Sunday, November 04, 2007

Learning to be Content

Mummy: I'm going to the temple later. Do you want me to say anything to Buddha?

Von: Thank Him for me, and to keep everybody safe.

Mummy: How about your results?

Von: Ok, ask Him to give me what I deserve for my exams.

Mummy: Wah, you're not greedy hor?

Von: If He gives me more than I deserve, He'll deduct the excess from other parts of my life to make it balance.

Interesting eh? I should learn from her.

Saturday, November 03, 2007

Well Well Well...

I saw Si Huan's entry about the 16 personality types, and decided to try it out for myself. This is what it says. Anyway, I'm an INFJ.


Portrait of an INFJ - Introverted iNtuitive Feeling Judging(Introverted Intuition with Extraverted Feeling)

The Protector
As an INFJ, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you take things in primarily via intuition. Your secondary mode is external, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit with your personal value system.

INFJs are gentle, caring, complex and highly intuitive individuals. Artistic and creative, they live in a world of hidden meanings and possibilities. Only one percent of the population has an INFJ Personality Type, making it the most rare of all the types.

INFJs place great importance on havings things orderly and systematic in their outer world. They put a lot of energy into identifying the best system for getting things done, and constantly define and re-define the priorities in their lives. On the other hand, INFJs operate within themselves on an intuitive basis which is entirely spontaneous. They know things intuitively, without being able to pinpoint why, and without detailed knowledge of the subject at hand. They are usually right, and they usually know it. Consequently, INFJs put a tremendous amount of faith into their instincts and intuitions. This is something of a conflict between the inner and outer worlds, and may result in the INFJ not being as organized as other Judging types tend to be. Or we may see some signs of disarray in an otherwise orderly tendency, such as a consistently messy desk.

INFJs have uncanny insight into people and situations. They get "feelings" about things and intuitively understand them. As an extreme example, some INFJs report experiences of a psychic nature, such as getting strong feelings about there being a problem with a loved one, and discovering later that they were in a car accident. This is the sort of thing that other types may scorn and scoff at, and the INFJ themself does not really understand their intuition at a level which can be verbalized. Consequently, most INFJs are protective of their inner selves, sharing only what they choose to share when they choose to share it. They are deep, complex individuals, who are quite private and typically difficult to understand. INFJs hold back part of themselves, and can be secretive.

But the INFJ is as genuinely warm as they are complex. INFJs hold a special place in the heart of people who they are close to, who are able to see their special gifts and depth of caring. INFJs are concerned for people's feelings, and try to be gentle to avoid hurting anyone. They are very sensitive to conflict, and cannot tolerate it very well. Situations which are charged with conflict may drive the normally peaceful INFJ into a state of agitation or charged anger. They may tend to internalize conflict into their bodies, and experience health problems when under a lot of stress.

Because the INFJ has such strong intuitive capabilities, they trust their own instincts above all else. This may result in an INFJ stubborness and tendency to ignore other people's opinions. They believe that they're right. On the other hand, INFJ is a perfectionist who doubts that they are living up to their full potential. INFJs are rarely at complete peace with themselves - there's always something else they should be doing to improve themselves and the world around them. They believe in constant growth, and don't often take time to revel in their accomplishments. They have strong value systems, and need to live their lives in accordance with what they feel is right. In deference to the Feeling aspect of their personalities, INFJs are in some ways gentle and easy going. Conversely, they have very high expectations of themselves, and frequently of their families. They don't believe in compromising their ideals.

INFJ is a natural nurturer; patient, devoted and protective. They make loving parents and usually have strong bonds with their offspring. They have high expectations of their children, and push them to be the best that they can be. This can sometimes manifest itself in the INFJ being hard-nosed and stubborn. But generally, children of an INFJ get devoted and sincere parental guidance, combined with deep caring.

In the workplace, the INFJ usually shows up in areas where they can be creative and somewhat independent. They have a natural affinity for art, and many excel in the sciences, where they make use of their intuition. INFJs can also be found in service-oriented professions. They are not good at dealing with minutia or very detailed tasks. The INFJ will either avoid such things, or else go to the other extreme and become enveloped in the details to the extent that they can no longer see the big picture. An INFJ who has gone the route of becoming meticulous about details may be highly critical of other individuals who are not.

The INFJ individual is gifted in ways that other types are not. Life is not necessarily easy for the INFJ, but they are capable of great depth of feeling and personal achievement.

Jungian functional preference ordering:
Dominant: Introverted Intuition
Auxilliary: Extraverted Feeling
Tertiary: Introverted Thinking
Inferior: Extraverted Sensing
INFJ Relationships
INFJs are warm and affirming people who are usually also deep and complex. They're likely to seek out and promote relationships that are intense and meaningful. They tend to be perfectionists, and are always striving for the Ultimate Relationship. For the most part, this is a positive feature, but sometimes works against the INFJ if they fall into the habit of moving from relationship to relationship, always in search of a more perfect partner. In general, the INFJ is a deeply warm and caring person who is highly invested in the health of their close relationships, and puts forth a lot of effort to make them positive. They are valued by those close to them for these special qualities. They seek long-term, lifelong relationships, although they don't always find them.

INFJ Strengths
Warm and affirming by nature
Dedicated to achieving the ultimate relationship
Sensitive and concerned for others' feelings
Usually have good communication skills, especially written
Take their commitments very seriously, and seek lifelong relationships
Have very high expectations for themselves and others (both a strength and weakness)
Good listeners
Are able to move on after a relationship has ended (once they're sure it's over)

INFJ Weaknesses
Tendency to hold back part of themselves
Not good with money or practical day-to-day life necessities
Extreme dislike of conflict and criticism
Have very high expectations for themselves and others (both a strength and weakness)
Have difficulty leaving a bad relationship

INFJs as Lovers
"To love means to open ourselves to the negative as well as the positive - to grief, sorrow, and disappointment as well as to joy, fulfillment, and an intensity of consciousness we did not know was possible before." -- Rollo May

INFJs are warm, considerate partners who feel great depth of love for their partners. They enjoy showing this love, and want to receive affirmation back from their mates.

They are perfectionists, constantly striving to achieve the Perfect Relationship. This can sometimes be frustrating to their mates, who may feel put upon by the INFJs demanding perfectionism. However, it may also be greatly appreciated, because it indicates a sincere commitment to the relationship, and a depth of caring which is not usually present in other types.

Sexually, INFJs view intimacy as a nearly spiritual experience. They embrace the opportunity to bond heart and soul with their mates. As service-oriented individuals, it's very important to them that their mates are happy. Intimacy is an opportunity for the INFJ to selflessly give their love, and experience it in a tangible way.

Although two well-developed individuals of any type can enjoy a healthy relationship, INFJ's natural partner is the ENTP, or the ENFP. INFJ's dominant function of Introverted Intuition is best matched with a personality type that is dominated by Extraverted Intuition. How did we arrive at this?

INFJs as Parents
"You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are sent forth...Let your bending in the archer's hand be for gladness;For even as He loves the arrow that flies, so He loves also the bow that is stable." -- Kahlil Gibran

INFJs usually make warm and caring parents. Their goal is to help their children become adults who know the difference between right and wrong, and who are independent, growth-oriented individuals.

Along the path to that goal they are generally very warm and caring, and are likely to treat their children as individuals who have a voice in family decisions. They want their children to be able to think for themselves, and make the right decisions. They also can be quite demanding on their children, and may have very high expectations for their behavior. Although they are generally soft-spoken and gentle, they may become stubborn and sharp-tongued at times when their expectations aren't met, or when under a lot of stress.

INFJs take their parenting role with ultimate seriousness. They will make sacrifices for the sake of their children without a second thought, and without remorse. Passing on their values to their children is a serious priority in their lives. Children of INFJs remember their parents fondly as warm, patient, and inspirational.

INFJs as Friends
Although the INFJ is likely to put friends behind their God and their families in terms of importance, they do value their friendships. As idealists who have strong value systems, INFJs seek authenticity and depth in their close relationships, and especially value people who can see and appreciate the INFJ for who they are and what they stand for.

The INFJ is likely to spend a lot of time socialing with family members. If they are religious, they probably are social with members of their religious community. After that, the INFJ may have friends represented from any of the personality types. They are usually extremely intuitive individuals, who will have no patience for anyone they feel is dishonest or corrupt. They'll have no interest in being around these kinds of people.

All kinds of people are drawn towards the INFJ. They are usually quite popular, although they may be unaware of it themselves, because they don't place a lot of importance on it.

The INFJ is valued by their close friends for their warmth and consideration, their new and interesting ways of looking at things, and for their ability to inspire and motivate others to be the best that they can be. genuine article that they are.
Well, some parts are rather accurate, but others... Well, it's true that they're rather general. Haha... =) What do you think about it? Oh yes, if you're wondering why the words are bigger this time, it's coz I really think the words are too small, which makes it tiring to read long entries. Well, hope this entry made your reading easier!

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Heritage and Museums

SINGAPORE: Singaporeans will get to learn more about their heritage in a fun way in a month—long effort jointly led by the National Heritage Board, National Library Board and Media Development Authority.

Explore Singapore! 2007 with the tagline "Discover More", will feature 86 activities at 20 museums island—wide. Set to run from November 10 to December 31, the aim of Explore Singapore! 2007 is to make heritage and museums more fun an appealing to seniors, families and children.

"We want to give Singaporeans especially the young children something extra to do in Singapore during this holiday season. Instead of going to the shopping centre or watching television, they can actually come down to the museum, and discover much about the heritage and when finding out about their heritage, discover a bit more about themselves," says Michael Koh, Chief Executive of NHB.

With most of the programmes tailored for the young, the museum—going culture could become inculcated in children at a young age. "This is a very important process because we are a young nation and we hope that all of us with our visit to the museums understand more about our own psyche as well as our multi—cultural heritage and identity," said the Chief Executive of NHB.
Some of the activities aimed at the young include a photoblogging contest which would call for participants to showcase the human stories behind our heritage through pictures.

Another programme which is limited to 30 lucky children from 7—10 years old is a sleep—over at the Singapore Philatelic Museum with highlights such as a Treasure Hunt and a Bumboat Ride down the Singapore River.

To cater to the man—on—the street, local actor and comedian Mark Lee has been appointed as the ambassador for Explore Singapore! 2007, a role which will see him conducting tours for the public with a dash of his distinct sense of humour.

Lee hopes that with his ability to cater to both the English and Mandarin speaking crowd, he can get more people to enjoy heritage, culture and art in a contemporary setting.

Besides Mark Lee, the National Heritage Board will also rope in Singapore taxi drivers to act as ambassadors too as they can serve as a repository for travel information to tourists. To create awareness among taxi—drivers of the various museums in Singapore, there will be a Taxi—drivers’ Open House.

As the older generation may not have had the opportunity to enjoy all that’s being offered by Singapore museums right now, the NHB is offering free entry to all NHB museums. Entrace fees for senior citizens will also be waived at the Singapore Science Centre and the Museum of Shanghai Toys from November 19 to 25.

And if you can’t take part in Explore Singapore! 2007 during the entire month, you can still try to be a part of the experience with a donation from your archives. That’s because the National Library is calling on the public to donate a photograph, postcard, picture of illustration that captures the "Lost Memories" of Singapore before 1970.

So start exploring!
-- Reported by CNA

I think this is really cool. Do you know, before I knew about International Museum Day, I didn't realise Singapore has so many museums! The new ones I went to were the ones with Pony- the Red Dot Museum and the LTA one. I had alot of fun that day at those museums, especially at the Red Dot Museum- It was a real eye-opener for me, I didn't know there were so many cool innovations out there. Do you know, the ex love of my love, the LG Chocolate Phone, is one of the winners of the Red Dot Design Award? There, this shows my taste in my love of my lives, doesn't it? =) But I'd really love to visit the Changi Chapel Museum and the Museum of Shanghai Toys. Hopefully I can go down there one day!!!

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Emotions

How does it feel to have one's emotions tied to how another is feeling?

Helpless because one feels it but one can't do anything.

Frustrated because of the helplessness.

Lucky because of the helplessness and frustration. Haha I know this is going to sound super perverted, but like I said, humans are perverse creatures. To quote KY, "犯贱"! But I think it makes sense. OK, maybe at the point in time when you are feeling helpless and frustrated, you will feel like slapping me for saying that one should feel lucky that the frustration and helpless feelings are felt when one has one's emotions tied to another person. But hear me out.

Don't you think that when your emotions are tied to another's, the feeling is that both of you have a close relationship, and that you are concerned for the other person? It's only when you are able to feel what another person is feeling that you can say that you care for the other person. Let's take family, for example. When you see your family members, such as your parents, working their guts out day and night to make ends meet, don't you feel sad and helpless that you can't do much to help them? And won't you feel lucky that you have this relationship with your family? This feeling of having your emotions tied to antoher person is not something that can be generalised to everyone you know. Imagine if you were to allow your emotions to be affected by some acquaintance you see once in a blue blue moon with a baboon inside- wouldn't you be tired? So I think it's lucky to be able to do that.

And that's all I have for today.

I'm tired already, byebye.

Thursday, October 18, 2007

Diner Dash

I feel like the character in the game "Diner Dash", who has to take care of many customers at the same time.

Haha, not that I'm running a business or anything at the moment, but I mean the various commitments that I have signed myself up for. I can't seem to put my finger on anything for a proper period of time, such that I have ended up neglecting the people who will understand the most- my family. I haven't spent as much time as I'd like to talk to them and find out more about what's going on in their lives. And recently, there's been alot of upheaval in each of their lives, and I haven't been able to ask them properly how they are doing and how I can help. I'd love to sit down and talk to them and help them get their problems out, but I can't, and I'm really very sorry for that. I'd love to sit down and reply their emails with as much sincerity as I can, but I guess all I can manage now are the superficial "Are you ok? How are you doing?" which I think are as useless as they can get.

Hopefully I'll be able to sit down and have a proper chat with them soon.

For anyone I've neglected, I'm so sorry. I don't mean to do it, and you are certainly not taken for granted, though some of my actions do seem to point that way. =)

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Is Hell Exothermic or Endothermic?

Bonus Question: Is Hell exothermic (gives off heat) or endothermic (absorbs heat)?

Most of the students wrote proofs of their beliefs using Boyle's Law (gas cools when it expands and heats when it is compressed) or some variant. One student, however, wrote the following:

"First, we need to know how the mass of Hell is changing in time. So we need to know the rate at which souls are moving into Hell and the rate at which they are leaving. I think that we can safely assume that once a soul gets to Hell, it will not leave.

Therefore, no souls are leaving. As for how many souls are entering Hell, let's look at the different religions that exist in the world today. Most of these religions state that if you are not a member of their religion, you will go to Hell. Since there is more than one of these religions and since people do not belong to more than one religion, we can project that all souls go to Hell.

With birth and death rates as they are, we can expect the number of souls in Hell to increase exponentially. Now, we look at the rate of change of the volume in Hell because Boyle's Law states that in order for the temperature and pressure in Hell to stay the same, the volume of Hell has to expand proportionately as souls are added.

This gives two possibilities:
1) If Hell is expanding at a slower rate than the rate at which souls enter Hell, then the temperature and pressure in Hell will increase until all Hell breaks loose.
2) If Hell is expanding at a rate faster than the increase of souls in Hell, then the temperature and pressure will drop until Hell freezes over..

So which is it?
If we accept the postulate given to me by Teresa during my Freshman year that, "...it will be a cold day in Hell before I sleep with you," and take into account the fact that I still have not succeeded in having an affair with her, then #2 above cannot be true, and thus I am sure that Hell is exothermic and will not freeze over."

THIS STUDENT RECEIVED THE ONLY "A."

I've been looking everywhere for this passage again. Isn't it entertaining? =)

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Blahblahblah

I'm going screw this sem up so tight you can't tell where's the head or tail of the bloody sem.

I know I said I'd be happy if I passed, but I guess it's human greed; when you pass a goal, you automatically look towards the next highest one and start wishing you had passed that goal as well.

I reached the first goal of passing, and the score wasn't too bad... if you don't take into consideration the descriptive stats that characterise the scores of the quiz. That was when I started to get scared. It wasn't that much below the mean, but still, as I said, human greed.

Now I'm thinking if I can retain my second-upper results.

And the 3 reports that are due on 25th Oct. If 25 wasn't a significant number, I'd probably hate it right about now. What's with 25? Why do the reports have to be squeezed into that date?!

I guess I should probably look on the bright side, like, "Yay! After the deadlines on the 25th I can have a short break before I embark on the last leg of the project! I can't wait!"

I will probably feel like that on that day, but right now, I can't see that. How do you freaking see a good ending when the immediate way ahead has so many stones blocking the light?

But somehow, I'll get past it. It has to be done means it has to be done.

Haha, and I'll get past this bad mood too.

Oh well, life still has to go on, doesn't it? I'll get past this somehow.

Tuesday, October 09, 2007

Laksa!!!

My mind is totally evil. Of all things to crave for, it makes me suddenly crave for the Bukit Merah laksa- Depot Road Zhen Shan Mei Claypot Laksa. Oh my goodness. I can almost taste the milky taste of the soup, the spiciness biting on my tongue, and the milkiness leaving that feeling only fresh milk or coconut milk can leave along your throat. I'm missing the juicy taupok and the super smooth thick bee hoon too. And the cockles, fresh and plump and juicy. And the best part? The laksa's still boiling when they serve you with it.

I WANT TO EAT LAKSA!!!

Oh man, I've gotta stop thinking about this. I'm gonna get myself gastric if I continue fantasizing about laksa.................

Friday, October 05, 2007

That's When I Love You

My current favourite song! Haha, I think the lyrics are quite sweeeeeeeeeeet! =)

When you have to look away
When you dont have much to say
Thats when I love you
I love you, just that way

To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
Thats when I love you
I love you, endlessly

And when your mad cuz you lost a game
Forget Im waiting in the rain
Baby i love you,
I love you anyway

Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
WhenI love you no matter what

So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made you cry
Thats when I love you
I love you a little more each time

And when you cant quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
Thats when I love you
I love you, more than youll know

And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you get when you show up late
Baby I love you, I love you anyway

Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
Thats when I love you

When nothing baby
Nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
No matter what

Tuesday, October 02, 2007

Laws of Nature?

Is it a law of nature that says that when we have two things that are important to us, one of it must be let go in order to make space for the other to develop to its full potential? Can I choose to have the best of both worlds instead?

Well. Let's see if I can change after this lesson. Wish me luck.

The Five Stages of Dying

For the initiates to the Five Stages of Dying, this is a good way of getting to know what it means. Hilarious, but definitely informative.

Sunday, September 30, 2007

Yay!

Haha I'm a happy girl now! The 2 men in my life bought me my favourite! My father bought me chocolate stuff from UK, and KY bought me potato chips! Haha these are my essentials for facing the quizzes and stuff for the next week! =) Thanks guys! Haha they made my weekend brighter! =)

OMG I sound so hyper. Anyway, back to work. Bye!

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Mahjong

Is there a module in Mahjong offered in NTU that I didn't know about? Seems like there are quite a few people taking that module. They have been so hardworking, practising for the Mahjong quiz that's coming after this recess. This is the first night they're practising since recess started I suppose, but I think they've been hard at work since the beginning of the sem. Even when everyone goes to classes, there are some who are practising as well. Well, I hope they do well for the Mahjong quiz! =)

Sunday, September 23, 2007

Some questions answered just coz i felt bored.

i) grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. write down what it says: "The sample standard deviation is defined to be..." -- Thank goodness they didn't say line 5, or I'd have hell typing out the whole line of equation. Of all things the book nearest to me had to be Stats. -_-"

ii)stretch your left arm out as far as you can. what do you touch first? Yi Lun's study table.

iii)what is the last thing you watched on tv? Some travel programme about Turkey. Travel programme! I want to travel!!

iv)guess what the time is:545pm
now look at the clock, what is the actual time?539pm. I'm hungry!

v)with the exception of the computer, what can you hear? My fan.

vi)when did you last step outside? what were you doing? Yesterday evening. I was having dinner and looking at entertainment ;)

vii)before you came to this website, what did you look at? My email inbox.

iix)what are you wearing? A pink cotton blouse and shorts. Do I need to be more specific?

ix)did you dream last night? Yes.

x)when did you last laugh? Yesterday, quite a bit. =)

xi)what is/are on the walls of the room you are in? So many things! Bulletin board in front of me, Peke's portrait, whiteboard, puzzle.

xii)what book are you currently reading? A mixture of Stats, Linguistics, Malay... Do you want me to go on? I can see your eyes glazing over. Either that, or you laughing and telling me to get a life and be serious. =)

xiii)what is the last book you finished? The Virgin Suicides by Jeffrey Eugenides. Disturbing book.

xiv)if you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first? Pay off Evon and Yi Lun's school fees.

xv)tell me something about you that i don't know: Uhm. I talk in my sleep?

xvi)if you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would it be? That Pandora never opened the box.

xvii)do you like to dance? NO. I can't co-ordinate my body to save my life. But I do like to see people dance.

xviii)what is the last thing you ate or drank? Funny you should ask. I just drank water.

xix)imagine your first child to be a girl, what do you call her? Not sure, something with a Si or a Min. Haha I'm partial to those 2 words, but PLEASE not Si Min. =S

xx)imagine your first child to be a boy, what do you call him? Joshua! or Ethan! Haha I always liked those 2 names. =)

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Random Ramblings Again

Haha I couldn't think of a good title for this entry, so just titled it thus. And anyway, I have a few things to talk about, so I just came up with that. They are random, anyway.

So. Some of you know that Yi Lun left yesterday. I was expecting to cry, but I didn't expect my tears to come so late. I thought I'd cry like long before she boarded the plane, but the tears came just before she boarded. I guess I was still in denial that she's really going to leave. It's hard imagining someone who has lived with you for 19 years going away, and this time, it's not going away for some one-week camp- it's 9 months. Many people say 9 months will pass very fast, and that we'll be too busy to think of each other in any case. I agree with that, but, there's no denying the fact that someone close to you is going to embark on another journey, another chapter of her life, without you by her side knowing what she's thinking, how she's feeling, when she's been doing that all the time for the past 19 years. Haha, I'll really miss her, you know. Who's going to laugh at all the stupid things that I say or think about? And who's going to listen to me talking and talking and just being patient with me (though she does show her impatience...) I know I've mentioned it before, but just in case she reads this entry, at least I can stroke her ego a bit. Haha... Anyway, I digress. I do hope she makes good friends over there, and that she can adapt to the environment there quickly. Tay Lun if you read this, jiayou k! Don't be scared, things will turn out fine. Anyway, you have Xinyi and Paula there to look out for you. =)

Ok on to my second point now. I've written an entry on this before, about chivalry, and I'm glad to say again, that chivalry's not dead! I was on the MRT just now, and there was a seat behind me, a middle-aged lady on my left, and a 50+ man on my right. I knew he wanted the seat, cos he'd been walking around looking for one. But when there was the seat in front of him, he offered to the lady first before taking the seat when she rejected. Hmm I think some of you are wondering why he didn't ask me (or not), but my guess is that it's cos she's older than me, and youngsters are seen to be more healthy than their elders? But my point here is that AT LEAST HE OFFERED the seat. It's rather seldom that you see men giving up seats for ladies on buses and trains these days. Sure, you see youngsters giving up seats for the elderly, the pregnant women and those who need the seats. But with equality of the sexes, some people tend to forget about chivalry. I'm not trying to be a feminist here. I'm trying to point out that though there may be equality in sexes now, everyone appreciates a gentleman or a chivalrous person.

And my last ramble would be about travelling to school. My first day travelling to school early in the morning and I've reinforced my conviction that I'm better off staying in hall. Besides the newly added bonus of staying in hall (*winks*), the travelling time and the distance and the time I have to wake up are insane. Just for a 930am class, I have to wake up at an unearthly hour of 630am. I haven't woken this early since JC days. And to travel to NTU takes 1 1/2 hours. Added to the fact that it's rush hour to and from the school, I've gotta squeeze with so many more people and it's hard to find your own space to stand. And I'm paranoid about being pickpocketed. -_-" Lucky we decided to go for the 130pm class tomorrow, so I don't have to wake up earlier tomorrow. And I can have lunch at home! Yay!

Ok, I'm going to do my work now. Been really really slack. Argh. And you know what? Time passes slower at home than in hall. Makes you wonder where time flies to, doesn't it? =)

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

When God Made Women

I found this on my friend's blog, and found it really sweet. If I was undergoing hormonal changes, I'd probably be bawling my eyes out at this already, seeing as I am still feeling a bit weepy, for those who know what day this is. But this entry is not about the event that's going to happen. This entry is about the following:

When God Made Women
The time the Lord made women, he was into his 6th day of working overtime.
An Angel appeared and said, "why are you spending so much time on this one?".

And the Lord answered and said,
"Have you seen the specsheet on her?
She has to be completely washable, but not plastic, have 200 movable parts, all replaceable, run on black coffee and leftovers,
have a lap that can hold three children at one time and that disappears when she stands up, have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart and have six pairs of hands."

The Angel was astounded at the requirements for this one."Six pairs of hands! No Way!", said the Angel.
The Lord replied,
"Oh, it's not the hands that are the problem.
It's the three pairs of eyes that women must have!".

"And that's just on the standard model?" the Angel asked.
The Lord nodded in agreement.
"Yep, one pair of eyes are to see through the closed door as she asks her children what they are doing even though she already knows.
Another pair in the back of her head are to see what she needs to know even though no one thinks she can.
And the third pair are here in the front of her head.
They are for looking at an errant child and saying that she understands and loves him or her without even saying a single word."

The Angel tried to stop the Lord.
"This is too much work for one day.
Wait until tomorrow to finish."

But I can't!", the Lord protested,
"I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart."
She already heals herself when she is sick and
can feed a family of six on a pound of hamburger and
can get a nine year old to stand in the shower."

The Angel moved closer and touched the woman,
"but you have made her so soft Lord."
"She is soft", the Lord greed, "but I have also made her tough."
You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish."

"Will she be able to think?", asked the Angel.
The Lord replied,
"not only will she be able to think, she will be able to reason, and negotiate."

The Angel then noticed something and reached out and touched the woman's cheek.
"Oops, it looks like you have a leak with this model."
I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one."
That's not a leak," the Lord objected,
"that's a tear!"
"What's the tear for?" the Angel asked.
The Lord said,
"the tear is her way of expressing her joy, her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her loneliness, her grief, and her pride."

The Angel was impressed.
"You are a genius, Lord.
You thought of everything, for women are truly amazing."

Women have strengths that amaze men.
They carry children, they carry hardships,
they carry burdens but they hold happiness, love and joy.
They smile when they want to scream.
They sing when they want to cry.
They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are nervous.
They fight for what they believe in.
They stand up for injustice.
They don't take "no" for an answer when they believe there is a better solution.

They go without new shoes so their children can have them.
They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.
They love unconditionally.
They cry when their children excel and cheer when their friends get awards.
They are happy when they hear about a birth or a new marriage.
Their hearts break when a friend dies.
They have sorrow at the loss of a family member,
yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left.

They know that a hug and a kiss can heal a broken heart.
Women come in all sizes, in all colors and shapes.
They'll drive, fly, walk, run to you to show how much they care about you.

The heart of a woman is what makes the world spin.
They bring joy and hope.
They give compassion and ideals.
They have so much to give.

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

Photocopy Machines

Did you ever wonder why some people describe photocopy machines as "spitting" out paper?

Frankly, I never wondered why photocopy machines were described like this until I went to the photocopy shop just now to print more questionnaires. I was just stoning and waiting for my questionnaires to be printed when I realised that the part where the paper comes out looks like a mouth, and when the paper comes out, it looks like- you guessed it- the paper is being spat out of the printer! Cool, eh? I think I even managed to see the "tongue" pushing the paper out. Haha, so entertaining right? Never thought the photocopy would give me such a revelation today, particularly when I was feeling a bit bored about nothing to do but stare into space coz of the long queue and long wait.

So there you have it, entertainment can be derived from anything, anywhere. Cool, isn't it? =)

Yes, and now I have to find a way to entertain myself with stats. I've been playing with it since this morning, trying to get it to like me, but... I think it still doesn't very much want to like me... =( Never mind, I shall persevere with Stats. I shall continue wooing it. Haha, maybe I'll succeed in winning its heart like Si Huan did with Sheera. Hmm....

Friday, September 14, 2007

A Mind of Its Own

Stop, slow down, take a deep breath (ooh yeah)
Stop, slow down, take a deep breath (na na na na na)
Ooh, oh

I look at you and I know you're trouble
I should run just fast as I can
One smile, game over
Here in front of you I stand
I know you're only gonna burst my bubble
Trouble is my heart don't care
It's ignoring all the danger signs
Stop, Slow down, take a deep breath, beware

I'm not willing to be so fearless, careless, just yet
Once bitten, twice shy, is what you get

My hearts got a mind of it's own
Won't listen to a word I say
Doesn't it know that I get hurt too
When it acts that way
Cos When it breaks I break
I don't know how much more of this I can take
Doesn't it know that I get hurt too
When it acts that way

Too many times I've witnessed
My heart make a fool of itself
So sure it's gonna turn out one way
Always turns out being somethin' else

My hearts got a real malfunction
Always flippin' into over ride
When I tell it to be sensible
It over rules my cynical mind

I'm not willing to be so open, transparent, no not yet
Once bitten twice shy, is what you get
(But here in front of you, there's nothin I can do)

My hearts got a mind of it's own
Won't listen to a word I say
Doesn't it know that I get hurt too
When it acts that way
Cos When it breaks I break
I don't know how much more of this I can take
Doesn't it know that I get hurt too
When it acts that way

My hearts got a mind of it's own
Won't listen to a word I say (word I say)
Doesn't it know that I get hurt too (hurt too)
When it acts that way
Cos When it breaks I break
I don't know how much more of this I can take
(I don't know how much more of this I can take)
Doesn't it know that I get hurt too
When it acts that way

Stop, slow down, take a deep breath
Think about what I'm doin'
Think about once bitten, twice shy
Stop, slow down, take a second
Before you rush right in
It's gonna be my tears you cry

My heart's got a mind of it's own (of it's own)
Won't listen to a word I say
Doesn't it know that I get hurt too
When it acts that way (when it acts that way)
Cos When it breaks I break (I break)
I don't know how much more of this I can take
(More of this I can take)
Doesn't it know that I get hurt too (get hurt too)
When it acts that way (when it acts that way)

My hearts got a mind of it's own (mind of it's own)
Won't listen to a word I say
Doesn't it know that I get hurt too
(Doesn't it know that I get hurt too)
When it acts that way (when it acts that way)
Cos when it breaks I break (Cos when it breaks I break)
I don't know how much more of this I can take
(More of this I can take)
Doesn't it know that I get hurt too
When it acts that way

My hearts got a mind of it's own
My hearts got a mind of it's own
Stop, slow down, take a deep breath
[Fade]

--- Victoria Beckham

Haha, didn't know she could sing right? I don't think very much of her voice too, but this song was rather catchy, and I've actually been wanting to find the lyrics to this song and her MP3 for a while now, but I kept forgetting to do so. So now, I have the lyrics, I'll try to find the MP3. And yes, you're right, her voice is not very good. =)But just the song and rhythm are not bad lah. If anyone knows where to find this song, tell me k!

Saturday, September 08, 2007

Morals Vs Desires

When I was taking Gothic Literature for my A Levels, I never thought twice about why the theme of Morals vs Desires was a theme in the Gothic. I just thought it was aimed at exposing the darkness of human nature, and never wondered why it was morals vs desires and not something else.

Then I was thinking about my behaviour yesterday, and I came to the conclusion that the reason why Morals vs Desires is a theme in Gothic iterature is because Gothic Literature aims at showing the bestiality of Man, and that Man is unable to separate himself from the behaviour of beasts sometimes. We often have to struggle with our desires, and measure the amount of pleasure we will get from obtaining our desires vs the possible feelings of guilt we will get if we obtain those desires against the judgment of our Morals. So, following Freud's argument, it's basically our Id vs our Superego, and the dilemma the Ego is going through, trying to make a compromise between both the extremes. It causes a big frustration, that makes it hard for the Ego to settle down to concentrate on other things. The Ego tries to protect the human from turning into either a prude or a beast, while the extremes try to turn it otherwise. The struggle between morals and desires is horrific in itself, because it shows how easily we can all turn into beasts if we are easily swayed into following our desires.

I'm not saying that the behaviour that I was considering would be particularly beastly if I were to act upon my desires. I was just thinking that I would feel rather low if I were to impose what I wanted on others, and make them do what I wanted when they themselves have their own plans, their own dreams, to chase after. Who am I to make demands to be placed as a priority. I understand everyone has to have their own plans, their own dreams, their own priorities. I'd hate it myself if I were forced to do something which I thought the other party wanted, and I wouldn't want to wish that on anyone I consider significant to me. But... sometimes when there's a struggle, a part of me just wishes I could demand, and it's at the tip of my tongue sometimes. But I can't, and I don't think I will, because the decision to change has to come from within that other party. I don't want to be the one who stands in the way of people's dreams, just because it satisfied what I wanted. I think everyone has a right to their own priorities and dreams, and I will not stand in that way. It's just not a good thing to do.

Haha, am I making sense?

Monday, September 03, 2007

What a Slacker

I've gotta get my life back in order. Been slacking too much. I must find Discipline!!