... i'll jus wait for the weekend... hopefully there wun be much hw......

haha... HELLO MELISSA!!! she just joined me at the computer... wah so shiok.. haha... blogging and got music in my ears from POWER98FM... haha... TPJC is certainly making an effort to provide a comfortable envt for the students. do u know, now we can borrow CDs? and for ur info, the Cds are nice k.... they have soundtracks from new movies, including LOTR, and CHarlotte CHurch!! whoa... i jus borrowed the Sountrack of Bring it On. Can't wait to listen to it man!!! now, one last improvement for them: let more than one person share a computer. COME ON!!! wat if ppl are doing projects? wat do u wan them to do? share seats? wat happens when there are more than 2 ppl? stack us ontop of each other????

ok! finished wat i want to say for the moment. mel is coming back soon... better get of... haha.... byebye!!
MEL! U BETTER VISIT MY BLOG!!!! =D

haha... thank u everyone for posting ur msgs on my tagboard!!! continue to do so k???? =) nice to hear from u all.. hehe... =)

anyway, i'm kinda wondering what i'm doing blogging at this time when i still have alot of loose ends to tie up before i can go to sleep... hmm.... guess i just couldn resist gg to my blog and putting up a few of my ramblings. hee... =)

tml is the NE quiz thing... hopefully we'll do fairly well in it... *crosses fingers* our cheer sounds quite nice, so hope everyone tml will be ultra enthu and shout a lot... hehee... =)

argh... jus found out from jieting tt i'm most likely to kena tml's econ presentation... goodness... i dun even know wat she wants?! guess everyone's equally confused now... should i do this or should i go do research for tml's quiz? so confusing... u know psyduck- one of the pokemons? haha.. yah... feel like one of his "confusion" attacks now.... alot of question marks all over my head... jus too bad tt i can't do the pics....

kk.. gtg.... otherwise i really cannot do anything...

yay!! jus visited my blog and saw comments put on my tagboard by *ruler and la_hoha!!! haha... got a sense of achievement liao whoa... finally figured out how to add e tagboard.. the next thing to do now is to learn how to insert pics... any idea how to do tt? and i wanna try changing e appearance of my tagboard leh.... hehe... getting ambitious man... ;)

so sian... tml have to go back to sch... i've nvr left so much hw undone b4.. and now i'm like rushing thru it... esp econ... frankly, i dunno wat the tr wants. are we jus supposed to do the same kind of thing she left in tpjc.net? or are we supposed to go thru mods 2-7 and make mindmaps? farra said it's e latter... and oh well, i think i better take her at her word. farra's reliable... =) i jus KNEW i should have done those mindmaps last yr during the dec hols... at least i would have fewer mindmaps to do.. ah well... guess i'll have to cut corners now... argh.... A&C post tut log still not done, CR post tut oso.... and Angela Carter? read only 3 stories.... hehe... i'm in a mess now...

speaking of angela carter, i mus say, it's a different kind of gothic from Mattew G Lewis' The Monk. in The Monk, it was more about religious transgressions and a was rather sensationalistic. in angela carter, however, it's... *shrugs helplessly* scary in a sense i suppose. The Executioner's Beautiful Daughter is one such story. The executioner executes his own son for committing incest with his sister (the executioner's daughter), and yet he himself commits incest with that same daughter. he eats eggs that are just about to hatch, so that when his eggs are cooked, they are fluffy and beaked (though the beak is not that fully formed yet). It's cruel! angela carter's writing cuts straight into the reader, unlike The Monk, where i still had a sense of detachment from the book. angela carter... well, she's another kettle of fish altogether.

well, enough bout my ramblings and somewhat essay-like speech about Angela Carter and Matthew G Lewis. i gtg back to my econ. EEEW....

i've been thinking about the kaki bukit prison school trip i made with my class yesterday. it has been a real enrichment mentally and emotionally. i gotta say, i take my hat off to those prison inmates. they are so determined to change themselves in order to forge a new life for themselves when they are released. they are also v thankful for the chance to be able to be transferred to the Prison school, as they are then allowed to continue their education and hopefully have a cert to go somewhere when they are released.

do u know, one inmate, who took 6 subjects for his GCE O levels, scored 7 points in the exams?! he scored 5A1s and 1A2. yes, it's only 6 subjects, but considering his circumstances, i think he deserves our respect. his score is more than i can say for myself, seriously. this inmate is not the only person who deserves our respect and admiration. there are other ex-inmates who ultimately make it to the universities when they get released.can u imagine the struggle they had been thru to get to tt stage? can u imagine the euphoria and sense of achievement they must have felt at being able to accomplish tt much? i can't. because i haven been in their shoes. but i know they must have felt v proud of themselves.

during the Q&A session at the end of the trip, the inmates said things that really got me thinking. one said "i am around the same age group as all of u. and seeing u all here today and knowing that u will be leaving later makes me feel sad. u all are able to leave this place and go back to ur homes, ur families, while i still continue staying here. if any of you has any friends who is contemplating breaking the law or has broken the law, pls, persuade them to turn over a new leaf. urge them to stop. the prison is not a place for u all." at tt, i almost cried. i mean, i could hear the regret in his voice when he said all those things. alot of the inmates said the same thing- "we all miss our familes. we are not able to touch our families and parents the way u can, nor can we see them and tok to them as often as we would like." u can hear, from these, that they truly regret whatever they had done. u can hear, too, that they are looking forward to creating a new life for themselves when they are released, and lead an upright life.

i always knew i'm lucky. i juz didn know or bothered to think how lucky i am to be free, and be around my family and my friends. i didn ever stop to think wat i would do if one day, all these were taken away from me and i had to exchange my freedom for life in a cell. now, i realise that if these inmates are able to make good of their lives, who's to say that i, or all of us, cannot? what matters most is the will power that we have. are we strong? or would we get blown away by the first storm that comes along?

i wonder if ex-inmates are able to get jobs as teachers in the MOE after they graduate. well, personally, i think they should. after all, teachers are the role models of society. these ex-inmates ARE role models. haven they shown it by creating a new life for themselves upon their release? if anyone should counsel students and urge them not to turn to crime and at the same time understand them, these ex-inmates are the one. FORGET about the stupid and anal-retentive and rigid analogy of a rotten fruit infecting all the other fruits in the same basket. these are HUMANS we are tokking about, darling. humans cannot get infected unless they want to. we have this large convoluted mass of matter in our head called the BRAIN. fruits dun. humans are capable of thinking for themselves. fruits are not. tt's the difference.

k... it has crossed my mind tt i'm perhaps sounding too self-righteous and 'goody-goody'. well.... all i can say is TOUGH LUCK. i couldn express this in any other way even if i wanted to. if my words turn out sounding like tt... then... well.... hehe, it's fate, isn't it? ;)

haha... i know my blog looks kinda unreadable now, but i juz couldnt resist the design. dun worry, kenny korkor- my WONDERFUL KIND cousin has agreed to help me with it, though frankly i think i will have to be patient. he's kinda busy. so kenny korkor, if u are reading this, DUN PANIC. Take ur time. haha..
=)

i was just thinking about my trip to malaysia on my way home from school today. going there made me compare life there with that in singapore. over there, while the pace of life is slow and everything is backward as a result of it, the people are much nicer. kinda like e kampong kind of spirit we see and hear about on tv and from our elders. everyone is jus so helpful to one another, and everyone knows each other! You can juz sit in a coffeeshop, and start tokking to anyone over there. u know i singapore, we cannot buy food from other places and jus go to a nearby kopitiam to eat it? well, over there, u can juz do tt freely. no utensils? no problem. they'll provide it for u. everyone has this generosity of spirit tt's hardly found in singapore. here, it's jus basically a dog eat dog world. everyone jus seeks for the situation that will benefit them the most. over there, jealousy is amost a nil.

not only this, but i was wondering bout the difference in our standards of living. over there, they are content with the primitive toilet systems, which include wat i mentioned in my last entry- no taps but tubs with a small pail to scoop water. I'm not being fussy, i'm jus used to our more... err... modern toilet technology (?), and cleaner way of life. while i'm sure the theory that dirt does our bodies good sometimes is true to a certain extent, I'm real sorry to say that it took me a while to get used to it there. oh man. i guess there's jus no way of sounding nice about it. but take me seriously. i wasn going nuts there over the surroundings. i was jus gg crazy over the lack of things to do there. which is a great irony, becoz ever since i stepped into singapore, i haven done a single solid piece of work except lying down in bed to read and sleep. juz wonder sometimes if some part of me is still lagging. haha....

anyway, i got quite a shock when i finally mustered enough willpower to see wat hw i had accumulated over the few days i wasnt in singapore to check my account. i have to read like 35 stories for lit in all!!!! omg... ideally by term 2. to make my hols more fun, they are gothic stories. -_-" frankly, i've kinda forgotten wat the gothic conventions are, and the gothic genre was nvr my specialty. hee... i'm more of the idealistic romantic kinda person who prefers to live in her own fantasy little world... hehe... gothic, while they are eerily true about the human nature, are too..... hmm how should i say this? too... hard to comprehend. while u know tt these are the repressed subconscious of the human nature, u nvr realise it unless u are looking for it or the teachers have explained it to u. besides, i think poe is the hardest to understand among all. his stories are rather spooky and when i read it, i feel like i'm in this old, dark dark mansion in a rural part of England. u know, the kind of mansion shown in Eddie Murphy's "Haunted Mansion"? yah... whether it is night or day, the atmosphere i feel is always the same. so depressing! come to think of it, was it a coincidence that everytime we went thru Poe's stories last yr the sky turned dark and threatening? hmm... guess tt's my imagination running wild again.

oh well. i realise that i've been putting off the inevitable for quite some time already. there's one gothic convention following (?) me now- the fracturing of identity, which is my morals vs my desires. morals-getting on to doing my hw. desires- wasting more time. haha... i'm always caught in this convention. guess it's all part of being human *shrugs* . anyway, i gtg, if i wanna stay out of trouble next wk..... =)

hihi! hee... i jus came back from malaysia.... it was rather relaxing i guess, coz the pace of life there is SOOOOOO different from that in Singapore. frankly i think e part of malaysia i went to is one of the most backward places i've been to. in most places there, tubs of water were placed in front of the cisterns so tt u could pour water into the toilet bowl in order to flush them. it was rather boring there though. guess i've become too used to the SIngapore way of life, where everyday is juz another day of moving on and on. over there, its relaxing, coz there's NOTHING to do! u know we always watch tv serials about sinagpore in the 40s where ppl always went to the nearby coffeeshops to get together and drink coffee and tok about the latest news? yep, tt place is SOOO like tt... haha... it was kinda an enriching experience lar...

oh, and did i mention tt there were hardly any cinemas or shopping malls around? the only relatively large store was The Store, and the local supermarket store... -_-"

"Why go there then?" some ppl might ask. well, i went there for qingming festival. u know, e chinese custom of the descendants going to clean p the graces of their ancestors? tt was e highlight of my trip i think, coz it's e firs ttime i've cleaned graves b4. i know this sounds crazy, but it e experience was rather soothing. oh man........ hee...

k.. i htink i better go slp now... tml still have lit lesson... hai/... haha... i wonder how i'm gonna finish my hol hw... juz went thru my sch account, and realsed there's also lit and new econ hw.
oh god...

good nite!

heh.. been 4 days since i last blogged here. haven't had the littlest little tiny inkling about how to do the cursor thing, and the tagboard (the bloody thing!!!!). EVERYTIME i try to do it, the whole computer hangs! argh. this is so sickening. i always knew computer language would be hard, but i didn figure it would be THIS hard!! omg......

notice i gave up on trying to keep on putting fullstops already? oh well, it was getting very difficult. i can't stop my fingers from pressing the "..."s... haha... it's a habit already. Somebody, help me!!! nah... juz kidding. i think the fact tt i keep typing the "..." shows my personality- I'm a draggy person. u know... the kind who is long-winded and thinks things to death, and always cannot come to a decision? well.... sad to say, tt's me. hai... much as i wish to have this wonderful personality where i was sensitive, decisive, and every other thing which i am not, if i did become like tt, guess i wouldn't be me, would i? but then again, aren't these changes good for a person's character? I'm kinda confused, u know. i have found tt much as i have always liked to be decisive bout things, i find tt i rarely think about the repercussions of my decisions. i always tend to think about the pros and cons of something, then weigh them together. however, weighing them and coming to a conclusion is one thing. weighing them and NOT coming to a conclusion is another thing. Tt's me. u know y? coz when i think i have come to a decision, the cons of the situation come back to haunt me. I guess i should make "No pain, no gain" my personal motto, to tell me tt some sacrifices have to be made when decisions are made.

it's gonna be ms wee's last day of teaching us tml... i wonder what it will be like. Actually, i've kinda got used to her method of teaching. now tt she's gonna leave, i realise tt i'm gonna have to adapt to another teacher's teaching. great. Ms wee's not a bad person... i guess at the end of the day, she was just trying to motivate the class to do better. nope, i'm not trying to be self-righteous here, darlings... i mean, when i think about it, i realise that with another more relaxed teacher, my econs could have been worse. my tys wouldn have been touched at all, and i wouldn know how the hell to answer my essay questions. at least now one fact is drummed into my (and i'm sure the rest of our class's heads)- when C,I,G, or (X-M) increases, AD increases, and NY increases via the mulitplier effect. i have also learnt tt almost anything to do with macro economics leads to that at ultimately. hehe... so i guess for tt, we all have to thank ms wee, eh? ;)

i just realised that there is gonna be a lit s paper class. frankly, i am interested to join, but well.... there goes me thinking things to death again, and my self-confidence..... i dunno if i can handle an s paper in lit, when i feel that i'm just doing average in lit class. i can't give wonderfully analytical answers like grace and tabbi can, and it's only after teachers explain the text that i realise how wonderful the passage or poem is. give me christina rossetti, and i'll probably do the wrong analysis. how can i do s paper like tt? furthermore, taking an s paper is not only for interest, but more importantly, it's for scholarship. what's the point of me taking an s paper when i think i'm gonna only get a merit at the most? sure, some ppl might say i'm pessimisstic for thinking thus, but let's be realistic. if s paper were tt easy, they wouldn call it s paper rite? furthermore, if i were s paper material, i would have got at least a c for my promos paper last yr.

argh. maybe i should just take it and to hell with the consequences. maybe i shouldn't, and just concentrate on my other subj... there is no doubt that lit s paper is gonna be fun, but in the midst of having that fun, would i be able to do well for my other subjects as well?

i guess my decision throughout this whole thing is clear. i can see it actually, tt is ultimately, my decision would be not to take the s paper. let's just hope that i will not look back next year or the years later and kick myself for not taking the paper. *sheepish smile*

Been trying to get a new skin on my blog, but to no avail. I dun understand this HTML stuff! I managed to put whatever I wanted on the blog, and when I did, I did a preview. Guess what? The contents of the blog were overlapping the design of the skin. Arghhhh!!! What topped off the rest of it was that my computer hanged. Great. I finally gave up. Forget it. I'll do it again some other time when I've got over this trauma.

I still haven managed to get a tag board done yet. Or does anyone know how to insert a guestbook here? Just send me an email or tell me in sch pls!

You know, I've been playing around with the idea of making a skit-style format for my blog. You know, the title of my blog being Me, Myself and I? These 3 could be the main characters of my blog, and they'll be the ones narrating my day. However, I still haven't thought of how I'm gonna present each of them- the characterization and all.... Maybe I'll do it one day.... one day after the A levels... hahaha.. when i have all the time in the world to spend typing. =)

Great. My computer hung on the other window. How great can this get?! Better get this posted first before it really hangs. Wish me luck.

We got back our Chinese Alevels results today. I got A1!!! Yay!! hopefully all else goes fine form hi yea man... it's so scary. Some would say that i was oer-eactin to hte announcements of the results, coz my Chinese is ok... ut i waso scared coz of 2 reasons: 1. i was scared of history repeating itself (remember my higher chinese results? ) 2. i had to rush thru the whole chinese paper last yr... i took more than 1 1/2 hours to complete e essay. As a result, i had to rush thru my paper 2 in order to have enough time to complete everything else. i didn't think my essay was v good, and my compre and summary dun usually get good marks, and in such a condition... well... let's jus say i wasn expecting an A, though i was sure hoping for a miracle. ;)

oh well, the worst is behind now, and i'm FREE!!!! at least i can concentrate on other things now... =)

today is Tamania... the movie marathon my school's entreprenuership club is organising. also the first project they have come up with. they are gonna show 4 movies tonight: Finding Nemo, Two Weeks Notice, Spiderman and LOTR: The Two Towers. acty, it was supposed to be The League of Extraordinary Gentlemen instead of Spiderman, but i dunno wat happened. nvm, it's juz as nice, though i think League is leagues better.... hee... =)

still feeling sick... nose is so blocked... goodness... let's hope the asthma attacks dun start. that's when the real problem starts. blocked nose i can still tahan. Asthma attack? nono...... haha...

gtg.... sleepy liao and my nose is IRRITATING ME!!!!
argh
good nite!

YES!!! We won one set in today's friendly match against SRJC!!! To tell you the truth, we lost the match 2-1, but it was a good start today, coz I think it's been a long time since we've won a set during a friendly match, much less a competition (do i sound mean?). I do hope today's match will motivate the team to train harder for the Nationals'. I hope we can get through to at least the second round!!! *crosses fingers*

I guess we could have won the first set as well, coz the score was 14-21 until they caught up with us. That was during the weakest position of the team. Oh well, it was my fault too, coz I dun really know how to play when I'm in the back row. I dunno whether to wait for the first ball to be hit first before I run forward, or just run forward straightaway. argh. This is my first year playing setter actually, so I'm like, still so unfamiliar with everything. Hopefully I can grasp everything by the Nationals.

I guess I played inconsistently today. I sometimes played well, but at other times, you can say I played like s***. Come on, I even confused my players' positions!! I thought Aien was in the front row, so when i set the ball, I shouted Aien's name. Only after everything was done did I realise it was Melissa in the front row. Oh man!!! Everyone was laughing at me. What a goof. At least we got a point though. Melissa and Aien were kinda shocked that I confused the 2 of them, but luckily Mel was quick enough to just act quickly.

I dun understand my service today. It was consisitent, until the end of the second set and the beginning of the third set, where everything became haywire. Everytime I start to serve badly, the subsequent balls are just rubbish. Argh.

Notice i haven been using "..."? hehe, I realised tt it's quite irritating to read a blog with all those, so i decided to facilitate ur readings by putting the conventional punctuations. Is it better now?

Ok, i think I better go sleep now. Got a flu, not going school tml, hehe. been waiting for this day, so I can take a rest. Good nite!

=)

HeLLo!!!! came back after a tiring day.. oh man!! 2 periods of maths!!! horror of horrors!!! not tt i dun like maths.. but it's like, so draining.. haha... have to think bout newton-raphson, linear interpolation, and fixed point iteration... goodness... i dun even know which one is which, and i think it's time i read my notes man... hehe... there's a silver lining in e clouds today though.... haha... I DIDN'T GET SEASICK!!!!! ;) hehe... get wat i mean? kk.. tt's evil... i juz told Grace my new resolution. that is not to think evil thoughts... i hope to keep it... *crosses fingers*

ah well... will keep u updated on how my resolution goes... ;)

hai... so tired everyday.. and i haven even started on my revision yet.. haha.. betcha thinking "what's this crazy girl thinking of? REVISION?!! NOW? it's only MArch!!!" oh well... i'm a nerd remember? hehe... and well, now tt my second sis got her fabulous results (she got 10 points btw, which is more than i can say for myself), and my youngest sis is due to take her Os this year, i gotta work hard, coz i think this sis is gonna blow us all out of the water with her scores and make me look like a damn failure man... (come on!!! 14 points!!! tt's like e lowest in both the family branches... i think... ). anyway, with all this competition, it wouldn do to get lacklustre results once more rite? coz tt would juz like prove tt i'm not gonna amount to much.. argh...

haha.... acty a significant portion of this thing bout doing well is for myself also.... after tt fiasco during the O levels (which i STILL dun understand how i got a c6 for higher chi), i wanna do better to xi3 tuo1 zui4 ming2, so tt i wun look back like 40 years from now and regret everything... i hate having these sort of regrets...

mebbe tt's y ppl always see me like i'm a nerd. a blur one... hahaha... it's ok... it's kinda true anyway, coz i have NO LIFE!!!! my life revolves around home and sch, and the occasional friendly match at another school and maybe a weekend trip shopping... haha... mebbe i should only concentrate on buying pyjamas instead of other clothes... haha... coz by the time i go home, finish everything, it's like, no point to wear other clothes already... might as well have a larger variety of pyjamas to wear..... hahahahhahahaha... kk... tt's like so lame.. i better stop before u freeze... hehe...

anyway, i gotta figure out how to put in a tag board, so u all can come post msgs... =) wish me luck.... =)

oh btw!!!! so glad LOTR swept 11 Oscar awards!!! they deserve it man.... tt's e best movie i've seen... serious!!! =)

ok, this is getting a little lame... who visits their blog SO many times a day?! goodness! i jus wanted to report tt my fishes (nope, my father's fishes, rather) are fighting again... they are not even fighting fishes! guess they are fighting over either territory or a female... anyway, these fishes are not worth looking at, coz they are jus any other longkang fish... haha... on the other hand though, the way they fight is really v interesting.. they circle each other, and then bite each other when they think the opponent is not looking...

jus now they jus bit each other on e mouth, and they jumped out of the pond! cool! i know i prob sound like a sadist, but u should watch them fight... it's like a dance or something... and i know this sounds kinda cruel, but maybe they'll kill each other and give e other defenceless koi a chance to live... goodness! they have killed like at least 5 of the koi!!!! longkang fish are hazards to other fish i tell u... tsk tsk.... hehe...

kk.. better get off now... i'm sounding more and more like a sadistic psycho... what's worse, i'm sounding like a sadistic psycho who is totally addicted to blogging... OH MAN!!!!!!

ok... i'm back from school!!!! YAY!!! Just thought i'd post something here first before i go catch up on my sleep... i juz viewed my blog... JUST.. .and it looks nice! just that i think i need to change the fonts... Times New Roman is BoRiNg... haha..

ECP lecture was ok today.. prob coz there was no lecture... it was just studying for the Case Study test tml. acty, usually ECP lecture can be said to be quite enjoyable, coz we learn bout those chim chim things in the real world... u know, those CPF, Asian Economic Crisis, Steel Wars, etc... haha... am i sounding like a nerd? I probably am.... it jus sounds so cool, u know, hearing bout all these things happening and FINALLY knowing how they work? I always wondered how the CPF worked. Now i know...

Hehe... i guess u are probably thinking now: doesn this person EVER read the papers? yah, i do... i read the Life! section... coz it's easier to digest... haha... i like e main sections too, but i tend to get interested in like, every article inside, so there's no "thumb" to read it (yes yes, i know i have thumbs.. i have 2... but... oh well, u probably get what i mean... =])

i haven got round to reading my Year old Economists yet.. they're still in their plastic bags.. man.... but seriously, dun think "The Economist?! EEEW!!!" it's acty quite interesting u know.... ^_^... haha... i'm serious!!! the reason why i dun read them is the same reason as why i dun read e main sections of the newspaper.. i prefer to have time on my hands.. the only time where i really went thru The Economist was for PW, when i needed research.. hehe... =) that was when i realised The Economist is acty nice to read... haha...

Can someone please enlighten me on whether i can put emoticons in my posts? they get so dry and being the "simple girl in a high tech digital world" that i am, it's... ahem... kinda obvious tt i dunno many symbols to use... heee... =) i'd be glad if anyone could teach me... PLEASE!!!!

haha... better go catch up on my sleep now... later still have to pia for econ... wish me luck man... i seriously dunno wat to study.... haha...

BYEBYE!!!

HArloW!!! Is my new blog NIcE?! haha... this is thanx to GRACE!!!!!!!!
hehe.. enjoy!! i gtg ECP now.. so sian... ecoN... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..

ok, tt's rubbish.
bye.