ok, end of olympics=start of mugging

YAH RITE. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I SAID I HAVE TO STUDY? dun even bother counting. u're just gonna lose count.

first time i stayed up to watch the women's vball finals... it was exciting, but SOOOO irritating and LONG. can u believe the first set was 30-28? i was lying on the sofa, half awake, thinking, "enough alreadY! can't someone jkust win this set?" well, russia won the set. and the next. but china took the next 3 sets. YIPPEEE!!! hahah... china finished 5th 4 yrs ago. they are good, and they really pia their hearts out... oh btw, the match was at 1... and tt one set took about an hour... ended up giving up watching it halfway and gg off to slp at 3 soemthing. the game was only into its third set. -_-" i was there drifting in and out of sleep. hahaha... dunno hwo my sis can find the energy to finish watching the game... even the men's one the next day, which was at 12.... goodness.... i guess coz its brazil playing... she loves brazil, says they play like kampong kias... hahaha... sorta liek the way they play soccer... born naturals... =)

watching the olympics makes me wish i was born with some spectacular sports talent.... like superhuman stamina or somehting.... but then, there's a downside to this, coz sports is a cruel side of life. yep, winning is cool, but losing... well, its damn painful. i watched the handball finals on sunday, denmark vs korea. well, i dun really understand handball, but i can sure understand the feelings of the players... the game was tied at 34-34, and to solve the prob, there was the penalty shootout. korea lost when the danish goalkeeper managed to save 2 goals. i nvr expected such a rush of emotion as i watched the players explode at the end of the game. the koreans were huddled together crying, while the danish were piled on top of one another in a group hug (kinda weird if u ask me...) and were kissing each other. they were doing funny things, like rolling around on the floor... hmm... but well, there rose in me rather conflicting emotions: overwhelming happiness for the winners, a sense of pain and loss for the losers. its like, they've come so far, played so hard, and they lost. its sorta like bringing up a person to the heavens then bringing them crashing down to earth just when they believed they could reach their destinations.

well, tts a side of sports i guess, showing the realities of life, like giving us an awareness that life is not always smooth-sailing. even a world no1 like lin dan could lose to susilo. but still, though tts the truth bout sports, and it still attracts ppl, its still painful and cruel. so wat if a team had trained hard? everything falls apart when the team is off-form, or when luck is not on their side. at tt time, who cares how much effort they had put in before?

haha... sounds rather negative eh? well.... *shrugs* this entry might spark off some aruments i guess, but it'll do my chatterbox some good to have some lively arguments there... haha... guess my argument is pretty one-sided... i'd love to hear the other side of this argument, if anyone has it.... haha... it might come out for gp u know, like mebbe ' "entertaining but absolutely of zero content". discuss this view of sports. ' hahah... then we can pull out this argumen.... hahaha.... all thanks to me!!!

haha... i tend to get carried away... dun mind me.... well, it just occurred to me this has been the longest entry since.... dunno when... hahaha.... k, my eyes are drifting shut. gtg. CIAO! hahah...

i need to get my life back and find my balance once again... hehe, feel like i'm like "a man sliding into dark waters seeks to find a momentary footing on the slippery stones", just struggling to find my balance before i fall. tt balance has been lost since the common test. guess i was getting too complacent...

oh well, i think i have to remain a recluse in order to find my balance again. school is taking up too much time... haha... bet commando was plotting to make me come to school everyday.... plan the timetable until there is no day i can skip. haha...

i just realised tt i get emotionally claustrophobic. my heart gets all itchy and i turn hot, then cold, and irritable. i lost concentration in everything i do, and i guess tt's how i lost my balance. never knew tt bout myself until recently. hmm... must be the exams.... argh...

ok, i gtg get ready to go back to sch.... got so many qns to ask mrs neo.... hai...... where is my A????

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW SHITES!!!!! li jiawei lost!!! *sob sob* it was such a painful match to watch!

when i turned on the tv, the score was 3-3, and both sides had drawn, with 3games to 3 games. the seventh game was the rubber set, meant to decide who would advance to the next round.... it was like, 3-3, then 4-3, then 4-4... all the way to 9-8 in favour of jiawei, then kim hyang mi caught up. -_-" it was SOOO sad to watch i tell u... even as a tv spectator dunno how many thousand miles away from athens, i was rather overcome by emotion, and could acty feel the tension li jiawei mus have been feeling at that time... i bet its hell to be brought up so high, and led to believe she was capable of doing so much, then suddenly losing it by such a small margin. tt's y its so painful... i imagines it being me, and i almost cried... hee... call me a sentimental emotional fool, but.... well, there u are.... =)

anyway, li jiawei did put up a good fight. she tried her best... guess we just have to wait for the next olympics, where mebbe s'pore will have better luck... this is just like 4 yrs ago, when most of s'pore tuned in to watch jing junhong play in the semis... we still lost, but by a larger margin. this time, we were so near, yet so far.... *sighs heavily*

nvm, we still have robotics competitions and math olympiads to look forward to for our gold medals...... =)

hey.... just heard yesterday morning tt li jiawei won the quarter-finals and is on her way to the semis, playing against tt korean girl zhang xueling lost to... hehe... to be honest, i nvr really believed she would beat wang nan- after all, wang nan had beaten jing junhong 4 yrs ago in the semis, and jing is a more experienced player... *shrugs* oh well, its great news after all! =) it was an upset all rite... 4-1... oh man.... cool! =)

haha... hopefully Singapore will earn a place on the medal tally board... even a bronze is good... =)

CRAP. got a bleedin' headache now, which is SOOOO at the wrong time, just when i need my brainpower to do the Silas Marner essay. its fun acty, but NOT fun when i have to do it with a headache and a non-working paracetamol. argh.... the damn thing is pounding away merrily now, while i figure out how to phrase my sentences to form a coherent argument so as to pose a challenge for the rip-the-essay event tml... haha.... well... let's just hope the essay is relevant, and the arguments made are strong and not too unfocused, as is always my problem in essays. so far, i have managed to reach the second page, but i'm not halfway through. the min requirement for an essay? 4 sides. GREAT.

so wat the hell am i doing here, u might ask? haha, i have no idea myself, perhaps to take a li'l break? hehe, i have like until 12 midnight to complete this essay... cos at 12, cuba is gonna play against china in the vball event... haha, this should be an interesting match... =) if the headache persists, mebbe it wuld be time to take stronger action... hai... ponstan.... though i have to wait 3 hours for the thing to take the capsule, coz i just took paracetamol... haha.... perhaps i should try to find something enjoyable bout the pain? sort of like, if i can't beat the pain, i gotta join them kinda thing? hahah... sounds sadistic? well.. i've found it works sometimes... hahaha... just like eating chilli, i found tt a way to not let the chilli get to u is to just sit still, and just concentrate on the sensation of the chilli on ur lips and tongue. haha... must concentrate fully, otherwise it gets a mite unbearable... hehe... when u really concentrate, the feeling becomes kinda interesting... ahaha..... somewhat better than drinking water i feel... water makes it worse somehow... =)

so sad bout susilo's match rite? the last 2 matches brought him to the heavens, then this brought him crashing back down to earth. the last set was a real disappointment. he nvr seemed to be able to hold on to his service... hai.... feel badminton is a cruel game. tough on the body and the mind... like beach vb acty... hmm..... he was so close to the semis, but now.....

oh well... though singapore has had no gold medals in sports, at least we have plenty of gold medals in the areas of robotics and maths olympiads... haha.... guess we know where our comparative advantage lies now, eh? =)

CRAP. got a bleedin' headache now, which is SOOOO at the wrong time, just when i need my brainpower to do the Silas Marner essay. its fun acty, but NOT fun when i have to do it with a headache and a non-working paracetamol. argh.... the damn thing is pounding away merrily now, while i figure out how to phrase my sentences to form a coherent argument so as to pose a challenge for the rip-the-essay event tml... haha.... well... let's just hope the essay is relevant, and the arguments made are strong and not too unfocused, as is always my problem in essays. so far, i have managed to reach the second page, but i'm not halfway through. the min requirement for an essay? 4 sides. GREAT.

so wat the hell am i doing here, u might ask? haha, i have no idea myself, perhaps to take a li'l break? hehe, i have like until 12 midnight to complete this essay... cos at 12, cuba is gonna play against china in the vball event... haha, this should be an interesting match... =) if the headache persists, mebbe it wuld be time to take stronger action... hai... ponstan.... though i have to wait 3 hours for the thing to take the capsule, coz i just took paracetamol... haha.... perhaps i should try to find something enjoyable bout the pain? sort of like, if i can't beat the pain, i gotta join them kinda thing? hahah... sounds sadistic? well.. i've found it works sometimes... hahaha... just like eating chilli, i found tt a way to not let the chilli get to u is to just sit still, and just concentrate on the sensation of the chilli on ur lips and tongue. haha... must concentrate fully, otherwise it gets a mite unbearable... hehe... when u really concentrate, the feeling becomes kinda interesting... ahaha..... somewhat better than drinking water i feel... water makes it worse somehow... =)

so sad bout susilo's match rite? the last 2 matches brought him to the heavens, then this brought him crashing back down to earth. the last set was a real disappointment. he nvr seemed to be able to hold on to his service... hai.... feel badminton is a cruel game. tough on the body and the mind... like beach vb acty... hmm..... he was so close to the semis, but now.....

oh well... though singapore has had no gold medals in sports, at least we have plenty of gold medals in the areas of robotics and maths olympiads... haha.... guess we know where our comparative advantage lies now, eh? =)

haha.... we got a new puppy!!!! he's a miniature shnauzer, 7 weeks old... he's salt and pepper, though mostly black than grey... and he's sooooo adorable!!!! he's the total opposite of peke though, who was mostly barkative. this new puppy is so quiet!!!

err... we haven found a name for him yet.. haha... we called him Thumper at first, but now papa and mummy say tt name sounds better on a bigger dog, so... *shrugs* we are now considering calling him shnauzee.... hahaha... cute rite?
hehe, i haven managed to take photo of him yet.. will try to soon.... =)

"Where Is The Love"

If ever a boy stood on the moon
All the heavens would call them angels 'round
Stop the tears from troubled sky's....from
Falling...falling...falling.

If ever the river could whisper your name,
Would the choices you made still be the same?
Like a flower that dies from angry rain,
Why do we hurt ourselves?

Where is the love that lets the sunlight in to start again?
The love that sees no color lines?
Life begins with love,
So spread your wings & fly,
Guide your spirit safe & sheltered,
A thousand dreams that we can still believe.

If ever a boy stood on the moon,
Carrying all of his treasures from the stars
To a rainbow which leads to where we are.
Together we'd chase the sun.

Where is the love that lifts my brother's voice to the skies?
The love that answers a mother's cry?
Life begins with love,
So spread your wings & fly,
Guide your spirit safe & sheltered.
A thousand dreams that we can still believe.

A boy stood on the moon
The ancient souls can still discover
A thousand dreams that we can still believe
That we can still believe
We can still believe
We can still believe

-------- Celine Dion

it's a beautiful song... jsut realised i had this song in one of her albums... just fell in love with the song... haha... then again, all of celine dion's songs are nice *shrugs* her voice is GREAT.... i wonder if they still sell her greatest hits album, though there should be more songs added to her list by now since she came into the music world again.... =) go dl it or something!!!

anyone know where i can get the html codes for this song?

just tried to upload my photos into the computer... unfortunately, i cannot... dunno wat's wrong with the software... argh.... i would like to ask kenny kor kor, but well... dun think he's in the mood to do so anyway... hai... =(

feeling so.... so... *yawns* sleeeeeeepyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.... i did sleep just now, but well... eyes are still tired.. wonder y... hai...

ok, nth else to say, just tt the weekend is here!!! and i bought 8 days! so i have the olympics schedule!!! yay!! but then, the games i wanna watch are all either in the wee hours in the morning, or when i'm in sch... -_-" i wish i could stay at home on wed to watch the cuba vs russia volleyball match, but cannot!!! tt would mean an MC!!! but then again, i haven taken any mc this term... mebbe its time i took one... *wiggles eyebrows* hahaha... just a thot... but not likely tt i'd do it... MAN!!! cuba vs russia!! how exciting is tt?!?!?! *Moans* i wan to watchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... .
hahah... better stop acting childish... ok, gg to tok to my sisters... haha.. bye!! =)

went to school in a daze today... seriously, my brain was barely functioning at all. it was as if the thing was just stuffed full of cotton wool and air... hehe... sounds like i'm exaggerating? believe me, i'm not. been feeling like tt often... esp this yr, particularly for lit... it's like, i feel i have no more to give to lit anymore. zilch [u hear tt squashing sound when u say "zilch"? cool eh? =)]. i just feel drained of any sensible emotion anymore. hehe... yep, its true... melodramatic? perhaps. but i just cant seem to find the emotion nor the words to express wat i feel for the texts anymore. i think i just need rest, though tt sounds rather moronic, since we all just came back from 4 days of national day. hahaha.... big joke, i did not do any work... hehe... was bz playing and tokking to laura (oh, i had a great time btw, so Laura, DUN U DARE TO SAY SORRY. YOU WILL NOT BE FORGIVEN) and tricking alvin and alan... hee.... =) ironic ain't it? tt i didn do anything productive, and yet feel drained? sickening if u ask me...

i wanna pon school!!!!! i need time at home to study!!!! seriously, i'm desperate for ponning sch, just tt the thot tt i'm gonna have to go get mc and wait so long and then next day borrow notes from another poor soul who oso needs it for her work, and then bring home to copy....... it's so tedious, i might as well drag up my lazy and getting fatter body out of my nice, comfy warm bed and begin the preparation for sch. on lucky days, i get to board 21 and wun have to walk so much. on unlucky days... well.... have to take 18... argh... i dun like to walk... ehehe.... then again, i'm lazy... =p

anyway, on to more lighthearted things.... did u know tt the lemon tree guy was from dhs?!!??!? i didn know either... hehe, until i read XY's blog.. will have to find out his name soon though... hehe... =)

oh yah, more lighthearted stuff!! FRIDAY is COMING!!!!! hahaha.... FINALLY...

oh well... its getting late... let's hope tml wun be such a dazy day for me.... i'm crossing my fingers.... pray hard for me k? =)

haha.... yesterday was a greeeat day! it started out fine... then we went to hougang sports hall to watch the match tt mel told me was made up of 'Iron Ladies'. unfortunately, we went too late. we weren't even in time to watch the players shake hands *shakes head*. haha... anyway, we were in time to watch the Police Academy vs the Singapore Combined Schools. the Police Academy guys were good! the Combined Schools.... well..... they didn really live up to our expectations... after all, they are supposed to be the best from their schools, and probably the future national team players... hmm... but there was an age difference between the two teams though... and fitness i guess. hehe... =) i guess the oldest in the COmbined Schools was our age? the POlice Academy, however, have been released from NS (hmm.. am i rite?). isnt the age difference a factor in this? the match got better as the players got in to the second and third sets. i think the combined schools team sent in their second six for the first set... they were thrashed k.... 25-5... the other 2 sets were better, though they lost as well... 25-25, 25-21 i think... i must say though, the combined schools did their best... =) it was an exciting match altogether... =)

after that was FUN!!!!! we all (Laura, evon, yi lun and me) went to meet alvin at marina bay to buy present for bernice jiejie... her 21st bday is coming, and her bf wanted to do something sweet for her by contacting laura and asking her to collect the presents from the other cousins, which he would mail to her in NZ... Awwwwwwww.... haha.. .we decided to get her a kite, thanx to TC's idea of a kite representing freedom, and we ended up spending $25... for a kite!! hahaha.. we nvr expected a kite to cost tt much! too bad alan was having the flu, otherwise all the cousins (well, almost all) would have had a great time together! the kite we bought came with a packet of 10 mini-kites, which we tried to fly altogether in the field... hahaha... in the end, we ended up flying only two, on separate strings, coz we werent able to make them fly... -_-" it was fun though, everyone running like mad just trying to get the kites to get up. goodness! we couldn even match up to a little boy flying a kite! argh... hahaha... guess our kites were just too small... nevertheless, we all had the time of our lives!!!!

we wanted to take a photo altogether, but unfortunately there was no one we could ask. since alvin had already taken a photo with alan, he took a pic for the 4 of us... hahaha... we went mad though in one of the photos, posing like mao zedong. hehe... will try to post it up... if i can... =) we should take a whole group photo!!!

i seriously can't wait for Nov to come... yah yah... i know... there's the dreaded A levels, but then, ALL the cousins are coming! well... mebbe not all, coz penny, linda and george are not coming, but well, the rest are!!! we MUST take photos together!!!! Nan2 de2 yi1 ci4 we get to get together... come to think of it, we have NEVER got together like tt... i have only just talked to kenette last year, can u believe it, when i've known bout his existence for all my life... *shakes head* we only got reacquainted last yr. pathetic aint it? blame it on the geographicval distance... can't wait to see lynette jie jie!!!!! hahaha... she's a v fun person to be around!! mad mad one... hehe... wish kenette could bring his gf though.. i wanna see her!!!

can u imagine the fun we'll have?!?!?!?!? hopefully they'll stay until after my As, then we can all go tour Singapore together... then after tt we go back malaysia together... hehe... book the budget airlines and all of us get in.. it'll be like our private airline!!! hahahahahahah.... COOL!!! now, if only As didn end so late...........

anyway, if i wanna enjoy myself freely when they come, i better go continue my work. otherwise, there will be a dampener on my mood when i go out with them and keep thinking of how i did for my paper or if i've finished my revision....

ah xiang korkor's wedding is on 20th nov mah..... right smack in the middle of my exams.... hopefully by then i'll be surer of my work to be able to go out like once or twice with my cousins and attend the wedding!! let's hope all the cousins can sit together, without my niece trying to squeeze in.... *shudders*

haha... seen the new additions on my blog?!?!?!? hehe... just learnt them today... thanx go to LAURA, my LOVERLY COUSIN!!! haha.. she's staying over for the hols, and she knows so much bout html!! hahaa..... amazing, eh? hee, tt's y i'm so happy now. got new music, new animation, new polls, new hugs.... haha...

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haha... .cool eh? hehehee..... yep, pls pls pls pls take part in these!! hahaha... gimme face lar.... hahahahahhahaahahah....

ok i'm tokking crap. haha, but i'm so pleased.... i'm laughing like a loon now for goodness' sake!!! arghh.... i better stop... pls give me feedback on wateva is on my blog... haha... thanx!

GREAT. just when i have no time to change my blogskin or even look for a new one, the bandwidth just has to expire. i thot i had saved the image onto my comp... apparently, i hadn. could someone pls tell me the correct way to do it PLS?!?!??!??!? i cant go on like tt!!!!!

ah well... been having experiencing conflicting emotions these days... (Alvin, will tell u bout it... as soon as i go online... which is like when?!?!?!?) and its getting on my nerves, and i cant concentrate! argh. which reminds me. tml is the econ essay test, and wonderful me has not studied it yet. GREAT. i dun even know if the labour market is coming out, coz if it is, i am so gonna die. i can just surrender down there lor... not tt i dun understand wat's gg on.. if i read it of course i'll know (crosses fingers) but thing is, i dunno how to apply! WONDERFUL, aint it? -_-"

ok, i better stop complaining in this blog... seems like my life appears real unhappy on the blog these days, and lest u all think i'm some complain queen... welll..... hmm... i dunno wat to say.. hahaha... =)

just read the forum page in today's newspaper. frankly, it shocked me. Do parents mean to say tt only now do they realise their children are being robbed of their childhood?!?!?!?! tsk tsk.... how slow they are... dun tell me they nvr knew their children were not allowed to play wildly during recess, before and after sch?!?! and had to do silent reading (not tt i minded tt v much.. i quite enjoyed silent reading, by the way ^_^) oh man..... and yes, for parents' info, the children are growing up much too fast for their own good. i mean, a LIFE SCIENCES CLUB in pri sch where students learn to EXTRACT DNA?!?!?! in my time, we didn even know wat the hell DNA was. if u had told me there was such a thing as RNA, i would have been reminded of Ribena. yes, i am speaking seriously. sounds dumb, i know... but at least i knew tt i led a more normal childhood than children now. at least i got to go downstairs and play all sorts of games with my neighbours and learnt how to ride a bike or something... haha.. at least tt let me learn something more bout the world.

frankly, i think if children are allowed to play more, they discover more bout the world. there is joy in learning, and i feel schools would do well to remember tt. i remember my mother used to bring us down for walks and while talking to us, she would tell us stuff, like wat mimosas were, their special characteristics, wat the names of other plants and flowers were.... u know, those just made us more eager to learn more? yah yah... i'm in arts now, but so wat? at least i enjoyed learning wateva it was tt i learnt... didn regret it btw... =) ah well... those were the good old days.

u know, if i could get my way, i'd let children learn chinese in a more fun way. i'd let them watch chinese shows- NO, not those Chinese shows by MOE (they're BORING!!!), by MEdiaCorp or MediaWorks. then, we'd discuss them and learn words. and then, we'd oso watch CHINESE MOVIES. hmm... mebbe meteor garden all those as well... hahaha.... u'd be surprised at how much pri sch children know bout these shows man... by niece and nephew are proof of tt... in this, at least there's incentive in learning chinese! at least it's better than gg to class and learning (translate this to chi on ur own... i cant type it here) "My sister has a red bag. My brother has a blue bag. My parents go to work everyday" u know, all those kind of things? well, who the heck cares wat colour bags ur bro and sis carry?!?!?!?! i carry ablack one and u dun see me gg around telling everyone, do u? and i dun have a bro, thank u v much. oh well... i'm just being lame here...

haha/.... tell me ur views! liven up my chatterbox! ARGUE!!!!!!

ok, this is anticlimatic, but i have to do article review and revise econ now.

OK! admit it! my chatterbox is boring! tt's y nobody toks in it!!!!!

hhaa... kidding... i admit, i've hardly done anything to make it more interesting... hehe....

anyway, tt's not wat i wanted to blog in here... well, it was, but tt's not e main point. frankly, now tt i'm here, i'm not sure wat my main point is...

oh well... mebbe jus to say tt i finally found this spurt of motivation to do my revisions... i wonder if this spurt will disappear together with the morrow. well... just came back from econ tuition, and i got to thinking tt if i dun have more organisation in my life anytime soon, my messed up notes and stuff will take on a symbol of my future a level results- messy. yep. u should take a look at my shelves. on the surface, everything looks fine and dandy. take out all the files, and u'll be hit by an avalanche of papers. yes, papers. loose papers, to be exact. hahahhahahahahahahahha.... oh man.... tt sux... i have to get my life back in order.... preferably sometime this year.... SOMEBODY! ANYBODY! HELP!!! haha... kidding...
guess this kinda thing is only up to me...

oh well... haven manaaged to get hold of hilda mak for the past THREE DAYS!! WHY?!?!?!??! she's like so elusive! just like e quote in the poem today "She leaves just as i enter" haha... my CIP hours are not approved yet!! goodness!!!

i realised tt i'm v long-winded, and i dun keep to answering questions to the point (oh FINE... i didn JUST realise... i realised it long ago.... bleah) gotta try to be as concise as possible, and try not to use useless redundant words to crowd my essay. RITE. Let's just see me try tt....  i must try.... otherwise how the heck am i gonna get my A? i'm NOT gonna waste money on tuition just ending up getting a C. NONONONONO. No Sirreeee...

hahaa... its late now, gtg.... feels like i'm on adrenaline... well, let's hope the chicken soup i just drank will help me sleep.... nite....

"If only wishes could be dreams
And all my dreams could come true..."
----------let me get all my As rite now... without studying.....
 
"Mirror Mirror i wish u could lie to me...."
----------tell me it's sat tml...
 
"Mirror Mirror lie to me
Show me wat i wanna see....."
----------All As in my result slip.....

oh yah, and how come the chatterbox hasn been active for so long? am i tt boring? hahahahahhahahahahahhahahahaha

it's been a rather event early week, with mon first starting off with dinner out with my relatives, and me entertaining or babysitting my niece.... shant tell u i think she's a brat... oops! i just did ;) anyway, alvin, alan, laura, u all get my drift...  i shant oso tell u how hard it was just to have a normal conversation without her interrupting every few min trying to get my attention with some anecdote she thinks will brighten up my oh-so-dull life, such as, "AOR!!! Sun Ho is my teacher! really!" -_-" OH WOW! REEEEALLLY?! and here dumb old me was thinking she was a singer! *slaps head* ... anyway... i think i better shut up bout her.... though its like, i can't help it i tell u, she's so domineering and so attention seeking, and she's a liar.... do u know, she took my hp and REFUSED to return it to me!? she made phonecalls using my phone, and when questioned, she lied about it and DARED to laugh at me for accusing her!!!

ok, on to the next day, before u all start thinking i'm some nutcase who hates little children. i dun, u know, just for the record. i like children. i used to like her until she terrorised my sisters and me. yes.

ok, i guess u all have heard of xian liang's death by now. he died the day before. i wanted to blog here yesterday, but after coming back from his wake, i had to go finish off my hw... hee... paiseh... anyway, i still think it's a shock to know tt someone i know- or used to know has passed away. i know i didn really know him very well, but we've like, known each other since pri sch... guess there's some kind of familiarity, no matter how little? it was kinda surreal to go to his wake and look down at his coffin and think, "i knew this guy. he was smart and somewhat of an all-rounder. we were in the same class before. he? gone? " it was also kinda weird looking at his coffin, reading "Mr Goh Xian Liang. Departed: 26/7/04. Age: 18 years old" it all sounded so final. he looked peaceful, and i guess the makeup artist who made him up did a good job, though there was a certain waxiness about him... he looked like one of those wax figures.... it's sad, u know, like, i suddenly realised how fragile life is. i used to think tt with our mind, we could defeat anything. now, i think when one's life comes to an end, nobody can defeat it.

i wonder if mrs sim knows bout this... should i try to contact her? guess i should rite? but based on how fast news travels, i would think she knows bout it now..

hopefully xian liang's at peace now...

 

WATEVER. i dun want to care how important treachery is central in the theme within A&C. I dun want to care how labour market works in the factor market. Neither do i want to care about the probability of the number of red balls that can be taken out of a bag with blue, green and yellow balls... hell... there arent even ANY red balls... WATEVER. however, if i want to be a successful product in this graduate factory called Singapore, i HAVE to care. if i want to survive in this dog eat dog world, i HAVE to care. i have to care wat the angle of elevation is between where i'm standing and the Pan Pacific Hotel. WOW!!! *claps hands sarcastically* honestly, do u think i even have to know tt?!

=Þ this gets on my nerves sometimes... no, make tt most of the time. i dun mind lit, or maths, or econ. but i mind tt my whole life just has to revolve around them for the next god knows how many weeks. acty, i know how many weeks it is, i just dun feel like putting it down. all the teachers are telling us to revise. WOW! WAT A REVELATION!!! and how are we supposed to do revision when we are supposed to come to sch everyday, and complete their hw and do the assigned group works?! I KNOW!! WE HAVE LIKE, 48 HOURS EVERYDAY!! WHERE OUT OF THEM, 36 HOURS ARE SPENT STUDYING!!! oh wow, tt's like, fantastic!!! -_-" watever. i guess i'm sounding darn bitchy now... yah yah... can't help it. have to let it out or else tml u all will see a mad yi ling. oh well, kinda hard to believe rite? well, i do try to control my emotions when i'm in sch... *smiles sweetly*
 
ok, i better go lose myself in antony's world again. frankly, i dun see how he can be seen as a tragic hero. as far as i can see, he deserved wat he got. he was the one who was so mule-headed bout fighting by sea. he chose to listen to Cleopatra in the first place instead of his lieutenants. the only tragic thing i see is tt he botched up his own suicide, only to find out tt Cleopatra had acty bluffed him about her death.
 
Oh wait! i think i get it... he's tragic coz he did all he did coz of Cleopatra. he loves her. oh well... guess this is wat they mean by love blinds a person to all reason. his love for her led to his downfall. sad ah? well..... guess from this play, there isn such thing as being a middle ground for being both pragmatic and romantic. something has to be given up. for Antony, it was his life and his empire. well... at least he reconciled himself at the end of the play, though it was only at the end of his life tt he did tt.... hmm... i guess i gained something by complaining here..... well.... bye....... 

OK... today is the end of the week. FINALLY!!! haha... we had the inter- fac volleyball finals today, and guess what? we got second! haha... at first we didn really have much confidence in winning candice's team in the semis, but we did it! hee.. they put up a good fight, u know.... =) then after tt, we met science B in the finals... man, they are good, and i must say, we nvr expected to win them. we lost to  them 2-1 by the way, hehe... we gave them a run for their money man!!! =) we beat them 15-4 in the first set, then they won us 15-11 (i think) 15-13... come to think of it, it was a close fight, eh? hehe... oh well... second is not bad oso lar, and the finals was the best game we have had for the whole of the inter-fac vball tournament... there was real teamwork... =)

oh yah, EXCITING NEWS!!! haha, i won Borrowed Heaven by The Corrs on wed night! i messaged Power 98, telling the dj, "could i please please please have the cd by The Corrs? i love them but i haven had time to buy their cd coz i've been busy studying". guess wat? the dj called me back!!!!!! haha... only jas heard me though... haha... and i think i sounded so weird on the radio... my voice was so low! but then again, i was doing lit when the dj called, and it was at, like, 11+ and i was SOOOOOOOOO sleepy!! haha, so i guess it's natural tt i sounded sian sian on the phone. nevertheless,  i WON!! haha, listening to the cd now... it's great!! got 2 new cds this week... one by FIR, a fantastic one- my sis bought it at bugis village for $7!! haha... the song "Tarot Cards" and the piano version of "Lydia" are fantastic! acty, FIR is a great band... they dun have the usual elements of mandarin pop. it's more unique in the sense tt it doesn conform to the mould mandarin songs usually follow, which is why i rather like them. needless to say, the other cd is by THE CORRS!!! hahah.... wow, i'm starting to build up my collection of original cds... hehe.... but of course, i have to save money lar.... -_-"

anyway, i gtg if i plan to finish my hw anytime this weekend.... need to have time for revision somemore. seriously, i'm considering not going to sch like at least once a week after the whole syllabus has been finished, which is like, now..... but then, i dun exactly relish the thought of spending 3 hours in a polyclinic just for an mc... not really worth it. uh uh *shakes head* just imagine: in a day, we spend like 9 hours in sch. imagine if one day, we didn go to sch. we would prob wake up at 8am, which means there are 8 hours of sch left (assuming tt sch starts at 7..) then we have breakfast, until about maybe 9. then, probably procrastinate about the house, which takes mebbe  1/2hr? then get ready to see the doctor. the trip down prob takes another 1/2hr, which means tt by then we have 6 hours of sch left. we wait for the doctor, which, on a normal weekday, takes mebbe 3 hours? (ok, mebbe if we are lucky, an hour). tt leaves like 3 hours of sch left. ok, the 1/2 hour trip back home, further procrastination, oh yah, forgot lunch! altogether mebbe take up another 1 1/2 hours? ok, tt leaves another 1 1/2 hours to do wateva we took the mc for. now, tell me, is it worth it to forgo 9 hours of lectures and tuts to waste 7 1/2 hours preparing to do the thing as i have demonstrated?

of course, different ppl may have diff ways of doing things, and thus may criticise my breakdown of time. of course u are entitled to ur own breakdown of ur time! after all, ppl have different time managements... haha... but tt's how i perceive mcs... oh well.... looks like my plan to take mcs goes down the drain... now, if i could just convince the lazy part of me to believe tt.........

ah ha! i found my ring!! luckily williana left it with the clerk... i almost had a heart attack when i went to the lost and found section and saw the mess there. how the heck would i be able to find it?! anyway, i went thru the things, but surprise surprise! it wasn inside.. i was losing hope already, until tabbi reminded me tt major tham keeps the lost items that are valuable. so i asked him, but it wasnt with him. tt left only one more clerk. i was hoping and praying tt she had it with her. IT WAS!!! YAY!!! haha...

anyway, yesterday was the sea carnival. our class took part in the 'Make a Raft' competition. haha, it was fun! we ended up winning best design and third in the race. acty, the third prize was by luck, coz 2 of the rafts had either capsized or come apart before or during the race... hee... well, though we were slow, we were STABLE. no thanx to those who questioned the stability and function of our raft! =p haha... but thanx to all those who helped, which is like so many ppl... anyway, u know who u all are... those who attended e sea carnival to the end to support us... HURUL!! for ur fish burger, XUEFANG!! for ur raffia, JUN!! for helping us clear up after tt, WARDAH!! for also helping us clear up, and of course, THE REST for coming to support us. haha.. first time our class joined something as a class and we did it rite and well...=) oh yah, here's a trivia: the name of our raft was "Antony and Cleopatra's Love Boat", in memory of the poetic verses by Enobarbus... can't remember wat they were, but they were very luxurious and rich and full... haha... =) oh btw, tt was me lying on the fluorescent green float on the raft... hee... it was fun, come to think of it, but it's a pity that i didn have enough guts to take on the persona of Cleopatra... hahaha.... tt would have been a real treat, wouldn it? ;)

hello!!! haha... been away for a record of almost 10 days... oh well... been bz catching up with hw... and when i came back here, i realised blogger had acty made so many changes! now its more convenient and more fun to type in my entries! yay! i love technology. SOMETIMES.
 
there was one BLACK CLOUD in my sky today. i lost the ring i had been given jus 3 days ago! goodness! tt ring was worn by me when i was a baby ( i nvr realised tt), and it was returned to me last sat by my father, who said my grandmother had kept it for me, for fear tt i would put it in my mouth and swallow it. well, i guess the ring is not fated to be with me. today i wore it to sch, and guess wat WONDERFUL thing happened? the ring dropped from the string i put it thru. and u know wat the worst thing was?
 

1. something had told me to take it off before pe. i refused to listen to tt voice
2. after pe, i heard ppl asking who had lost a ring. i just checked to make sure the string was there. i didn even bother to pull the string out to check if the ring was still inside.

u know wat? i only found out after i had reached home and found the string lying on the floor. DAMN! i really almost cried. tt ring means so much to me. it's like a part of my past, and i just let it get lost so carelessly! wat the heck is wrong with me!?!?!?!?!

i found out tt a girl from S14 (Williana, from my spe class), had taken it. thanks to grace, xue fang, and lai yee, i was able to track who had taken the ring! thank u all of u! the ring was put in the lost and found counter in the general office. oh man... hopefully i find it still there tml... it has been there for a day... i do hope nobody noticed the ring and took it away... all my hopes are banked on the counter... if it isn there, i really dunno wat i'd do... the ring is v impt to me... dunno y oso, but i kinda feel something when i wear it... a kind of security i guess... dun ask me y... i dunno.... i dun usually wear jewellery to sch, and this was an exception, because of the feeling it gives me when i wear it... and now, look wat happened?! it does seem silly to wear gold to sch rite? esp for pe? i cant explain it myself... maybe u'll have to keep an open mind bout my reasons? its just something i cannot explain... mebbe i was tempting fate... *shrugs* 

ARGH!! now i just cant wait for tml when i can go to sch to really find out if it's still there... pray hard for me that i'll find it pls?!?!?!?!?!?!?! i need all the help i can get man....

let's hope tml will be a better day.... i promise not to be so stupid to wear the ring to school... if only i can find it.... will update u tml, just hopefully with good news. rite now, i have to go into battle with mcq for nov 2000. hope i win. today and tml........