Here's a nice quote Yi Lun told me about yesterday. I think it's quite cute. What do you think?

"The Earth is full. Go home."

I am craving for....

Bah Chor Mee
Nasi Lemak
Prawn Noodles


I'll tell you more when I think of more... I'm so hungryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

SMS-ing

Hello hello, just a note to tell you all, if I don't reply your SMS, it's not cos I dao you or don't want to talk to you or anything k? It's coz I'm trying to save my SMS-es. Last month I sent 800+ SMS-es, so my parents are not very happy. This month and the nexts I'll need to try my best to keep it down. So I hope you all understand! =)

Thanks!

Haha today's presentation went very well, thanks to all those who showed me support in one way or another and those who listened to me complain and complain and complain non-stop about presenting! Haha I know I was a pain in the you-know-where, but really, thanks alot. =) In no order of preference...

Merrilyn
Thanks for:
- listening to my complains
- the sms today
- staying back to listen to the presentation

Si Huan
Thanks for:
- driving me to wherever yesterday just so I wouldn't be late for the meeting AGAIN!! Haha... In the end I wasn't, but I had to make them walk all the way from North Spine. Haha... Felt rather bad, but oh well... Hee...
- listening to me go on and on about the presentation
- wanting to know how the presentation went. =)

Si Jia
Haha you're probably not gonna read this, but oh well, since I'm thanking you all, you are included too! =)
Thanks for:
- volunteering to listen to me and giving me comments!!
- yes, and also listening to me go on and on about the presentation... -_-"

Alvin Hong
Thanks for:
- volunteering to come over to help me to rehearse my presentation. Haha... I know, he's prob not gonna read this either, but what the hell... Haha...

JK
Thanks for:
- yep, you guessed it right, listening to me.
- listening again... Hahaha, these few days I think you've been listening to me go round in circles about many many things, thanks for ur patience!! =)

Yep, I guess what's going through your mind now should be, "Why is this Yi Ling so ke qi again?" Well, I think I should let you all know how much your gestures meant to me. They may have been small, but they showed that you cared, and I really appreciate that. =)

And I shall stop being so incredibly soppy and mushy and ke qi. =p

Happy studying!!

Your Birthdate: February 20

You may watch someone from afar before you finally decide to make your move. It takes a long time for you to develop an attraction to someone. Generally, you prefer to pick who you love. Anyone who tries to rush you is in for some heartache. Number of True Loves You'll Have: 4 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 4 You are most compatible with people born on the 2nd, 11th, 20th, and 29th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

That's rather depressing...

Don't Forget to Remember Me - Carrie Underwood

18 years have come and gone
For momma they flew by
But for me they dragged on and on
We were loading up that Chevy
Both tryin' not to cry
Momma kept on talking
Putting off good-bye
Then she took my hand and said
"Baby don't forget:

Before you hit the highway
You better stop for gas
There's a 50 in the ashtray I
n case you run short on cash
Here's a map and here's a Bible
If you ever lose your way

Just one more thing before you leave
Don't forget to remember me"

This downtown apartment sure makes me miss home
and those bills there on the counter
Keep telling me I'm on my own
And just like every Sunday I called momma up last night
And even when it's not, I tell her everything's all right
Before we hung up I said "Hey momma, don't forget:

to tell my baby sister
I'll see her in the fall
And tell me-maw that I miss her
Yeah, I should give her a call
And make sure you tell Daddy that I'm still his little girl
Yeah I still feel like I'm where I'm supposed to be
Don't forget to remember me"

Tonight I find myself kneeling by the bed to pray
I haven't done this in a while
So I don't know what to say but
Lord, I feel so small sometimes in this big ol' place
I know there are more important things, but
Don't forget to remember me
Don't forget to remember me



Go find this song!!

I realise there have been quite a few posts about death these days, but... well, nothing makes a person feel closer to the reality of death than when you hear someone around you or someone close to the person around you passes away.

I just learnt my groupmate's mother passed away last Thursday night. I'm not close to him, but I can just imagine the shock and the dread and the pain he must have felt when he went back to see his mother. If it was me, I'd probably be numb now. I just can't imagine losing any of my loved ones. I never want to let them go. Even though it's another person's mother, when I think of it happening to me, I just feel this great urge to cry.

I know when a person's time is up, it's up. But it doesn't make letting go any easier. I just want to hold on for as long as I can. I know I said I'd opt for euthanasia if I ever came to the stage where treatment was no use for me. But what some people have told me about my loved ones not wanting me to opt for that have made me consider it deeper. If my loved ones were to opt for it, I'd probably refuse to acknowledge it too. Regardless of how silly it is to hold on to someone who can't respond, I'm sure at the back of their minds is the small small hope that as long as life support is given, there's a chance that he/she will wake up one day. That's why I'm afraid of death. I don't want to leave anyone behind. You could say I'm afraid of the unknown, and I'd agree, but only because I don't know if there's an afterlife. If there is, probably I won't be as afraid, because it means I'll be able to bring my memories with me and still watch them. But if there isn't, would it mean abandoning them? I really don't want to.

Oh man, I'm sounding like a soppy sod now... Oh well, maybe it's just hormones, or the realness of death....

Death

Is a person considered dead when he/she loses his/her mind?

Change the World - Westlife

This song has been playing in my head since Si Huan sang it yesterday. There's something about the lyrics that's making me want to put it up. But I think it's a nice song. It used to be one of my favourite songs, but I've stopped listening to Westlife, so... it got forgotten as time went by... =)


Since you've gone,
well it seems like everything is wrong,
And deep inside,
I know that i've,lost much more than pride,
Well, happiness is getting further away,
Girl,i miss you more than words can say.

I need a miracle now,
so tell me,

How can i change the world,
Cause i sure can't change your mind,
Where's the miracle i need now,
got to get to you somehow,
Cause i can't change the world.
I can't change the world,
No, i can't change the world,
I can't change the world.

Losing you,
well it's been the hardest thing to do,
So, i close my eyes and tell myself,
that somehow i'll survive.
Well you gave me heaven,
then you took it away,
Girl, i miss you more with each passing day,
i need a miracle now,so tell me...

How can i change the world, (change it)
Cause i sure can't change your mind,
Where's the miracle i need now,
got to get to you somehow.

And baby,
so sad that you have to leave me,
just so you can find yourself,
And it's so sad that you just can't see,
I love you more than life itself.

No, i can't change the world,
How can i change the world,
Cause i sure can't change your mind,
Where's the miracle i need now,
got to get to you somehow,
Cause i can't change the world,
got to get to you somehow,
No, i can't change the world.....

Tomorrow

Musical: Annie
Song: Tomorrow

The sun'll come out
Tomorrow
Bet your bottom dollar
That tomorrow
There'll be sun!

Just thinkin' about
Tomorrow
Clears away the cobwebs,
And the sorrow
'Til there's none!

When I'm stuck a day
That's gray,
And lonely,
I just stick out my chin
And Grin,
And Say,
Oh!

The sun'll come out
Tomorrow
So ya gotta hang on
'Til tomorrow
Come what may Tomorrow!
Tomorrow!
I love ya Tomorrow!
You're always
A day
A way!

Haha I put up this song cos it sounded so inspiring, so positive. Hope you all liked it. It was played in the documentary on children with Tourette's Syndrome, and I just thought it was so touching the way they find the courage to carry on with life, regardless of the way people look at them cos of their twitches. Some of them even found the inspiration to want to educate the others about the disorder, and I find that really brave. Or maybe cos they are just children. But... for children to have that kind of mentality, I think it shows how matured they are. Haha I just wish I had that kind of courage. This song was actually composed for a play/musical called "Annie", a story about an English orphan girl. I don't know what the story of this play/musical is, but I think it's quite a famous one. I must research on it after my exams. Haha so many things to do.. Hope I manage to accomplish them!!

Is there a light?

4 weeks more to exams, and there is no sign of a break yet. I'm behind in readings, projects, and reports, and I don't know what to do. Doesn't help that my self-discipline seems to be less than before, such that I can't resist temptations to watch stuff on youtube. Don't ask me what it is, I'm too embarrassed to tell you.

My relatives are here over the weekend, and I sooo wish I could stay home to talk to them. Haha, I like them, and the house is really more lively when there are visitors whom you know and feel rather comfortable with. Now that Yi Lun is still in UK, the house is really quiet. Luckily I have assignments and reports to keep me busy so I don't think about it that much. But still... I do wish I could have more time to interact with them, though I'm like one generation younger. Politics is so much fun. But it would be a different story if anyone were to stay in the same place long-term I guess, so perhaps it's the novelty that's making me wanna stay home. That, and my sense of escapism, which is becoming stronger. The need to sleep is getting stronger too, an indication that all I wanna do is to escape and hibernate until the holidays are here.

But the reality of it all is that life still goes on, doesn't it? Doesn't matter if a person dies, or something catastrophic happens to anyone. The people left behind still have to go on and live life, otherwise they'll die. What's the relation between this topic and the paragraph before? I'm not sure too, but I suppose what I was trying to say is that there's really no point in escapism, since if I decide to escape, I'm just making the consequences more inevitable and much worse than they can get than if I can confront them. Easy words to type and say, but difficult to fulfill.

The need to escape from school's getting stronger too. Beginning to dislike checking sms-es and webmail, for fear that something else is gonna come up that has to be attended to immediately, and disrupting the schedule that I planned in my mind. Oh, if any of you reading this is thinking I'm targetting it at you, don't worry, it's not you, it's the circumstances. I know it's inevitable that communication has to go on in order to get the thing at hand done, but I just don't like it. Don't stop the communication, coz it's necessary. Otherwise, the consequences will suck. Haha, I'm just being bitchy old me, so just treat it like I'm just complaining for the sake of complaining k?

Ahhhhh holidays are coming, I'm sooo looking forward to it. Maybe I should consider 1 week of closing myself up at home. Haha, the prospect of watching tv all I want is just soooo tempting!!!

To all of you who are feeling stressed now, Jiayou!! We'll get through this again!!

I need...

1) more discipline
2) better time management
3)to escape from school!!! and work!!!

haha ok i'm back to my complaining mode again, just humour me lahhhhhhhhh haha...

Relapse

You know how sometimes you thought you finally don't have a weakness for something, and it turns out that addiction was actually in hibernation only? Well I just realised I haven't got over an addiction for online shopping. I was soooo tempted to take part in an earrings spree, until I reminded myself of how sad my bank account looks right now. Argh.

There was a watch spree too! And I was reminded of my love for Fossil watches. Damn but they are such beauties! But one costs at least $135. I saw one that cried out for my money, but alas, I'm a poor church mouse. Gotta scrimp and save first before I can buy you. Even then, perhaps I'd have another new love. Haha. Maybe I should have a new goal for myself- to be a millionaire by a certain age. Probably I'd be more thrifty then.

I gotta find a job during the hols. Definitely. If I don't go on exchange, that is.

My Handphone and other gripings

It's breaking apart. How to trade in like that? Now I have no choice but to bind it with rubber bands. I think nobody's going to accept it for trade in. Pictures later, when I'm in a better mood.

On another not much more pleasant note, I am sick of eating. Do you know how much time is wasted on eating? Imagine how much time can be saved if one meal can settle everything for the whole day. If you've read Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, you'd know about the bubblegum which Violet Beauregarde ate. That bubblegum contains 3 meals in one sweet, and after eating that, we don't have to worry about eating for the rest of the day. Argh. Just eating that one sweet, and chewing it while doing work... I can just imagine how much time it will save. I wonder if the bubblegum will make me feel sleepy after eating it. It would be good if it didn't, then I can do so much more. I know it's a stupid thing to wish for something like that, coz we usually treat meals as breaks from work, and without stopping for meals, we are little better than machines which are recharged by bubblegum... But it's really frustrating to feel hungry then spend half an hour to an hour eating and then spending about another hour battling sleepiness. That's up to an hour wasted.

I like my food. I really do. But I can't stand it when I have so many things to do and my stupid stomach goes rumbling away and I start feeling dizzy. Just wish I didn't have to eat.

Evolution

I agree with what Dr Patterson said about evolution not being perfect. Evolution didn't get rid of periods, and didn't make females able to have children without periods. Crap. Of all the things to evolve, we have to have them.

And just to remind us that we, the "weaker sex" have to bear children next time, periods come with cramps. What is this- adding insult to injury? Argh. Sometimes I wish I could just take out the uterus and just wring all the blood out of it. Do you know how much trouble will be saved if we could do that?

I guess some of you may be a tad embarrassed by this entry. Haha, it's not what I'd usually type on my blog too, but I'm feeling too bitchy to care right now. Maybe I'll take this entry off tomorrow. Or maybe I shan't.


^%^%#$(*&_(*Y&*&^&^%#%@#&^*()_+_)(*&^%$#@!

My current favourite song

Wow if my future boyfriend sings it to me next time I'll be soooo touched. Haha I think the lyrics are quite cute leh, quite nice. The music's not bad too. Of course, if you wanna talk about the voice, maybe there's much left to be desired, but I think the lyrics and music make up for it lar... haha =)

Eek!

OMG I had such a disturbing dream last night. Even now, 8 hours after waking up, I still feel very disturbed by it.

I dreamt I married a cousin from my father's side! Talk about weird. And to add on to the weirdness, this cousin is not someone whom I talk to often. I only talk to him on Chinese New Year, and the topics talked about are just restricted to "Hello!" and "Come and eat!". Yes, so isn't it weird that I dreamt about him? It's disturbing I tell you, especially when you think about what Freud says about dreams symbolising the unconscious. Argh. But I can assure you, I have no feelings towards that cousin. Funny how that dream came the day before Valentine's Day. Hmm...

Well, my dream aside, this Valentine's Day has been the same as always, quite sad eh? Haha I'm waiting for Elvin Ng to come ask me out! =p Haha an equivalent would do too! =)

Layer ONE- On the Outside
Name: Yi Ling
Birth Date: 20/2/86
Current Status: single
Eye Color: black
Hair Color: black with fading highlights. Man I gotta do it again after my hair has rested enough. =p
Righty or Lefty: Righty
Zodiac Sign: Pisces

Layer TWO - On the inside
Your Heritage: chinese
Your Fears: confrontations, embarrassing situations, family members and those that I care about having something happening to them, not getting good honours!! =S
Your Weaknesses: Bleah. Procrastination is my middle name. Hating confrontations.
Your Perfect Pizza: chilli, cheese, seafood. Don't really like Hawaiian. Haha, but will eat it if I have to. =)

Layer THREE - Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
Your thoughts first waking up: Crap I have to wake up. Why does time pass so fast?
Your Bedtime: 130-2am
Your most missed memory: When I was a child.

Layer FOUR - Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke: Used to be Pepsi, but now Coke. It's less sweet and I like the bite of the gas.
McDonald’s or Burger King: McDonald's! I'm a McDonald's fan! Haha
Adidas or Nike: Adidas. Love the clothes, just no money. Sheesh.
Lipton tea or Nestea: Nestea's Ice Lemon Tea!
Chocolate or vanilla: This is a no-brainer. Chocolate!
Cappuccino or coffee: Haha makes no difference to me. Don't really drink coffee- gives me a headache and makes me feel like I'm on steroids. Eew

Layer FIVE -Do you
Smoke: No and I don't plan to.
Curse: Hee yes...

Layer SIX -In the Past Month
Drank alcohol: Does one sip count?
Gone to the mall: No I haven't but I'm going shopping today! Yay!
Been on stage: Nope
Eaten sushi: No. So sad. I wanna eat Sushi Buffet but no money! Argh.
Dyed your hair: Nope. But maybe during June hols.

Layer SEVEN - Have You Ever?
Played a stripping game: No. Nothing to show lar. And I don't plan to.
Changed who you were to fit in: Yes. I'm a conformist.

Layer EIGHT
Age you’re hoping to be married: ??? See when attached first then I tell you. Haha

Layer NINE - In a Girl/Guy
Best eye colour: Black?
Best hair colour: Black or brown. I don't like guys who dye their hair blonde or lighter. I like good boys. Haha
Short or long hair: Short! Unless they can look like Zaizai!

Layer TEN - What Were You Doing
1 minute ago: Giving out the last questionnaire for the session
1 hour ago: Preparing for the experiment that's going on now
4.5 hours ago: Sleeping lar. Don't be mean. I can't wake up that early.
1 month ago: Still slacking in school.
1 year ago: In school, probably running experiments?

Layer ELEVEN - Finish the sentence
I love: my family, chocolate, sleeping, reading, doing nothing, and the course I'm doing now. Hmm would saying friends (I think you know who you are) be a bit dodgy?
I feel: like I'm procrastinating too much. There's a friggin test next week.
I hate: feeling stupid, mental blocks, not being able to sleep.
I hide:Muahaha. Let me continue hiding it lar, don't lidat!!
Sometimes.I miss: the days when I was a child. And maybe JC days. And....
I need: to stop wasting my time.

Layer TWELVE - Tag 5 people.
Nobody. Do it if you are interested!

Haha I realised that while I was doing this, I was thinking of the various contexts I am usually in. Is this typical Asian behaviour? Tell me!

Chocolate Buffet at Swissotel Merchant Court

Haha are you still watching this space? Well here's the post of the chocolate buffet! The pictures are not as nice as how Pony would have taken it, but oh well, we've gotta make do with what I have!

My first dish of the night. I have no idea what the name is, but it was rather good. It was creamy and chocolatey. Not bad, for a first impression.

This is the chocolate fountain they had there. In front of the fountain are a bowl of honeydew and I think pineapple. If you think they are weird, I would agree with you. No strawberries! What a pity. Instead, they had honeydew, water apple (?!?!?!), and pineapple. Are you going "hmmm....". Haha I was too. I thought they might have strawberries and kiwis!

One of the things I was looking forward to during the buffet- hot chocolate made for you on the spot by the chef! Contrary to what you all might think about there only being 3 flavours of chocolates, you'd be pleasantly surprised. On top of dark chocolate, there exists another type of chocolate: strong bitter dark chocolate. Yep, this is for those who don't like their chocolate too sweet. I opted for this, coz I wanted to see how bitter bitter chocolate can get. Well, it wasn't sweet, if you're wondering, but not really chocolatey either, but I enjoyed it. I reckon dark chocolate would have been just nice in terms of chocolatey-ness and sweetness. I don't think I'd try the white chocolate though, never been a fan of it. I didn't try milk chocolate either, I figured it might taste like Milo. =p

Wondering what the little glass is? Well I'm wondering too, they didn't put the names of the chocolate dishes!!! That's rather sad, coz such classy and cute foods should be given recognition. Well it's chocolate cream I think. Thick chocolate, and not airy airy cream. I hate airy cream. Bleagh.

And the plate of food? That's the chocolate fondue. Can't see the chocolate? Well I took white chocolate. Well.... It was nice, but I'm not a fan of white chocolate. Wrong choice. And do you see any strawberries?!?!?!?

The hotel closed off the whole section just for us, Deli Aprecio Club. Guess we brought them quite a bit of business!

At the end of the night, we took photos. The table at the top are the people whom we shared a table with , while at the bottom are Merrilyn and Jeanette and my roommate An Li (the girl in the centre, sitting down), neighbour Sheila (beside An Li), and An Li's boyfriend, Jiemin.

All in all, I think the buffet was not bad, just that selection was too little. Well I did eat more than the pictures I took, don't be mistaken (my camera ran out of battery that night. Sheeeeesh), but like Jiemin said, they didn't include some liqeur-filled chocolates, for example, and it was almost the same selection after awhile. There wasn't enough to hold us for 3 hours. I think I shouldn't have taken a break to take photos, actually, coz after taking photos, I didn't really feel the urge to eat the chocolates anymore, which was quite sad. The quality was good. Oh yes, and one point of contention I had was that there were no strawberries! That's standard chocolate fondue fruit!!

Oh well, at least now I know what chocolate buffet's like. I'm still not sick of chocolate though.... Muahahahhaa

BLEAH

I had meant to blog about the chocolate buffet I went to on Sunday. But suddenly I feel so irritated with the Asian Psych report that I'm supposed to be doing and handing in on Monday. Argh. Now I know what Merrilyn meant by she doesn't know what to do with the data. Looking at it, I have no idea too. And I don't know how to start the bleeding report. Wish me luck.

Maybe I should blog about the chocolate buffet.

Watch this spot.








Yes. I know some of you will tell me you were watching this spot. Good for you. Carry on.






Forget it. I'm going to do it tomorrow.