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Slappable, I am

I seriously ought to slap myself over and over for delaying the revision for the Cinematics Class. Now I have this horrid feeling I'm not going to do well for the test tmr. I've one more reading to do- Laura Mulvey's Visual Pleasure in Cinema or something like that, full of Freudian theories which I think I'm not in the mood to read about now. It needs a fresh brain to take it in. And GREAT. I can't remember the character names from From Hell. What a fabulous way to end the week. -_-"

Oh well. It's 1237am, and from the Psych textbook, they say there's no more point cramming the night before, coz all the info will be stored in the short term memory and there's limited space. So sayonara, and I'm going to sleep now. Hopefully the test will be ok, and I'll do reasonably ok in it... I have zilch confidence in the essay I handed in to Kenneth Chan, and there'll be another essay for the exams. CRAP.

Good night!

Yesterday Once More

Yesterday was rather a blast. Went to K-Box with Jieting, Jiun Pey, Jinghua and Jinghua's friend, Yi Ling ( is that how you spell it?), and we sang from 2-7. Well, at least I think Jieting and Jinghua did, coz Jiun Pey and I left at bout 530. Dunno bout Yi Ling though.. we were supposed to have left together, but she decided to stay on a lil longer. =) Anyway, we sang song after song, and well, I must say, I feel a tad ashamed to be singing with such company. They have great voices which so put me to shame I tell you. Haha, Jieting was singing "童话" in soprano coz... I think someone was singing it in a normal voice (can't really remember). Wow, Jieting, I take my hat off to you. She went REALLY high-pitched! AND it was still in tune OK! WOW! =) Need I say anything more about Jiun Pey and Yi Ling? Oh well. Suffice it to say that they have fantastic voices, all in their own unique sense. Jiun Pey's voice, though soft, has a kind of "magnetic" quality about it, as quoted from Jieting. It pulls at people, making them wanna listen more to it. Yi Ling, well... her voice is strong, and she has what we call "台风". When she sings, there's emotion, and gestures... Makes me wonder why she didn't take part in Superstar. I didn't ask her either.

Jieting and Yi Ling went rather high yesterday. They were singing some song- forgot the title, and they stood up on the sofa:


haha.. quite cool rite? Their voices match quite well I must say, and I suggested to Jieting that she and Yi Ling should actually sing a duet for Impresario. They should!

One blip on an otherwise great day: service at K-Box. Man! So rude! When it came time to pay, I just took out all the change... didn't wanna give them tips... I mean, for wat?! Yah, I know it sounds kinda bitchy of me to do so, but... well... they ruined an otherwise fun day. -_-"

Haha, now all i have to do is persuade evon and yi lun to go with me to k-box... hmm.. mebbe we can even ask the cousins to go... Alvin, Alan, Laura, what do u think? ;)

Yesterday

Hey, just a short note here first b4 i blog proper here....

To Jieting, Jiun Pey, Jinghua and Yi Ling (not me!! another Yi Ling) if u want the photos! They have been uploaded into my Yahoo! photo album! go there and get em if u wanna see them or upload them into ur comp k? I'll be posting some up later...

Haha, but for now, i gtg do my work... so overdue.....

Hmm... Gender Difference?

Haha, Merrilyn found this article during our stats class yesterday. It's called Women like Women more than Men like Men

This article is courtesy of the American Psychological Association (APA).

Read it and tell me what you think!

Laura: for more information on Psych, you can visit this website k? =)

WEEKEND!!

Haha, it's the weekend again!! And I'm back at home again! =)

This week has passed ok lah, and.. well, its amusing actually, coz remember in my last post I said I had made a few mistakes for my maths paper? Well, as luck would have it, the mistake I had apparently thought I had made was not a mistake at all. It was correct due to my carelessness you see... I had missed out the word "false" in the statement, so I anyhow chose the odd one out. Haha... Si Huan's method worked! =)

I'm gonna try to enjoy the weekend! =)

YIPPEE!!!

YAY!! FREEDOM!! For the moment, at least. Today was the last paper. Not say it was done well (I made a few mistakes), but at least tests are over. I just hope not too many mistakes were made, coz the lecturer said that the final paper's gonna be hard. And Hard's just so NOT what I need for "Basic Maths for Economists".

It's such a nice feeling u know, of not having to mug so hard for once in the past 10 or so days. It's like the lid has finally been taken off. Oh, and not to mention the worry of not being able to finish revising. Argh. Don't even get me started.

Si Huan found more ppl from SADM!! Yay! So tomorrow we will be collecting like 10 more data from them, then we can submit our results to Mario and he'll analyse our results for us. That is, if Si Huan manages to get her friend to do so by tomorrow... coz i informed her rather late u see.... hee... Oooh and here's something exciting: Mario says that our experiment is worth exploring, and after we have finished with this project, maybe we should improve further on our experiment- creating a software for our experiment, then rewriting the research or something, then maybe we can try submitting it to one of the smaller Psychology Journals to be published. COOL RIGHT?! I'm so excited just thinking about it. Of course, this idea would not have been possible if not for Merrilyn. Haha... =) And, yah,though it's not one of those more prestigious journals like APA's one (that's natural... the prestigious journals have a rejection rate of up to 90% a year!), I think it's a great exposure and it's kinda flattering to know that you have the kind of research that is interesting enough to be published. =) So, Laura, isn't Psych fun?

Hehe... i'm waiting for my hair to dry, which explains this ungodly hour at which I'm still up. Supposed to sleep early tonight though.. Ooops... =X

3 Loads off my shoulders and one moreto go!! YAY!! FINALLY can breathe a small sigh of relief. But there's another test tomorrow- Basic Maths for Economists, and MAN! I so haven't prepared for it!! Disgusting. But I just couldn resist letting out my sigh of relief just for this short moment... =)

Last week was a real horror. I barely had time enough to catch my breath or even catch up with family. One week seemed a long time to me before the hols, but once it started did I realise HOW WRONG I WAS. NOW i know that 1 week is NOT enough to study 6 chapts, much less 5 modules of work. OK, so I'm gonna make plans, plans which I hope I can keep.... *keeping my fingers and toes crossed*

Though tomorrow is a hectic day for me, I'm still looking forward to it!! Coz it's the last paper!! YAY!! Then I have a short break. Before it's back to the grind. Have to complete a report and carry out somemore experiments, coz Mario says we dun have enough SADM students. CRAP. Hopefully our group can finish it faster and then can fully concentrate on exams!! ARGH

Today's paper was ok, got 34/45... I know... it's not very great... but considering the fact that I had rushed thru its revision and I thought I was gonna fail it, I think its ok lar. I could have done worse, BUT I certainly could have done better. Today's test just made me realise how unfamiliar I am with research designs. CRAP I actually forgot what was the independent groups design, matched groups design etc. I was mentally kicking myself. OK. This tells me I should make notes for that already.

OK, I'm going back to study... Wish me luck!! =)

Been feeling a vague sense of panic lately, think it's stemming from the coming onslaught of tests descending upon me like.... like.... like a flock of vultures!! Bursting at the seams here man, and I thought 1 week was long?! who the heck was I kidding? After 2 days, all I've accomplished is finished compiling my subcomm list, send an email to my lecturer bout the essay I'm supposed to do (which I of course haven't done yet, but I've watched the movie to refresh my memory), finished part of my stats assignment (the other half hasn't been done yet because yours truly had overlooked the fact that I had an assignment to do and thus forgot to bring home the book from hall), and.... that's about it. I still have 13 chapters of Psych stuff to read, an essay to write (I'm hoping to start on it soon!!), bout 6 chapts of Basic Maths for Economists to read for the test, and... *GASP* a freaking project to complete by this hols. Oh man... and I thought I would have time to volunteer to do the slides for our presentation... It's like, I'm losing control of everything! I've never been so unprepared for tests before man... It's so many chapters and scaring the hell out of me. And thing is, quizzes are supposed to help us pull up our overall GPA. Well, how am I gonna do that? By cheating?!

Was so stressed just now I quarrelled with Lun. Argh. I hate that... Hate quarrelling, esp when I'm seldom at home, and we seldom see each other. Waste time, energy, emotions... and thing is, the burst of anger didn't even help to dispel some of the helplessness and frustration inside me.

Haha, how true are the results of the tests below? Gimme ur comments! =)

Slow and Steady

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment. They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.

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The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/keystoyourheartquiz/">What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

HOLIDAYS ARE HERE!

And I'm sooo ecstatic about it. Not that this break is gonna be a breeze though, coz it's not. There are projects to be done, reports and essays to be written, and.. *GASP* surprise of urprises! tests to study for! -_-" Oh well, on the bright side, at least it's one GLORIOUS week of no lessons and staying at home and being with family, even though their term will start again this week, and von is having her prelims. Argh. I shudder to think of the horror of prelims.

After a week of mad rush, the hols are a thankful reprieve i tell u. For the whole week, I've had 6 1/2 hours of sleep practically everyday. All thanks to the variation of the stroop project that we had to carry out. The project's not finished yet, though. There's still a report to be done and a presentation to prepare for. Thank goodness I've got wonderful groupmates. Haha, they are a wonderful bunch- lame, good-natured, responsible. I hope we end up in the same tutorial group again next sem and the subsequent years. Though everyday is a race with time to get our project in shape, there're always laughs to share, which makes the whole process much more bearable and enjoyable. Love it. =)

I wanna watch the netball finals of Singapore vs Malaysia. Netball's quite fun to watch- fast-paced action. Whoever said netball's for sissies is a dumb duck.

I'm still trying to bully my heart into starting on my holiday homework, but it's bullying me back by forcing my brain to send messages to my fingers to start blogging and talking (basically doing anything that doesn't involve studying), and so far, my brain has been succumbing. Not that it doesn't know that it's succumbing. It just enjoys the pleasures of doing nothing. Well, no sirreee! Not anymore! Going out with Jinghua today, so I guess if I wanna have a guilt-free and happy time out, I better get started. Looking forward to the high tea tomorrow too!! YAY!!!

It's 2340 hours, and I'm not asleep yet. Not that I dunno why, but it's coz I'm so fed up with the stupid software that I'm supposed to download to carry out my group's experiments. Yah. And darling Yi Lun is helping me design the logo and the biz card for DAC. Really grateful to her for that.

I know I should be sleeping, but I keep having this feeling like there's something I haven't done yet. It's getting on my nerves. I know there are alot of things I haven't done yet, but this nagging feeling feels important. Can't put my finger to it though. Projects are pouring in like nobody's business already, and I'm swimming in them now. Not to mention the extra readings that I've gotta do. Finally caught up with HP101 (Intro to Psych), and slightly ahead in HP200 (Stats in Psych Research), but behind in HP102 (Research Methods in Psych - *yawn*). Yah, and how bout my electives?! And the activities that I joined. Is this just a teething problem, or is this a bad omen of things to come?

Oh cripes. I haven't come up with a criteria and questions to ask the interviewees. SHeesh!! I gotta think about it tmr after my lecture. Oh, one bright spot for tmr. Watching From Hell, a movie with Johnny Depp inside. Yay! Love his acting. I hope I understand the deeper insinuations of the movie. As advised by Dr Chan my lecturer, DON'T TRUST WHAT THE DIRECTOR SHOWS YOU. That's what he says to think whenever we watch movies *shrugs*. That way, he says, we'll get more from the movie.

Oh before I go, THANK YOU Xue Fang, for giving me ideas for the variable ratio schedule!! =)

My week

Alot of things have happened this week-

Mon: went for NTU's 50th anniversary, but we didn stay to watch FIR's performance. Pity, that, cos I heard they performed 6 songs. Nonetheless, I don't really regret it lar. We had to stand for so long, and the ppl kept asking us to stay at the side. One moment they told us to move to the left, the next they told us to move to the right. Well done. Who do we listen to then?

Tues: first Deli Aprecio Club (DAC) meeting. Interesting. We have to come up with designs for the club logo, come up with the Club's slogan, vision, mission and values. And subcomm recruitment is on Tues, 730 pm. Anyone interested in joining publications? Just come find me. Which brings me to another point: the criteria regarding the members for my subcomm, and I gotta figure out how often to hold the meetings. Oh, and questions to ask the interviewees. Oh man. I've never done this before. Can someone advise me pls?!?!?!

Wed: Nothing much, just the usual weekly torturous Wednesday, with 3 consecutive lectures dragging over a space of 6 hours. And when I say consecutive, I do mean CONSECUTIVE. Seriously, the only thing that I look forward to at the end of Wednesday is its end and dinner with Jieting and her rommate Shijia. Haha, it's great to dine with them. Can talk to them and unwind and gossip. I feel relaxed in their company. Oh, and if Dr Kenneth Chan is screening movies, yep, then that's another thing that I look forward to, just that I find that I seem to be unable to understand the movies more and more. Is it because I'm pressurizing myself to see things? Or issit that I just can't grasp what Dr Chan is trying to teach us? Or is it that what I watch is entirely beyond my schema of knowledge- gayism, the male gaze, or the cinematic gaze?

Thurs: Watched Jean Cocteau's Beauty and the Beast (or La Belle et La Bete). Wonderful movie, though there was a constant tendency to compare it to Disney's version. This version seems more magical, more realistic than Disney's and much darker. Oh, and rather hilarious too. The actions of Belle (Josette Day) was so over the top. The perfect swoon- fainting but not causing pain or bruise to any part of her body, AKA gently falling down while fainting- the classic female putting her hands to her forehead... well, u get the idea. Her face always seemed to be glowing too. Haha. Just learnt the term today. Her face looks like it just came straight out of a vermeer painting. An example of that is the picture below, done by Johannes Vermeer, a Dutch painter. This painting should be familiar. It's The Girl With the Pearl Earring. I meant to watch the movie, but I was in hall. Argh. OK, here's the picture:


Credits to Johannes Vermeer and http://www.about-vermeer-art.com/vermeer/vermeer-posters/poster.html?id=1

Cool movie.

Fri: Need I say more? I can come home!! Today was an unusually long Friday though. Had to do 2 project discussions for Psychology. Luckily one of them was quickly done, which is a load off the shoulders- nonetheless, I'm getting worried. Info seems to be processing in my head at an unusually slow pace. I can't really catch up with what the tutor is saying when she teaches the SPSS file. Darn. I keep forgetting the steps, and I don't even know what the split file is for. Crap. I don't know what to use what for. Argh. I hope my friend can get hold of the SPSS prog and I can borrow to practise. The other... I have to ponder the project again. Seems like I didn't contribute much to the project this time. I hate not being able to contribute to project. Shall see what ideas or what I can do for the project tomorrow. Hopefully I can come up with something.

I have to sleep early tonight... My new plan is to sleep early on weekends and HOPEFULLY wake up early the next morning so I can get an early start on the day. Let's hope my new resolution stays.....

Variable-ratio Schedule

It's now 940pm, and I still haven thought of what is it in our everyday life that's a variable-ratio schedule. A variable-ratio schedule is a timetable in which behaviours are rewarded an average number of times but on an unpredictable basis. An example of that would be like a slot machine which might pay off at an average of every 20th time, but the gambler doesn't know when this payoff will be. The slot machine might pay off twice in a row and then not again until after 58 coins have been inserted. This averages out to a reward every 20 behavioural acts, but when the reward will be given is unpredictable. This schedule produces high, steady rates of behaviour that are more resistant to extinction.... So can anyone tell me what might constitute a variable-ratio schedule?!

I have decided that I'm not gonna waste my life thinking bout it. I've got other things to do like catch up on m reading of the textbooks... oh man.. i'm soooo way behind... So if anyone's got any idea, pls pls PLS tag!!!

American Horror Film

Here I am, at 2332 hours, fighting a war between my brain and my eyes- the brain is saying I have to keep awake to read this ghastly article, while my eyes are insisting on closing. Mark my words, when I finish reading this article, the war will be the other way round. Is this the natural act of nature or issit just me? Anyway, I'm still awake, and not even halfway thru this reading of the American Horror Film, where Freud and Marx come into play. It's a whopping 28 pages long, and I've only reached the *GASP!* 4th pg of it. How wonderful can I get I wonder. So what am I doing online? Frankly, I don't know. I guess I just can't take in anymore information. The gist of whatever I'm reading so far is that the American Horror Film plays on the subject of "The Other", which is whatever we are trying to repress but appears in the subconscious of our mind. Hence Freud. BUT, where does Marx come in? I don't quite understand how he fits in with his bourgeois capitalism theory, but, there u have it. Yah, so from what I've read so far, it seems like the American horror films play on these 2 to bring about fear in us. Yep. That's what I've gathered so far. Will update u on what it's about if and when I finally understand it. Don't bet ur money on it.

Thoughts about my family

I realise I am one lucky girl to have such a wonderful family that supports me in whatever I do, and try their best to help me achieve it. I have always known it, but often take it for granted. It was only just now in the car ride that it finally dawned on me that I had never acknowledged it.

Regardless of the fact that my parents wanted me to go into the Science stream or do Chinese or Econs in Uni, they supported the choices I made, even though at times, it looked as if I HAD made the wrong decision. Like entering the Arts stream instead of Science. I know my mother was disappointed at my choice because she felt that as a Science teacher, her children had better chances of doing well in the Science stream as she could at least help a little in our doubts. Arts? She had no idea what was going on there. Nonetheless, she continued to show me support by never showing what she truly thought of it. The only way I knew of her thoughts was through my father. I guess I disappointed him too, by absolutely discarding the idea of taking Chinese and Econs in the U, which he reckoned were the 2 fields in Arts which had the biggest career advantage. Instead, I chose to take Psychology, a field few people know about. He supportd me in this, and heped me gaher info about the course. He was also the one who talked my mother round when I decided to take Arts instead of Science. Though my As results were anything but spectacular, I'm really glad they had not forced me into what they wanted me to be. For that, I'm really sorry that I had to go and do averagely in the exams. They allowed me to do what I had an interest in, and encouraged my every decision. Even when they thought that it was an unwise move, they encouraged me on, saying that it was a learning point, and it happened for a reason. That was what happened when I entered TPJC instead of TJC. I know they were disappointed, but they consoled me by saying everything happens for a reason. I think they were right in that sense, cos I have a feeling that if I had really gone on to TJC, I wouldn't be where I am and what I am now. They never looked at me any differently or with regret whenever they recalled that I was in TPJC and not some other JC they wanted me to go

Of course, I'm not forgetting about Von and Lun. They have been my confidantes, and my advisors. Haha, Lun, I'm not forgetting that comment you made to Lijun about us not needing any mirror coz u are one for us. Whatever fear I have, they would try to dispel it for me, listening to me, and trying to help in any way they can. I remember how Lun often stayed up and put her work aside to help me work out my speech and listen to the way I presented and gave opinions about how I sounded. Granted, oftentimes her comments were uneasy to bear, but I know they were given that way because she's my sister and she saw no need to hide anything from me. Need I say that my presentations always went smoothly? =) She was the one who also made me face my fear head on, like the elections for DAC the other day. I was already planning to withdraw from the elections, and was still internally debating (though I was sure at that point in time that I was gonna withdraw), when she urged me to go ahead with it and just try it out. Even after I agreed to continue with it, she could see that I wasnt really keen on it, so she reprimanded me. Yah, I know, it's kinda mei da mei xiao to acty reprimand ur elder sister, but that was done to wake me up I guess. As for Von, I'm grateful to her for listening to me, esp during the days and the minutes b4 the DAC elections. She REMEMBERED to sms me to check on how I was- I guess she somehow knew I was almost a wreck as the time grew nearer to the elections. It was great to receive her msg and I tell you, I really smiled when I saw the msg "Hello! How are you?" A simple msg, but the timing and the thought counted.

But what actually made me write this post was what happened yesterday. We were moving the fridge into my hostel room. I wasn't the one who carried the fridge. Evon was. Everyone else was helping to carry the other stuff up. It was, like, logically speaking, the fridge is supposed to be for me, and I should be the one to carry it. Nonetheless, she knew that me carrying it was abit too much to ask for, so she automatically helped me to carry it. My father helped her too. The main point of the trip yesterday was the fridge, and I ended up not carrying it. Also, the fact that my father is so willing to drive me up to NTU every Monday to drop me off and coming up with me to make sure everything is all right, regardless of the fact that he's late for work every Monday. He helps carry so much of my stuff.

All the actions carried out by my family came so naturally to them, that there was never a second thought about doing them, and that's what makes the actions much more valuable and memorable than anything else. It is this selfless giving, I guess, that makes many say that "Blood is thicker than water", and "Home is where the heart is". Now I fully understand the implications of these words. I sometimes wonder: my family does so much for me, what have I done for them that is truly memorable?

This entry sounds very heavy doesn't it? It sounds like I'm putting my life out for all to see, and my family for all to evaluate. But I AM grateful for all that they have done for me. =)

The Past

I'm beginning to hate thinking about the past. It's always, "I should have done this, I shouldn't have done that". Well, I know as well as anyone does that there's NOTHING I can do about it, so why can't it leave me alone?

Home Sweet Home!

I'm HOME!! IT'S FRIDAY!! Haha, I just love Fridays, coz it's when I finally come home man... Can sleep in my own bed, can eat homecooked food, and best of all, I'm with my family! Haha... though we call each other everyday, I still think there's a distance between us. Probably it's psychological, but it is hard to talk on the phone. I dun really like to talk on the phone- I can't hear things clearly, and alot of the times, I'm really afraid I might misinterpret what some ppl tell me over the phone, or I say something else which is totally irrelevant to what they had just told me over the phone. Yep, so next time if I keep asking you to repeat yourself over the phone, please be patient with me ok? It's not that I was not paying attention; rather, I couldn hear you very clearly over the phone, and probably needed some time to understand what you were saying, so pls excuse me if I keep quiet for a while after listening to u. =)

Alot of ppl have been feeling stressed out these days. I think it's coz work is finally catching up with us, and what we are learning is really getting tougher and tougher. Like the Stats module for Psych. I initially thought that I would be able to handle it coz in JC, Stats was pretty standard format, and I thought I had understood the concepts needed to do the questions. Boy, am I wrong. Well, maybe not wrong in my method of doing things, but perhaps in the understanding of the methods and the symbols. Usually we just talked about X and X bar without really knowing what they stood for. Now, I find that I actually have to know them in order to know what the heck the textbook is talking about. Sure I know what they are referring to, but it takes me quite some time to understand which symbol they are talking about when they use the words instead of the symbols. Worse still is when they phrase it in another way, and I have to go thru another round of "analysis". Hmm, this makes me wonder if I should just forget what I learned in JC and just concentrate on what I'm learning now, or if I should look back on my notes. The situation is the same as what's happening in the "Basic Maths for Economists" module. The maths is simple, yes, but the way the lecturer teaches kind of makes me feel like whatever Maths I learned in JC has been uprooted, but nothing has been planted back in its place. I mean, even the way he teaches simple differentiation makes me think, "Have I really learned this before?" and thus makes me doubt myself, even though I'm very very sure that I have not learned it that way before. Or maybe it's a sense of insecurity at work here. Hmm....

Time really flies man... It's already 9 something. I think I better go do finish up one of the chapts i'm supposed to be doing, so HOPEFULLY I can have some time to myself to do some SHOPPING!! Haha, looking at everyone's clothes in NTU just makes me wanna do more shopping. It's the fun of looking at new stuff and acquiring it and actually finding good buys that makes the whole experience so fun. Haha, I wonder y some guys actually question why we girls like shopping... =)