Thursday, July 29, 2004
hhaa... kidding... i admit, i've hardly done anything to make it more interesting... hehe....
anyway, tt's not wat i wanted to blog in here... well, it was, but tt's not e main point. frankly, now tt i'm here, i'm not sure wat my main point is...
oh well... mebbe jus to say tt i finally found this spurt of motivation to do my revisions... i wonder if this spurt will disappear together with the morrow. well... just came back from econ tuition, and i got to thinking tt if i dun have more organisation in my life anytime soon, my messed up notes and stuff will take on a symbol of my future a level results- messy. yep. u should take a look at my shelves. on the surface, everything looks fine and dandy. take out all the files, and u'll be hit by an avalanche of papers. yes, papers. loose papers, to be exact. hahahhahahahahahahahha.... oh man.... tt sux... i have to get my life back in order.... preferably sometime this year.... SOMEBODY! ANYBODY! HELP!!! haha... kidding...
guess this kinda thing is only up to me...
oh well... haven manaaged to get hold of hilda mak for the past THREE DAYS!! WHY?!?!?!??! she's like so elusive! just like e quote in the poem today "She leaves just as i enter" haha... my CIP hours are not approved yet!! goodness!!!
i realised tt i'm v long-winded, and i dun keep to answering questions to the point (oh FINE... i didn JUST realise... i realised it long ago.... bleah) gotta try to be as concise as possible, and try not to use useless redundant words to crowd my essay. RITE. Let's just see me try tt.... i must try.... otherwise how the heck am i gonna get my A? i'm NOT gonna waste money on tuition just ending up getting a C. NONONONONO. No Sirreeee...
hahaa... its late now, gtg.... feels like i'm on adrenaline... well, let's hope the chicken soup i just drank will help me sleep.... nite....
"If only wishes could be dreams
And all my dreams could come true..."
----------let me get all my As rite now... without studying.....
"Mirror Mirror i wish u could lie to me...."
----------tell me it's sat tml...
"Mirror Mirror lie to me
Show me wat i wanna see....."
----------All As in my result slip.....
Wednesday, July 28, 2004
ok, on to the next day, before u all start thinking i'm some nutcase who hates little children. i dun, u know, just for the record. i like children. i used to like her until she terrorised my sisters and me. yes.
ok, i guess u all have heard of xian liang's death by now. he died the day before. i wanted to blog here yesterday, but after coming back from his wake, i had to go finish off my hw... hee... paiseh... anyway, i still think it's a shock to know tt someone i know- or used to know has passed away. i know i didn really know him very well, but we've like, known each other since pri sch... guess there's some kind of familiarity, no matter how little? it was kinda surreal to go to his wake and look down at his coffin and think, "i knew this guy. he was smart and somewhat of an all-rounder. we were in the same class before. he? gone? " it was also kinda weird looking at his coffin, reading "Mr Goh Xian Liang. Departed: 26/7/04. Age: 18 years old" it all sounded so final. he looked peaceful, and i guess the makeup artist who made him up did a good job, though there was a certain waxiness about him... he looked like one of those wax figures.... it's sad, u know, like, i suddenly realised how fragile life is. i used to think tt with our mind, we could defeat anything. now, i think when one's life comes to an end, nobody can defeat it.
i wonder if mrs sim knows bout this... should i try to contact her? guess i should rite? but based on how fast news travels, i would think she knows bout it now..
hopefully xian liang's at peace now...
Sunday, July 25, 2004
=Þ this gets on my nerves sometimes... no, make tt most of the time. i dun mind lit, or maths, or econ. but i mind tt my whole life just has to revolve around them for the next god knows how many weeks. acty, i know how many weeks it is, i just dun feel like putting it down. all the teachers are telling us to revise. WOW! WAT A REVELATION!!! and how are we supposed to do revision when we are supposed to come to sch everyday, and complete their hw and do the assigned group works?! I KNOW!! WE HAVE LIKE, 48 HOURS EVERYDAY!! WHERE OUT OF THEM, 36 HOURS ARE SPENT STUDYING!!! oh wow, tt's like, fantastic!!! -_-" watever. i guess i'm sounding darn bitchy now... yah yah... can't help it. have to let it out or else tml u all will see a mad yi ling. oh well, kinda hard to believe rite? well, i do try to control my emotions when i'm in sch... *smiles sweetly*
ok, i better go lose myself in antony's world again. frankly, i dun see how he can be seen as a tragic hero. as far as i can see, he deserved wat he got. he was the one who was so mule-headed bout fighting by sea. he chose to listen to Cleopatra in the first place instead of his lieutenants. the only tragic thing i see is tt he botched up his own suicide, only to find out tt Cleopatra had acty bluffed him about her death.
Oh wait! i think i get it... he's tragic coz he did all he did coz of Cleopatra. he loves her. oh well... guess this is wat they mean by love blinds a person to all reason. his love for her led to his downfall. sad ah? well..... guess from this play, there isn such thing as being a middle ground for being both pragmatic and romantic. something has to be given up. for Antony, it was his life and his empire. well... at least he reconciled himself at the end of the play, though it was only at the end of his life tt he did tt.... hmm... i guess i gained something by complaining here..... well.... bye.......
Friday, July 23, 2004
oh yah, EXCITING NEWS!!! haha, i won Borrowed Heaven by The Corrs on wed night! i messaged Power 98, telling the dj, "could i please please please have the cd by The Corrs? i love them but i haven had time to buy their cd coz i've been busy studying". guess wat? the dj called me back!!!!!! haha... only jas heard me though... haha... and i think i sounded so weird on the radio... my voice was so low! but then again, i was doing lit when the dj called, and it was at, like, 11+ and i was SOOOOOOOOO sleepy!! haha, so i guess it's natural tt i sounded sian sian on the phone. nevertheless, i WON!! haha, listening to the cd now... it's great!! got 2 new cds this week... one by FIR, a fantastic one- my sis bought it at bugis village for $7!! haha... the song "Tarot Cards" and the piano version of "Lydia" are fantastic! acty, FIR is a great band... they dun have the usual elements of mandarin pop. it's more unique in the sense tt it doesn conform to the mould mandarin songs usually follow, which is why i rather like them. needless to say, the other cd is by THE CORRS!!! hahah.... wow, i'm starting to build up my collection of original cds... hehe.... but of course, i have to save money lar.... -_-"
anyway, i gtg if i plan to finish my hw anytime this weekend.... need to have time for revision somemore. seriously, i'm considering not going to sch like at least once a week after the whole syllabus has been finished, which is like, now..... but then, i dun exactly relish the thought of spending 3 hours in a polyclinic just for an mc... not really worth it. uh uh *shakes head* just imagine: in a day, we spend like 9 hours in sch. imagine if one day, we didn go to sch. we would prob wake up at 8am, which means there are 8 hours of sch left (assuming tt sch starts at 7..) then we have breakfast, until about maybe 9. then, probably procrastinate about the house, which takes mebbe 1/2hr? then get ready to see the doctor. the trip down prob takes another 1/2hr, which means tt by then we have 6 hours of sch left. we wait for the doctor, which, on a normal weekday, takes mebbe 3 hours? (ok, mebbe if we are lucky, an hour). tt leaves like 3 hours of sch left. ok, the 1/2 hour trip back home, further procrastination, oh yah, forgot lunch! altogether mebbe take up another 1 1/2 hours? ok, tt leaves another 1 1/2 hours to do wateva we took the mc for. now, tell me, is it worth it to forgo 9 hours of lectures and tuts to waste 7 1/2 hours preparing to do the thing as i have demonstrated?
of course, different ppl may have diff ways of doing things, and thus may criticise my breakdown of time. of course u are entitled to ur own breakdown of ur time! after all, ppl have different time managements... haha... but tt's how i perceive mcs... oh well.... looks like my plan to take mcs goes down the drain... now, if i could just convince the lazy part of me to believe tt.........
Thursday, July 22, 2004
anyway, yesterday was the sea carnival. our class took part in the 'Make a Raft' competition. haha, it was fun! we ended up winning best design and third in the race. acty, the third prize was by luck, coz 2 of the rafts had either capsized or come apart before or during the race... hee... well, though we were slow, we were STABLE. no thanx to those who questioned the stability and function of our raft! =p haha... but thanx to all those who helped, which is like so many ppl... anyway, u know who u all are... those who attended e sea carnival to the end to support us... HURUL!! for ur fish burger, XUEFANG!! for ur raffia, JUN!! for helping us clear up after tt, WARDAH!! for also helping us clear up, and of course, THE REST for coming to support us. haha.. first time our class joined something as a class and we did it rite and well...=) oh yah, here's a trivia: the name of our raft was "Antony and Cleopatra's Love Boat", in memory of the poetic verses by Enobarbus... can't remember wat they were, but they were very luxurious and rich and full... haha... =) oh btw, tt was me lying on the fluorescent green float on the raft... hee... it was fun, come to think of it, but it's a pity that i didn have enough guts to take on the persona of Cleopatra... hahaha.... tt would have been a real treat, wouldn it? ;)
Monday, July 19, 2004
there was one BLACK CLOUD in my sky today. i lost the ring i had been given jus 3 days ago! goodness! tt ring was worn by me when i was a baby ( i nvr realised tt), and it was returned to me last sat by my father, who said my grandmother had kept it for me, for fear tt i would put it in my mouth and swallow it. well, i guess the ring is not fated to be with me. today i wore it to sch, and guess wat WONDERFUL thing happened? the ring dropped from the string i put it thru. and u know wat the worst thing was?
- something had told me to take it off before pe. i refused to listen to tt voice
- after pe, i heard ppl asking who had lost a ring. i just checked to make sure the string was there. i didn even bother to pull the string out to check if the ring was still inside.
u know wat? i only found out after i had reached home and found the string lying on the floor. DAMN! i really almost cried. tt ring means so much to me. it's like a part of my past, and i just let it get lost so carelessly! wat the heck is wrong with me!?!?!?!?!
i found out tt a girl from S14 (Williana, from my spe class), had taken it. thanks to grace, xue fang, and lai yee, i was able to track who had taken the ring! thank u all of u! the ring was put in the lost and found counter in the general office. oh man... hopefully i find it still there tml... it has been there for a day... i do hope nobody noticed the ring and took it away... all my hopes are banked on the counter... if it isn there, i really dunno wat i'd do... the ring is v impt to me... dunno y oso, but i kinda feel something when i wear it... a kind of security i guess... dun ask me y... i dunno.... i dun usually wear jewellery to sch, and this was an exception, because of the feeling it gives me when i wear it... and now, look wat happened?! it does seem silly to wear gold to sch rite? esp for pe? i cant explain it myself... maybe u'll have to keep an open mind bout my reasons? its just something i cannot explain... mebbe i was tempting fate... *shrugs*
ARGH!! now i just cant wait for tml when i can go to sch to really find out if it's still there... pray hard for me that i'll find it pls?!?!?!?!?!?!?! i need all the help i can get man....
let's hope tml will be a better day.... i promise not to be so stupid to wear the ring to school... if only i can find it.... will update u tml, just hopefully with good news. rite now, i have to go into battle with mcq for nov 2000. hope i win. today and tml........
Saturday, July 10, 2004
u know how other buffets are, there's only like how many kinds of beverages available, but not this. they have like 5-6 different kinds of drinks, the usual fast food drinks (u know, those in the dispensers in the fast food restaurants?), smoothies or frosties or slurpies (dunno wat u call em, but there were like 3 different flavours), and coffee (in a coffee maker) tea (green tea or english tea). there were so many kinds!!!
ok, on to food. there were so many kinds of japanese food- tempura, sashimi, sushi, and all of them were subdivided into SOOOOOOOOOOOOO many varieties. chi food had dim sum, fried rice, curry, fried noodles, veggie (the boring stuff, except the curry, which was duck and v nice). Dessert was FANTASTIC. so many cakes, and most were chocolate (my best friend!). there was jelly (but texture wasnt tt great), kuehs, bubor chacha. soups were shark's fin (dun like it, coz the thot of sharks being killed puts me off) and mushroom soup... am i making u drool? oh yah, and oysters, mussels and scallops and prawns and lobster and salads... the shellfish could be taken raw or baked... OH MY GOD!!! i'm just feeling sad now coz i didn get to eat all the food!!!!! ARGH!!!!!! everything was nice, though i think the oysters are... hmm... a little lacklustre as compared with the other shellfish. I WANT TO GO THERE AGAIN!!!! hahahaha.. had the best time last nite. we stayed there for 2 and a half hours, just eating and talking. oh yah, i forgot to add that there was teppanyaki!!!! there's an assortment of meat and veggie, then u can choose wat u want, and give to the chefs to fry!!! and one bonus is, IT'S HALAL!!! haha... saw a few muslims there, so i gatehred it is, and come to think of it, there werent any food with pork, so i guess it should be halal... was bz thinking of the food to see whether there was the halal sign... =)
hehe, guess i sound like a pig lah.. haha... but i dun mind going anywhere where there's nice food. as long as the food makes up for the surroundings, anywhere is fine. i once had laksa in penang at this roadside stall, and flies were flying around everywhere- on top of the noodles, ingredients, etc. however, the food made everything worthwhile... haha, and the fact that they soaked everything in boiling water made it a little better. hehe, overall, it was great. i wouldn mind going there again.... =)
if u have any good recommendations on food, pls tell me!!!!!!!!!! haha... guarantee u we will go the next weekend... hahaha... =)wat can i say? *shrugs* my family loves food... haha =)
ok... guess some ppl wanna kill me now, for talking so much bout food... hahah... better stop.. got alot of hw to do... so i guess i better go... byebye!
Monday, July 05, 2004
By : Cyndi Wang Xin Ling
如果有一天 我回到从前
回到最原始的我 你是否会觉得我不错
如果有一天 我离你遥远
不能再和你相约 你是否会发觉我已经说再见
当你的眼睛眯着笑 当你喝可乐当你找
我想对你好 你从来不知道 想你想你 也能成为嗜好
当你说今天的烦恼 当你说夜深你睡不着
我想对你说 却害怕都说错 还喜欢你 知不知道
如果有一天 梦想都实现
回忆都成了永远 你是否还会记得今天
如果有一天 我们都发觉
原来什么都可以 无论是否还会停留在这里
当你的眼睛眯着笑 当你喝可乐当你找
我想对你好 你从来不知道 想你想你 也能成为嗜好
当你说今天的烦恼 当你说夜深你睡不着
我想对你说 却害怕都说错 还喜欢你 知不知道
也许可是让我想得太多 也许该回到没我
梦里和相遇 就毫不犹豫 大声的说我要说
当你的眼睛眯着笑 当你喝可乐当你找
我想对你好 你从来不知道 想你想你 也能成为嗜好
啦 啦 啦
我想对你说 却害怕都说错 还喜欢你 知不知道
啦 啦 啦
Sunday, July 04, 2004
anyway, just read yanfang's blog... she went to watch the Asian vball tournament!!! AAAAHHH! haha... acty i wanted to watch, but i was bz mugging for the common test. haha... wat a life... mebbe i can catch it next yr? or whenever it is... hehe... i found out a few months ago that our sch bookshop auntie's niece is one of the national team players. she's currently in SAJC.. one yr older than us, but she retained (forgot her name. it's at the tip of my tongue). haha... yanfang, yy they all were cursing their luck... hehe... =) well, she's good... and her auntie went to support her the day of the finals. YES, SINGAPORE GOT INTO THE FINALS IN THE ASIAN VB CHAMPIONSHIPS!!! hahaa... they lost to thailand 3-0 though, 15-25, 13-25, 13-25, and got second. wow. couldn believe the newspaper when i read it man... =) anyway, it's rather good news, isn't it? tt singapore got something... one of the players got the best something... forgot wat oso... server i think... hmm... can;t really remember though... ;)
next week is the start of the inter-fac vball tournament, and i wun be able to play on fri!!!!! i gtg ajc for some focus-group session bout pw. oh man... wat is there to say?! anyway, guess i'll go there and listen to wat the other jcs have to say about pw, and mebbe i'll have somethign to add in as well? haha... dun wanna go there and be like a blockhead.. ;)
anyway, enough crapping.. gtg get ready to go out...
CIAO! =)
Saturday, July 03, 2004

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ok... after the paper last thurs, in the evening, i went out with grace, xuefang and jasmine to watch Windstruck- a korean movie which is quite touching acty... hgahaha...the beginning made all of us laugh like anything, but the end... well... the end made us cry... u should wathc the show acty... it's quite lengthy to acty say it here, so i shall not spoil it for u... =) even at the sad moments, there were times when it was just funny as well. a good movie, i would say. but then again, i'm a sucker for romance. =) i would encourage u to watch it though... =)hehe...
after the movie we went to take neoprints, and just when we reached the shop, the shutters were just coming down. grace and xf went to plead with the shopkeepers, telling them we only wanted to take one shot, so they let us in. but that one shot was FUN! hahaha... we were the only customers inside the shop, so we were laughing and talking loudly. well acty, tt was the most fun i've had in taking neoprints... =)
anyway, tt's all the updating, and well, i've had fun slacking the past few days... how does one get used to slacking? hahahaha.... it's been very absent in my life these days, so i guess i better savour it... hehehe...
bye!
=)
Wednesday, June 30, 2004
tomorrow's the last paper, and my energy's flagging... can't drag myself up from the computer to acty go read the notes on gothic, but... oh well... i still have to... i'll prob just burst out of the hall tml screaming bloody murder after the paper.. haha... all hell's broken loose, coz i'm madd!!!!hmm... on hindsight, forget wat i just said... many wouldnt believe i'm capable of doing tt... frankly, neither am i. haha... =)
one thing i know for sure is, NO MORE LAST MIN STUDYING OF LIT FOR ME. EVER AGAIN. oh man... studying for it at the last minute last nite was pure torture, not to mention stressful. can't remember much. take my advice. lit is not for last min. oh man... i can feel premature white hairs grwoing... and premature aging is so not evident in my family line... guess some new gene just developed halfway today tt;s like gonna be some recessive gene tt will turn dominant if and when i marry someone with a premature ageing gene in his DNA. hahah... so bio rite? it just came out of my memory like some long lost.... memory?
hehe... ok, i'm off teaching my sis how to earn points on the myscenedolls.com website hurul intro-ed on her blog... haha... its so bimbotic its fun! hahahahahahahahah
Wednesday, June 23, 2004
just chatted with kenette's gf. she's a NICE girl! wow, kenette realyl has good taste man... character nice, face oso nice... hai... oh btw, he's my cousin.. hahah... feel happy for him.. =) oh well, i htink they are a good match acty, both are great ppl, inside and out, and they have brains to complement each other.... xian mu si wo le!!!!!!
oh well... on the heavier side of things, I HAVE TO GET BACK TO WORK. wat a dampener. been slacking sicne this morning... hahahahahaha.... so my conscience is driving me to do work. but first, lunch. bye!
Tuesday, June 22, 2004
just kinda think there's not much point in studying anymore for the common test, though it would be a lie to say tt i have acty done much. sian. its so sickening lar. cant concentrate, and i'm so dreading the time when i have to go back to sch. *GASP* horror of horrors! it's next week! i guess i shall have to forgo this common test, do the best i can for it and just keep to my long term goal of the prelims and a levels. tts e best i can do at the moment i guess. getting tired. haha... just hope i dun seriously burn out by the end of the year. oh well. i just need to get thru this common test, then i'll contemplate wat i should do until the prelims. it also doesn help tt there are no shows to watch on tv at 7 and 9pm! oh man! its all BORING!!! now i only look forward to tues 8pm's Daddy's Girls (which is like so bimbotic and rather brainless if u ask me, but i watch it coz it doesn need the mind haha) and thurs 1045pm's meteor garden 2. ahahhahahahah. wat a no-life i am.
i seriously can't wait to break out of this cage man. its getting so depressing. haha. but mebbe, once i break out of this cage tt seems to be getting smaller for me, will i find myself in another cage, though this time it's much more spacious, but filled with ppl of even more hidden facades? well.... stay tuned..... ;)
Saturday, June 19, 2004
it's like the last week of june hols and i haven finished my revision yet!! oh man!! have a feeling i'm gonna do badly esp for econ... i just looked at the questions mrs loh compiled for us, and i was just thinking that if prelims and A levels are gonna give tt kind of questions, i am so gonna die.
i'm too tired to think or do work anymore. hmm... a little rain and less sun would do a WHOLE WORLD OF GOOD!!!! coz i hate hot weather. i loooooove rainy days... hot weather just makes me wanna sleep the day away, coz it's too hot to be able to do anything else!!! sian we were so close to a thunderstorm yesterday evening, but in the end, there was only very strong wind. -_-" and yes, my mood is still braindead- if u can see the picture.
i just saw my personal horoscope thing which i stupidly signed up for. i so regret it now, coz there was no insightful analysis to my character, but only some self-recommendations and self praise bout the pshychic person herself. now i'm worried if she'll do anything to me. not going to reply to her forms or send in any testimonials though. y the heck was i so stupid to do tt? argh... anyway, astro.com one is not bad though..... guess i just stereotyped everything together.
not looking forward to going back to start work. hate econs.
Thursday, June 17, 2004
| How to make a Yi Ling |
| Ingredients: 3 parts intelligence 1 part crazyiness 3 parts empathy |
| Method: Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Serve with a slice of sadness and a pinch of salt. Yum! |
Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com
