Friday, April 30, 2004

been too tired to blog lately.. haha... wed and thurs are my worst days of the week, but the day i dun look forward to the most is tues, when there's triple period free break and then econ and double period math and pe... oooh... horror of horrors!! haha... sounds exaggerated i know, and perhaps it was lar. i have nothing against double period maths acty, but i do have something against the weather. hee... somehow, i think the usual classroom in which we have our double period maths lesson is v stifling. it's not like other classrooms where there's a feeling of spaciousness. in tt room, i feel suffocated and cramped in, and it subsequently gets me into an irritable mood. add tt to my irritation of being unable to catch up with the questions mrs neo is doing, tt's like making me feel worse. luckily jie ting managed to persuade mrs neo to book the aircon rooms, where it's not only cooling, but also spacious. =) thanx jie ting!

i'm so happy!!! i finally got ear phones!! it wasnt $9.90 as evon said, but it was $12.90. oh well, it's cheaper than the one i wanted to get initially anyway- $16, and it's so nice! though i did say i didn wan the one tt needs to be plugged into the ears, i found i couldn resist these ear phones. =) =) haha...

ah well... finally the weekend again!!! love fridays! it means i have the whole 2 days stretched out in front of me!! haha, jus tt i dun think this weekend will be v productive, besides the fact tt i'm gonna discuss the carter stories with chyau inn, jiun pey and tabbi tml. other than tt, my weekend is gonna be spent slacking!!! there's the concert on sunday, and i think i wun have e heart to study or do anything on sun... haha.... and the irritating thing is tt i dun have any bottoms to wear!! i'd meant to wear a skirt, but haven had time to buy it, so i guess i'll be wearing jeans....? or another pair of trousers which i HOPE i can fit into.... *crosses fingers* do u think the esplanade ppl will let me in with jeans? i reaaaaally hope so!!!

anyway, i gotta get back to reality already.. do my lit.... argh..

Sunday, April 25, 2004

haha... I FOUND THE BOOK!!!!!!! well... not me lar, but my maid. not tt i haven been putting in an effort (LOTS of it!) to find it (i searched my room and my sister's room and my parents' room k... i even lifted up the beds!), but it jus didn wan to appear! i searched the place my maid said she had found it- in my movable trolley shelf in the living room; i even took out everything and shook out the files, but to no avail. she said she was just as surprised to finally see it there as well, as she had gone thru them before! oh my god... this thing ALWAYS happens to me! it's like when i was frantically looking for it, there was a veil over my eyes, preventing me from seeing it! argh!!! and i'm serious about going thru tt file where it was found! i even filed up the things inside!!! goodness... there's something going on.... *looks around cautiously*

oh! i found this cool post-it website! u just download it, and now there's a post-it pad on ur computer! for those whose comps are perpetually on 24/7, it's convenient! there are so many merits to it:
1. paper can be saved
2. money can be saved from buying the real post-its
3. the post-its come with alarms
4. u can change the fonts, font colour of ur notes
5. pictures can be inserted so tt u will like looking at wateva notes u have made for urselves!

of course, the only drawback i found with it is tt the alarm doesn't sound when the computer is switched off. not like handphones, where the alram still sounds even when they are switched off...

all in all, though, i love it! haha...

oh yah, here's a note: edison did not invent the telephone.... it was alexander graham bell! hehe... can't believe i've been living under this misconception for so many months! go on..... make fun of me.... haha... =)

Friday, April 23, 2004

diediediediediediediediediediediediediediediediediediediediediedie!!!!!!!!i have this NASTY feeling tt i have lost the Love Matters book!!! oh man!!!!!! i have gone thru my whole house, jus short of turning over the mattress in my parents' room....

ohhhhhhhhhhh...................... mrs neo is gonna be SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO mad!!! wat am i gonna do?!

anyone wants to start a fund for my funeral next week? arrange a grand one for me k?

Thursday, April 22, 2004

argh! wait till i tell you bout my HORRIBLE trip to the doctor's yesterday. oh man! this is the ABSOLUTE WORST doctor i've EVER seen!!!

first of all, he laughed at me when i said i have a "prolonged sore throat". is there anything funny about tt? from tt time onwards, he treated me as some moronic imbecile who couldn do ANYTHING, and that i was jus there for an MC, which i wasn. which person in their right mind would travel all the way to katong just to spend $40 freaking dollars on a one day MC?! if i had wanted an MC, i could have juz gone to bedok polyclinic today. DUH!

next, he said he couldn see nor feel anything from my throat. which meant, he thot he was calling my bluff (which he wasn, btw). then, when my father and i kept insisting tt i had sore throat, he told me to go for a urine test to see if i had dengue. he JUST had to say "but u look too healthy to have dengue". OH FOR GOD'S SAKE! DUN I KNOW TT FACT?! anyway, i jus went. by tt time, i was soooooo fed up with him, i couldn care a whit wat opinion he had of me. i jus couldn be bothered to be polite anymore.

he said there was nothing wrong with my urine-which, i might add, was a stupid and redundant statement, coz i know it myself. dun i know e symptoms of dengue? -_-" finally he said in this condescending tone, "So u wan and MC not?" i flatly told him no, but tt i would need an MC from PE next week, jus in case i am not able to recover in time to do PE. He immediately laughed in tt sickening way of his and said, "Why do u need an MC form PE? Wat do u do for PE?" i said we did running, and i had asthma. he said, " u dun like running is it?" when e thing is, i dun have anything against running, though i know i always grumble about it. i said, " no, i dun have anything aghainst running, but i have asthma, so i dunno if i would be in a condition to run or do anything strenous next week." he asked wat medicine i take for asthma, and i told him the usual medicine: Ventolin Inhaler. he immediately looked a t me like i was crazy and said, " Ventolin inhaler?! you must be out of your mind to still use ventolin! vebtolin is rubbish, it's archaic!"

oh well, pardon me for even saying it! doesn like everyone who has asthma use ventolin inhaler?!

he then went on to praise this new asthmatic drug, and continued demeaning ventolin. oh! i got the message all right, and so did my father. anyway, my father asked for the price of the medicine, and he said,"$110". well, my father couldn hear it coz the oh-so-great-holier than thou doctor was mumbling into his paper. when he repeated it again, he JUST had to add in the next satement,"why? cannot afford it ah?" WHAT IS HIS FRIGGING PROBLEM?! couldn he jus have shut his big mouth and gone on to do his own job?

oh, and may i add tt he does not dress in any way like a doctor? he looks like some styupid quack who trained in some rural area of the world and came to work in singapore. he was dressed in this oversized button down shirt and a pair of hipster pants the tailor-made kinda style. this ensemble, on him, looks like he goes to the Salvation Army to get his clothes, and they only had them in 2 sizes too big for him. to make matters worse, he was wearing socks with, get this, slippers. all in all, he looked like he was gonna have a slumber party at the clinic. oh, and he's not in his twenties. he's in his fifties.

i guess i might sound cruel, but i dun feel like being kind to this kind of jerk who's so holier than thou. ARGH!

there's something tt bugs me though. wat if there's nothing wrong with me in actual fact? mebbe all this is just part of my imagination?! oh my god. does this mean i'm a schizophrenic? or having some kind of psychological problem where i imagine i actually have a sickness when i dun have?!

i must admit, albeit grudgingly, tt i have since begun to show some signs of recovery after yesterday. for starters, my sore throat is almost gone now, and my cough, thanks (but i wish was a no thanks) to his great recommendation *rolls eyes*. let's hope tt this great doctor has some redeeming qualities.

might i add tt i will be incredibly reluctant to go to this same clinic EVER AGAIN?

Monday, April 19, 2004

oh! it's the Good Friday Resolution. paiseh... hahah...
hehe... so far, i have kept to my good friday resolution (or was it the tues resolution? anyway, it's the weekend hw thing), and it's such a good feeling to begin the week knowing i have completed the hw needed for the rest of the week.

well... i jus have this little exception to make: Lit. oh yes... tt is time consuming.. i managed to finish my pre tutorial notes for A&C, but the post is still sadly waaaaaaay behind. oh gosh. and now (oops, grammatical error) congratulations!!!!! i have angela carter log to do, and i have this nasty feeling tt poe is due by thurs as well.

oh man! i guess i should have made one little clause in my resolution, saying tt all hw except lit log bks have to be done by the weekend. however, i should take e responsibility i guess. i usually jus scribble down the post tut notes in pencil, so tt it all accumulates and i have to change it all to pen at one shot. welll...... can't really say anything in my defense i guess, coz it's e same reason: i usually dun have time to immediately change them to pen tt same night. i usually have other things tt demand my attention. and log books... well, they can afford to wait, coz they aren't usually collected... hehe.... lazy me...

so wat am i doing here now? let me give u another lame excuse. i'm waiting for my liquid paper to dry. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!! shocked? well yah. tt's my typical excuse to go skive off somewhere when my heart's not in my work.

i wanna sleep!!!!! jus now come home i was watching my sis exhibiting her class tee, which is quite cool btw- it's a black hooded shirt (custom-made) with a heartbeat design across the chest, and the slogan "simplicity=style" below it. behind is the class: FLOUR. yep, it's 4L, but e class was sick of calling themselves "four elle" as all their seniors have done, so they decided to go with "FLOUR". v unprecedented, eh?- well, it was rather cool, if i do say so myself. oh, the words "FLOUR" are white and horizontally across the back, and the heartbeat is made up of two lines, one yellow one orange. the words "simplicity=style" are orange. cool rite? i would put a pic up, but i have to figure out how to do it first... haha... oh yah, dun ask me to analyse the meaning of the heartbeat for u, it's a long story... haha... anyway, guess it's quite obvious to guess, rite? all the members of the class share one heartbeat= unity!!!!!! haha...

ok, better get off... my father is walking in the living room, wanting to switch on the tv. if he notices i'm still at the comp, he's bound to nag again. hahha... so....
TATA!!!!

Friday, April 16, 2004

oh btw alvin, not tt i dao ur sms ah... i was making good on my new resolution of keeping myself in tune with the current affairs... u know, bonding.... feel the peace................................................. oh. and terror.

;)
thanx for ur concern ppl! =) body ache's gone, but e throat is doing a good job of replacing e aching joints and body.. -_-" and headache too... argh... hehe, perhaps i sound a tad self-pitying here... well....... I AM!!!! BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH.... humour e invalid will u? ;)

i mus say though, e two days' absence from school was rather nice... though i DID NOT DO A SINGLE CONSTRUCTIVE THING WITH MY LIFE... jus slept and read storybooks and slept again... hehe... sadly, didn get weight... perhaps a little tummy? hee.. not telling.... =) anyway, dun get e wrong idea. the storybooks are not even my lit texts, though my conscience kept pricking me. i doubt those books i read would even be counted as classics, now or in the future. let's leave it tt i like to read mindless supermarket romance novels... hehe... =) well... they dun require much thinking... haha....

yesterday, mr reynolds' lecture got to me i think. seriously. i began seriously thinking and worrying bout gp already. i'll admit, i was kinda complacent b4, but still a little worried. i was procrastinating. however, after his lecture yesterday, i realised e A i wan for gp will NOT come my way unless i start working for it. HARD. well... let's make this my fri resolution: keep myself up to date with current affairs. well, i guess this is one reason y i dun do spectacularly well in my AQ. i have NO VIEWS. well. this ought to wake me up.

well... it better, coz i have this sick feeling in the pit of my stomach tt A levels will be tough. and they are coming very soon. yep, coming to the schools near u. stay tuned. k.. tt was lame, but my point is, As are coming soon... so i better buck up... and so do all of u!!! =) anyway, if i wanna make good on all my resolutions, i better shut up now and go act on it. good bye!

Tuesday, April 13, 2004

SUCKS. JUST had to fall sick overnight, didn i? this is worse than other flus i've ever gotten... seldom got a fever when i have flu, but this time was 38.2 deg...body aching, joints aching, sore throat so sickening tt when i swallow, pain shoots to the back of my head. doesn help to know tt my neck is painful and i've got a groggy head. i jus wonder if i should go to school tml or not. one thing tt sticks out like a bloody sore thumb in my schedule tml is tt briefing for college day. if i didn have to go for tt, to hell with sch tml. i'm still being separated in half- one half in this universe, the other in some groggy and thick as glue atmosphere. am i making sense? hope so. one thing i'm not sure bout though. if i dun go to sch tml, do e trs expect ANOTHER MC from me? goodness, i dun have so much money and time to go see doc again u know... the trip there today made me so tired...

speaking of tiredness, i've been sleeping the day away, so... nope, didn manage to complete a&c log or catch up with vectors or do any life-changing activities. jus slept.... and slept... and slept.....

which reminds me... i missed the heats for 100m today.... tt wasn on purpose... acty, there's half of me tt wants to go, but another half is scared of embarrassing myself... hehe... tt's self-conscious me... but partly, it's coz i can't let go of the past. i guess the two parts of me regarding my feelings bout joining e 100m is because of the past. i took part in the same race 5 yrs ago (yah, a bit long i know... ), and i took part in the heats. only, jus when i was gonna take the lead, i fell. and it was in front of like, a quarter of the school. tt's not e bad part- well, not the worst, anyway- i was bleeding like crazy, and the wounds didn heal properly. i still have scars on my legs and elbows. didn like e pus tt came out of them a few days later too.. eeew... for the next few months, everytime i closed my eyes, i could picture myself falling down on the track, in different scenarios. for the years after, whenever i race on the track (the 12x100 and my sec sch's 20x100), i am always scared hist will repeat itself. now u know why i always say i'm scared whenever i run in races?

so this race was to sort of rewrite hist again, make up for what happened then. guess it's fate tt i didn go after all. well, things happen for a reason, dun they?

ah well... feel better after venting my thots here.. haha, mebbe i'll go rest my poor poor bones now... hopefully i'll go back to sch tml... but i feel soooooooooooooo tired!!! nope, more of exhausted i guess... *shrugs* same lar... yep, so see u all if i see u tml!
=)

Monday, April 12, 2004

hehe... got a pleasant surprise jus now when i visited my blog! there are messages!!! haha... lurve reading msgs. well, i should add, i LURVE reading any kind of msgs. particularly letters and loooooong email letters. hehe... so, feel free to email or write to me anytime u feel like it k? i'll reply!!!! haha...

xue fang jus reminded me of a VERY unpleasant fact: MATHS!!!! oh man...been living in a world of econ and lit so long, i've like neglected my math... oh well, hope tt is gonna be rectified soon, since training has been cut down to once a week.... but i still have to make sure tt i dun waste my time or escape to the cyberworld. ahem *coughs delicately* ... like now. *blush*

anyway, i think i better go already. hurul jus taught me how to put music on my blog, and i'm quite eager to try it out. therefore, i shall end now and try to put music inside... wish me luck!!! =)

Friday, April 09, 2004





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hihi... heh, am escaping reality right now by losing myself in the world of blogging... i'm SO not looking forward to starting my hw... mebbe tt's y i'm so backward in all my econ hw. i'm now like doing it one day at a time, and i must tell u, this kind of pace is v terrible. i should seriously just finish all my hw during the weekends so i can have more breathing space during weekdays and have more time to do other things during the free periods. yeah, right. like i'm gonna have enough willpower to do tt. well, juz like my tues resolution last month, i'm going to try to make this a Good Friday resolution: to finish all my hw by weekends. esp A&C. oh man, i can't tell u enough about the horrible stress i always get on weds... hehe....

A&C is fun, but draining. Shakespeare is kinda cool acty. who else can make so many insinuations using hunting metaphors and the usage of other kinds of comparisons to put forth his point? tt's y i think literary people are v smart ppl. dun ever say only scientists are the truly brainy ppl. writers and other ppl who belong in the arts world are brainy too, u know, juz tt it's presented in a different way. eccentric, mebbe, but brainy all the same. just look at their play with words. oh man! to have such ability!

to tell u e truth, i'm kinda sick of looking at lit and econ already. those are the 2 subj i face like, EVERYDAY!!! oh well, guess i can't compare myself to the hist students, who have to MAKE HIST THEIR LIFE, but i guess everyone has their own probs. We can't say the Sci ppl have it any easier juz coz they write fewer essays than us or their work is jus less subjective than ours. guess they oso have their own probs in tackling the sciences. hehe...

ok, gotta wake up from self-denial mode. have to call grace at 1130 to discuss the econ allocation of qns, so i better try to get some work done first... hehe... sorry for the late allocation ppl!!!!

HOMEWORK, HERE I COME!!!! =D

Thursday, April 08, 2004

WE WON TODAY!!!! haha... the score was 2-0... and well, though we are not in the next round, at least we aren't the loser of the group... =) we almost had to play the third set (which everyone was NOT looking forward to), and the last set ended with 25-22 i think... guess the score shouldn have been lidat, but well, guess we were still overwhelmed by the fact tt we had won the first set... =)

the guys won rjc as well... 2-1, which i guess everyone will admit, was a surprise. the guys were already planning to anyhow play the game, and get yellow and red cards, coz they felt the game was a lost cause and they had nvr gotten any of those coloured cards in their vb careers anyway... haha... the ironic thing was tt, tpjc didn gewt awarded a yellow card, but rjc did, coz zhang yuan called for a timeout when he wasn't supposed to (coz he's not the coach)... oh well... juz glad tt we won... =)

hehe... so embarrassing jus now... almost went up to some rj guy and said hello to him... hahaha!!! coz he looked like my pri sch friend from where i was during the match mah, and i thot of gg over to say hi. luckily i didn, coz it was e wrong person... hehe... realised tt they have the same features FROM FAR, but nearer, tt guy looked like a nerd.. .hee.... can u imagine how embarrassing it would have been?! eew!!!!!!

hee... guess everyone can tell i'm in a good mood now eh? hehe... tml is good fri, so NO NEED TO GO TO SCHOOL!!!!!!!!! added to today's victory... haha.... i'm not only on cloud nine, i'm in HEAVEN!!!! haha...

a little dark cloud though... jus registered for SAT today, and now i have to face the fact tt i have to put in more effort to study for this this time!! otherwise $81.90 will be wasted. again. tt means more intensive studying for SAT words and (god knows how to revise it) maths... OK!!! i admit i juz glanced thru the words last yr.... hehe... deserve it i guess...juz hope i can make improvements this yr... aaah!!!!

juz remembered i had one philosophical thing to say... but, i forgot...
how wonderful. -_____-"

Wednesday, April 07, 2004

nope... dun suppose it did... lemme try on my template.... cross ur fingers!!!
hehe... juz trying out something hurul taught me... dunno whether it can appear here in the entries or not... wait....

http://delivery.gettyimages.com/comp/ngs4_3018.jpg?

Tuesday, April 06, 2004

hehe... got rid of my prev tagboard yesterday.. giving me so many problems.. now changed to this chatterbox.. hope it'll be better! =) this chatterbox website is quite nice... there are puzzles tt can be put on my blog.. but when i tried putting it in, it turned out tt e puzzles were e main focus of the blog, not my entries... hai... =)

ain't this blogskin cute? it was done by some ex-beatty sec sch girl oso called yiling.. .coincidental rite? so if u see e credits at the botton "Done by Yiling of Animeskies", it's not me.... it's this girl... again coincidentally, she's also a vballer... haha... how much freakier can this get? =)

acty, i've got like nothing to update u all on lar.. haha... juz felt like typing something in here... to push further back the fact tt i have to go do my hw... i'm BUSHED... haha... jus feel like closing my eyes and slipping into oblivion, but well, tt's not possible is it? though the empress of dreamland (i call her the sui4 niang2 niang2) would be happy to see me (and the feeling is mutual), the teachers wun be too happy with me tml... hahahahahhaah....

oh well, i can't live in self-denial mode any longer. gotta face up to reality now, so.... bye!

Saturday, April 03, 2004

yesterday was the second match of the tournament for us... we lost again-
2-0. though it was somewhat expected to lose to NYJC, somehow, it hurt. i know... i probably brought this upon the whole team by not setting well AGAIN. i do wondre though, when i am gonna realise that i should be setting higher balls and ALWAYS setting, and not hooking the ball to the other side? guess my team mates are already frustrated with me for that, and i must say, i can;t really blame them. apologies are too late, and as they say, "Sorry no cure", what's done cannot be undone. i should realise the futility of words in this case, but somehow, i can't help but apologize for all these. it's e best i can do.

however, i know some of u must be thinking. " why can't u just learn from ur mistakes and try not to repeat them in the next match?" well.... when i go on court, i forget alot of things... sounds lame i know, but in the heat of the moment, i always do things on impulse. i get scared. tt makes me indecisive. u can say i'm afraid to take risks. why the hell do u think i've only had one relationship so far?

ah well.. this is all sounding so depressing, like all my previous few entries. let's all hope the mood will change the next time i blog here? =)