Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Studying overseas

I have thought about studying overseas quite a few times. Would I miss home? Would I be change in any way? Would I be able to travel to different places during the holidays? Perhaps the answers would be in the affirmative. However, many times I have countered these thoughts with the consolation that everything near and dear to me is more important than a new environment with less stress etc. Perhaps there would be stress, but of a different kind. Perhaps I would miss home, but it will pass. I won't say I regret staying back in Singapore to study, but I'll admit, some times I just wish I had gone overseas.

With Evon and Yi Lun going to or planning to study overseas, and with other friends going overseas to study too, it just seems like there is a much wider world out there when I study overseas. Although Singapore is a cosmopolitan society and we're in no way more ulu than our counterparts from other countries, the thing about studying locally is that there is no reason to go overseas with our friends during the holidays. I mean, those studying in places like UK, NZ, US, Australia etc will get to explore other places in Europe, or the country. What can I do? Travel to Malaysia, which I have done on several occasions? Furthermore, there's less chance of actually experiencing more, in a sense.

Ah.. I don't quite know what I want, actually. On one hand I would love to be able to study overseas, or at least travel, but on the other hand, I have little confidence that I'll be able to keep myself from missing my family and friends and the things back home...

Sunday, June 25, 2006

Ooh!!

Ahhhh I'm in love in love in love!! With this dishy-licious guy call Hu Ge ( 胡歌). All thanks to Jorene, who lent me her DVD for 天外飞仙, now I just love seeing his face. He's so cute!! Haha, let me show you some pictures of him and stop sounding so much like a bimbo. ;)



Look at him! Good-looking eh? But this is from the Chinese Paladin and not 天外飞仙... He looks much better here than in the latter, but still good-looking nonetheless... =)









Doesn't he look cute here too?








Haha, but I think he looks better in period dramas than modern dramas. Hai, the sad fact of life.... Hmm, don't you think he looks like Daniel Radcliffe here?






And this, is a pic of Hu Ge with his co-star in 天外飞仙, Ariel Lin Yi Chen... cute! =)








Haha, another actor who's eye-candy's Tae!! He's Thai, but he stayed in Taiwan to learn Chinese from what I read. Nonetheless, he's good for the eyes too!

Oh man, Jorene Cheng Siwei! What have you done to me?!

Ok, besides the cast, the show is great too! There were quite a few touching scenes inside which made me cry... I recommend this show! And Hu Ge played this super nice guy, it was just so endearing. Haha, that was what made me decide to go find his photos. =)

Ahh yes, the pictures were from:
http://asianfanatics.net/forum/lofiversion/index.php/t115185.html
http://asianfanatics.net/gallery/index.php?act=thumbs&aid=2060



Sunday, June 18, 2006

Books!

I really really love books, especially storybooks, especially romance. Muahahaha, goodness knows why though, but I do.

I just bought three storybooks recently- The Time-Traveller's Wife, Lolita, and Ash Wednesday- and I've finished The Time-Traveller's Wife and am going on to Ash Wednesday now. The Time-Traveller's Wife was such a great story! Made every cent of it worth the money. I just finished it at 1 plus this afternoon, and I was crying all the way.

The Time-Traveller's Wife is a story about this guy Henry, whose genetic code has some problem, such that at sporadic intervals, he will travel through time to some time in his memory. For some reason, he often travels to his wife's- Clare's- past, back when she was a little girl, all the way till she was 18. Clare knew all about his life, and vice versa. Thing is, he visited her past when he was in his 30s and 40s, while he met her for real at 28, so when he met her for real, he didn't know who she was, but she had all those memories of him. It's kinda sad, but there's nothing both of them can do about it. It was touching, the way they loved each other. Whenever Henry was gone time-travelling, Clare would worry, and throughout the time Henry was visiting Clare's past, Clare had to understand that though they were married in the future, at the present Henry did not yet know of her existence, and thus was still leading a rather rakish life. Henry, on the other hand, had to understand that during the time he did not see Clare (from the time when Clare was 18 to 20, because during that time Henry did not appear anymore), Clare was free to see whoever she wanted, because while Clare was waiting for Henry to appear, Henry was still leading his own life without any awareness to Clare's existence, and surely Clare was free to lead her own life as normally as she could. It's kind of a twisted logic within the book, where it seems that past, present and future coexist at the same time. One can travel to the past and spend, like, a day there, and then go back to the present, where only about 10min was spent, so it's kinda like perceiving past and present as separated by many years, or a few minutes. At the last part, the part which I was reading this morning, Henry knew when he was dying, and he used the knowledge to organise stuff that might happen after his death. He died in Clare's past, but Clare was not aware of that. In the end, he reappeared in his present, in Clare's and his daughter's arms. It's heartbreaking to see two people so in love having to leave each other, and it's so hard to be Clare, knowing when Henry was going to leave and die sometime in her past but being unable to help stop whatever it was that was making him go off or prevent his death. I can only imagine the helplessness Clare must have felt.

Fortunately, or unfortunately, depending on how you see it, while Henry was alive, he time-travelled to the future sometimes, such that he could see his daughter as she was growing up, and at the last page, see Clare when she was 82, so it's abit like coming back from the dead to revisit his loved ones in their memory, though for him, it would have been all over, as the self that visited his loved ones was the self when he was alive. But maybe that is comforting for him, too, in the sense that he was able to see how his loved ones coped after his death, and somehow have a part in it.

Henry's daughter could time-travel, too, and she sometimes travelled into Henry's past to look at hime. Unfortunately, the time when she travelled to Henry's past was the time before she was born, so he could not recognise her, and also could not treasure the time she visited him to spend time with her. It's heart-wrenching too. Imagine a daughter visiting her father in his past after his death, and wanting to be close to him and telling him that she's his daughter, all the while knowing that she can't, because she can't defy history. But perhaps she is able to derive contentment from all these, because at least she can still see her father, touch him, perhaps talk to him, have some contact with him, rather than not being able to see him forever at all.

Perhaps my explanation of the story complicated your understanding of it, and made you decide not to read it. But I assure you, all will be understood after you read it, and you sure won't regret ever having set your eyes on the book.

Now, I should go back to devouring Ash Wednesday. It seems like a promising book!

Books!

I really really love books, especially storybooks, especially romance. Muahahaha, goodness knows why though, but I do.

I just bought three storybooks recently- The Time-Traveller's Wife, Lolita, and Ash Wednesday- and I've finished The Time-Traveller's Wife and am going on to Ash Wednesday now. The Time-Traveller's Wife was such a great story! Made every cent of it worth the money. I just finished it at 1 plus this afternoon, and I was crying all the way.

The Time-Traveller's Wife is a story about this guy Henry, whose genetic code has some problem, such that at sporadic intervals, he will travel through time to some time in his memory. For some reason, he often travels to his wife's- Clare's- past, back when she was a little girl, all the way till she was 18. Clare knew all about his life, and vice versa. Thing is, he visited her past when he was in his 30s and 40s, while he met her for real at 28, so when he met her for real, he didn't know who she was, but she had all those memories of him. It's kinda sad, but there's nothing both of them can do about it. It was touching, the way they loved each other. Whenever Henry was gone time-travelling, Clare would worry, and throughout the time Henry was visiting Clare's past, Clare had to understand that though they were married in the future, at the present Henry did not yet know of her existence, and thus was still leading a rather rakish life. Henry, on the other hand, had to understand that during the time he did not see Clare (from the time when Clare was 18 to 20, because during that time Henry did not appear anymore), Clare was free to see whoever she wanted, because while Clare was waiting for Henry to appear, Henry was still leading his own life without any awareness to Clare's existence, and surely Clare was free to lead her own life as normally as she could. It's kind of a twisted logic within the book, where it seems that past, present and future coexist at the same time. One can travel to the past and spend, like, a day there, and then go back to the present, where only about 10min was spent, so it's kinda like perceiving past and present as separated by many years, or a few minutes. At the last part, the part which I was reading this morning, Henry knew when he was dying, and he used the knowledge to organise stuff that might happen after his death. He died in Clare's past, but Clare was not aware of that. In the end, he reappeared in his present, in Clare's and his daughter's arms. It's heartbreaking to see two people so in love having to leave each other, and it's so hard to be Clare, knowing when Henry was going to leave and die sometime in her past but being unable to help stop whatever it was that was making him go off or prevent his death. I can only imagine the helplessness Clare must have felt.

Fortunately, or unfortunately, depending on how you see it, while Henry was alive, he time-travelled to the future sometimes, such that he could see his daughter as she was growing up, and at the last page, see Clare when she was 82, so it's abit like coming back from the dead to revisit his loved ones in their memory, though for him, it would have been all over, as the self that visited his loved ones was the self when he was alive. But maybe that is comforting for him, too, in the sense that he was able to see how his loved ones coped after his death, and somehow have a part in it.

Henry's daughter could time-travel, too, and she sometimes travelled into Henry's past to look at hime. Unfortunately, the time when she travelled to Henry's past was the time before she was born, so he could not recognise her, and also could not treasure the time she visited him to spend time with her. It's heart-wrenching too. Imagine a daughter visiting her father in his past after his death, and wanting to be close to him and telling him that she's his daughter, all the while knowing that she can't, because she can't defy history. But perhaps she is able to derive contentment from all these, because at least she can still see her father, touch him, perhaps talk to him, have some contact with him, rather than not being able to see him forever at all.

Perhaps my explanation of the story complicated your understanding of it, and made you decide not to read it. But I assure you, all will be understood after you read it, and you sure won't regret ever having set your eyes on the book.

Now, I should go back to devouring Ash Wednesday. It seems like a promising book!

Friday, June 09, 2006

When all else fails...

Try getting sick. I swear, that's gotta be the fastest way to lose weight. I've been sick the past 2 weeks, so my appetite has been puny, and I think I've lost quite a bit of weight. At least, the tummy is decreasing in size... ;) Or maybe it's the constant violent coughing which is strengthening the stomach muscles. Now they're aching, and it's the sit-ups kind of stomach muscles pain.

Coughing is a pain. Mira says it's kinda irritating to hear the cough, coz it sounds serious, like I've got TB or something. Much as I hate to admit it, she's right. I find it irritating to cough too! It gets in the way when I'm talking, and can you imagine when I'm in a quiet place like the library?! That makes it worse coz when I start coughing, I don't stop for the next 10 seconds or so. If you're thinking 10 seconds isn't a very long time, well, it is....

Anyway, hopefully the cough goes away soon. I wanna start eating chocolates!!!!

Monday, May 29, 2006

I've got nothing to do, so I decided to try this thing out... =)

Instructions: Go to your music player of choice and put it on shuffle. Say the following questions aloud, and press play. Use the song title as the answer to the question. NO CHEATING.

How does the world see me?
Britney Spears- Bombastic Love

Hmm... I bring excitement and drama in their lives? Ah.. that sounds nice...

Will I have a happy life?
Faye Wong- Tian Kong

Is it trying to say the sky's the limit? Well I shall take it as a good sign!

What do my friends really think of me?
Tina Turner- He Lives in You

Well... taken in the religious point of view, it's kinda blasphemous, isn't it? But kinda flattering...

Do people secretly lust after me?
98 Degrees- I Do (Cherish You)

Ooh.. I like the sound of this! ;)

How can I make myself happy?
Shi Xin Huey- Gan Xie Ni Yong Xin Ai Zhe Wo

Hmm.. I should be thankful for the love I've been given... Good advice. I shall remember that.

What should I do with my life?
Tokyo Kosei Wind Orchestra- Japanese Graffitti III

Well.. I don't quite know what to think of this, actually. Does it mean I should go explore many areas of life? Or does it mean I should go the artistic route (?!?!) Or does it mean I should just waste my life away...? The song sounds cheerful, so I shall make myself happy and reaffirm my identity as a human being by thinking of myself as a good person. I shall choose the first reason. Muahahahaha!

Will I ever have children?
Vic Zhou- Wei He Ni Bu Lai

This is sad, man...

What is some good advice for me?
98 Degrees- The Hardest Thing

It's hard to give me good advice...?

How will I be remembered?
Lisa Ono- So Danco Samba

Ahhh.. As a person who likes to dance? Or as a person who enjoys life? Anyone knows the meaning of this title or song?

What is my signature dancing song?
Britney Spears- I’ll Never Stop Loving You

Reflects the romantic notions I often have I guess... =)

What do I think my current theme song is?
Joe Hisaishi- Kaze No Oka

I don't understand this title. Can someone tell me the meaning of this title?!

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
Maksim Mrvica- Dance of the Baroness

Ah... I'm majestic?!

What song will play at my funeral?
Robbie Williams- Come Undone

Well that's rather true isn't it?

What type of men do I like?
Ni He Wo He Ta Zhi Jian

Love triangle?!

What is my day going to be like?
Britney Spears- Overprotected

Hmm....

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

Dong Dong Dong!

"Dong Dong Dong, 1,2,3... Kuishin-Bo..."

Muahaha wonderful wonderful dinner after a long long wait to have Kuishin-Bo!! We were supposed to go there in March, but because the people there don't pick up the phone, we didn't manage to go there in the end. HOWEVER, on Sunday, we walked up there and BOOKED it for tonight! YES!!

Kuishin-Bo is a worthwhile place to go. The sashimi's great, the ALASKAN SNOW CRAB is GREAT, and the chilled prawns too. The sushi flavours are interesting- Salmon with Avocado. And at sporadic moments, there will be "Dong Don Dong...!!!" which means the restaurant's special giveaways like Mochi Ice cream or lobster put with some type of sauce. Look at the pictures and u'll know! =D


THIS is the Alaskan Snow Crab. There was ALOT of meat inside I guarantee you. Just look at this plate. It took about 15 min to finish this whole plate, even though it looks like there's only a bit there? If you're wondering if the crab's fresh, yes, it definitely is. Can you imagine what the WHOLE crab would look like? ;)







And here's the overall picture of the paper steamboat. Don't be alarmed when you learn of the Japanese name for it. It's Kami Nabe (pronounced as ka-mi na-beh). So be careful to look at the person's mouth when hearing the pronunciation! =)















And this is what's inside the steamboat. This is chicken flavour, and there's another one, beef flavour. We only managed to have one though, and I'm gonna order that the next time we go. Yes, you heard it right- next time. The soup's great! The meat's chewy, hmm... but I didn't get to try the rest of it. I was too slow!!







And here's one of the specials; the first one, in fact- lobster and shrimp and cream sauce. Ooh lala, fantastique! Later on there were Mochi Ice creams, candy floss, lobster with black pepper sauce and some more, but I was too busy eating to take pictures. Haha!!!








Ok and here's what our table looked like at our last round of the buffet. Von! We're waiting for you! =)











Oh yah, Von, Mummy asked me to take this picture to show you. I also don't know why, but I think it's something along the lines of what you would have done when faced with unfinished food and thinking of a way to hide it. =) For the rest of you, well, the base is actually strawberry pudding, topped with one white and one black tart wrapper and an orange peel. The toppings actually serve to hide the base.





Yes, and see my blissful face?













Yi Lun looks like that 'cause she was enjoying her cafe latte (they said it was nice, by the way) and I disturbed her by asking her to take photo.










Von, this picture is for you! Papa purposely posed for you one!!! =D He's holding a dragon-fruit, and doesn't he look handsome?











Yep, and this is the end of my Kuishin-Bo experience. To quote my Primary one recommended composition ending, "We are happy."

"Dong Dong Dong, 1,2,3... Kuishin-Bo!"

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Sushi Buffet!

I was surfing the Sakae Sushi website last night when I came across this:























Really tempted to try it out, but the flip side is that there'll be no transport, so it means I might have to go with my parents, who are, unfortunately, not sushi enthusiasts. Well, Tay Yi Fang! I'm counting on you! When you come back we shall try the supper buffet together k? Then papa and mummy won't be likely to say no! ;)

Well, on the normal side of the sushi buffet...


These are the teatime, lunch and dinner buffets offered by Sakae Sushi. Interesting, eh? I always thought Sakae Sushi only has teatime buffet. Ah well, I've been enlightened. Anyway, anyone knows where OUB centre is? =)

I can't wait for our sushi buffet!!! =D

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

Tagged tagged tagged tagged tagged

Yep, and since I have nothing better to write in my blog, I shall complete Tay Ah Fang's chain tag.

Five Songs Which You Know All The Lyrics Right Off Your Head

#1- Angela Zhang: Yi Shi De Mei Hao (Man, that's my favourite song)

#2 - Jessica Simpson & Nick Lachey: Where You Are

#3 - Coco Lee: Before I Fall In Love (Brings back memories...)

#4 - Rascall Flatts: God Blessed the Broken Road (Very very sweeeeeet song!)

#5 -Angela Zhang or Corrinne May (It doesn't matter who-both are nice): Journey


Five Things You Would Do If You Were A Millionaire

#1 - Travel round the world!

#2 - Build a house for my parents

#3 - Shopping!

#4 - Save

#5 - Buy new furniture- noozer spoils them, don't ask me how.

** As a sidenote, I think there's something wrong with the question. I don't think a million would be able to support all these.... haha... Maybe we should say Multi-millionaire instead, eh?


Five Bad Habits

#1 - Procrastinating

#2 -Worrying too much

#3 - Fertile imagination=> it's so fertile, I think it would support a whole ecological system for a forest...

#4 - Paranoid

#5 - Long-winded


Five Things You Like Doing

#1 - Lazing my days away like now

#2 - Daydreaming

#3 - Sleeping

#4 - Reading

#5 - Puns


Five Things You Will Never Wear, Buy Or Get New Again?

#1 - Yep, that's for sure, BRACES

#2 - Canteen 2 Spaghetti

#3 - Canteen 2 Lontong, or the food from that stall, for that matter

#4 - Heavy metal CDs

#5 - I'm sure there's alot, but I can't remember them offhand


Five Favourite Toys/Things (not putting people cus they're not things)

#1 - My laptop- Can't live without it

#2 - Schnoozee, even though he drives me CRAZY with his pee. On second thoughts, is Shnoozee a thing?

#3 - My bolster

#4 - Romance stories. Yah, I'm a sucker for romance...

#5 - Grease. The movie!

Monday, May 08, 2006

Me, Myself and I

from Lina's blog

Maybe I should just scream in the middle of Orchard Road during lunch time one day.

I love puns. They are so clever!

I don't understand why Schnoozee refuses to pee on newspapers. Oh, and I don't understand people too.

I lose my things easily, because I'm usually distracted.

People say I look like a carbon copy of my father. But I think I'm looking more like my mother as I grow up.

Love is when your puppy runs up to you when you come home even when he has been ignored the whole day. I really love that quote =)

Somewhere, someone is waiting for us.

I will always love you only happens when you find The One.

Forever is when you don't have anymore regrets in life.

I never want my family to become estranged.

I think the current US President should chew his pretzels more carefully.

When I wake up in the morning I wish it was still night.

My past was too sheltered.

I get annoyed when I lose my things.

Parties are for mingling.

My dog is so adorable you wanna bite him and keep his eyes.

My cat is non-existent. I hate cats.

Kisses are the best when they're sincere.

Tomorrow, I'm going to look for the gourmetclub publication by SMU. Anyone has any friends from SMU?

I really want to laze everyday away just like now.

I have low tolerance for people who treat others like they are ignorant or stupid.

Saturday, May 06, 2006

Post-Exam

Evon was right. The maximum number of movies I can humanly watch in a day is TWO. Pathetic, isn't it? Just watching two already made my eyes wanna drop. Of course, it's two movies and a few hours of tv. Haha, I love this decadent lifestyle, and I can soooo get used to it. It just makes me not want to go look for a job or something to do this hols, and just stay home, read books, watch tv, go out... basically just rot at home. Oh man... Is this the nature of an introvert, or a lazy bum? I suspect both.

Today's polling day, and results are due to be out "in a short while", as mentioned repeatedly by the reporters since 10pm. I've decided not to wait. The wait's until 2am for goodness' sake! Well, the latest news is that PAP has won Yio Chu Kang, but lost Hougang to Workers' Party. Hmm, at least it wasn't lost to SDP. As Alvin (my cousin) says, "PAP will win, it's just a matter of how many oppositions will win". Yep, and that's rather a worry, isn't it? Hehe, just call me a PAP supporter. Do you think Parliament will turn out to be rather Taiwan-esque? Haha, that will be something we'll know soon enough.

Anyway, politics is something I'm not good at analyzing about, so we shall stop there before I say something that's offensive. I can't afford legal fees.

So. End of exams, 1 month of worry for results, 3 months of freedom. What to do?

Oh, and Evon: I'm not gonna do the chain thing. I can't think of any smart-ass answers like u do. =)

Sunday, April 30, 2006

Something to make you smile and hopefully laugh!

Haha! I read this on Live Journal just now... Enjoy!
Hospital Charts
1. She has no rigors or shaking chills , but her husband states she was very hot in bed last night. 2.. Patient has chest pain if she lies on her left side for over a year.
3. On the second day the knee was better, and on the third day it disappeared.
4. The patient is tearful and crying constantly. She also appears to be depressed.
5. The patient has been depressed since she began seeing me in 1993.
6. Discharge status: Alive but without my permission.
7. Healthy appearing decrepit 69 year old male, mentally alert but forgetful.
8. The patient refused autopsy
9. The patient has no previous history of suicides.
10. Patient has left white blood cells at another hospital.
11. Patient's medical history has been remarkably insignificant with only a 40 pound weight gain in the past three days.
12. Patient had waffles for breakfast and anorexia for lunch.
13. She is numb from her toes down.
14. While in ER, she was examined, x-rated and sent home.
15. The skin was moist and dry.
16. Occasional, constant infrequent headaches.
17. Patient was alert and unresponsive.
18. Rectal examination revealed a normal size thyroid.
19. She stated that she had been constipated for most of her life, until she got a divorce.
20. I saw your patient today, who is still under our car for physical therapy.
21. Both breasts are equal and reactive to light and accommodation.
22. Examination of genitalia reveals that he is circus sized.
23. The lab test indicated abnormal lover function.
24. The patient was to have a bowel resection. However, he took a job as a stock broker instead. 25. Skin: somewhat pale but present.
26. The pelvic exam will be done later on the floor.
27. Patient was seen in consultation by Dr. Blank, who felt we should sit on the abdomen and I agree.
28. Large brown stool ambulating in the hall.
29. Patient has two teenage children, but no other abnormalities.

Saturday, April 15, 2006

Generativity vs Stagnation and Other Thoughts...

You know, reading about Erikson's life stage for middle adulthood makes me think that Hitler, Stalin and other famous people in history should be proud that they managed to maneuver their 'crises' to become generative in mid-life.

The 7th stage of Erikson's life stages theory, Generativity vs Stagnation, says that "generativity encompasses adults' desire to leave legacies of themselves to the next generation"(Peterson, 2002). On the other hand, stagnation happens when individuals sense that they have done nothing for the next generation. Hitler has certainly left a legacy behind, and who says he hasn't left behind valuable lessons for us?

1) League of Nations was a failure, without the co-operation of the superpowers of the world (US and Britain) (As a sidenote, don't you think this sounds incredibly reminiscent of a particularly significant event in 2002?). Anyway, from the League of Nations grew the United Nations, which learnt from the mistakes made by their predecessor (?).

2) The world of politics is DIRTY. Hitler and Stalin could play this game well I'll admit... Imagine, each agreeing with the other on what they want from the other, but all the while planning attacks.

3) And who has forgotten the extermination of 2 million (or was it more?) Jews in WWII?

Hitler has immortalised himself, all right. Ok, so to pinpoint Hitler in this post seems unfair, coz the whole History thing has more than one players, and of course, we are forgetting the roles played by heroes, like... Mother Teresa, Ghandhi (though I know some feel it's debatable whether he's actually a hero) etc. I'm just feeling a tad bitchy today, so humour me, ya? ;)

Oh, yes, if you look at it from another perspective, we could probably also say Hitler was stagnated (self-absorbed). He didn't contribute anything to the next generations except horror. So, yah, I guess you could say Hitler was stagnated. But to be fair to him, he wanted to restore Germany's pride, and restore his homeland, so to a certain extent he probably wasn't very self-absorbed. Ah well, I still stand by my first opinion that he's generative. =)

Ahh.. and I realise I can probably never manage to become a great psychologist who practices what she preaches, coz I have gotta face reality. I can't always look at the situations when making attributions to behaviour. I'm a victim of the Fundamental Attribution Error! *GASP*

The Fundamental Attribution Error (FAE) is the tendency for observers to overestimate a person's behaviour as his/her disposition, and neglect the situational causes of that behaviour. Let's say we see this father smacking his daughter in a shopping centre. The first thought we have might be that the father is cruel, and neglect the possibility that his daughter was probably making a ruckus a while ago.

I realised that if one always takes into account the situational factors before getting angry or making judgments, that person must be a truly understanding person who never ever gets angry, because that person would be able to understand that the actor's behaviour may not be his intention. OK, some of you may be thinking, if there is a consistency to this person's behaviour and a lack of distinctiveness in the types of situation this behaviour is exhibited, we probably have a right to get angry. Well, I would not disagree with you, but I think somehow the observer's anger may be attenuated?

I don't think I can be as understanding and as good-tempered as that. Much as I would want to be, and try hard to be, sometimes I just don't wanna look at the situational factors. Sometimes the same behaviour may occur again and again, to make it seem far-fetched that the situation is causing it. Though I said before that the observer's anger may be attenuated, I think I'd feel even more frustrated at that, because I think I'm justified in feeling that anger or frustration. BUT, to be really angry or frustrated, wouldn't I be spoiling my own self-concept as a good, understanding person? Ahh... and now here comes cognitive dissonance, as I try to justify my anger, and if my self-justification goes in the selfish direction, I probably would carry on in my way of thinking that the person is always wrong.

Oh, and all these are hypothetical, of course, in case you're wondering.

And in hindsight, I realise that this entry may seem rather illogical and I may have gotten my concepts wrong. Haha... Somehow I had it straight in my head, but once I typed it out they seem to have gone a funny way..... =S

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

Scary!!!

Yi Lun just told me this ghost story. I felt it was too exciting to keep to myself, so I shall blog about it.

There was this security guard and his partner working in this office building. They were supposed to patrol the grounds after the office building closed. This security guard kept seeing something white at the corner of his eye. At first he thought it was his imagination coz it was after working hours, and the office building was empty except for the 2 of them. However, he soon became bothered by this 'vision'. He asked his friend if there was anything beside him. The friend said no. So he thought he was just tired and decided to go wash his face. In the toilet, he looked into the mirror. There was something at the corner of his eye.

























A rice grain.

Thursday, April 06, 2006

Exam Sleepiness

Exams are coming in 2 weeks!! Oh man... And I'm behind in my revision. So many chapters unread, and heard we're gonna need more than luck for Social Psychology! =S Scary...

I feel a sense of relief, though, that the projects are done, and they seem to have been done rather satisfactorily. I hope. Based on the presentation last week, I would say our content's fine. Now it's the content of the portfolio....

I think it's the stress that's slowly building that's making me feel so sleepy these days. No matter how much sleep I get, it's still not enough. My eyes still want to close! It was like that during mid-sem when I was studying for the HP101 test. I just felt like sleeping and sleeping. Ah well, after the exams I'm gonna find one day to sleep the day away!! =) Man am I looking forward to that. *satisfied grin*

You know, I should have read Psychology stuff before my A-level GP paper. Seriously, there's so much info about prejudice, groupthink, etc etc, wonderful GP stuff. Too bad each time I tell Evon and Yi Lun about it, they are too busy to read it. To be expected, I guess. Year 2's a busy busy year. Haha, I doubt I'd have paid much attention to it until the last minute too...

Anyway, I'm going back to the land of mugging....

Monday, March 27, 2006

The Light is Appearing... Sooooon..

At long last, after this week is over, I can heave a sigh of relief. CS814 will be handed in tomorrow, and one more project down, one more to go. I can't wait. It's like this pressure cooker in me man...

Anyway, I think I haven't done much for HP203, so after tomorrow, I shall devote my attention to it! And then, we shall go back to the books. I haven't opened my textbooks since last week. Man I'm so way behind in my revision.

Thanks Si Huan for being so efficient with HP203 and doing so much, and covering our butts when we were doing CS814. I shall give all my attention to it this week! =) I think without that girl ah, our group would be rather behind time. Hopefully, after this, she can have enough rest... If anyone's having a bigger pressure cooker inside them, I think it's her. Hey, I hope you don't mind me talking about you here!!

Haha, so it's in a light hearted mood that I'm typing here, and I gotta go to sleep already, since I'm gonna have 8 hours of sleep, starting now....

Sunday, March 19, 2006

PMS

I hate it. Never took notice of it, but this time it was practically staring me in the face that I just had to notice it.

It's been a maelstrom of emotional upheaval this week, mostly with me getting moody and irritated with no apparent reason. I don't even know why I got irritated. Sheesh. It's a bad feeling... bad bad bad... And I find it hard to tolerate myself, much less my family. Wonder how they could stand me without getting fed up this week. Even I'm disgusted with myself.

Ahh.. the beginning of a new week. Let's just hope the stupid moodswings won't start. School's soooo not the place to have moodswings and be irritable. I don't wanna get all moody and then affect the others.

Wish me luck!

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

One Down, Two More to Go!

Yay! Another project finished! Another load off our shoulders! Now it's down to CS814 and HP203. Not that worried bout HP203 though, cos that one still has 2 more weeks to its due that. But I'm worried bout CS814. Technically it's due in 2 weeks' time as well, but it's due on MONDAY. Yep, so in actual fact, we have a week to do it. I know we should start on it this week, but HP202 just ended today!! And I'm going out of school tomorrow, and won't be back on Thursday. Please please please don't ask me to come back on Thursday!

Luckily, Dr Ang thought our presentation was fine. When I read her guidelines yesterday, I was quite worried, and wondered if our group had actually followed what she wanted. Thank goodness it was fine! Haha, I think this project couldn't have been completed so efficiently (seriously! We rushed through it from last week to yesterday! It was only 2 days you know, excluding the weekend). I still think this group is a GREAT group where everyone tries and DOES do their part without ever complaining about their load. I like it that everyone tries to help everyone. =) Hmm... hopefully next Academic Year we can consider being in the same tutorial groups again? What do you think? ;)

Anyway, I have to go back to doing my tutorial. Take care! =D

Concert in NTU

So exciting! Zhang Shao Han is coming to NTU for a concert! Hope I can get tickets though, otherwise it'll be so disappointing! I quite like her songs, so I hope to see her live!

Hmm... I wouldn't mind if Guang Liang came to NTU too.. I'd love to hear him sing Tong Hua live too... Why is it that only Chinese singers come here to hold their concert? What happened to the English singers?!

Asked Yi Lun and Angel to come along too. Think they might like to come along, especially Angel, who loves this sort of events. She's quite poor thing lah, actually, whole day stay at home... Not that she works on her English particularly hard when she's at home. In fact, I think she hardly touches her English stuff. There's no motivation within her to want to do well for the subject. Doesn't she realise her family's counting on her to get into a local school so that they can do their business here?! Ah well... Hopefully one day it'll finally click in her and she'll work harder. She only watches tv at home!! If she watches tv and learns her English from the subtitles it's ok. But I have a feeling she hardly even glances at it. Anyone has any idea how to motivate her?