Sunday, August 27, 2006

Passion for something...

Everytime I think "This is it, I've found something I really like and hope to further my interest in it", I end up losing interest in it. In JC, it was Literature. This time, it's in language and Psychology, two of the fields I've always been very interested in.

There's just this block that prevents me from really having the desire to want to continue reading on and thinking more about it. It wasn't like this last academic year, but it seems to be now. Perhaps it's because of Cognitive Psych, or perhaps it's the textbook (which makes me rather shallow I think), or perhaps it's the increasing pressure of having to maintain my grades attained last year. Though I know it wasn't exactly very great since it wasn't first class, I like to think I've come out of my own shadow in Secondary school and have improved since then.

Or maybe it's the fact that this 2nd year has started off with several unknown variables- Research Assistant job, tuition, 6 subjects, a separate project group and a continuation of CCA in school- things which I have to take time to slowly get used to and feel my way around first. I realise now I shouldn't have been so ambitious as to take up so many commitments, but life isn't gonna be as kind to me as in school now, where I can have the option of choosing which commitments to drop and which to follow up. Furthermore, a word given is a word given. Ah, never mind, I shall take it easy and see how it goes from here. Stress and Yi Ling never goes well together, and well I should know that, from Secondary school when I insisted on taking 9 subjects when I simply shouldn't have.

Ambition, ambition. Maybe I should follow Evon's fantasy and go live as a hermit or something. Maybe then I'd recover my interest in humans. I feel rather drained. I think it's cos most of the modules I'm taking involve humans and a certain degree of empathy. I'm unable to feel that once again. This lack of empathy was what made my Lit results in Prelims so disastrous. I just felt so dried up. That's why I was a bit afraid of taking up Psychology. There was a fear I might go into something which I really felt I could feel for and then subsequently lose interest in it. Perhaps I'm not psychologist material after all after this episode, but it's the only field which I can connect with and feel a passion for.

Or perhaps this is just a result of the long holidays, where I got so used to slacking at home that subconsciously I was unhappy about the fact that I'd have to give all of that up to go back to study. I've just gotta change my mindset and get back to that studying mode.

Yep, 'nuff said. I'm gonna pull up my socks and try harder!!

Beginning of school...

Today was the last day of tuition. I'm gonna miss my students! Although I know I often complain about their lack of attention and whine about how to improve their standards, they've been an adorable bunch to teach. Not only adorable, they've been so sweet! I shall always remember Jonell's sudden remark, "Teacher, you know what? My hobby is saving money." and Bryan's generous gesture of giving Yi Lun two mechanical pencils when he heard it was her birthday. There're so many things which I can remember about them, but it would take quite long to repeat them all here. =) Suffice it to say that I'll miss them!!

Here's the picture I took with them!


From left: Me, Jonell, Bryan







Haha, what started out as a job became something of an activity. They're more like mentees rather than students, seriously. Although I never really looked forward to going for tuition (cos their tuition's after lunch and I get really sleepy), once there, I get kinda energised. You never know what kind of revelation they're gonna spring on you, seriously.

Anyway, with tuition ended, my Saturdays will be free of interruptions. Hopefully I'll get to catch up on my readings. I'm trying to keep up, but it's an uphill task. I've kinda decided to just start afresh this week and try to get my readings done. As for last week's readings... well, I guess I'm gonna have to let it slide for awhile. Man... I must get round to doing them. Especially for Cognitive Psychology, with the test one week away. Argh. How am I gonna remember the visual pathways etc etc?

DAC Welcome Tea's this coming Tuesday, and guess what? I'm gonna be the emcee for the event! Evon says it's cool to be able to do it, and would look nice on my CV yadayada, and I think it'd be a nice experience too. However, I do hope I'll be able to be interesting, cos I'm simply not the entertaining kind of speaker. I can't just pull jokes out of my head and say it in a deadpan tone that'd make people laugh. I wish I could do that. I always admire people who can think fast on their feet. No surprise why I gave up the thought of pursuing law then, eh? This is my first time emcee-ing, and it's in an LT, in front of possible 100+ people. I'm rather nervous about it, actually. It's not like presentation, where I'm presenting to a class. It's like... to a sample of the NTU population. I hope I do a good job!!

Sunday, August 13, 2006

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Words of Affirmation.

Complete set of results

Quality Time: 9
Words of Affirmation: 8
Acts of Service: 5
Physical Touch: 5
Receiving Gifts: 3


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Monday, July 31, 2006

Great People!

Seriously, I've got wonderful people around me. My family, and my friends. Haha I'm so lucky!

Take today, for instance. Our biggest sponsor (I'm not gonna post up the name here, lest I get sued) delayed our printing again. And made changes again. And this time, the biggest change was to change the content back to the original content which they had told us to delete the first time, which was, what, 2 revisions ago?! It's not as if we have all the time in the world to cater to them you know. The recruitment fair's next week, and we have to print 2000 copies of magazines.

So. My family knew how frustrated I was, and left me alone. They also scolded the sponsors (not in front of them, of course) on my behalf, and.. when I decided not to go for dinner with PaSYm, they knew how disappointed I was (well I've been talking about it since last week!) but still supported my decision. And when I finally decided to go for the dinner after all, they offered to send me to the venue itself despite the rush hour and so on! So sweet rite? My poor father was rushing through his dinner just to send me there on time. Oh man.. So sweeeeeeeet!

Mira was a darling too! Instead of getting frustrated over my fickle-mindedness (I told her I was eating at home, and the next, I had decided to go out), she accepted it.

Then... PaSYm. Thank you Merrilyn for offering to pray for me! That's so sweet! And for listening to me blubbering over the phone even though you didn't understand what the hell I was saying. Haha I was trying to hold my tears then. Hee... And for consoling me! And Si Huan, thanks for the SMS too! That was so sweet. The rest of PaSYm, thanks for being such great companies today!! I always have fun with you all!

Ooh, and one more person I must mention, even though she'll most probably never read this blog, since she doesn't know about it. The incoming DAC president, Lee Shi Ming. She's wonderful. She's so understanding and patient. I think she knew I was upset with the sponsor for making so many changes to the layout, and even though she was also upset and frustrated with them, she still listened (or read) me rant on and on, and she offered to talk to them if they tried to make anymore requests. Wow. And she even encouraged me to go out to take a break when she was also stuck at home doing the publication. I'm glad she's the incoming president =)

Besides this, there are also others whom I wanna mention. Of course, the order is in no order of merit. Everyone's GREAT

Jie Ting and Jiun Pey:
I love shopping with them!! They are wonderful shopping buddies. Patient, honest, and fun! That time I went Chinatown with them, it was practically my shopping trip, coz they had gone there already the week before. Goodness, they just kept watching me change in and out of clothes and offering suggestions, and just going wherever I wanted to go. I felt bad about it, but they didn't seem to mind... (hmm to me lar, but Jie Ting said she really didn't, and Jiun Pey too.. ) I don't know how Jieting also always manages to find bargains, but I'm thankful that she does, coz her recommendations are always great. =)

Serene:
Do you know, I think I really got closer to her after we became roommates. She's a wonderful girl! I mean, I knew she was wonderful lar, but staying with her made me appreciate just how wonderful she is. Hey Serene, if you're reading this, I had a great year staying with you! I just hope we can stay together again next AY! Haha.. She's always been a good listening ear, always listening to me rant on and on, and she's quite patient too! Haha, how many people can stand another person talking in her sleep? ;)

Yaying and Yanfang:
Haha they are wonderful talking company!! I can just sit with them and we can just talk on and on and on! About anything in particular I think, which is great! It's just too bad that we can't meet more often than every holiday.. =(

Melissa:
Haha how could I forget her? Well even though we just meet like once every hols, I rather like hanging out with her. Haha shopping with her's fun and I realise I learn about fashion from her most times... hmm I just have to figure out how to make my own jewellery...

JK:
Hey I didn't forget you!! He's my cousin! A really really great guy, and the girl who's with him is one lucky girl k... He's so nice to talk to, and so reliable and dependable, I swear, if you're looking for a husband, he should be the type you're looking for. But enough about advertising him. I just wanna say, thank you JK for being there when I'm frustrated or not in a good mood. Haha, he's probably the only guy who actually listens to me whine.. *embarrassed*

Siwei:
Hehe, surprised to see your name here? Actually, I never expected to remain in contact with you after 8 years leh. But it's a good thing! Haha it has gotta be some kind of record right? And I really enjoyed going out with you that day. Haha, and your vcds!! I MUST borrow them in November!! Well, I'm thankful I remained in contact with you... =)

So... yah, a BIG Thank You to all of you. You've made my life very meaningful, and I'm very grateful that I met you all. =)

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

Jonathan Leong

Bird, you wanted to see his picture? Haha, this was the best I could find leh... I saw some others also, but they aren't saveable.. =( Haha I know this picture isn't very nice, and doesn't express Jonathan Leong's charm, so watch Singapore Idol!! =D

Saturday, July 22, 2006

Elvin Ng

Yesyesyes! I found a nice picture!

Singapore Idol part 2

Well, watching Singapore Idol live wasn't as fun as I expected it to be, I guess partly coz I could barely hear what the idols were singing, partly coz their performances weren't exactly stellar this week, and mostly coz I didn't get to take a photo with Jonathan Leong! And the other idols, for that matter. =(

I was sooo hoping to take a photo with him. Haha, he might not be exactly good looking, but he's charming on stage, and his voice! his eyes! Oooh... haha... JK: I'm NOT drooling k! I'm admiring! Haha.. Why don't I ever meet these kind of guys?

Ah.. another guy worth mentioning here while I'm going on and on about charming guys is Elvin Ng!! Haha he might not be counted as good-looking cos of his teeth, but... there's just something about him-maybe his eyes- that just melts the heart. Haha, or maybe I've gotten too carried away by the show and gotten charmed by his character. Nonetheless, his character in the show is charming in the sense that he's a nice, shy guy... Haha... the sappy romantic in me again... =) And I think he acts well too! The way he looks at Rui-en... Whoa.. haha wish there was someone who looked at me like that... =)

Anyway, I tried to look for photos of him, but after awhile, what I could find was this:


Yah, not very good looking here I know, but this was the best I could find. Haha, I promise to find a better one!!







And now, I wanna go back to sleep. Take care!

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Singapore Idol

If everything goes well tomorrow, I'm gonna watch Singapore Idol! Yay!

Please please please don't let any meetings crop up!!!

Monday, July 17, 2006

And the story is....

Alas, United Nations we're not meant to be. Natalia decided to move out of our house. So sad... I was hoping to learn more about Russia, since it seems to be such a removed place from my sphere of knowledge. Haha.. But I guess there'll be others?

United Nations

United Nations is what my house is turning into, or going to turn to in the near future.

A Russian girl, Natalia (don't know if that's how you spell it, Russian spelling and all), came last night with her friend Anastacia (I like this name, but again, Russian spelling and all, I might have spelt it wrong), who was here for the night. Haha, Anastacia said she knows Natalia, but when the latter arrived, she didn't know her.

If everything goes according to schedule, there'll be another Russian coming soon. o.O

I know your eyes are probably bulging with surprise now. How the hell are we gonna communicate with the Russians right? Well, I don't have an answer to that now, but I promise I'll tell you when I find out.

Now here's a riddle: What food is it that has black eggs, and the rice is put with water?

Haha, betcha managed to guess it was century egg porridge. Anastacia was given that when she was staying in another Singaporean's house. Haha, she called up her family in Russia and said, "They gave me black eggs! And they gave me rice, and they put water inside it!" Haha, this probably shows the difference between Russians and the East. Russia's just too far away from Singapore, bet they didn't even know of our existence until their parents wanted to send them over here to learn English. Why here for goodness' sake?! Well I don't know the answer to that either, but I'll see if I can ask Natalia that. Incidentally, I like the name Natalie too. Haha.

And this morning: when Anastacia was given a ham and cheese sandwich (ham and cheese for God's sake! How different is that?), she exclaimed, "OH MY GOD! WHAT IS THAT?!" And refused to eat it. Haha... Maybe they don't have the packet cheese like we do here?

Well anyway, that Anastacia's pretty loaded.. hmm, "pretty" is an understatement. Very would be more correct. She has been here 2 weeks, and she has spent USD700 so far. That translates to about S$1400. Amazing eh?

Haha, I know I sound like I don't really like them, but... I guess I'm not used to their ways, and neither are they to mine. Or maybe to them I'm suaku, just as I think they are suaku. Haha, our culture's probably alien to them, just as theirs is to me. Perhaps this is a good time to learn more about a distant country. =) Wish me luck! Hope I can become friends with Natalia and learn more about Russia so I won't become a goondu next time.. haha =)

Friday, July 14, 2006

Sleeping patterns and slacking

Haha, contrary to what I tagged on Si Huan's blog awhile ago, now I seem to have problems keeping my eyes open. -_-" It's getting to be a pattern: a period of sleeplessness, followed by a period of sleepiness. Cripes! It's getting a bit irritating, coz I never had much problem sleeping in the past. Don't tell me my times of great REM sleep are over?! I hope not. I so love REM sleep. Imagine thekind of sleep where it takes soooo much effort to open your eyes, your limbs feel deliciously heavy, and when you finally manage to reach consciousness, all it takes is to close your eyes before you reach slumberland AND- here's the best part- go back to where you stopped in your dream. Heaven.

Hmm. Does slacking have anything to do with this difference in sleeping patterns? Or maybe the stress of the publication's getting to me, such that the escapist in me is trying to find solace in sleep. This usually happens around exam times, particularly since I started school in NTU. Sleeping's such a fun activity! No worries, no reality. It's the only time when I don't have to worry about deadlines, about survival, about many other things. Well, I wish I could sleep whenever I want, but once the term starts, well, it's not gonna be possible. Time table's not very friendly to me this coming sem. I've got lessons at 930! Well, at least it's not 830, but still... Thursday ends at 730! =( Ah well, on the bright side, hopefully I'll manage to get both the science PEs, and put an end to science modules for the rest of my 4 years. Then next will be the biz modules, THEN I shall be left in peace to go do the other modules which I can bet are much more interesting than biz and science. I was never one for science, although I know my arts subjects are not particularly spectacular as well. BUT in terms of interest, the Arts win anytime. I love figuring out the Lit stuff. It's like solving a mystery- when you finally uncover what the author or poet's trying to say through the symbols or metaphors or whatever it is they use, there's this sense of satisfaction, and an admiration for the creator of the piece. That's why writers are to be respected. No one can play with words the way they can. It's so brilliant! History's fun too, but I absolutely hate studying for it. Geog's another matter though. Haha, I could never understand it. =( Anyway, I'm digressing. My point is that, Arts is so much more satisfying than the Science for me. Haha, think if I had been in the Science stream in JC I wouldn't even have qualified for university. Probably would have gone mad there. Haha... =)

I'm rewatching Meteor Garden and it's still charming me!! Probably coz the chemistry between Da S and Jerry Yen's still great. Love to watch them bicker. Haha and I still get hooked to the story, even though this is probably the third time I'm watching this show. And it's not only me who's hooked. Camella and Yi Lun are hooked too! And this is also Yi Lun's third, if not, second time watching it. Meteor Garden's different from other idol dramas I feel, and somehow, none of them can match up to it. Haha. I'm glad I bought the DVD. I've been wanting to own one. =)

Well. I have to go sleep now. Haven't blogged like this for quite awhile, and it's kinda cathartic to do so. Kinda feel lighter now, which is good. On the other hand, a part of me's getting heavier......

Monday, July 10, 2006

Fly Away

"When will you be home?" she asks
as we watch the planes take off
We both know we have no clear answer to where my
dreams may lead
She's watched me as i crawled and stumbled
As a child, she was my world
And now to let me go, I know she bleeds
and yet she says to me
You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far
apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away
Autumn leaves fell into spring time and
Silver-painted hair
Daddy called one evening saying
"We need you. Please come back"
When I saw her laying in her bed
Fragile as a child Pale just like an angel taking flight
I held her as I cried

You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky I
'll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away
ohh...
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away
- Corrine May
This song still makes me cry. Corrine May is a darn good singer.

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Studying overseas

I have thought about studying overseas quite a few times. Would I miss home? Would I be change in any way? Would I be able to travel to different places during the holidays? Perhaps the answers would be in the affirmative. However, many times I have countered these thoughts with the consolation that everything near and dear to me is more important than a new environment with less stress etc. Perhaps there would be stress, but of a different kind. Perhaps I would miss home, but it will pass. I won't say I regret staying back in Singapore to study, but I'll admit, some times I just wish I had gone overseas.

With Evon and Yi Lun going to or planning to study overseas, and with other friends going overseas to study too, it just seems like there is a much wider world out there when I study overseas. Although Singapore is a cosmopolitan society and we're in no way more ulu than our counterparts from other countries, the thing about studying locally is that there is no reason to go overseas with our friends during the holidays. I mean, those studying in places like UK, NZ, US, Australia etc will get to explore other places in Europe, or the country. What can I do? Travel to Malaysia, which I have done on several occasions? Furthermore, there's less chance of actually experiencing more, in a sense.

Ah.. I don't quite know what I want, actually. On one hand I would love to be able to study overseas, or at least travel, but on the other hand, I have little confidence that I'll be able to keep myself from missing my family and friends and the things back home...

Sunday, June 25, 2006

Ooh!!

Ahhhh I'm in love in love in love!! With this dishy-licious guy call Hu Ge ( 胡歌). All thanks to Jorene, who lent me her DVD for 天外飞仙, now I just love seeing his face. He's so cute!! Haha, let me show you some pictures of him and stop sounding so much like a bimbo. ;)



Look at him! Good-looking eh? But this is from the Chinese Paladin and not 天外飞仙... He looks much better here than in the latter, but still good-looking nonetheless... =)









Doesn't he look cute here too?








Haha, but I think he looks better in period dramas than modern dramas. Hai, the sad fact of life.... Hmm, don't you think he looks like Daniel Radcliffe here?






And this, is a pic of Hu Ge with his co-star in 天外飞仙, Ariel Lin Yi Chen... cute! =)








Haha, another actor who's eye-candy's Tae!! He's Thai, but he stayed in Taiwan to learn Chinese from what I read. Nonetheless, he's good for the eyes too!

Oh man, Jorene Cheng Siwei! What have you done to me?!

Ok, besides the cast, the show is great too! There were quite a few touching scenes inside which made me cry... I recommend this show! And Hu Ge played this super nice guy, it was just so endearing. Haha, that was what made me decide to go find his photos. =)

Ahh yes, the pictures were from:
http://asianfanatics.net/forum/lofiversion/index.php/t115185.html
http://asianfanatics.net/gallery/index.php?act=thumbs&aid=2060



Sunday, June 18, 2006

Books!

I really really love books, especially storybooks, especially romance. Muahahaha, goodness knows why though, but I do.

I just bought three storybooks recently- The Time-Traveller's Wife, Lolita, and Ash Wednesday- and I've finished The Time-Traveller's Wife and am going on to Ash Wednesday now. The Time-Traveller's Wife was such a great story! Made every cent of it worth the money. I just finished it at 1 plus this afternoon, and I was crying all the way.

The Time-Traveller's Wife is a story about this guy Henry, whose genetic code has some problem, such that at sporadic intervals, he will travel through time to some time in his memory. For some reason, he often travels to his wife's- Clare's- past, back when she was a little girl, all the way till she was 18. Clare knew all about his life, and vice versa. Thing is, he visited her past when he was in his 30s and 40s, while he met her for real at 28, so when he met her for real, he didn't know who she was, but she had all those memories of him. It's kinda sad, but there's nothing both of them can do about it. It was touching, the way they loved each other. Whenever Henry was gone time-travelling, Clare would worry, and throughout the time Henry was visiting Clare's past, Clare had to understand that though they were married in the future, at the present Henry did not yet know of her existence, and thus was still leading a rather rakish life. Henry, on the other hand, had to understand that during the time he did not see Clare (from the time when Clare was 18 to 20, because during that time Henry did not appear anymore), Clare was free to see whoever she wanted, because while Clare was waiting for Henry to appear, Henry was still leading his own life without any awareness to Clare's existence, and surely Clare was free to lead her own life as normally as she could. It's kind of a twisted logic within the book, where it seems that past, present and future coexist at the same time. One can travel to the past and spend, like, a day there, and then go back to the present, where only about 10min was spent, so it's kinda like perceiving past and present as separated by many years, or a few minutes. At the last part, the part which I was reading this morning, Henry knew when he was dying, and he used the knowledge to organise stuff that might happen after his death. He died in Clare's past, but Clare was not aware of that. In the end, he reappeared in his present, in Clare's and his daughter's arms. It's heartbreaking to see two people so in love having to leave each other, and it's so hard to be Clare, knowing when Henry was going to leave and die sometime in her past but being unable to help stop whatever it was that was making him go off or prevent his death. I can only imagine the helplessness Clare must have felt.

Fortunately, or unfortunately, depending on how you see it, while Henry was alive, he time-travelled to the future sometimes, such that he could see his daughter as she was growing up, and at the last page, see Clare when she was 82, so it's abit like coming back from the dead to revisit his loved ones in their memory, though for him, it would have been all over, as the self that visited his loved ones was the self when he was alive. But maybe that is comforting for him, too, in the sense that he was able to see how his loved ones coped after his death, and somehow have a part in it.

Henry's daughter could time-travel, too, and she sometimes travelled into Henry's past to look at hime. Unfortunately, the time when she travelled to Henry's past was the time before she was born, so he could not recognise her, and also could not treasure the time she visited him to spend time with her. It's heart-wrenching too. Imagine a daughter visiting her father in his past after his death, and wanting to be close to him and telling him that she's his daughter, all the while knowing that she can't, because she can't defy history. But perhaps she is able to derive contentment from all these, because at least she can still see her father, touch him, perhaps talk to him, have some contact with him, rather than not being able to see him forever at all.

Perhaps my explanation of the story complicated your understanding of it, and made you decide not to read it. But I assure you, all will be understood after you read it, and you sure won't regret ever having set your eyes on the book.

Now, I should go back to devouring Ash Wednesday. It seems like a promising book!

Books!

I really really love books, especially storybooks, especially romance. Muahahaha, goodness knows why though, but I do.

I just bought three storybooks recently- The Time-Traveller's Wife, Lolita, and Ash Wednesday- and I've finished The Time-Traveller's Wife and am going on to Ash Wednesday now. The Time-Traveller's Wife was such a great story! Made every cent of it worth the money. I just finished it at 1 plus this afternoon, and I was crying all the way.

The Time-Traveller's Wife is a story about this guy Henry, whose genetic code has some problem, such that at sporadic intervals, he will travel through time to some time in his memory. For some reason, he often travels to his wife's- Clare's- past, back when she was a little girl, all the way till she was 18. Clare knew all about his life, and vice versa. Thing is, he visited her past when he was in his 30s and 40s, while he met her for real at 28, so when he met her for real, he didn't know who she was, but she had all those memories of him. It's kinda sad, but there's nothing both of them can do about it. It was touching, the way they loved each other. Whenever Henry was gone time-travelling, Clare would worry, and throughout the time Henry was visiting Clare's past, Clare had to understand that though they were married in the future, at the present Henry did not yet know of her existence, and thus was still leading a rather rakish life. Henry, on the other hand, had to understand that during the time he did not see Clare (from the time when Clare was 18 to 20, because during that time Henry did not appear anymore), Clare was free to see whoever she wanted, because while Clare was waiting for Henry to appear, Henry was still leading his own life without any awareness to Clare's existence, and surely Clare was free to lead her own life as normally as she could. It's kind of a twisted logic within the book, where it seems that past, present and future coexist at the same time. One can travel to the past and spend, like, a day there, and then go back to the present, where only about 10min was spent, so it's kinda like perceiving past and present as separated by many years, or a few minutes. At the last part, the part which I was reading this morning, Henry knew when he was dying, and he used the knowledge to organise stuff that might happen after his death. He died in Clare's past, but Clare was not aware of that. In the end, he reappeared in his present, in Clare's and his daughter's arms. It's heartbreaking to see two people so in love having to leave each other, and it's so hard to be Clare, knowing when Henry was going to leave and die sometime in her past but being unable to help stop whatever it was that was making him go off or prevent his death. I can only imagine the helplessness Clare must have felt.

Fortunately, or unfortunately, depending on how you see it, while Henry was alive, he time-travelled to the future sometimes, such that he could see his daughter as she was growing up, and at the last page, see Clare when she was 82, so it's abit like coming back from the dead to revisit his loved ones in their memory, though for him, it would have been all over, as the self that visited his loved ones was the self when he was alive. But maybe that is comforting for him, too, in the sense that he was able to see how his loved ones coped after his death, and somehow have a part in it.

Henry's daughter could time-travel, too, and she sometimes travelled into Henry's past to look at hime. Unfortunately, the time when she travelled to Henry's past was the time before she was born, so he could not recognise her, and also could not treasure the time she visited him to spend time with her. It's heart-wrenching too. Imagine a daughter visiting her father in his past after his death, and wanting to be close to him and telling him that she's his daughter, all the while knowing that she can't, because she can't defy history. But perhaps she is able to derive contentment from all these, because at least she can still see her father, touch him, perhaps talk to him, have some contact with him, rather than not being able to see him forever at all.

Perhaps my explanation of the story complicated your understanding of it, and made you decide not to read it. But I assure you, all will be understood after you read it, and you sure won't regret ever having set your eyes on the book.

Now, I should go back to devouring Ash Wednesday. It seems like a promising book!

Friday, June 09, 2006

When all else fails...

Try getting sick. I swear, that's gotta be the fastest way to lose weight. I've been sick the past 2 weeks, so my appetite has been puny, and I think I've lost quite a bit of weight. At least, the tummy is decreasing in size... ;) Or maybe it's the constant violent coughing which is strengthening the stomach muscles. Now they're aching, and it's the sit-ups kind of stomach muscles pain.

Coughing is a pain. Mira says it's kinda irritating to hear the cough, coz it sounds serious, like I've got TB or something. Much as I hate to admit it, she's right. I find it irritating to cough too! It gets in the way when I'm talking, and can you imagine when I'm in a quiet place like the library?! That makes it worse coz when I start coughing, I don't stop for the next 10 seconds or so. If you're thinking 10 seconds isn't a very long time, well, it is....

Anyway, hopefully the cough goes away soon. I wanna start eating chocolates!!!!

Monday, May 29, 2006

I've got nothing to do, so I decided to try this thing out... =)

Instructions: Go to your music player of choice and put it on shuffle. Say the following questions aloud, and press play. Use the song title as the answer to the question. NO CHEATING.

How does the world see me?
Britney Spears- Bombastic Love

Hmm... I bring excitement and drama in their lives? Ah.. that sounds nice...

Will I have a happy life?
Faye Wong- Tian Kong

Is it trying to say the sky's the limit? Well I shall take it as a good sign!

What do my friends really think of me?
Tina Turner- He Lives in You

Well... taken in the religious point of view, it's kinda blasphemous, isn't it? But kinda flattering...

Do people secretly lust after me?
98 Degrees- I Do (Cherish You)

Ooh.. I like the sound of this! ;)

How can I make myself happy?
Shi Xin Huey- Gan Xie Ni Yong Xin Ai Zhe Wo

Hmm.. I should be thankful for the love I've been given... Good advice. I shall remember that.

What should I do with my life?
Tokyo Kosei Wind Orchestra- Japanese Graffitti III

Well.. I don't quite know what to think of this, actually. Does it mean I should go explore many areas of life? Or does it mean I should go the artistic route (?!?!) Or does it mean I should just waste my life away...? The song sounds cheerful, so I shall make myself happy and reaffirm my identity as a human being by thinking of myself as a good person. I shall choose the first reason. Muahahahaha!

Will I ever have children?
Vic Zhou- Wei He Ni Bu Lai

This is sad, man...

What is some good advice for me?
98 Degrees- The Hardest Thing

It's hard to give me good advice...?

How will I be remembered?
Lisa Ono- So Danco Samba

Ahhh.. As a person who likes to dance? Or as a person who enjoys life? Anyone knows the meaning of this title or song?

What is my signature dancing song?
Britney Spears- I’ll Never Stop Loving You

Reflects the romantic notions I often have I guess... =)

What do I think my current theme song is?
Joe Hisaishi- Kaze No Oka

I don't understand this title. Can someone tell me the meaning of this title?!

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
Maksim Mrvica- Dance of the Baroness

Ah... I'm majestic?!

What song will play at my funeral?
Robbie Williams- Come Undone

Well that's rather true isn't it?

What type of men do I like?
Ni He Wo He Ta Zhi Jian

Love triangle?!

What is my day going to be like?
Britney Spears- Overprotected

Hmm....

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

Dong Dong Dong!

"Dong Dong Dong, 1,2,3... Kuishin-Bo..."

Muahaha wonderful wonderful dinner after a long long wait to have Kuishin-Bo!! We were supposed to go there in March, but because the people there don't pick up the phone, we didn't manage to go there in the end. HOWEVER, on Sunday, we walked up there and BOOKED it for tonight! YES!!

Kuishin-Bo is a worthwhile place to go. The sashimi's great, the ALASKAN SNOW CRAB is GREAT, and the chilled prawns too. The sushi flavours are interesting- Salmon with Avocado. And at sporadic moments, there will be "Dong Don Dong...!!!" which means the restaurant's special giveaways like Mochi Ice cream or lobster put with some type of sauce. Look at the pictures and u'll know! =D


THIS is the Alaskan Snow Crab. There was ALOT of meat inside I guarantee you. Just look at this plate. It took about 15 min to finish this whole plate, even though it looks like there's only a bit there? If you're wondering if the crab's fresh, yes, it definitely is. Can you imagine what the WHOLE crab would look like? ;)







And here's the overall picture of the paper steamboat. Don't be alarmed when you learn of the Japanese name for it. It's Kami Nabe (pronounced as ka-mi na-beh). So be careful to look at the person's mouth when hearing the pronunciation! =)















And this is what's inside the steamboat. This is chicken flavour, and there's another one, beef flavour. We only managed to have one though, and I'm gonna order that the next time we go. Yes, you heard it right- next time. The soup's great! The meat's chewy, hmm... but I didn't get to try the rest of it. I was too slow!!







And here's one of the specials; the first one, in fact- lobster and shrimp and cream sauce. Ooh lala, fantastique! Later on there were Mochi Ice creams, candy floss, lobster with black pepper sauce and some more, but I was too busy eating to take pictures. Haha!!!








Ok and here's what our table looked like at our last round of the buffet. Von! We're waiting for you! =)











Oh yah, Von, Mummy asked me to take this picture to show you. I also don't know why, but I think it's something along the lines of what you would have done when faced with unfinished food and thinking of a way to hide it. =) For the rest of you, well, the base is actually strawberry pudding, topped with one white and one black tart wrapper and an orange peel. The toppings actually serve to hide the base.





Yes, and see my blissful face?













Yi Lun looks like that 'cause she was enjoying her cafe latte (they said it was nice, by the way) and I disturbed her by asking her to take photo.










Von, this picture is for you! Papa purposely posed for you one!!! =D He's holding a dragon-fruit, and doesn't he look handsome?











Yep, and this is the end of my Kuishin-Bo experience. To quote my Primary one recommended composition ending, "We are happy."

"Dong Dong Dong, 1,2,3... Kuishin-Bo!"