Attempting to Look Through Your Eyes

I don't understand why when a not-so-rich person (let's call that person NSR) gets attached to a rich one (let's call this person R), tongues will start wagging as to the motive behind the NSR's getting attached to R, and of course, the popular opinion would be that NSR chose R because of his/her money. And when things go wrong between the couple, such as perhaps the NSR initiating a breakup with R, people will go, "See, told you it was because of money! Maybe NSR realised he/she wouldn't get any money, and decided to go off in search of greener pastures!" Or if R broke up with NSR, it may be, "I told you they wouldn't last, R finally saw that NSR was with him/her coz of her/his money! Poor NSR, she got cheated..."

Well what gives people the right to talk about others' motivations for being with someone of a different socioeconomic status? What if they really loved each other? Just like what the title of this entry says, it's at attempt to look through the target people's eyes, trying to figure out why NSR or R did what they did. And you know what the irony is? They become so convinced of their reasons that they think it's a truth set in stone! OMG. Nothing you say will change their minds, and they find various reasons to support their case.

I'm not saying that it's wrong to attempt to look through others' eyes to try to figure out their reasons behind the thigns they do. God knows I've been doing this all along, and I guess it's human nature to try to decipher the things people do. But why would people get so fixated on wealth as the sole reason why an NSR would get attached to R? What if it was R who approached NSR first? What then? R wanted to share his/her wealth with NSR?! R felt that he/she wanted a change in lifestyle/was sick of his/her rich lifestyle and so thought NSR was a refreshing change? I mean, if it was just a speculation, a possible reason among several other reasons, it might be a valid excuse- after all, people are just brainstorming. But when it becomes a sole reason for a couple's get-together.... well.... don't you think they need to be given a chance? Just coming to a fixed conclusion without actually knowing what happened between a couple is rather unfair, don't you think?

Looking Through Your Eyes

Omg, this is such a sweet song! And the music video's so sweet! Haha makes me feel like looking for the cartoon to watch. It's the soundtrack from Quest for Camelot. Lyrics are below. Enjoy!



Look at the sky
Tell me what do you seeJ
ust close your eyes
And describe it to me

The heavens are sparkling
With starlight tonight
That's what I see
Through your eyes

I see the heavens
Each time that you smile
I hear your heartbeat
Just go on for miles
And suddenly
I knowMy life is worth while
That's what I seeThrough your eyes

[Chorus:]
Here in the night
I see the sun
Here in the dark
Our two hearts are one
It's out of our hands
We can't stop what we have begun
And love just took me by surprise
Looking through your eyes

I look at myself
And instead I see us
Whoever I am now
It feels like enough
And I see a girl
Who is learning to trust
That's who I see through your eyes

[Chorus]

And there are some things we don't know
Sometimes a heart just needs to go
And there is so much I'll remember
Underneath the open sky with you forever

[Chorus]

-- LeAnn Rimes

Truly Madly Deeply

This song has always been a favourite of mine. I think the lyrics are quite sweet. I think most of you have heard the song before. Haha... Don't you think the song's nice? =) Hehe, is anyone gonna sing it to me? ;)

I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope
I'll be your love
Be everything that you need.
I love you more with every breath
Truly madly deeply do..

I will be strong
I will be faithful
'Cos I'm counting on a new beginning.
A reason for living.
A deeper meaning.

Chorus
I want to stand with you on a mountain.
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever.
Until the sky falls down on me...

And when the stars are shining brightly
In the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish
Send it to heaven
Then make you want to cry..
The tears of joy
For all the pleasure and the certainty.
That we're surrounded
By the comfort and protection of..
The highest power.
In lonely hours.
The tears devour you..

I want to stand with you on a mountain,
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever,
Until the sky falls down on me...
Bridge Oh can't you see it baby?
You don't have to close your eyes
'Cos it's standing right before you.
All that you need will surely come...

I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope
I'll be your love
Be everything that you need.
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly madly deeply do...

Chorus

--Savage Garden

Blogger in China

I heard Blogger is banned in China. Really ah? Apparently, alot of Singaporeans can't view their friends' blogs while they're over in China, since most Singaporeans prefer to use Blogger than others. Oh, Livejournal's banned too! Hmm I wonder why. These blogging avenues are just tools for people to air their views, why ban them? People will say what they want to say. Hai... Real troublesome, don't you think?

So are there any ways of viewing blogs in China?

Thank Goodness!

The camera's been found! Yay!! At least now I don't feel as handicapped when I go out with you all. Aiyoh...

And guess where the camera was found?

On the shelf in my parents' room. Says alot about who was the last with the camera, doesn't it? ;)

McDonald's is Evil!

Yes, and I mean what I say. I think McDonald's has a secret plan to conquer the world. They want all of us to eat only their food. I came to that realization today after I bought lunch for Merrilyn and Desiree.

Their food has a distinctive smell, especially their fries. And the smell is very irresistible. A whiff of it puts images of hot, salty, potato-ey fries entering your mouth and the feeling of the saltiness of the fries exploding in your mouth. Heaven. How many times have I had these fantasies? And how many times have I succumbed to it? Countless.

And their McSpicy burger. OH MY GOD. Haha, if you go to the good branches, you get hot, spicy, and juicy chicken patties. At the not too good branches, well, I guess you can be assured that your burger is hot and a bit spicy. Well, 2 out of 3 ain't bad, is it? =)

So yes, back to my point. I ended up having McDonald's for dinner today, when I don't think my budget allows me to. But I was sooo craving for it! Just ask Liana and Merrilyn. I was fantasizing about it during linguistics class. Ahhhh... And I've satisfied my craving.

McDonald's is evil, I tell you. ;)

DAMN!

OMG.

I cannot find my camera. I am so screwed in every way imaginable.

But then again, I wasn't the last one to use it, but the last person who used it doesn't want to believe that he was indeed the last, so the blame falls on me.

Damn.

Tsk tsk tsk

Aiyoh, start of school only and I realise I lost all my blue mechanical pencils. You know, the blue pilot ones? Three of them and all are gone. I'm a real champion. I bet you the moment I buy one, I'll find all three of them one by one. Should I get it?

School starting!

Yep, and I'm not really looking forward to it. Seems like the holidays passed too fast to be true, and yet, when I think back about it, I didn't seem to make much use of the time. Yah yah, don't start with the "I told you so" or the exasperated look. I asked for it I know. Bleah.

Still, I can't say it hasn't been totally uneventful. I exercised, and realised how unfit I am, and yet I'm still not going jogging. I'm serious. I'm not going jogging. Well, unless someone accompanies me? Spent time with Kok Yong, which I'm sure I'm going to miss, seeing as someone's going to be MIA for quite awhile in China, while I stay in Singapore slogging my guts out once more. Oh well, time's going to pass very soon, especially since every sem comes and goes at a totally crazy pace. And hopefully I'll manage to get an attachment somewhere, and time should go pass faster. Before I know it, Evon and Yi Lun will be back, and there'll be noise in the house again! Yay! Then maybe if everything goes fine, he'll come back too, and there'll be more company! Close ones around me, yay! =) I guess that's going to be MY Christmas. Haha!

I think this sem's gonna be pretty hectic (well which sem isn't?), and I think I prefer it that way. Gives me less time to think about... things. Maybe time will rush past faster. But then again, it might not be such a good idea, with exams and projects and all. Oh well, no matter. Why fuss when I can't do anything about it? I shall find out just how fast time passes, starting tomorrow.

Till then, Happy Start of School, everyone! =)

New Year's Resolution

After much deliberation over whether I should come up with a New Year's Resolution since I always can't seem to keep to it, I decided to give it one more chance. But this time, I shall only keep to ONE resolution. The lesser, the easier, is my theory. Anyway, my New Year's Resolution is to NOT PROCRASTINATE. Yep. Easily said, but let's see whether I can keep to it.

Procrastination is seductive.

On another note, there's something wrong with my spelling of "year" today. I keep missing out the A. Is that a sign of something?

Psych Students

I wonder if people wonder what Psych students actually do in class. Well, today, let me give you a glimpse into a Psych student's life in class!

In classes like Clinical Psych, where we have 3-hour lessons, we definitely need glucose to keep our spirits and eyelids up. But what happens to the the many sweet wrappers that will inevitably accumulate by the end of the lesson? Well, we make rubbish into beautiful things, of course!

This was the first time we folded them with the wrappers from the Halls sweets. Well, not we, but Ling Hoong, specifically. As you all know very well, Halls sweet wrappers are rectangular in shape, so Ling Hoong had to tear away part of the wrapper to make it into a square, and in the end, she had only a very small area to work with. Look how 精致 the cranes are?

Of course, folding with Halls wrappers can get pretty boring, coz it's all only blue and white. So the next time, Fred bought strawberry that had, guess what, PINK wrappers! Haha... so the new cranes looked like this:

Don't the red cranes look Japanese? I think they look very nice! I'm proud to say that I folded some of these cranes, and Fred also! I think it was the first time Fred learnt how to fold cranes, and they turned fine, don't you think?

I'm sure you all know that there is a negative correlation between number of projects and amount of sleep a student can get. Well, that's true in our context too! So whenever we get a chance, we try to snatch our precious 40 winks:

Yes, a totally unglam photo of me sleeping in class before class started or during a break in lecture. Aiyoh, sleepy lar!! And HAH! If you're thinking of blackmailing me with this photo, remember it has been posted on a PUBLIC blog! =p

Hmm... apart from doing all these, we also take photos in class and after class!

Ok, I couldn't find pictures of us taking them in class. But still, you know what I mean. Haha... =)

Looking back at these photos, I realise that Uni life really wasn't all about studying. We did find time to do silly things like these! BUT: they were fun!! =) Haha, recounting them and choosing the pictures to put on my blog made me smile and recall many things that have happened in the last 3 years, and I think it's quite sweet. Haha, you know what, maybe we should take more photos in class! =p

Misconceptions

It's a known fact that I am aspiring to be a clinical psychologist in the future, but like I mentioned before, psychologists are humans too. They are not saints.

I am not as open-minded, open-hearted, patient, understanding and whatever's good and opposite of bad as you think I am. I'm sorry to say this, and I'm even embarrassed to admit it, but, I'm not an angel. I'm not super-ultra-understanding. I wish I was, but I'm not idealistic enough, nor do I think that highly of myself to claim that. I can only say I try to be, but I'm not a saint.

I could understand things from others' points of view. I could accept their points of views. I could do so many things, but I'm sorry to say, I don't think I'm up to your expectation of who you think I am.

I can make people feel comfortable, because I can accept their points of views. But like sports shoes, I can't contain everyone. I'm not perfect. I cannot be perfect. If I was, I wouldn't be alive. I wouldn't be allowed to live as long as I'm going to live. I hope you understand.

I wish I knew what to do for every situation, but I don't. I wish I had the answers to everything, but I don't. I wish I knew what you are thinking, but I don't. And I don't know what to do.

If I were a Shoe...

Remember I asked all of you to tell me what kind of shoe I would be if I were one? Well, here are the answers you all gave me...

Merrilyn:
CLOGS- People choose me as a friend cos they like the sound the clogs make when they move around in it... likewise, people like me for the company and fun I bring. Clogs are durable too, and those around me constantly feel (hear) I am there, like a nice traditional old supportive friend.

Cotton:
SLIPPERS- To sum up Cotton's answer, I represent a safe haven for her to turn to when she's weary. Slippers, to her, are comfortable, and no pretense is required when she's wearing them. Similarly, she doesn't feel a need to pretend to be someone she isn't when she's around me. Slippers may be a category of footwear that is often taken for granted because of its inconspicuity (is there such a word?), but it's a necessary kind of footwear. To quote Cotton, I'm like her "心灵靠岸港，无须绚丽的包装，也即可能是冰山一角那不起眼的"拖鞋"，但却是扮演着非常重要的角色。最终要的是...能令我感到很舒服又没负担的"

Yi Lun:
PINK FLUFFY SLIPPERS- "coz u are nice and comfortable and homey to be with. not much of an outdoor shoe, u prefer the comfort of home and the homey people around you. tend to be sweet and sensitive but can be very fuzzy coz u get too comfortable with your surroundings. well looked after. still can take hardships of being walked on around the house but perhaps not as tough as army boots. pink perhaps coz u are sweet and girly. comfortable being a nice, sweet girl-next-door."

SOCKS- "u are hidden by pretty sneakers and sports shoes and do not get to flaunt much. yet, the shoes cannot do without the socks otherwise feet get smelly or blistery and uncomfortable. u have core/primary/inner beauty which is overshadowed by superficially nice shoes covering you. people have to get to know you better before they realise the indespensibility of socks. socks can be pretty too and come in all shapes, sizes and degrees of fluffiness. u may be shielded by big, hardy and resistant shoes and do not get to feel the mud and rain much."

Bird:
SANDALS- "comfortable mah,and easy to wear easy to take off. like being with you is comfortable, and you keep a nice distance, not too close not too far. like when i wanna wear i will wear when i wanna take it off, its easy to take off too."

Wen Keat:
SLIPPERS- Same explanation as Bird

Wendy:
MARY JANES- Sweet but sturdy and reliable

Pony:
SOMETHING COMFORTABLE like SANDALS: I make people around me feel comfortable.

Kok Yong:
CANVAS SHOES- Haha, the reason's for me to know and for you all to guess. =p

And what shoe do I think I would be if I were one? Well, I think I'd be a pair of sports shoes. Why?

Based on the above answers that I received, I gather I make people around me feel comfortable around me, that they do not have to put up much pretense when they are around me. So imagine slipping your feet into your favourite pair of sports shoes; how would you feel? That you're right at home and feel comfortable enough to do what you want? And you feel there's not much effort needed to lift your feet to do what you need to do. Similarly, I gather I'm make those around me comfortable with who they are around me- there's no need to put in effort to impress me with the things that you do or say, once I get to know who you are.

Secondly, sports shoes are known to provide good support for the feet, and that's what I try to do for those around me. Like sports shoes, I can't promise a totally blister-fre walking experience when my friends are walking on difficult journeys, but I can try my best to support them, and try to reduce the number of blisters they will get.

Of course, everything is bound to have its drawbacks, sports shoes included.

Sports shoes may sound lile every foot can fit inside, but the truth is, not everyone's suited to every sports shoe. When the sports shoe doesn't fit, the wearer won't have an easy time wearing it cos the comfot and support's not there. What I'm saying is, if I don't feel positive feelings towards a person, it would be hard for me to give the support and comfort that person needs. Sure, the basic comfort of the sports shoe is there, but how comfortable can it be when it's not at its optimum?

Also, ever noticed how some people with smelly feet will make the shoe smell, especially sports shoes? Well, I'm sorry to say that's my weakness- I'm too easily influenced by the views of people around me, and I believe people easily.

Thank you all of you for taking the time to reply to my question, I really appreciate it!!!

If I were a Cockroach...

Haha I had a sudden inspiration sometime before exams about what I would want to do with my life if I were a cockroach. What would my aim in life be? Hypothetically, of course. And what better way than to speak from the perspective of a cockroach? Let me tell you what I would want to do k?

If I were a cockroach, my aim in life would be to make humans change their opinions of us. No, changing opinions is too weak a word. Let's make it "respect" us. Humans, and that is referring to you all, have detested us cockroaches for the longest time. Yet, did you stop to realise that we have been aroud long before you appeared? We're generations ahead of you if you speak about life experiences. We've been around since the dinosaurs, and we stayed around even after they got themselves extinct coz they were too big and clumsy to adjust to climactic changes. We lived through the freezing Ice Age- man, that was horrid, I tell you- and we lived through SARS, when most humans were dropping like flies (pun not intended). Why are we looked upon as scums of the earth then? Our resilience to adversity should be something you all should learn from, isn't it? And speaking of resilience, we cockroaches are stronger than Superman. If you think Superman's too super to be afraid of anything, think again. IS he really that invincible? What happens when you give him kryptonite? It's "bye bye Superman, see you if we see you!" How about us cockroaches? You may think we are afraid of Shieldtox and Baygone, but did you notice? We get stronger each time a new product comes on the shelves. Hmm, makes you wonder about the term "money well-spent" on insecticides, doesn't it? ;)

I know some of you have a bad sense of direction. Maybe you all should learn from us. We have a great sense of direction and spatial perception? I can sense when and where I'm going to get whacked by you, and get away faster than you can call my name. If it happened to you, can you do it? And here's a bonus point: my sense of direction helps me get entertainment from you. When I'm bored, all I have to do is find those who are scared of me, and... just appear! The effect is hilarious- you see grown men and women jumping on tables, beds and anything elevated, just because of little black me. Puh-leaze! What can I do to you? Nonetheless, the entertainment is priceless.

And before you think we are unfriendly, let me remind you that though we are solitary creatures, we care and share territories, that's why in places where food is abundant, you often find us there. How many humans would be willing to share their abundant source of food? For free? And with people they do not have relations with?

So why do you hate us? Just coz we are small and black and hard, doesn't mean we have no heart (see, we are poetic too!) We care and share, like I said just now, and plus, have you ever seen or heard cockroaches fighting or killing each other? You see ants killing each other, killing their queen and then usurping her position- do you hear and see us doing that? Humans do it all the time too, but are they hated?

Well, I've said all I want to say about my fellow cockroaches and me. I still think we should be given respect for our resilience, our adaptability, and our generosity, don't you? See you at the next millennium- if you're still around! ;)

Ever Ever After- Carrie Underwood

Omg this video is so sweet! Carrie Underwood's latest song, for the new movie "Enchanted". I wanna watch the movie too! It looks hilarious!!

Shoes

Come on, help me out k?

If I were a shoe, which shoe do you think I would be?

Tell me what you think and why!! =)

触电

风走在我们前面
甩裙摆画着圆圈
花美得兴高采烈
那香味有点阴险

你在我旁边的旁边
但影子却肩碰肩
偷看一眼
你的唇边
是不是也有笑意明显

明明是昨天的事情
怎么今天我还在经历
一丁点回忆
都能惊天又动地

想问个愚蠢问题
我们再这样下去
你猜会走到哪里

但请你不要太快揭开还沉默的情话
先让我多着急一下再终于等到解答
太容易的爱故事就不耐人回味啦
像这样触电
就够我快乐熔化

我们就耐心培养萌芽不要急着开花
反正有长长的日记等我们去填满它
在被全世界发现以前先愉快装傻
就这样触电
一直甜蜜触电
直到爆炸

像一年四个季节
都被你变成夏天
我才会在你面前
总是被晒红了脸

像一百万个秋千
在我心里面叛变
被你指尖
碰到指尖
我瞬间就被荡到天边

-S.H.E

Misery Loves Company

How apt this idiom is.

Spice Girls

I know I've proclaimed many times that I don't like the Spice Girls anymore, but this morning, I was bitten by a nostalgic bug, and decided to look at some of their concerts. Oh man, their songs really brought back memories of primary school. Haha... And really, their songs are quite nice. Till now, I find myself singing along- or tempted to sing along- to the songs like "Say you'll be there" and "2 become 1", my two favourite songs from their album. "Who do you think you are" is nice too, you know, really catchy. Haha...

Argh there's something wrong with the internet connection in my house I think, I can't upload anything! I wanted to upload photos, and they told me the page couldn't be displayed, and now I wanted to put up the songs, the same thing happened. Sheesh!!

Peke

For some reason, I dreamt about Peke last night. I haven't dreamt about him for a long time, and to suddenly see him... well, I felt like he had never left us.

I dreamt that I was in this primary school, going from level to level, not knowing what I was searching for. At every level I descended, the space got smaller, until the highest level only had space for a classroom. Then, suddenly, I saw this room which resembled a jail, only that it was very bright, and about the size of a classroom. Peke was inside it, just lying in the middle of the room. He looked larger than I remembered him to be, and his fur was as soft as I remembered it to be. Somehow, I managed to get inside the room to touch him. He let me touch his paw, as usual, a part of him that I loved to touch. But when he wanted to get up to come to me, he couldn't, coz he was in too much pain. At that time, I remembered that he had kidney failure, and therefore he could not go to me though he wanted to. He was very friendly though, he kept smiling at me, and let me touch him. But he couldn't move, couldn't roll over to let me stroke his tummy.

In my dream the next day, I went back to see him, and miraculously, this time Peke could get up. He was his usual self before the sickness; he wanted to bite anything that was irritating him in front of his face- he wanted the handkerchief I was holding in my hand. He was jumping around, looking lively and happy.

I don't know why I dreamt of Peke last night, but the dream stayed on with me even as I woke up, getting stronger as the day went on. In the afternoon, as I thought of him, I almost cried when I remembered how he was on the day we sent him to the vet for the last time. I can only imagine Evon's anguish when the vet told her Peke had to be put down, or he would only continue to suffer; even if he hadn't been put down that day, he might have left us the next day. At the thought of what Evon went through, even though it was about 4 years ago, I really almost cried on the spot, and I don't know why I'd cry now, 4 years later. I didn't know if I should talk about it- after all, it did happen so long ago, and I didn't know the reason behind the dream, or the significance of it. Even now as I'm blogging, I feel a deep sense of regret that we didn't take care of Peke properly.

I hope I'm not letting history repeat itself with Schnoozee. I haven't been able to spend as much time with him as I'd like to, and I know he has to go to the vet soon. His skin has been pretty bad, and everytime I see him, I feel so so so guilty. He has so much love to give, and I can't seem to be able to reciprocate it as much as I want to. Von and Lun, don't start on me. I feel bad enough already. Seeing Peke in my dream just made me feel worse. Perhaps Peke was a reminder to me that I should treasure Schnoozee more. I think if I lost Schnoozee, I'd feel worse than when we lost Peke.

I better stop thinking about this before I feel worse than I already do.

I think death is a scary thing for the people the deceased leaves behind, but that's another topic for another day.