Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!
It has been quite a fun day today, quite full of activities acty. haha, in the morning, we watched Mars (well i bought the vcd with my first paycheck, and i dun think i feel guilty bout it... hee... ;) ), and i think zai zai is soooooo good-looking. hahaha =) do i sound like an airhead? heh, guess i do, but oh well... he IS! =p anyway, after that we went to have lunch, then came back and baked apple crumble. i baked it! haha, quite proud of myself acty, coz its the first time i acty get to bake something by myself from scratch, and it tastes good!!!!
i just got home from my neighbour's christmas party acty, and... well, let's just say that it was uneventful. we didn know anyone there, coz the guests are my neighbour's friends and relatives, and they seemed to know one another. it was only us who didn know anyone other than the hosts. nonetheless, my parents did a rather good job at socialising, which is more than wat i can say for myself... hee... i'm rather embarrassed to say tt i was too shy to approach anyone to tok. however, it wasn like there was any encouragement from the other parties as well, coz they did do their part in looking aloof and above it all... the children i mean. when i said "hi" to a pair of sisters, they looked at me like i had grown two heads. i mean, i was trying to be nice! hmm... oh well, mebbe coz we are still strangers to them, which explains their behaviour.... =)
oh man, i'm addicted to Mars... keep thinking bout the show. hehe... guess i better make a beeline for the tv before my parents come back. once again, merry christmas! =)
Saturday, December 25, 2004
Friday, December 24, 2004
my job officially ended yesterday. acty, it ended the day before, but we still had to go back to the expo to clear up. do u know, the other promoters get paid for their efforts in clearing up, but liling and i didn? oh man... and we spent more time than the other promoeters in clearing up coz we went back to the boss' office to tear off the price tag. hai.... we had to go tothe office to await our paycheck, so they told us to help peel the tags to pass the time. tok bout free labour man, haha... =)
but frankly though, i was feeling a little sorry that the job had ended. i had a rather good time working there. my boss is acty quite nice. not as strict and rigid as other bosses, and much friendlier. just more stingy... ahha.. =)besides the job, i made friends with other promoters as well, and ahem, there was quite a bit of eye-candy, though, sad to say, they are younger than me, so... hands off for me! =) this auntie who was working there as a promoter took my number in case there are other jobs. true enough, i just got another call from her last nite. haha.... there's this opening at the industrial estate behind tampines safra, doing data entry-ing, and they are looking for A-Level students waiting for results. oh well, i might as well try out the job, only i cant get the person in charge. i wonder if that is a sign that i'm not destined for it? hmm.....
hopefully i get the job though, coz i do need money... hee =)
Last but not the least, Merry Christmas everybody! =)
but frankly though, i was feeling a little sorry that the job had ended. i had a rather good time working there. my boss is acty quite nice. not as strict and rigid as other bosses, and much friendlier. just more stingy... ahha.. =)besides the job, i made friends with other promoters as well, and ahem, there was quite a bit of eye-candy, though, sad to say, they are younger than me, so... hands off for me! =) this auntie who was working there as a promoter took my number in case there are other jobs. true enough, i just got another call from her last nite. haha.... there's this opening at the industrial estate behind tampines safra, doing data entry-ing, and they are looking for A-Level students waiting for results. oh well, i might as well try out the job, only i cant get the person in charge. i wonder if that is a sign that i'm not destined for it? hmm.....
hopefully i get the job though, coz i do need money... hee =)
Last but not the least, Merry Christmas everybody! =)
Saturday, December 11, 2004
ok i'm back after almost a month... haha... so many things have happened in just this one mth. i screwed up my As, found a job, went prom, and well, tts about it.
A levels... well, there isn much to say bout it. i think i pretty much summed it all up in the first para, so let's go on to the job.
i'm working at the expo now, selling classic pooh stuff tt's mostly for children. haha, business is NOT good. Uh-uh... its mostly standing around the counter for eleven hours then leaving, usually selling not more than 20 items... hai... its so quiet down there! the pay... well, at first it might seem rather much, coz its $50 a day, but once u hear tt its $50 for 11 hours, well, u might come to the same conclusion tt it's 50 hard-earned dollars. yep. oh well, experience i guess. i made many new friends, and... haha.... at least there's a certain amount of eye-candy.... hahaha.... nth to do mah.... =) i'm hoping for business to pick up, so life there won't be so boring... hahaa.. now i'm hoping to get another job... relief teaching perhaps, but i wqouldn mind working at the airport as some admin person either. i love the airport. =) hmm... any other jobs would be fine i guess... anyone has any lobang? if u do, pls tell me k? ;)
ok on to the prom. well.... i had fun there, and hmm, it was the first time i acty dressed up to the nines like tt. haha, jieting said she has nvr seen tt side of me before. oh well, jieting darling, i dun think u are likely to see tt side again... haha... =) tt was one rare opportunity that i got to dress like tt. frankly, as airheaded as it may sound, i rather liked it, just tt its rather troublesome. oh, i highlighted my hair as well. it's something i've been wanting to do, but didn have the opportunity to, coz it would be a waste of money to do it during the term- troublesome, too, to worry bout looking over my shoulder to see if edward chew is coming. hahah... .well, now i'm free! oh yes, thanks to mel and serene, for helping me to do my make-up! u two did a wonderful job! hahaa... i know, its a little late to say tt, but well.... i didn really find an urge to blog until today... i've been out practically everyday since the end of the As... not totally enjoying though.... i had to work... -_-" when i've posted up the pics for the prom then i'll mention it, k? now i cant, coz my DARLING digicam spoilt on me the night before the prom, so i had to use my father's ultra super large camera to take photos. mel , dun snigger. hahahah... it was so embarrassing to carry it, coz like everyone was dressed to the nines, and there i was, carrying this purse and struggling to carry the large camera. oh man... -_-"
oh yes! forgot to mention... we had a 4C class gathering! from wat i heard, the gathering this time was more successful than last yr's, when only 5 ppl turned up. well, this time, bout 12 ppl turned up (i think). we caught up with old times, and watched a movie. we watched "Look At Me", a French movie. it was rather nice acty, though i felt like slapping the father a few times. he's one of those big shot guys who's always thinking bout himself and totally insensitive bout others, though he often doesn mean for his words to come out mean. he doesn see anyone but himself. nonetheless, the movie was also quite funny in its own way with the father's insensitive jokes and the dialogue btw the characters. hmm, its a movie worth watching. really! hehe, there are subtitles. =)
i cant wait for christmas to come, but i kinda can at the same time, coz when christmas is here, it means the new year is coming, and with it, the sense tt i'm gonna have to face reality soon- the results. oh man....... i'm kinda like living in denial right now.... but some part of me is telling me to wake up. i cant, coz if i do, the next time u see me i'll be having dark circles around my eyes. y? coz i'm bz thinking bout the consequences of not doing well.....
A levels... well, there isn much to say bout it. i think i pretty much summed it all up in the first para, so let's go on to the job.
i'm working at the expo now, selling classic pooh stuff tt's mostly for children. haha, business is NOT good. Uh-uh... its mostly standing around the counter for eleven hours then leaving, usually selling not more than 20 items... hai... its so quiet down there! the pay... well, at first it might seem rather much, coz its $50 a day, but once u hear tt its $50 for 11 hours, well, u might come to the same conclusion tt it's 50 hard-earned dollars. yep. oh well, experience i guess. i made many new friends, and... haha.... at least there's a certain amount of eye-candy.... hahaha.... nth to do mah.... =) i'm hoping for business to pick up, so life there won't be so boring... hahaa.. now i'm hoping to get another job... relief teaching perhaps, but i wqouldn mind working at the airport as some admin person either. i love the airport. =) hmm... any other jobs would be fine i guess... anyone has any lobang? if u do, pls tell me k? ;)
ok on to the prom. well.... i had fun there, and hmm, it was the first time i acty dressed up to the nines like tt. haha, jieting said she has nvr seen tt side of me before. oh well, jieting darling, i dun think u are likely to see tt side again... haha... =) tt was one rare opportunity that i got to dress like tt. frankly, as airheaded as it may sound, i rather liked it, just tt its rather troublesome. oh, i highlighted my hair as well. it's something i've been wanting to do, but didn have the opportunity to, coz it would be a waste of money to do it during the term- troublesome, too, to worry bout looking over my shoulder to see if edward chew is coming. hahah... .well, now i'm free! oh yes, thanks to mel and serene, for helping me to do my make-up! u two did a wonderful job! hahaa... i know, its a little late to say tt, but well.... i didn really find an urge to blog until today... i've been out practically everyday since the end of the As... not totally enjoying though.... i had to work... -_-" when i've posted up the pics for the prom then i'll mention it, k? now i cant, coz my DARLING digicam spoilt on me the night before the prom, so i had to use my father's ultra super large camera to take photos. mel , dun snigger. hahahah... it was so embarrassing to carry it, coz like everyone was dressed to the nines, and there i was, carrying this purse and struggling to carry the large camera. oh man... -_-"
oh yes! forgot to mention... we had a 4C class gathering! from wat i heard, the gathering this time was more successful than last yr's, when only 5 ppl turned up. well, this time, bout 12 ppl turned up (i think). we caught up with old times, and watched a movie. we watched "Look At Me", a French movie. it was rather nice acty, though i felt like slapping the father a few times. he's one of those big shot guys who's always thinking bout himself and totally insensitive bout others, though he often doesn mean for his words to come out mean. he doesn see anyone but himself. nonetheless, the movie was also quite funny in its own way with the father's insensitive jokes and the dialogue btw the characters. hmm, its a movie worth watching. really! hehe, there are subtitles. =)
i cant wait for christmas to come, but i kinda can at the same time, coz when christmas is here, it means the new year is coming, and with it, the sense tt i'm gonna have to face reality soon- the results. oh man....... i'm kinda like living in denial right now.... but some part of me is telling me to wake up. i cant, coz if i do, the next time u see me i'll be having dark circles around my eyes. y? coz i'm bz thinking bout the consequences of not doing well.....
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
Sunday, October 31, 2004
the wake board world cup 2004 has been on yesterday, and only today do i finally utilise the binoculars to look at the reservoir... haha... its amazing u know... all those bodylicious wakeboarders down there doing their stuff... felt too lazy to go down acty, hehe... dun feel like walking all that way down, so i decided to watch it from the comforts of my living room with the binoculars... haha... its a perfect view btw, albeit a little far... haha
i must say though, its a little disappointing, coz we dun see the contestants wakeboarding over ramps etc here. instead, we see them somersaulting all the time. its exciting i guess, but when u watch all of them doing the same thing, it gets kinda predictable. =) anyway, i gotta take my hat off to them for being able to do those. i can barely even do the basic rolling on the floor... u know, the eggroll? the one where u tuck ur legs into ur chest and roll headfirst? yep, tt... haha... been getting fat lar, whole day eat then slp after coming home from sch.... but i guess during exam periods, everyone's entitled to gain weight. haha... excuses excuses. anyway, i feel REAL lazy to exercise. god knows how many times my parents have asked me to go swimming with me. haha...
we just brought shnoozee down for his first walk 2 days ago. oh man.. his reaction was not quite wat we expected. he was unlike peke, who took to putting on the collar and leash with aplomb. instead, he was S.C.A.R.E.D... yep, he was. not of walking downstairs i think, but of the leash. he keept trying to wriggle out of it (but of cos we know tt isnt possible) and trying to bite it. well, we expected tt he would try to bite it, coz it moves, and he so loves to put anything tt moves into his mouth. but wriggle out of it? we nvr expected tt. besides, we put it on him while he was in his fence, and he refused to come out of it until we let go of the leash. i wonder wat's wrong with him? could it be tt he smelt peke's scent on it tt's y he was scared? its not possible though, coz peke has been gone for like 6 mths, his scent should have been removed by now.... rite? and typical shnoozee behaviour: when we brought him down, he ABSOLUTELY refused to do his business, which was where we expected him to do it. instead, he just HAD to wait till he came home, and do it in the living room. oh god. i tell u, i think i can safely say i'm his personal cleaner. yep, i clean his.. err... his waste. -_-" but i guess its only to be expected, coz we chose to have a pet after all...=)
speaking of shnoozee the great, i'm gonna get disfigured for life if he carries on his barbaric ways. at least, my leg is. haha... everytime i let him out, he jumps all over me, and i guess he doesn know his strength and the fact tt his nails are long, coz he bites and climbs. argh. his nails dig into my skin! so now there are like claw marks running up and down my leg, and his teeth have drawn blood in 2 places on my calf already. tt wasn done on purpose i think, coz he was sliding down my leg and his teeth somehow sank into my calf. hai.... cant complain though, coz he was too overwhelmed with happiness at being let out. haha... =) besides, he's such a good natured dog. yes he is, regardless of wat i told u. he jumps all over ppl coz he's ecstatic to see them really! other than tt, he's jus so innocent and so forgiving... haha... he has absolutely NO temper, which is something to be said, coz peke was rather temperamental last tiem.... shnoozee is not a bit possessive. whenever we take one of his 'toys' away, he'll just find some other thing to play with. with peke however, touch his things at ur own peril, exp when he's eating. for shnooze, u can even insert ur finger into his mouth to extract wateva he's eating. he'll let u. hmmm.... tt said, i think he's innocent to the point of being silly? hehe... oh well.... but he's an endearing character. come see him, u'll know wat i mean! but u'll have to wait until after exams i guess, haha... =)
anyway, i thnk this will be the last entry until the end of exams, coz i dun think there'll be much to say over the next 3 wks... haha.... dun think there'll be much time anyway. ok cya and for any yr 2 students or sec 4 students who happen to read this entry, good luck for ur exams!! =)
i must say though, its a little disappointing, coz we dun see the contestants wakeboarding over ramps etc here. instead, we see them somersaulting all the time. its exciting i guess, but when u watch all of them doing the same thing, it gets kinda predictable. =) anyway, i gotta take my hat off to them for being able to do those. i can barely even do the basic rolling on the floor... u know, the eggroll? the one where u tuck ur legs into ur chest and roll headfirst? yep, tt... haha... been getting fat lar, whole day eat then slp after coming home from sch.... but i guess during exam periods, everyone's entitled to gain weight. haha... excuses excuses. anyway, i feel REAL lazy to exercise. god knows how many times my parents have asked me to go swimming with me. haha...
we just brought shnoozee down for his first walk 2 days ago. oh man.. his reaction was not quite wat we expected. he was unlike peke, who took to putting on the collar and leash with aplomb. instead, he was S.C.A.R.E.D... yep, he was. not of walking downstairs i think, but of the leash. he keept trying to wriggle out of it (but of cos we know tt isnt possible) and trying to bite it. well, we expected tt he would try to bite it, coz it moves, and he so loves to put anything tt moves into his mouth. but wriggle out of it? we nvr expected tt. besides, we put it on him while he was in his fence, and he refused to come out of it until we let go of the leash. i wonder wat's wrong with him? could it be tt he smelt peke's scent on it tt's y he was scared? its not possible though, coz peke has been gone for like 6 mths, his scent should have been removed by now.... rite? and typical shnoozee behaviour: when we brought him down, he ABSOLUTELY refused to do his business, which was where we expected him to do it. instead, he just HAD to wait till he came home, and do it in the living room. oh god. i tell u, i think i can safely say i'm his personal cleaner. yep, i clean his.. err... his waste. -_-" but i guess its only to be expected, coz we chose to have a pet after all...=)
speaking of shnoozee the great, i'm gonna get disfigured for life if he carries on his barbaric ways. at least, my leg is. haha... everytime i let him out, he jumps all over me, and i guess he doesn know his strength and the fact tt his nails are long, coz he bites and climbs. argh. his nails dig into my skin! so now there are like claw marks running up and down my leg, and his teeth have drawn blood in 2 places on my calf already. tt wasn done on purpose i think, coz he was sliding down my leg and his teeth somehow sank into my calf. hai.... cant complain though, coz he was too overwhelmed with happiness at being let out. haha... =) besides, he's such a good natured dog. yes he is, regardless of wat i told u. he jumps all over ppl coz he's ecstatic to see them really! other than tt, he's jus so innocent and so forgiving... haha... he has absolutely NO temper, which is something to be said, coz peke was rather temperamental last tiem.... shnoozee is not a bit possessive. whenever we take one of his 'toys' away, he'll just find some other thing to play with. with peke however, touch his things at ur own peril, exp when he's eating. for shnooze, u can even insert ur finger into his mouth to extract wateva he's eating. he'll let u. hmmm.... tt said, i think he's innocent to the point of being silly? hehe... oh well.... but he's an endearing character. come see him, u'll know wat i mean! but u'll have to wait until after exams i guess, haha... =)
anyway, i thnk this will be the last entry until the end of exams, coz i dun think there'll be much to say over the next 3 wks... haha.... dun think there'll be much time anyway. ok cya and for any yr 2 students or sec 4 students who happen to read this entry, good luck for ur exams!! =)
Saturday, October 30, 2004
The Voice Within- Christina Aguilera
Young girl, don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl, it's all right
Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly
When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within
Young girl, don't hide
You'll never change if you just run away
Young girl, just hold tight
And soon you're gonna see your brighter day
Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you're lost outside look inside to your soul
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within
Yeah...Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you're learning
You'll find all you'll ever need to know
(Be strong)
You'll break it
(Hold On)
You'll make it
Just don't forsake it because
No one can stop you
You know that I'm talking to you
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within
Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl, don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl, it's all right
Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly
When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within
Young girl, don't hide
You'll never change if you just run away
Young girl, just hold tight
And soon you're gonna see your brighter day
Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you're lost outside look inside to your soul
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within
Yeah...Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you're learning
You'll find all you'll ever need to know
(Be strong)
You'll break it
(Hold On)
You'll make it
Just don't forsake it because
No one can stop you
You know that I'm talking to you
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within
Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
Monday, October 18, 2004
S.H.I.T
ALL THE PHOTOS I TOOK WITH THE CLASS LAST FRI ARE BLOODY WELL GONE! WAT THE HELL JUST HAPPENED TO THE STUPID CAMERA!!!
stupid stupid stupid!! i cant say enough of it. just when i finally managed to find the cable for the camera and i installed everything into the comp and everything was in order, ALL THE PHOTOS HAD TO BE DELETED. my sis' photos, peke's photos, and those pics that i took with the vballers last yr and the photos i took on fri!!! GOODNESS!!! AND ALL OF THEM ARE GONE!!!! this is one of those occasions tt just makes me want to cry. argh!!!
Jas, so sorry u cant see the pics we took last fri here.... ARGH.... can we take somemore soon pls?
this request goes out to all of u who took photos with me last fri.... plsplsplsplsplsplsplspslsplspls can we take photos again?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!
i'm so sorry!!! u can just murder me. but pls murder me after we've taken the photos and finished the A levels......
ALL THE PHOTOS I TOOK WITH THE CLASS LAST FRI ARE BLOODY WELL GONE! WAT THE HELL JUST HAPPENED TO THE STUPID CAMERA!!!
stupid stupid stupid!! i cant say enough of it. just when i finally managed to find the cable for the camera and i installed everything into the comp and everything was in order, ALL THE PHOTOS HAD TO BE DELETED. my sis' photos, peke's photos, and those pics that i took with the vballers last yr and the photos i took on fri!!! GOODNESS!!! AND ALL OF THEM ARE GONE!!!! this is one of those occasions tt just makes me want to cry. argh!!!
Jas, so sorry u cant see the pics we took last fri here.... ARGH.... can we take somemore soon pls?
this request goes out to all of u who took photos with me last fri.... plsplsplsplsplsplsplspslsplspls can we take photos again?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!
i'm so sorry!!! u can just murder me. but pls murder me after we've taken the photos and finished the A levels......
Monday, October 11, 2004
haven quite got over the SI thing yet.. haha.... anyway, let's all just hope for fairer outcomes for the competition... *crosses fingers*
just visited some of ur blogs, and realised that they, too, like mine, have remained stagnant for quite a while.. hehe... bet the stress is getting to all of us. my whole family's dropping like flies because of the flu... well, not my whole family maybe, coz my father is the only one unaffected by it. wanted to stay at home today to rest, but i realised there are a few commitments to be carried out today, and i can't possibly go back on my word once i've given it, can i? =) cant not go to sch tml either, coz there's lit, so the next best day would be on wed. i am predicting tt wed will be asthma attack day, coz my flu takes place in diff stages:
1. sore throat and/or body aches
2. stupid blocked nose that doesn allow me to sleep
3. coughs and asthma attacks
so far, 1 and 2 have been accomplished. now i just have to await the arrival of the asthma attack. coughs have started. so i guess by wed, the flu will reach its peak. hahaha... =) however, flu's not as bad as it was when i was in pri sch. whenever i had the flu and asthma attacks started, i'd have to be sent to the doctor for the nebulizer. u know, the oxygen like tank thing with a mask? yep, i was a frequent patroniser of that tank thing... hmm... i quite miss it though. haha... the smell's quite nice. sweet... =) but for some reason, it makes my nose run continuously, so tt's the bad side of it i guesss, along with the cost. luckily the intensity of the attacks has died down over the years, so i just need to rely on the inhaler.
i've just been looking thru the scholarships programmes, and i realised that i cant apply for so many of them, partly coz i dun take S paper, and partly coz i am not in the sci stream. i'd love to try applying to be a speech therapist acty... but tt requires a Bachelor of Sci. SPH scholarship... well... i guess i could try to apply for it, but as i slowly wake up from my delusions of grandeur, i realise tt i cant write. not at all. just feel my style seems childish. not matured and sophisticated like grace's, nor as full of content as jieting's. my lang is not bad i guess, but when i have to pit myself against the others with a much better command of the lang than i have, well...... the rest can be left unsaid. thus, should i be thick-skinned and go ahead with the scholarships application?
just visited some of ur blogs, and realised that they, too, like mine, have remained stagnant for quite a while.. hehe... bet the stress is getting to all of us. my whole family's dropping like flies because of the flu... well, not my whole family maybe, coz my father is the only one unaffected by it. wanted to stay at home today to rest, but i realised there are a few commitments to be carried out today, and i can't possibly go back on my word once i've given it, can i? =) cant not go to sch tml either, coz there's lit, so the next best day would be on wed. i am predicting tt wed will be asthma attack day, coz my flu takes place in diff stages:
1. sore throat and/or body aches
2. stupid blocked nose that doesn allow me to sleep
3. coughs and asthma attacks
so far, 1 and 2 have been accomplished. now i just have to await the arrival of the asthma attack. coughs have started. so i guess by wed, the flu will reach its peak. hahaha... =) however, flu's not as bad as it was when i was in pri sch. whenever i had the flu and asthma attacks started, i'd have to be sent to the doctor for the nebulizer. u know, the oxygen like tank thing with a mask? yep, i was a frequent patroniser of that tank thing... hmm... i quite miss it though. haha... the smell's quite nice. sweet... =) but for some reason, it makes my nose run continuously, so tt's the bad side of it i guesss, along with the cost. luckily the intensity of the attacks has died down over the years, so i just need to rely on the inhaler.
i've just been looking thru the scholarships programmes, and i realised that i cant apply for so many of them, partly coz i dun take S paper, and partly coz i am not in the sci stream. i'd love to try applying to be a speech therapist acty... but tt requires a Bachelor of Sci. SPH scholarship... well... i guess i could try to apply for it, but as i slowly wake up from my delusions of grandeur, i realise tt i cant write. not at all. just feel my style seems childish. not matured and sophisticated like grace's, nor as full of content as jieting's. my lang is not bad i guess, but when i have to pit myself against the others with a much better command of the lang than i have, well...... the rest can be left unsaid. thus, should i be thick-skinned and go ahead with the scholarships application?
Friday, October 08, 2004
OH. MY. GOD.
WAT THE BLOODY FREAKING HELL JUST HAPPENED ON SINGAPORE IDOL, CAN SOMEONE PLS ENLIGHTEN ME?
why wasn't Christopher Lee voted out? why was Jerry Ong in the safe group? why was David Yeo kicked out?
whywhywhy?
jerry ong managed to kick out the good singers. isn it high time he got out? if he had gotten out today, its only a matter of time that christopher lee got out, rite? so wat the heck happened?
could someone tell me WHY they still managed to stay on in the competition? david yeo got kicked out because of ONE performance. jerry ong and christopher lee remained in the running though they had made god knows how many lacklustre performances. wat the hell??????? are their fanbases so large?
if everything goes the way it has done since SI started, jerry ong will win the award. olinda will be the next to get kicked out, followed by.... hmm... i dunno... leandra perhaps? then taufik, then maia, then daphne... then.... dunno who.
do i sound totally childish? perhaps i do. haha... but its just so amazing that results can acty turn out this way. oh man! its so painful to watch it, seriously. i guess reality tv does evoke violent tendencies in ppl... hehe...
WAT THE BLOODY FREAKING HELL JUST HAPPENED ON SINGAPORE IDOL, CAN SOMEONE PLS ENLIGHTEN ME?
why wasn't Christopher Lee voted out? why was Jerry Ong in the safe group? why was David Yeo kicked out?
whywhywhy?
jerry ong managed to kick out the good singers. isn it high time he got out? if he had gotten out today, its only a matter of time that christopher lee got out, rite? so wat the heck happened?
could someone tell me WHY they still managed to stay on in the competition? david yeo got kicked out because of ONE performance. jerry ong and christopher lee remained in the running though they had made god knows how many lacklustre performances. wat the hell??????? are their fanbases so large?
if everything goes the way it has done since SI started, jerry ong will win the award. olinda will be the next to get kicked out, followed by.... hmm... i dunno... leandra perhaps? then taufik, then maia, then daphne... then.... dunno who.
do i sound totally childish? perhaps i do. haha... but its just so amazing that results can acty turn out this way. oh man! its so painful to watch it, seriously. i guess reality tv does evoke violent tendencies in ppl... hehe...
Monday, October 04, 2004
while trying to revise econs, this thot kept recurring in my mind (useless thots keep recurring just when i should be utilising my brain for more pract purposes -_-" anyway, i'm digressing): wat is madness? is it when a person totally loses all consciousness of his surroundings but just continues to exist in a seemingly semi-conscious state behaving in a way tt is not socially acceptable? or does madness exist when a person has subconsciously decided to lock its conscious self in a place deep in the recesses of the mind where it is unreachable? in other words, is madness a withdrawal of the mind from the real world?
i just finished watching san shi feng yu lu (dunno the eng title, but i think its "Trials of Time" or something), and Zinan had gone mad coz of her foiled attempt to be with the guy she has loved since childhood- Rui-an, her cousin. acty i'm not sure when she started going mad, but i think the foiled attempt was the last straw. anyway, back to the story. when zinan was first sent to prison and her mother went to visit her, zinan was like a doll being dragged by the policewoman to the visiting place. there, she just sat limply while her mother pleaded with her to say something, all the while having an impassive face, and dull, sightless eyes. i suspected that zinan had already gone round the bend, but i was forced to rethink this when i saw a tear rolling down her cheeks, which could only mean that zinan had heard her mother's words, just that she still remained the same- limp, impassive, with sightless eyes. it made me have a feeling that while she was seemingly untouchable, a part of her- the sane and logical conscious part of her- was touched, just that it was already buried too deep inside her mind. was her mind already rejecting wat is real, accepting emptiness or the memories of the past? subsequently, as there was a fast forward to 2004, a scene showed zinan in a mental hospital (i think), who had seriously gone beyond reach. was this the final act of the deadening of her consciousness? i dunno. wat was still with her, though, was her memories of her past with Rui-an, which, i suspect, were her most treasured memories.
i'm not sure if u understood my analysis. it all looks confusing to me. nonetheless, the bottom line is that does madness mean locking away our consciousness and leaving only the memories we want? if so, does that mean that madness is curable, coz if madness is wat i think it might be, isnt it the conscious effort of the subconscious to lock away all that is painful and logical, and just bury it? or issit incurable, coz, like "Goblin Market", "One can lead a horse to water, Twenty cannot make him drink"- a person's mind is stronger than anything else?
i mean, u see, even Poe suggests this. in "The System of Dr Tarr and Prof Fether", the patients in the mental hospital seemed to have gone mad coz of a rejection of the social conventions imposed on them from society. in order to buck these conventions, they withdraw from the real world, and retreat into an imaginary world (somewat like a world not unlike that in "Alice in Wonderland") of them being teapots, donkeys and chickens. however, a point of consideration is this: was their bucking of social conventions conscious or unconscious? could there have been someting that happened to them that caused this, or did they just suddenly wake up one morning and found that the world they lived in was too harsh, too cold, too.... real?
ok, i better stop here... i'm making myself confused... now i think both the possibilities of madness are interlinked, though i feel there is a difference. cant really figure out the difference now anyway. hmm.... mebbe u can air ur views on my tagboard?
my final stand, though, is this: madness does seem to be a conscious effort of the subconscious in locking away the sane and the real, and the subsequent withdrawal of the mind into a deeper, darker, 'safer' place, where one cannot be touched by the harshness of the real world. it is a form of escapism, into a world made up one's own fantasies. so, while that person is living, awake, he or she is acty living a fantasy world deep within himself or herself, just like zinan, who lives in her past, when she was 11, knitting a scarf for Rui-an. a fantasy, a memory, which remains unchanged regardless of anything, and hence, stable and safe.
i just finished watching san shi feng yu lu (dunno the eng title, but i think its "Trials of Time" or something), and Zinan had gone mad coz of her foiled attempt to be with the guy she has loved since childhood- Rui-an, her cousin. acty i'm not sure when she started going mad, but i think the foiled attempt was the last straw. anyway, back to the story. when zinan was first sent to prison and her mother went to visit her, zinan was like a doll being dragged by the policewoman to the visiting place. there, she just sat limply while her mother pleaded with her to say something, all the while having an impassive face, and dull, sightless eyes. i suspected that zinan had already gone round the bend, but i was forced to rethink this when i saw a tear rolling down her cheeks, which could only mean that zinan had heard her mother's words, just that she still remained the same- limp, impassive, with sightless eyes. it made me have a feeling that while she was seemingly untouchable, a part of her- the sane and logical conscious part of her- was touched, just that it was already buried too deep inside her mind. was her mind already rejecting wat is real, accepting emptiness or the memories of the past? subsequently, as there was a fast forward to 2004, a scene showed zinan in a mental hospital (i think), who had seriously gone beyond reach. was this the final act of the deadening of her consciousness? i dunno. wat was still with her, though, was her memories of her past with Rui-an, which, i suspect, were her most treasured memories.
i'm not sure if u understood my analysis. it all looks confusing to me. nonetheless, the bottom line is that does madness mean locking away our consciousness and leaving only the memories we want? if so, does that mean that madness is curable, coz if madness is wat i think it might be, isnt it the conscious effort of the subconscious to lock away all that is painful and logical, and just bury it? or issit incurable, coz, like "Goblin Market", "One can lead a horse to water, Twenty cannot make him drink"- a person's mind is stronger than anything else?
i mean, u see, even Poe suggests this. in "The System of Dr Tarr and Prof Fether", the patients in the mental hospital seemed to have gone mad coz of a rejection of the social conventions imposed on them from society. in order to buck these conventions, they withdraw from the real world, and retreat into an imaginary world (somewat like a world not unlike that in "Alice in Wonderland") of them being teapots, donkeys and chickens. however, a point of consideration is this: was their bucking of social conventions conscious or unconscious? could there have been someting that happened to them that caused this, or did they just suddenly wake up one morning and found that the world they lived in was too harsh, too cold, too.... real?
ok, i better stop here... i'm making myself confused... now i think both the possibilities of madness are interlinked, though i feel there is a difference. cant really figure out the difference now anyway. hmm.... mebbe u can air ur views on my tagboard?
my final stand, though, is this: madness does seem to be a conscious effort of the subconscious in locking away the sane and the real, and the subsequent withdrawal of the mind into a deeper, darker, 'safer' place, where one cannot be touched by the harshness of the real world. it is a form of escapism, into a world made up one's own fantasies. so, while that person is living, awake, he or she is acty living a fantasy world deep within himself or herself, just like zinan, who lives in her past, when she was 11, knitting a scarf for Rui-an. a fantasy, a memory, which remains unchanged regardless of anything, and hence, stable and safe.
Monday, September 27, 2004
i meant to update the entries on sat, but.. well.... was too sleepy to do so... haha.... finally met up with serene, ee hui, ying chao after almost 2 yrs of postponing my meeting them... wow. hahaha... =) well, i caught up with them on most things, and found out how much i'd missed out on their lives this past 1 1/2 yrs. oh man... lets just hope it isn too late to really catch up on everything... haha... i really miss them man, just meeting them like tt reminded me of the old times, when we used to go to ee hui's house. i miss the times when we just sat down to tok bout so many things just like tt day. haha... it's like, all my friends are different... in different groups, we tok bout different things, and it was just so nice to be able to tok bout... things with them... haha, dun ask me wat we tokked bout... we tokked bout so many things...
it was a really interesting day acty. instead of going out to have lunch, we cooked our own spaghetti in ee hui's house. first, however, we went shopping at parkway. haha. we met too early though, and had breakfast at ya kun's, where we chatted. i must admit i felt a little.... left out, but then, i guess tt's only to be expected since i haven seen them for SOOOOOOOOO long!! anyway, we spent quite a bit of time at ee hui's house tokking b4 we went to start cooking. MAN! the food was GOOD!!! haha... =) mebbe the company added to the entire cookign and eating experience. =)
hehe, the funny part came when we had dessert. we made our own fondue! or rather, ee hui did it for us. she melted chocolate on a saucepan, and cut apples, bananas, pears and strawberries. then she opened a bottle of red wine and 4 of us trooped down to the poolside to eat all these. haha... can u imagine, 4 ppl, one carrying a bottle of wine, one carrying fruits and a pot holder, one holding wine glasses, and another carrying the saucepan, and we went down to the poolside to eat and... yep, watch guys, coz ee hui said there were many caucasians on sat swimming tt day. hehe/.... =) the children were SOOO cute! well the guys... nth much to say, coz they were either too young or too old. hehe... ;) anyway, i felt rather self-conscious... after all, its not everyday one goes to the poolside to drink red wine and eat fondue! haha... to add to this, ee hui's wine glasses were huge! =) those who walked past us were staring at our glasses. someone finally said, "those are the largest wine glasses i've ever seen!"hehe... oh well.... =) a new experience after all. i can't say if i got drunk, coz i didn feel woozy, but i did feel REAL sleepy... haha... i was in danger of dozing off several times! i could walk in a straight line though... ;) yep... hmm... my chest did feel a little tight after drinking the wine, but there wasnt a full-blown asthma attack, as i had anticipated. i dunno y, though... perhaps those times when i drank wine and got asthma attacks were coincidences?lemme try somemore next time... hahaha... hypothesis testing... hehe... =)
yep, adn tt was one of the best gatherings i've had... hehe... i must make a note to catch up with all the others after the As.... =)
it was a really interesting day acty. instead of going out to have lunch, we cooked our own spaghetti in ee hui's house. first, however, we went shopping at parkway. haha. we met too early though, and had breakfast at ya kun's, where we chatted. i must admit i felt a little.... left out, but then, i guess tt's only to be expected since i haven seen them for SOOOOOOOOO long!! anyway, we spent quite a bit of time at ee hui's house tokking b4 we went to start cooking. MAN! the food was GOOD!!! haha... =) mebbe the company added to the entire cookign and eating experience. =)
hehe, the funny part came when we had dessert. we made our own fondue! or rather, ee hui did it for us. she melted chocolate on a saucepan, and cut apples, bananas, pears and strawberries. then she opened a bottle of red wine and 4 of us trooped down to the poolside to eat all these. haha... can u imagine, 4 ppl, one carrying a bottle of wine, one carrying fruits and a pot holder, one holding wine glasses, and another carrying the saucepan, and we went down to the poolside to eat and... yep, watch guys, coz ee hui said there were many caucasians on sat swimming tt day. hehe/.... =) the children were SOOO cute! well the guys... nth much to say, coz they were either too young or too old. hehe... ;) anyway, i felt rather self-conscious... after all, its not everyday one goes to the poolside to drink red wine and eat fondue! haha... to add to this, ee hui's wine glasses were huge! =) those who walked past us were staring at our glasses. someone finally said, "those are the largest wine glasses i've ever seen!"hehe... oh well.... =) a new experience after all. i can't say if i got drunk, coz i didn feel woozy, but i did feel REAL sleepy... haha... i was in danger of dozing off several times! i could walk in a straight line though... ;) yep... hmm... my chest did feel a little tight after drinking the wine, but there wasnt a full-blown asthma attack, as i had anticipated. i dunno y, though... perhaps those times when i drank wine and got asthma attacks were coincidences?lemme try somemore next time... hahaha... hypothesis testing... hehe... =)
yep, adn tt was one of the best gatherings i've had... hehe... i must make a note to catch up with all the others after the As.... =)
Monday, September 20, 2004
Ooops... think i told grace the wrong description of my blog.. hehe... its not a toddler puckering up... its... (hold on... i go check) a little girl looking proud of herself... hmm.... bad with images these days. i have a strong suspicion my brain cells are on the verge of dying. oh man... tt would make me like the youngest person in the world to suffer from Alzheimer's. oh man... seriously! i could remember different conversations with different ppl for a long time after i tokked to them, and i could attach names to faces easily. now, i'd be lucky if i can remember wat i said to my sis this morning. wow.
anyway, there are 2 more papers left to go. maths paper2 and the gothic paper. shikes. both are my weak areas. i cant decide which io'm weaker in. i've always been BAAAAD with stats. =p cant stand them. as for gothic, i'm nvr sure how to argue my case for the essay qns. and i have to do reasonably well for these papers, coz i bombed last wk's papers, just the way the Americans bombed hiroshima and nagasaki in...err... 1945 (did i get tt rite?)... bad bad bad feeling all round. bet ms lam's gonna look at my rossetti essay and go "WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?" and my silas essay is gonna be so lacking in points... i only tokked bout setting as integral to the central themes of the novel. didn tok about the use and importance of imagery, the narrative voice. Double SHIKES. AAAARGHG!!!! and WAS there insecurity in the drama extract? i cant decide. oh shEEEEEEET (screeeches)
ok enough bout lit. its depressing. need i go on about the other subj? suffice it to say that they were equally disastrous. nvr felt so positive bout failing gp. ohmanohmanohman.........
ok i think i better shut up. hahaha....
on to lighter stuff, Schnoozee can go down the stairs!! haha, just trained him to when i came home just now. knwoing he has a fear of heights, i placed him at the top stair while i went to unearth the slippers he had snuck under the sofa. then, when i came, he had climbed up the stairs. i had to coax him down the stairs with treats. for every step he took, he got a treat. he's funny u know, he thinks tt by climbing upwards, it can acty ease his agony of climbing down. *shrugs*
and i think i've got a mad puppy. he's tearing round the house now as we speak, stealing slippers and socks and door wedges. yes, door wedges. and, to add on to all these, he just ran out of the house. to make things worse, he doesn recognise his name yet. can u imagine the panic we all feel when he runs out of the house and he doesn appear? we dun even know whether he's in the house or not. argh. my house is 15 storeys aboveground. this stupid daredevil dog has no fear of anything. can u imagine if he acty went thru the fence? he'd fall to his death and be as squashed as... well, as someone who just jumped from the 15th storey. other than that, he's cute and lovable. jsut tt i wish he wasn so hyper. argh.... no luck in the toilet training area too, coz he does his business anywher BUT the newspaper when we let him out. however, whenever he's back in his place, he pees at the same spot. i dun understand!!!
HELP!!!!
anyway, there are 2 more papers left to go. maths paper2 and the gothic paper. shikes. both are my weak areas. i cant decide which io'm weaker in. i've always been BAAAAD with stats. =p cant stand them. as for gothic, i'm nvr sure how to argue my case for the essay qns. and i have to do reasonably well for these papers, coz i bombed last wk's papers, just the way the Americans bombed hiroshima and nagasaki in...err... 1945 (did i get tt rite?)... bad bad bad feeling all round. bet ms lam's gonna look at my rossetti essay and go "WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?" and my silas essay is gonna be so lacking in points... i only tokked bout setting as integral to the central themes of the novel. didn tok about the use and importance of imagery, the narrative voice. Double SHIKES. AAAARGHG!!!! and WAS there insecurity in the drama extract? i cant decide. oh shEEEEEEET (screeeches)
ok enough bout lit. its depressing. need i go on about the other subj? suffice it to say that they were equally disastrous. nvr felt so positive bout failing gp. ohmanohmanohman.........
ok i think i better shut up. hahaha....
on to lighter stuff, Schnoozee can go down the stairs!! haha, just trained him to when i came home just now. knwoing he has a fear of heights, i placed him at the top stair while i went to unearth the slippers he had snuck under the sofa. then, when i came, he had climbed up the stairs. i had to coax him down the stairs with treats. for every step he took, he got a treat. he's funny u know, he thinks tt by climbing upwards, it can acty ease his agony of climbing down. *shrugs*
and i think i've got a mad puppy. he's tearing round the house now as we speak, stealing slippers and socks and door wedges. yes, door wedges. and, to add on to all these, he just ran out of the house. to make things worse, he doesn recognise his name yet. can u imagine the panic we all feel when he runs out of the house and he doesn appear? we dun even know whether he's in the house or not. argh. my house is 15 storeys aboveground. this stupid daredevil dog has no fear of anything. can u imagine if he acty went thru the fence? he'd fall to his death and be as squashed as... well, as someone who just jumped from the 15th storey. other than that, he's cute and lovable. jsut tt i wish he wasn so hyper. argh.... no luck in the toilet training area too, coz he does his business anywher BUT the newspaper when we let him out. however, whenever he's back in his place, he pees at the same spot. i dun understand!!!
HELP!!!!
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
O_o"
what the hell just happened?!?!?!?!??! what paper did i just take just now? f maths?! oh man oh man..... i'm SOOOO gonna fail today....
can u believe i acty FORGOT how to do stupid linear inequalities?! it was so easy too... oh man!!! how the heck to apply overseas lidat?!?!
i so dun feel like studying in s'pore already... haha, i came to tt conclusion after reading xy's blog and thinking thru it... mebbe i should go away, see other parts of the world... mebbe it wun be as stressful as here.... hai...
ok gtg byebye!
what the hell just happened?!?!?!?!??! what paper did i just take just now? f maths?! oh man oh man..... i'm SOOOO gonna fail today....
can u believe i acty FORGOT how to do stupid linear inequalities?! it was so easy too... oh man!!! how the heck to apply overseas lidat?!?!
i so dun feel like studying in s'pore already... haha, i came to tt conclusion after reading xy's blog and thinking thru it... mebbe i should go away, see other parts of the world... mebbe it wun be as stressful as here.... hai...
ok gtg byebye!
Tuesday, August 31, 2004
ok, end of olympics=start of mugging
YAH RITE. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I SAID I HAVE TO STUDY? dun even bother counting. u're just gonna lose count.
first time i stayed up to watch the women's vball finals... it was exciting, but SOOOO irritating and LONG. can u believe the first set was 30-28? i was lying on the sofa, half awake, thinking, "enough alreadY! can't someone jkust win this set?" well, russia won the set. and the next. but china took the next 3 sets. YIPPEEE!!! hahah... china finished 5th 4 yrs ago. they are good, and they really pia their hearts out... oh btw, the match was at 1... and tt one set took about an hour... ended up giving up watching it halfway and gg off to slp at 3 soemthing. the game was only into its third set. -_-" i was there drifting in and out of sleep. hahaha... dunno hwo my sis can find the energy to finish watching the game... even the men's one the next day, which was at 12.... goodness.... i guess coz its brazil playing... she loves brazil, says they play like kampong kias... hahaha... sorta liek the way they play soccer... born naturals... =)
watching the olympics makes me wish i was born with some spectacular sports talent.... like superhuman stamina or somehting.... but then, there's a downside to this, coz sports is a cruel side of life. yep, winning is cool, but losing... well, its damn painful. i watched the handball finals on sunday, denmark vs korea. well, i dun really understand handball, but i can sure understand the feelings of the players... the game was tied at 34-34, and to solve the prob, there was the penalty shootout. korea lost when the danish goalkeeper managed to save 2 goals. i nvr expected such a rush of emotion as i watched the players explode at the end of the game. the koreans were huddled together crying, while the danish were piled on top of one another in a group hug (kinda weird if u ask me...) and were kissing each other. they were doing funny things, like rolling around on the floor... hmm... but well, there rose in me rather conflicting emotions: overwhelming happiness for the winners, a sense of pain and loss for the losers. its like, they've come so far, played so hard, and they lost. its sorta like bringing up a person to the heavens then bringing them crashing down to earth just when they believed they could reach their destinations.
well, tts a side of sports i guess, showing the realities of life, like giving us an awareness that life is not always smooth-sailing. even a world no1 like lin dan could lose to susilo. but still, though tts the truth bout sports, and it still attracts ppl, its still painful and cruel. so wat if a team had trained hard? everything falls apart when the team is off-form, or when luck is not on their side. at tt time, who cares how much effort they had put in before?
haha... sounds rather negative eh? well.... *shrugs* this entry might spark off some aruments i guess, but it'll do my chatterbox some good to have some lively arguments there... haha... guess my argument is pretty one-sided... i'd love to hear the other side of this argument, if anyone has it.... haha... it might come out for gp u know, like mebbe ' "entertaining but absolutely of zero content". discuss this view of sports. ' hahah... then we can pull out this argumen.... hahaha.... all thanks to me!!!
haha... i tend to get carried away... dun mind me.... well, it just occurred to me this has been the longest entry since.... dunno when... hahaha.... k, my eyes are drifting shut. gtg. CIAO! hahah...
YAH RITE. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I SAID I HAVE TO STUDY? dun even bother counting. u're just gonna lose count.
first time i stayed up to watch the women's vball finals... it was exciting, but SOOOO irritating and LONG. can u believe the first set was 30-28? i was lying on the sofa, half awake, thinking, "enough alreadY! can't someone jkust win this set?" well, russia won the set. and the next. but china took the next 3 sets. YIPPEEE!!! hahah... china finished 5th 4 yrs ago. they are good, and they really pia their hearts out... oh btw, the match was at 1... and tt one set took about an hour... ended up giving up watching it halfway and gg off to slp at 3 soemthing. the game was only into its third set. -_-" i was there drifting in and out of sleep. hahaha... dunno hwo my sis can find the energy to finish watching the game... even the men's one the next day, which was at 12.... goodness.... i guess coz its brazil playing... she loves brazil, says they play like kampong kias... hahaha... sorta liek the way they play soccer... born naturals... =)
watching the olympics makes me wish i was born with some spectacular sports talent.... like superhuman stamina or somehting.... but then, there's a downside to this, coz sports is a cruel side of life. yep, winning is cool, but losing... well, its damn painful. i watched the handball finals on sunday, denmark vs korea. well, i dun really understand handball, but i can sure understand the feelings of the players... the game was tied at 34-34, and to solve the prob, there was the penalty shootout. korea lost when the danish goalkeeper managed to save 2 goals. i nvr expected such a rush of emotion as i watched the players explode at the end of the game. the koreans were huddled together crying, while the danish were piled on top of one another in a group hug (kinda weird if u ask me...) and were kissing each other. they were doing funny things, like rolling around on the floor... hmm... but well, there rose in me rather conflicting emotions: overwhelming happiness for the winners, a sense of pain and loss for the losers. its like, they've come so far, played so hard, and they lost. its sorta like bringing up a person to the heavens then bringing them crashing down to earth just when they believed they could reach their destinations.
well, tts a side of sports i guess, showing the realities of life, like giving us an awareness that life is not always smooth-sailing. even a world no1 like lin dan could lose to susilo. but still, though tts the truth bout sports, and it still attracts ppl, its still painful and cruel. so wat if a team had trained hard? everything falls apart when the team is off-form, or when luck is not on their side. at tt time, who cares how much effort they had put in before?
haha... sounds rather negative eh? well.... *shrugs* this entry might spark off some aruments i guess, but it'll do my chatterbox some good to have some lively arguments there... haha... guess my argument is pretty one-sided... i'd love to hear the other side of this argument, if anyone has it.... haha... it might come out for gp u know, like mebbe ' "entertaining but absolutely of zero content". discuss this view of sports. ' hahah... then we can pull out this argumen.... hahaha.... all thanks to me!!!
haha... i tend to get carried away... dun mind me.... well, it just occurred to me this has been the longest entry since.... dunno when... hahaha.... k, my eyes are drifting shut. gtg. CIAO! hahah...
Saturday, August 28, 2004
i need to get my life back and find my balance once again... hehe, feel like i'm like "a man sliding into dark waters seeks to find a momentary footing on the slippery stones", just struggling to find my balance before i fall. tt balance has been lost since the common test. guess i was getting too complacent...
oh well, i think i have to remain a recluse in order to find my balance again. school is taking up too much time... haha... bet commando was plotting to make me come to school everyday.... plan the timetable until there is no day i can skip. haha...
i just realised tt i get emotionally claustrophobic. my heart gets all itchy and i turn hot, then cold, and irritable. i lost concentration in everything i do, and i guess tt's how i lost my balance. never knew tt bout myself until recently. hmm... must be the exams.... argh...
ok, i gtg get ready to go back to sch.... got so many qns to ask mrs neo.... hai...... where is my A????
oh well, i think i have to remain a recluse in order to find my balance again. school is taking up too much time... haha... bet commando was plotting to make me come to school everyday.... plan the timetable until there is no day i can skip. haha...
i just realised tt i get emotionally claustrophobic. my heart gets all itchy and i turn hot, then cold, and irritable. i lost concentration in everything i do, and i guess tt's how i lost my balance. never knew tt bout myself until recently. hmm... must be the exams.... argh...
ok, i gtg get ready to go back to sch.... got so many qns to ask mrs neo.... hai...... where is my A????
Saturday, August 21, 2004
AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW SHITES!!!!! li jiawei lost!!! *sob sob* it was such a painful match to watch!
when i turned on the tv, the score was 3-3, and both sides had drawn, with 3games to 3 games. the seventh game was the rubber set, meant to decide who would advance to the next round.... it was like, 3-3, then 4-3, then 4-4... all the way to 9-8 in favour of jiawei, then kim hyang mi caught up. -_-" it was SOOO sad to watch i tell u... even as a tv spectator dunno how many thousand miles away from athens, i was rather overcome by emotion, and could acty feel the tension li jiawei mus have been feeling at that time... i bet its hell to be brought up so high, and led to believe she was capable of doing so much, then suddenly losing it by such a small margin. tt's y its so painful... i imagines it being me, and i almost cried... hee... call me a sentimental emotional fool, but.... well, there u are.... =)
anyway, li jiawei did put up a good fight. she tried her best... guess we just have to wait for the next olympics, where mebbe s'pore will have better luck... this is just like 4 yrs ago, when most of s'pore tuned in to watch jing junhong play in the semis... we still lost, but by a larger margin. this time, we were so near, yet so far.... *sighs heavily*
nvm, we still have robotics competitions and math olympiads to look forward to for our gold medals...... =)
when i turned on the tv, the score was 3-3, and both sides had drawn, with 3games to 3 games. the seventh game was the rubber set, meant to decide who would advance to the next round.... it was like, 3-3, then 4-3, then 4-4... all the way to 9-8 in favour of jiawei, then kim hyang mi caught up. -_-" it was SOOO sad to watch i tell u... even as a tv spectator dunno how many thousand miles away from athens, i was rather overcome by emotion, and could acty feel the tension li jiawei mus have been feeling at that time... i bet its hell to be brought up so high, and led to believe she was capable of doing so much, then suddenly losing it by such a small margin. tt's y its so painful... i imagines it being me, and i almost cried... hee... call me a sentimental emotional fool, but.... well, there u are.... =)
anyway, li jiawei did put up a good fight. she tried her best... guess we just have to wait for the next olympics, where mebbe s'pore will have better luck... this is just like 4 yrs ago, when most of s'pore tuned in to watch jing junhong play in the semis... we still lost, but by a larger margin. this time, we were so near, yet so far.... *sighs heavily*
nvm, we still have robotics competitions and math olympiads to look forward to for our gold medals...... =)
hey.... just heard yesterday morning tt li jiawei won the quarter-finals and is on her way to the semis, playing against tt korean girl zhang xueling lost to... hehe... to be honest, i nvr really believed she would beat wang nan- after all, wang nan had beaten jing junhong 4 yrs ago in the semis, and jing is a more experienced player... *shrugs* oh well, its great news after all! =) it was an upset all rite... 4-1... oh man.... cool! =)
haha... hopefully Singapore will earn a place on the medal tally board... even a bronze is good... =)
haha... hopefully Singapore will earn a place on the medal tally board... even a bronze is good... =)
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
CRAP. got a bleedin' headache now, which is SOOOO at the wrong time, just when i need my brainpower to do the Silas Marner essay. its fun acty, but NOT fun when i have to do it with a headache and a non-working paracetamol. argh.... the damn thing is pounding away merrily now, while i figure out how to phrase my sentences to form a coherent argument so as to pose a challenge for the rip-the-essay event tml... haha.... well... let's just hope the essay is relevant, and the arguments made are strong and not too unfocused, as is always my problem in essays. so far, i have managed to reach the second page, but i'm not halfway through. the min requirement for an essay? 4 sides. GREAT.
so wat the hell am i doing here, u might ask? haha, i have no idea myself, perhaps to take a li'l break? hehe, i have like until 12 midnight to complete this essay... cos at 12, cuba is gonna play against china in the vball event... haha, this should be an interesting match... =) if the headache persists, mebbe it wuld be time to take stronger action... hai... ponstan.... though i have to wait 3 hours for the thing to take the capsule, coz i just took paracetamol... haha.... perhaps i should try to find something enjoyable bout the pain? sort of like, if i can't beat the pain, i gotta join them kinda thing? hahah... sounds sadistic? well.. i've found it works sometimes... hahaha... just like eating chilli, i found tt a way to not let the chilli get to u is to just sit still, and just concentrate on the sensation of the chilli on ur lips and tongue. haha... must concentrate fully, otherwise it gets a mite unbearable... hehe... when u really concentrate, the feeling becomes kinda interesting... ahaha..... somewhat better than drinking water i feel... water makes it worse somehow... =)
so sad bout susilo's match rite? the last 2 matches brought him to the heavens, then this brought him crashing back down to earth. the last set was a real disappointment. he nvr seemed to be able to hold on to his service... hai.... feel badminton is a cruel game. tough on the body and the mind... like beach vb acty... hmm..... he was so close to the semis, but now.....
oh well... though singapore has had no gold medals in sports, at least we have plenty of gold medals in the areas of robotics and maths olympiads... haha.... guess we know where our comparative advantage lies now, eh? =)
so wat the hell am i doing here, u might ask? haha, i have no idea myself, perhaps to take a li'l break? hehe, i have like until 12 midnight to complete this essay... cos at 12, cuba is gonna play against china in the vball event... haha, this should be an interesting match... =) if the headache persists, mebbe it wuld be time to take stronger action... hai... ponstan.... though i have to wait 3 hours for the thing to take the capsule, coz i just took paracetamol... haha.... perhaps i should try to find something enjoyable bout the pain? sort of like, if i can't beat the pain, i gotta join them kinda thing? hahah... sounds sadistic? well.. i've found it works sometimes... hahaha... just like eating chilli, i found tt a way to not let the chilli get to u is to just sit still, and just concentrate on the sensation of the chilli on ur lips and tongue. haha... must concentrate fully, otherwise it gets a mite unbearable... hehe... when u really concentrate, the feeling becomes kinda interesting... ahaha..... somewhat better than drinking water i feel... water makes it worse somehow... =)
so sad bout susilo's match rite? the last 2 matches brought him to the heavens, then this brought him crashing back down to earth. the last set was a real disappointment. he nvr seemed to be able to hold on to his service... hai.... feel badminton is a cruel game. tough on the body and the mind... like beach vb acty... hmm..... he was so close to the semis, but now.....
oh well... though singapore has had no gold medals in sports, at least we have plenty of gold medals in the areas of robotics and maths olympiads... haha.... guess we know where our comparative advantage lies now, eh? =)
CRAP. got a bleedin' headache now, which is SOOOO at the wrong time, just when i need my brainpower to do the Silas Marner essay. its fun acty, but NOT fun when i have to do it with a headache and a non-working paracetamol. argh.... the damn thing is pounding away merrily now, while i figure out how to phrase my sentences to form a coherent argument so as to pose a challenge for the rip-the-essay event tml... haha.... well... let's just hope the essay is relevant, and the arguments made are strong and not too unfocused, as is always my problem in essays. so far, i have managed to reach the second page, but i'm not halfway through. the min requirement for an essay? 4 sides. GREAT.
so wat the hell am i doing here, u might ask? haha, i have no idea myself, perhaps to take a li'l break? hehe, i have like until 12 midnight to complete this essay... cos at 12, cuba is gonna play against china in the vball event... haha, this should be an interesting match... =) if the headache persists, mebbe it wuld be time to take stronger action... hai... ponstan.... though i have to wait 3 hours for the thing to take the capsule, coz i just took paracetamol... haha.... perhaps i should try to find something enjoyable bout the pain? sort of like, if i can't beat the pain, i gotta join them kinda thing? hahah... sounds sadistic? well.. i've found it works sometimes... hahaha... just like eating chilli, i found tt a way to not let the chilli get to u is to just sit still, and just concentrate on the sensation of the chilli on ur lips and tongue. haha... must concentrate fully, otherwise it gets a mite unbearable... hehe... when u really concentrate, the feeling becomes kinda interesting... ahaha..... somewhat better than drinking water i feel... water makes it worse somehow... =)
so sad bout susilo's match rite? the last 2 matches brought him to the heavens, then this brought him crashing back down to earth. the last set was a real disappointment. he nvr seemed to be able to hold on to his service... hai.... feel badminton is a cruel game. tough on the body and the mind... like beach vb acty... hmm..... he was so close to the semis, but now.....
oh well... though singapore has had no gold medals in sports, at least we have plenty of gold medals in the areas of robotics and maths olympiads... haha.... guess we know where our comparative advantage lies now, eh? =)
so wat the hell am i doing here, u might ask? haha, i have no idea myself, perhaps to take a li'l break? hehe, i have like until 12 midnight to complete this essay... cos at 12, cuba is gonna play against china in the vball event... haha, this should be an interesting match... =) if the headache persists, mebbe it wuld be time to take stronger action... hai... ponstan.... though i have to wait 3 hours for the thing to take the capsule, coz i just took paracetamol... haha.... perhaps i should try to find something enjoyable bout the pain? sort of like, if i can't beat the pain, i gotta join them kinda thing? hahah... sounds sadistic? well.. i've found it works sometimes... hahaha... just like eating chilli, i found tt a way to not let the chilli get to u is to just sit still, and just concentrate on the sensation of the chilli on ur lips and tongue. haha... must concentrate fully, otherwise it gets a mite unbearable... hehe... when u really concentrate, the feeling becomes kinda interesting... ahaha..... somewhat better than drinking water i feel... water makes it worse somehow... =)
so sad bout susilo's match rite? the last 2 matches brought him to the heavens, then this brought him crashing back down to earth. the last set was a real disappointment. he nvr seemed to be able to hold on to his service... hai.... feel badminton is a cruel game. tough on the body and the mind... like beach vb acty... hmm..... he was so close to the semis, but now.....
oh well... though singapore has had no gold medals in sports, at least we have plenty of gold medals in the areas of robotics and maths olympiads... haha.... guess we know where our comparative advantage lies now, eh? =)
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