"You aren't going to be his 1st, his last, or his only... he’s loved before; he will love again. But if he loves you now, what else matters? He’s not perfect - you’re not either. If he can make you laugh and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold on to him and give him the most you can. He’s not going to be thinking about you every moment of the day, but he will give you a part of him that he knows YOU can break - his heart. So don’t hurt him, don’t change him, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than he can give. Smile when he makes you happy, let him know when he makes you mad and miss him when he’s not there. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always ONE guy that is perfect for you."
I think this quote's pretty sweet. What are your thoughts on it? Share! =)
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Family
The room at home feels so empty now. No more turning to Yi Lun when I have some random thought in my head, nobody to talk to when I just want to talk, nobody to talk to me when I just woke up from a nightmare. Seriously, you really don't know how much a part of your life someone is until he or she has left. I mean, I knew how much Yi Lun was a part of my life the first time she went over to UK, I just thought I'd gotten used to it. But you don't get used to loneliness, actually. Not when you've had close to 20 years of companionship. Like I said to Yi Lun yesterday, "9 months versus 20 years leh!" It's true, 9 months cannot possibly erase the memories or comfort brought to you by someone who's been there for 20 years.
I think family's a very important part of my life; everytime I've been stressed or upset, they've been there for me to make life just that little bit easier for me to live. I give them lots of grief during this period, but they don't give me back the same grief when my stress period has passed. And I think that's what's wonderful about my family- they are always there for me. They may not know exactly what I'm stressed about, but they still stand by me. True, they nag, and I do get irritated with them, and feel a bit sian to tell them, but I know that they want the best for me. They don't always tell me things I like to hear, and though those are not easy things to hear, and they make me irritated, they are family, and therefore, those supposed irritating things are not meant to harm me. I know all these, but sometimes, it's just hard to separate knowing and feeling. But at the end of the day, I'm really glad I have them.
I really miss Evon and Yi Lun. Singapore's boring without them. Of course, I have Kok Yong, and my friends, which makes things so much better. But again, 9 months vs 20 years- the habit's hard to break.
Oh well, life still has to go on, and this is an investment for the future. Time will pass very fast, and soon December will come when I can see Evon, and I'll see Yi Lun in June! =)
I think family's a very important part of my life; everytime I've been stressed or upset, they've been there for me to make life just that little bit easier for me to live. I give them lots of grief during this period, but they don't give me back the same grief when my stress period has passed. And I think that's what's wonderful about my family- they are always there for me. They may not know exactly what I'm stressed about, but they still stand by me. True, they nag, and I do get irritated with them, and feel a bit sian to tell them, but I know that they want the best for me. They don't always tell me things I like to hear, and though those are not easy things to hear, and they make me irritated, they are family, and therefore, those supposed irritating things are not meant to harm me. I know all these, but sometimes, it's just hard to separate knowing and feeling. But at the end of the day, I'm really glad I have them.
I really miss Evon and Yi Lun. Singapore's boring without them. Of course, I have Kok Yong, and my friends, which makes things so much better. But again, 9 months vs 20 years- the habit's hard to break.
Oh well, life still has to go on, and this is an investment for the future. Time will pass very fast, and soon December will come when I can see Evon, and I'll see Yi Lun in June! =)
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Approaching Equilibrium
As my body slowly approaches equilibrium, I think my mind should start to do the same thing too. There's no more time left.
I have to focus. I cannot screw this sem up.
I have to focus. I cannot screw this sem up.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Lizards
Bloody FREAKING hell.
There was a lizard strolling on my table in hall just now! OMG. I was happily typing an email to Prof Chang regarding my mid-term essay, when I spotted something crawling around behind my laptop. Curious me looked at the thing, thinking it might be some loose paper flapping around, but noooooo it just had to be a fat, dark coloured lizard leisurely exploring my table.
I really wanted to scream at that point in time, or do something hugely dramatic to get someone's attention. But dignity and decorum won out, since there's nobody around to help me, and any sudden action might get the lizard to change course or shoot in a direction that's disadvantageous to me. So I got out of my seat as quickly and quietly as I could, all the while trying to stifle a shriek of hysteria that was gathering in my body.
As I stared at the lizard, it still happily walked around my table! OMG. It was crawling up the wall of my table towards the light, when it decided to switch course. DAMMIT! I so hoped it wouldn't move towards me. It didn't, and I guess I should thank my lucky stars for that. BUT it crawled into my file!!!!! OH MAN I SHALL NEVER LOOK AT THAT FILE IN THE SAME WAY AGAIN.
And I came back to hall with the purpose of sleeping. With the rogue lizard on the loose, how to sleep?!!!?!?! I guess I'll have to adopt the out of sight, out of mind mentality and just go to sleep.
Oh man!!!!!!!!!!
Hehe and I called Yi Lun and was hysterical with her. Poor girl couldn't do anything but just listen to me. Well I wanted someone to listen only, anyway. Nobody can help me this time except myself... Haha I just wanted an outlet to be hysterical to, so... thanks lun! Hong Hui was also one of the accidental victims of my hysteria. Haha... She called me to ask me some CGC stuff, and I told her about the lizard, coz the thumbdrive which I was supposed to check for her was near my laptop which was near the lizard. Sheesh. But I got the thumb drive! And checked the info for her! Yay me!
Ok I think I'm still suffering from the aftereffects of trauma. I'm going to sleep now.
There was a lizard strolling on my table in hall just now! OMG. I was happily typing an email to Prof Chang regarding my mid-term essay, when I spotted something crawling around behind my laptop. Curious me looked at the thing, thinking it might be some loose paper flapping around, but noooooo it just had to be a fat, dark coloured lizard leisurely exploring my table.
I really wanted to scream at that point in time, or do something hugely dramatic to get someone's attention. But dignity and decorum won out, since there's nobody around to help me, and any sudden action might get the lizard to change course or shoot in a direction that's disadvantageous to me. So I got out of my seat as quickly and quietly as I could, all the while trying to stifle a shriek of hysteria that was gathering in my body.
As I stared at the lizard, it still happily walked around my table! OMG. It was crawling up the wall of my table towards the light, when it decided to switch course. DAMMIT! I so hoped it wouldn't move towards me. It didn't, and I guess I should thank my lucky stars for that. BUT it crawled into my file!!!!! OH MAN I SHALL NEVER LOOK AT THAT FILE IN THE SAME WAY AGAIN.
And I came back to hall with the purpose of sleeping. With the rogue lizard on the loose, how to sleep?!!!?!?! I guess I'll have to adopt the out of sight, out of mind mentality and just go to sleep.
Oh man!!!!!!!!!!
Hehe and I called Yi Lun and was hysterical with her. Poor girl couldn't do anything but just listen to me. Well I wanted someone to listen only, anyway. Nobody can help me this time except myself... Haha I just wanted an outlet to be hysterical to, so... thanks lun! Hong Hui was also one of the accidental victims of my hysteria. Haha... She called me to ask me some CGC stuff, and I told her about the lizard, coz the thumbdrive which I was supposed to check for her was near my laptop which was near the lizard. Sheesh. But I got the thumb drive! And checked the info for her! Yay me!
Ok I think I'm still suffering from the aftereffects of trauma. I'm going to sleep now.
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Delusions of Persecution
I think there's a diabolical plan by the pharmaceutical company to kill me slowly.
First, they make sure I have to eat their drugs to keep my asthma under control.
Then, they make me take an overdose of the medicine. This made me hungry during class. They want to make me fat and die of heart attack or some other weight-related diseases!
Next, they just have to use those hard shiny plastic/metal capsule holders to hold the tablets, making me cut my fingers. So far I've cut 2 fingers in 2 days. Look!

Here's a close up of my poor fingers:

Goodness knows what else will happen. This morning was cutting my third finger, yesterday was cutting my index finger and overdosing. The day's only half gone.
Oh and did I tell you? the cough syrup's making me sleep and sleep. I'm going to get all fat and chubby soon. Not to mention crippled, if my back doesn't heal. -_-"
So, see? Isn't this a conspiracy theory to kill me slowly? I must say, the pharmaceutical companies are really creative. Mutilation and drugging. Wonder what's next?
Hehe did I scare you? Don't worry lar, this post was just for fun, though it's certainly true the above have occurred. Not to worry though, I'm not thinking all this is a conspiracy. I was just careless, and I think my stars are not aligned in the right way these days.... =S So please bear with me if I sound out of breath over the phone or not feel like talking online or over the phone k or keep coughing while talking to you k? *Yawn*... I so want to sleep again....
First, they make sure I have to eat their drugs to keep my asthma under control.
Then, they make me take an overdose of the medicine. This made me hungry during class. They want to make me fat and die of heart attack or some other weight-related diseases!
Next, they just have to use those hard shiny plastic/metal capsule holders to hold the tablets, making me cut my fingers. So far I've cut 2 fingers in 2 days. Look!
Here's a close up of my poor fingers:
Goodness knows what else will happen. This morning was cutting my third finger, yesterday was cutting my index finger and overdosing. The day's only half gone.
Oh and did I tell you? the cough syrup's making me sleep and sleep. I'm going to get all fat and chubby soon. Not to mention crippled, if my back doesn't heal. -_-"
So, see? Isn't this a conspiracy theory to kill me slowly? I must say, the pharmaceutical companies are really creative. Mutilation and drugging. Wonder what's next?
Hehe did I scare you? Don't worry lar, this post was just for fun, though it's certainly true the above have occurred. Not to worry though, I'm not thinking all this is a conspiracy. I was just careless, and I think my stars are not aligned in the right way these days.... =S So please bear with me if I sound out of breath over the phone or not feel like talking online or over the phone k or keep coughing while talking to you k? *Yawn*... I so want to sleep again....
Monday, September 01, 2008
Sunday, August 31, 2008
Another Chapter Closed
Yep, and with Wednesday over last week, another chapter of one of my activities in NTU has closed.
Last week was the last event of the Main Committee of Deli Aprecio Club 2007/2008. It was the Welcome Tea, and we had the election of the new committee. Technically, after they have been officially elected into the new committee, our job's done. So... after the loose ends have been tied up, life with DAC should be a thing of the past.
It feels rather weird, though, seeing as I've been in the committee for the past 3 years. I've worked with many different people from different courses, and learnt about different ways of working. And I've seen DAC going from a 2 year old club to a 4 year old one, a rather old age for a club to be in NTU, I think, seeing as people would assume that we have had more experience after 4 years. Ah well.
Anyway, with this chapter closed, as I mentioned before a few entries ago, other things will start, like research work, tuition, and others. Other things will inevitably come and take DAC's place. But that doesn't mean DAC's forgotten. Haha... it has been a rather significant part of my NTU life from the time I began there, and to a certain extent, it has shaped me too. So... Yup.
I'm feeling all kinds of emotions at the moment, and I've got readings at the back of my mind in the to-do list section, so I guess the sense of nostalgia I'm feeling is not really being translated here. Oh well, perhaps when I have time I shall come back to reminisce about it. But till then, I'd just like to leave a mark here to show the end of one chapter. Many more are going to open up in my life, but that doesn't make any other chapters any less significant. =)
Last week was the last event of the Main Committee of Deli Aprecio Club 2007/2008. It was the Welcome Tea, and we had the election of the new committee. Technically, after they have been officially elected into the new committee, our job's done. So... after the loose ends have been tied up, life with DAC should be a thing of the past.
It feels rather weird, though, seeing as I've been in the committee for the past 3 years. I've worked with many different people from different courses, and learnt about different ways of working. And I've seen DAC going from a 2 year old club to a 4 year old one, a rather old age for a club to be in NTU, I think, seeing as people would assume that we have had more experience after 4 years. Ah well.
Anyway, with this chapter closed, as I mentioned before a few entries ago, other things will start, like research work, tuition, and others. Other things will inevitably come and take DAC's place. But that doesn't mean DAC's forgotten. Haha... it has been a rather significant part of my NTU life from the time I began there, and to a certain extent, it has shaped me too. So... Yup.
I'm feeling all kinds of emotions at the moment, and I've got readings at the back of my mind in the to-do list section, so I guess the sense of nostalgia I'm feeling is not really being translated here. Oh well, perhaps when I have time I shall come back to reminisce about it. But till then, I'd just like to leave a mark here to show the end of one chapter. Many more are going to open up in my life, but that doesn't make any other chapters any less significant. =)
Thursday, August 28, 2008
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Online Shopping
I thought I was over that phase already! =( But recently I've been feeling an urge to go look at the stuff available in my livejournal account. Oh man... Itchy fingers, itchy eyes, itchy heart! Somebody help me to curb my spending!!!
Haha but luckily, I haven't spent on anything yet. I've a target to reach. I wanna go Europe for grad trip!! Anyone wants to go?
Haha but luckily, I haven't spent on anything yet. I've a target to reach. I wanna go Europe for grad trip!! Anyone wants to go?
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Reading People
I can't deny this any longer. I'm terrible at reading people. I can't tell how they are feeling by looking at them and their behavior! Is it a matter of self-confidence, or is it just insensitivity on my part? Or some other reason? How the heck am I gonna be a good psychologist in this case?
Hmm... Food for thought, isn't it?
Hmm... Food for thought, isn't it?
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Tired
Second week of school and I'm knackered. And there's nobody else in Hall 6 to liven up my hall life. =( Well that is, with the exception of Kok Yong, but he's two floors down and I'm two floors up and there's no way we can study together because of space constraint.
I feel like jumping into bed and sleeping my life away for now.
I feel like jumping into bed and sleeping my life away for now.
Sunday, August 03, 2008
Blessed
The last week has made me realize again that I am a very very lucky girl, and I would like to thank the following people for making my life so much easier. Without the three of you, I think I'd probably be going very mad right now.
1) I was stressed about my attachment report- the formatting, forgetting to include certain sections of the report into the contents page, thinking about how to hand it in when it's not very convenient to go over to the North Spine to hand it in when I'm at Outram one day and South Spine another.
Enter my wonderful knight in shining armour- Mr Ang Kok Yong, who told me to just write the contents and he'd do everything else for me. And by "everything else", I meant the formatting, the printing, binding, and delivery of the report. And that meant that he'd be in the lab doing his FYP for a shorter period of time.
And because I had been in NTU doing my report till rather late in the night, he also delayed his dinner (cos he was in the process of doing the formatting- it's a long story, I'd rather not say it here), and we ended up having supper at Buona Vista and 10pm. It was impractical for him to send me home to Bedok when Buona Vista's just a few stops away from Boon Lay, but he offered to, anyway. He only stopped after we found out there's a straight bus from Buona Vista to Bedok. And you know what this wonderful guy did? He kept me company on the bus, talking to me off and on on the phone (well hand phone bills are expensive you know), checking how many stops I had left, even though he himself was very tired too. He only put down the phone after I had gotten into the cab, after knowing which cab I was in, because by the time I reached Bedok, it was 1230am, and everywhere was dark and quiet. How wonderful is he?
2) The last week of the summer break also means that I have to start preparing to pack to move back to hall. However, I've been busy with the graduation project, and other things, so I didn't really have time to pack my things. Enters another angel- Mira! I had only told her to pack the cleaning supplies for me, and I would pack all the rest, but when I came home, I found that everything had been packed, and more. Mira had read through my list, and added in things which I had forgotten. And you know what was most touching? She remembered that I like having a little bolster case to sleep with, and she included that for me too! That was not necessary, but she actually remembered this little thing. How sweet is that?
3) Of course, I wouldn't have made it to hall without transport of my own, and my dear father provided me with that. He made 3 trips down to NTU, and even went around looking for things which I did not have at home so that I could bring it to hall. Without him, I'd still be left with a million and one other things to bring back to hall.
I am really very thankful for all the help all of them have given me, and being there for me. All these deeds, though seemingly small and might also seem to be the role they are supposed to play, hence the duty they performed, are nonetheless really really wonderful. They all went above and beyond their roles, just to make it easier for me to survive. Thank you all so so much. I think to a large extent, I am what I am today because of each of you. =)
1) I was stressed about my attachment report- the formatting, forgetting to include certain sections of the report into the contents page, thinking about how to hand it in when it's not very convenient to go over to the North Spine to hand it in when I'm at Outram one day and South Spine another.
Enter my wonderful knight in shining armour- Mr Ang Kok Yong, who told me to just write the contents and he'd do everything else for me. And by "everything else", I meant the formatting, the printing, binding, and delivery of the report. And that meant that he'd be in the lab doing his FYP for a shorter period of time.
And because I had been in NTU doing my report till rather late in the night, he also delayed his dinner (cos he was in the process of doing the formatting- it's a long story, I'd rather not say it here), and we ended up having supper at Buona Vista and 10pm. It was impractical for him to send me home to Bedok when Buona Vista's just a few stops away from Boon Lay, but he offered to, anyway. He only stopped after we found out there's a straight bus from Buona Vista to Bedok. And you know what this wonderful guy did? He kept me company on the bus, talking to me off and on on the phone (well hand phone bills are expensive you know), checking how many stops I had left, even though he himself was very tired too. He only put down the phone after I had gotten into the cab, after knowing which cab I was in, because by the time I reached Bedok, it was 1230am, and everywhere was dark and quiet. How wonderful is he?
2) The last week of the summer break also means that I have to start preparing to pack to move back to hall. However, I've been busy with the graduation project, and other things, so I didn't really have time to pack my things. Enters another angel- Mira! I had only told her to pack the cleaning supplies for me, and I would pack all the rest, but when I came home, I found that everything had been packed, and more. Mira had read through my list, and added in things which I had forgotten. And you know what was most touching? She remembered that I like having a little bolster case to sleep with, and she included that for me too! That was not necessary, but she actually remembered this little thing. How sweet is that?
3) Of course, I wouldn't have made it to hall without transport of my own, and my dear father provided me with that. He made 3 trips down to NTU, and even went around looking for things which I did not have at home so that I could bring it to hall. Without him, I'd still be left with a million and one other things to bring back to hall.
I am really very thankful for all the help all of them have given me, and being there for me. All these deeds, though seemingly small and might also seem to be the role they are supposed to play, hence the duty they performed, are nonetheless really really wonderful. They all went above and beyond their roles, just to make it easier for me to survive. Thank you all so so much. I think to a large extent, I am what I am today because of each of you. =)
Monday, July 28, 2008
Reports Again
I predict that my life from here onwards is going to be full of report writing. It's not that I don't like report writing, but it's just that writing reports requires crafting words from conversational and colloquial to becoming professional and civilized. It takes alot of mental energy to find the right words and phrasings to construct sentences that mean what you really want to say. I like this challenge, but when I have to keep doing it over and over again, it gets tiring.
Now I know what Grace meant when she said writing is her craft. Indeed, writing is a craft, which requires skillful shaping of your words, such that you can use it to mean things you don't really mean, but yet somehow suggest that you do mean it. I think academics are always very good at that, that's why they can cite other studies wrongly, and yet not be found out.
I could go on and on, but I have to get back to my report now. 2000 words. So near yet so far! How to squeeze in so much of what I have learnt into a mere 2000 words? Again, comes the issue of crafting your writing. How to skillfully carve your words into precise points that deliver your message accurately? How do you pour your reflections into 2000 words and yet express everything you want to say? I wish I could just hand in all 10 of my logbooks and just be done with it, but it's not right either.
Argh. Ok I shall stop my self-pitying and go on with it. I need to finish this fast so I can move on with other things!!!!
Now I know what Grace meant when she said writing is her craft. Indeed, writing is a craft, which requires skillful shaping of your words, such that you can use it to mean things you don't really mean, but yet somehow suggest that you do mean it. I think academics are always very good at that, that's why they can cite other studies wrongly, and yet not be found out.
I could go on and on, but I have to get back to my report now. 2000 words. So near yet so far! How to squeeze in so much of what I have learnt into a mere 2000 words? Again, comes the issue of crafting your writing. How to skillfully carve your words into precise points that deliver your message accurately? How do you pour your reflections into 2000 words and yet express everything you want to say? I wish I could just hand in all 10 of my logbooks and just be done with it, but it's not right either.
Argh. Ok I shall stop my self-pitying and go on with it. I need to finish this fast so I can move on with other things!!!!
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Life Goes On
So attachment came and went in a blink of an eye, and starting on the Graduation Project (from now on called GP) is starting very soon tomorrow. I had thought 10 weeks would pass excruciatingly slowly, but I was so wrong. They just came and went, and before I knew it, we had to plan what to give to our colleagues at CEL. They've really been really helpful and really friendly to us, guiding us and teaching us, and I've learnt alot from the experience. How often does one get to experience so much stuff that goes on in Psychology? It was really fun trying out the various tests, and getting the specialists themselves to teach us the interpretations and scorings.
And tomorrow, I'm gonna start on the data entry for my GP. And not too long after that, school's going to start, and everything else after that will be a complete madhouse. The days of rushing around doing projects, meeting deadlines, and studying will be here soon.
Speaking of which, many many things have happened this holiday. I started working at MindEdge, and then quit not too long after that, found a tuition job, ended attachment, and am moving on to other things now. Looking back, I realised life's really full of transitions. We never stop to realize how far we've moved on until we look back and see what we've done.
7 months ago, I thought time would also pass really slowly with Kok Yong gone in China. In the end, though time did seem to pass slowly, looking back, the 6 months passed really fast, because I had also been occupied with things going on in my life as well. I guess even if there are some things missing in our lives at certain periods of time, we slowly learn to live with it, because we have to, due to the obligations and commitments that we have made. I think, people need commitments and obligations to move on, because these are necessary to enable us to function. They keep us going, simply because we feel a need to fulfill them.
I once watched a movie, where the male lead had a philosophy which he lived by: no matter how bad things are, at the end of the day, you will still be in one piece. This had a huge impact on me, and I began to use it as my own philosophy as well. Though it might not seem so, I have actually grown more daring because of this. I used to be really shy and scared. I still am, but I've improved. And I think, since I'm still alive, I ought not to just throw my life away. And that's why I'm against suicide. How could I end my life when I don't even know how it will turn out?
But that's enough about that reflective part about life going on. Because life goes on, and time goes on, Kok Yong's come back! And Evon and Yi Lun too!
I just spent a wonderful day with Kok Yong yesterday. Haha... It's been the longest time we've spent together since he came back from China, and it was really nice. =) We went to Holland Village for dinner, then we went to the main purpose of going there- eating ice cream at Cold Rock Ice Creamery. I've been wanting to try this place, because I've been reading about it in magazines. The first time I found out the location of Cold Rock with Si Huan, Hong Hui and Pei Shan, we were too full to try it out. Then I almost got to go with Evon and Yi Lun, but I ended up feeling sick that day (sickening lar, I tell you!), then FINALLY I went with Kok Yong.
The concept at Cold Rock's pretty cool. You choose the size of ice cream you want, then after that, you choose a maximum of 2 flavours of ice cream, which is rather worth it, seeing as 2 scoops of ice cream usually cost more than $4.50. Then you decide whether you want to put toppings- toppings cost $1 each, but the varieties are so cool! There are Tim-Tams, Snickers, Willy Wonka Nerds, Ferrero Rocher, and many many more! Then they'll take your order, put them onto a granite slab, and mix everything together so you essentially have an ice cream you created based on your desire. How cool is that? I like the concept, though I have to say, in terms of quality of ice cream, there are better ice creams elsewhere, my favourite being gelatos. =) But it was nice.
Dinner was at Amici's, an Italian restaurant. Well, the food was good, but the price was quite high. I ordered pasta in squid ink and fried cod, and Kok Yong ordered the fried cod. We also had the appetiser of fried goose liver with raisins and pear. All of them were good, and I must say, Kok Yong's fried cod was very nice. It can melt in the mouth! =) The goose liver, or foie gras, as is the correct name, was quite good too. I was initially apprehensive about eating it, it being goose liver and all, but the taste was good. Paired with pears, the combination was quite complementary with each other- savoury and sweet. Yum.
I didn't take photos coz at Cold Rock, we were busy enjoying the ice cream, and at Amici's, the restaurant was too dark, so any flashes by the camera would have attracted quite a bit of attention, and for those who know what my Nikon camera is like, there wouldn't have been one flash, but a series of eye-blinding flashes that would make people think there was lightning in the room. Haha...
Then we went to watch Red Cliff. I think Red Cliff is quite a nice show. I liked watching how the strategists pitted themselves against one another in war, and of course, Tony Leung's acting is very good. =D But I was quite turned off by all the killing. I mean, I know war needs to have killing, but the way the blood was shown to spurt out like a geyser, the way the soldiers were killed- ankles slashed, throat slashed, stomachs sliced open, pulled into the group and stabbed continuously... - made me avert my eyes a few times. But it all looked very real. An irritating part's when the ending said that the movie was to be continued. Arghhh.... I was sleepy, but I still wanted to watch! Aiyoh!
Yep, but I still had a wonderful time!!! =)
And tomorrow, I'm gonna start on the data entry for my GP. And not too long after that, school's going to start, and everything else after that will be a complete madhouse. The days of rushing around doing projects, meeting deadlines, and studying will be here soon.
Speaking of which, many many things have happened this holiday. I started working at MindEdge, and then quit not too long after that, found a tuition job, ended attachment, and am moving on to other things now. Looking back, I realised life's really full of transitions. We never stop to realize how far we've moved on until we look back and see what we've done.
7 months ago, I thought time would also pass really slowly with Kok Yong gone in China. In the end, though time did seem to pass slowly, looking back, the 6 months passed really fast, because I had also been occupied with things going on in my life as well. I guess even if there are some things missing in our lives at certain periods of time, we slowly learn to live with it, because we have to, due to the obligations and commitments that we have made. I think, people need commitments and obligations to move on, because these are necessary to enable us to function. They keep us going, simply because we feel a need to fulfill them.
I once watched a movie, where the male lead had a philosophy which he lived by: no matter how bad things are, at the end of the day, you will still be in one piece. This had a huge impact on me, and I began to use it as my own philosophy as well. Though it might not seem so, I have actually grown more daring because of this. I used to be really shy and scared. I still am, but I've improved. And I think, since I'm still alive, I ought not to just throw my life away. And that's why I'm against suicide. How could I end my life when I don't even know how it will turn out?
But that's enough about that reflective part about life going on. Because life goes on, and time goes on, Kok Yong's come back! And Evon and Yi Lun too!
I just spent a wonderful day with Kok Yong yesterday. Haha... It's been the longest time we've spent together since he came back from China, and it was really nice. =) We went to Holland Village for dinner, then we went to the main purpose of going there- eating ice cream at Cold Rock Ice Creamery. I've been wanting to try this place, because I've been reading about it in magazines. The first time I found out the location of Cold Rock with Si Huan, Hong Hui and Pei Shan, we were too full to try it out. Then I almost got to go with Evon and Yi Lun, but I ended up feeling sick that day (sickening lar, I tell you!), then FINALLY I went with Kok Yong.
The concept at Cold Rock's pretty cool. You choose the size of ice cream you want, then after that, you choose a maximum of 2 flavours of ice cream, which is rather worth it, seeing as 2 scoops of ice cream usually cost more than $4.50. Then you decide whether you want to put toppings- toppings cost $1 each, but the varieties are so cool! There are Tim-Tams, Snickers, Willy Wonka Nerds, Ferrero Rocher, and many many more! Then they'll take your order, put them onto a granite slab, and mix everything together so you essentially have an ice cream you created based on your desire. How cool is that? I like the concept, though I have to say, in terms of quality of ice cream, there are better ice creams elsewhere, my favourite being gelatos. =) But it was nice.
Dinner was at Amici's, an Italian restaurant. Well, the food was good, but the price was quite high. I ordered pasta in squid ink and fried cod, and Kok Yong ordered the fried cod. We also had the appetiser of fried goose liver with raisins and pear. All of them were good, and I must say, Kok Yong's fried cod was very nice. It can melt in the mouth! =) The goose liver, or foie gras, as is the correct name, was quite good too. I was initially apprehensive about eating it, it being goose liver and all, but the taste was good. Paired with pears, the combination was quite complementary with each other- savoury and sweet. Yum.
I didn't take photos coz at Cold Rock, we were busy enjoying the ice cream, and at Amici's, the restaurant was too dark, so any flashes by the camera would have attracted quite a bit of attention, and for those who know what my Nikon camera is like, there wouldn't have been one flash, but a series of eye-blinding flashes that would make people think there was lightning in the room. Haha...
Then we went to watch Red Cliff. I think Red Cliff is quite a nice show. I liked watching how the strategists pitted themselves against one another in war, and of course, Tony Leung's acting is very good. =D But I was quite turned off by all the killing. I mean, I know war needs to have killing, but the way the blood was shown to spurt out like a geyser, the way the soldiers were killed- ankles slashed, throat slashed, stomachs sliced open, pulled into the group and stabbed continuously... - made me avert my eyes a few times. But it all looked very real. An irritating part's when the ending said that the movie was to be continued. Arghhh.... I was sleepy, but I still wanted to watch! Aiyoh!
Yep, but I still had a wonderful time!!! =)
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Inertia
I'm supposed to be doing my logbook now, and faithfully do so everyday, because I wanna have enough time to spend with my darlings when they come back. But I can't seem to get myself started! I keep doing all sorts of things, like checking mail, listening to Connie Talbot, talking to Evon... Aiyoh!
Ok! I am going to get started now, otherwise there'll be a mad rush next week again to complete it. Bye!
Ok! I am going to get started now, otherwise there'll be a mad rush next week again to complete it. Bye!
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
蔷蔷
I found this song while reading Jareen's blog. Omg... the song's so sad! It made me cry so much as I was watching the music videos. The song is a tribute to Ella's dog, 蔷蔷, who passed away last year. I think it was after SHE toured Singapore that he died, coz she didn't perform this song while she was here... Anyway, hope you like the song!
Monday, June 16, 2008
ahhhh
Oh man, I sooo know that I'm supposed to be updating my eLogBook right now, but I keep getting distracted from it. It's so troublesome to keep updating it! I have to keep trying to think of ways to phrase what I learnt, but there are some things that we do and experience that are so hard to put into words! How do you tell them that you really did learn something from tidying up the pantry today? I know I learnt something from it, but it's hard to put it into words and make it sound like a significant thing that I learnt. It's significant to me, sure, but how do I let the reader know how much it affected me.
This is why, I think I have a love-hate relationship with words. Words can so easily disguise the true intention of the writer, and yet, without words, it is so hard to articulate even the basic meaning of what we want to let the other party know. Sometimes, what I say sounds too over the top, but that's the best way I can put things to let the other party know how much that action touched me. In times like this, I guess it's hard to express how I feel, but I just want the other person to know how much I appreciate it, because sometimes, it's hard for the other person to tell, and I want to make it known to the person that I had noticed it, and really appreciated the effort. But I know, too, that it's too over the top, too. But that's how happy you made me, seriously.
And I realise now I'm actually not turning back to my logbook. Argh. The faster I get this done, the faster I can turn my attention to other things! Gotta get my eyes on Microsoft Word now. Wish me luck!
This is why, I think I have a love-hate relationship with words. Words can so easily disguise the true intention of the writer, and yet, without words, it is so hard to articulate even the basic meaning of what we want to let the other party know. Sometimes, what I say sounds too over the top, but that's the best way I can put things to let the other party know how much that action touched me. In times like this, I guess it's hard to express how I feel, but I just want the other person to know how much I appreciate it, because sometimes, it's hard for the other person to tell, and I want to make it known to the person that I had noticed it, and really appreciated the effort. But I know, too, that it's too over the top, too. But that's how happy you made me, seriously.
And I realise now I'm actually not turning back to my logbook. Argh. The faster I get this done, the faster I can turn my attention to other things! Gotta get my eyes on Microsoft Word now. Wish me luck!
Sunday, June 15, 2008
Tagged
Rules:
People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cant refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person who they were tagged by.
#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
Depends on the betrayal, really. If it's two-timing, I'll wonder what went wrong, then say byebye to him. Don't think I can trust him another time...
#2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
That I can be content with what I have and just be happy. Haha sounds very politically correct, I know, but I'm sick of always thinking of trying to get ahead in the rat race.
#3. What will your dream wedding be like?
I like this question! Haha... As many people will know, it'll be a garden wedding, held in the day, and instead of a 10-course meal or however many courses, I'll have many carts around the garden, where the chefs will cook your food on the spot. No need to wear nice nice, coz it's a garden wedding, and there sure as hell won't be any shark's fin! Thenthenthen... Ah, there'll be a father-daughter dance... imagine little girls dancing with their fathers... so sweet!
#4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
Not really.
#5. What's your ideal lover like?
A family person, tries to make me feel secure, always there for me, doing little things to let me know I'm always on his mind, making the effort to know my family... Oh wait, I think there's someone like that already... ;)
#6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Being loved.
#7. What do you see yourself as?
Goodness, I really don't know how to answer this kind of question... Well I see myself as someone who tries to accommodate others, to the extent that sometimes I let myself get taken advantage of. Well don't think I don't know I'm being taken advantage of, I'm aware of it, just that sometimes I can't be bothered to confront them about it. Ah, and I do try to make people's expectations come true. If someone thinks I'm blur and don't really know what's going on, or not very bright, I'll continue behaving this way. After all, if in the first place they thought of me like that, it means they aren't looking at me in a very positive light, are they? So would they be convinced that I'm not as blur as they think if I were to show otherwise? So should I even bother? Nah... I'll save my energy. For all you know, I can turn it to my advantage. Hah!
#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
In the first place, I think if I knew someone was attached, I'd keep my distance... But if there is such a scenario, I think I'd try to keep the hell away from him.
#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
If it was unhappy, I don't think I want to talk about it anymore.
#10. If you had a choice, what kind of family you want to be born into?
The same one.
#11. Is being tagged fun?
Well, seeing as I've been thinking of what to write about to ripple my blog, I'd say this came at the right time. =)
#12. How do you see yourself in ten years time?
Having a family, working in a career I am working towards now.
#13. Who are currently the most important people to you?
Family, friends, Kok Yong. In no particular order. They all have the same rank.
#14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
Ook, Si Wei was the one who tagged me. I'd say she's an open-minded person, who has a large depth for understanding others. I mean, I've blown her off appointments so many million times, and goodness knows that almost everytime we go out together something ALWAYS has to happen to cut shop our meeting- inappropriate shoes that made me unable to walk for long, stupid cramps that made me have to go home, and so much more, but Si Wei has been really understanding all this time, and I'm really touched because of that. I think she places her friends high on her priority list, and she's a good friend too! Hmm... but I guess sometimes she's a little too straightforward, so she might rub people the wrong way with the things she says... Overall, though, she's a great person. =)
#15. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
Married but poor, but the partner has to be someone I want to spend the rest of my life with.
#16. What's the first thing you do every morning?
Look at my handphone, see the time, and sleep for another 20 minutes.
#17. Would you give all in a relationship?
Yes. If it's the right person/people.
#18. Do you live to love, live to hate or live for the sake of living?
I don't know. I think I want to live to see how my life turns out. I can't stand stories that end halfway. So you won't see me committing suicide. That's too anticlimatic. And I don't want to die all ugly and bloodied. Eeew.
#19. What type of friends do you like?
Someone who doesn't put me down all the time, be there for me when I need him/her, be open-minded. Actually, it's the presence that matters... Some people, you just feel that you can click with them, and never feel bored when you are talking or hanging out with them.
#20. What type of friends do you dislike?
I think this question's quite misleading... how do I be friends with people I dislike? Hmm... ok but to be fair, for those I don't really like, I'll still be civil to them, until they really get on my nerves, then I'll get quiet and get all blur. Better to be blur and not explode and do something I'll regret, I feel.
Anyway, people who get on my nerves are those who talk about their problems, but never seem to do anything about it. Like, do something about it, if they find the situation unbearable! Or seek help or something. Erm... and backstabbers, and people who play politics, and those who impose themselves on others and have no inkling that they're doing so. And those who hint hint at things they want you to do, such that you feel obligated to help them, and when you offer to help them, they try to act all magnanimous and long-suffering and say, "oh, it's too troublesome for you, it's ok lar, I'll do it another time... it's so heavy, I'll do it another day..." OMG. If you need help, just say it, no need to go around the bush like this. I don't know what you want. Well, I do. I know you're hinting for help, but you talking like that after I've offered my help doesn't make things any easier. It just wastes more time, and it becomes me persuading you to let me help. I don't have the energy to play this game, seriously. I've got other things to do.
ITS YOUR TURN NOW!!
Well I'm supposed to tag 8 people, but you know what? I'm not going to do it. I don't have 8 people to tag. So if you're interested in doing this, please feel free to! =)
People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cant refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person who they were tagged by.
#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
Depends on the betrayal, really. If it's two-timing, I'll wonder what went wrong, then say byebye to him. Don't think I can trust him another time...
#2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
That I can be content with what I have and just be happy. Haha sounds very politically correct, I know, but I'm sick of always thinking of trying to get ahead in the rat race.
#3. What will your dream wedding be like?
I like this question! Haha... As many people will know, it'll be a garden wedding, held in the day, and instead of a 10-course meal or however many courses, I'll have many carts around the garden, where the chefs will cook your food on the spot. No need to wear nice nice, coz it's a garden wedding, and there sure as hell won't be any shark's fin! Thenthenthen... Ah, there'll be a father-daughter dance... imagine little girls dancing with their fathers... so sweet!
#4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
Not really.
#5. What's your ideal lover like?
A family person, tries to make me feel secure, always there for me, doing little things to let me know I'm always on his mind, making the effort to know my family... Oh wait, I think there's someone like that already... ;)
#6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Being loved.
#7. What do you see yourself as?
Goodness, I really don't know how to answer this kind of question... Well I see myself as someone who tries to accommodate others, to the extent that sometimes I let myself get taken advantage of. Well don't think I don't know I'm being taken advantage of, I'm aware of it, just that sometimes I can't be bothered to confront them about it. Ah, and I do try to make people's expectations come true. If someone thinks I'm blur and don't really know what's going on, or not very bright, I'll continue behaving this way. After all, if in the first place they thought of me like that, it means they aren't looking at me in a very positive light, are they? So would they be convinced that I'm not as blur as they think if I were to show otherwise? So should I even bother? Nah... I'll save my energy. For all you know, I can turn it to my advantage. Hah!
#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
In the first place, I think if I knew someone was attached, I'd keep my distance... But if there is such a scenario, I think I'd try to keep the hell away from him.
#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
If it was unhappy, I don't think I want to talk about it anymore.
#10. If you had a choice, what kind of family you want to be born into?
The same one.
#11. Is being tagged fun?
Well, seeing as I've been thinking of what to write about to ripple my blog, I'd say this came at the right time. =)
#12. How do you see yourself in ten years time?
Having a family, working in a career I am working towards now.
#13. Who are currently the most important people to you?
Family, friends, Kok Yong. In no particular order. They all have the same rank.
#14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
Ook, Si Wei was the one who tagged me. I'd say she's an open-minded person, who has a large depth for understanding others. I mean, I've blown her off appointments so many million times, and goodness knows that almost everytime we go out together something ALWAYS has to happen to cut shop our meeting- inappropriate shoes that made me unable to walk for long, stupid cramps that made me have to go home, and so much more, but Si Wei has been really understanding all this time, and I'm really touched because of that. I think she places her friends high on her priority list, and she's a good friend too! Hmm... but I guess sometimes she's a little too straightforward, so she might rub people the wrong way with the things she says... Overall, though, she's a great person. =)
#15. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
Married but poor, but the partner has to be someone I want to spend the rest of my life with.
#16. What's the first thing you do every morning?
Look at my handphone, see the time, and sleep for another 20 minutes.
#17. Would you give all in a relationship?
Yes. If it's the right person/people.
#18. Do you live to love, live to hate or live for the sake of living?
I don't know. I think I want to live to see how my life turns out. I can't stand stories that end halfway. So you won't see me committing suicide. That's too anticlimatic. And I don't want to die all ugly and bloodied. Eeew.
#19. What type of friends do you like?
Someone who doesn't put me down all the time, be there for me when I need him/her, be open-minded. Actually, it's the presence that matters... Some people, you just feel that you can click with them, and never feel bored when you are talking or hanging out with them.
#20. What type of friends do you dislike?
I think this question's quite misleading... how do I be friends with people I dislike? Hmm... ok but to be fair, for those I don't really like, I'll still be civil to them, until they really get on my nerves, then I'll get quiet and get all blur. Better to be blur and not explode and do something I'll regret, I feel.
Anyway, people who get on my nerves are those who talk about their problems, but never seem to do anything about it. Like, do something about it, if they find the situation unbearable! Or seek help or something. Erm... and backstabbers, and people who play politics, and those who impose themselves on others and have no inkling that they're doing so. And those who hint hint at things they want you to do, such that you feel obligated to help them, and when you offer to help them, they try to act all magnanimous and long-suffering and say, "oh, it's too troublesome for you, it's ok lar, I'll do it another time... it's so heavy, I'll do it another day..." OMG. If you need help, just say it, no need to go around the bush like this. I don't know what you want. Well, I do. I know you're hinting for help, but you talking like that after I've offered my help doesn't make things any easier. It just wastes more time, and it becomes me persuading you to let me help. I don't have the energy to play this game, seriously. I've got other things to do.
ITS YOUR TURN NOW!!
Well I'm supposed to tag 8 people, but you know what? I'm not going to do it. I don't have 8 people to tag. So if you're interested in doing this, please feel free to! =)
Sunday, June 01, 2008
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Can't get them out of my head
Yep, these song lyrics are the more memorable ones that keep sticking in my head. Some have been inside for a long time, while some were just stuck recently. It's just some lines of these songs, but they keep going round and round in my mind. Some might have meaning, but others don't. You be the judge. =)
"I've caught myself smiling alone, just thinking of your voice" -- Don't Say You Love Me by The Corrs
"Everyone can see who you are, take a look at yourself, tell me why keep on denying. Everything you say (denying), everything you do, so be a fool to yourself forever more. Trying every kind of move, tells me what's it gonna prove. You ain't foolin' nobody, you ain't foolin' nobody but yourself." -- Denying by Spice Girls
"But with you, I can let my hair down, I can say anything crazy I know you'll catch me right before I hit the ground." -- With You by Jessica Simpson
"A little more time, a little less wait, a little more heart, a little less break. Simple and true, what they say, a little bit goes a long way. A little less talk, a little more do, a little more me, a little less you. Baby at the end of the day, a little bit goes a long way. " -- A Little Bit by Jessica Simpson
"最难过时候就会想起你, 其实你已经给了我勇气" --微笑的理由by 梁静茹,宇恒
"All I need is a good disguise One where nobody can recognize That I'm feeling so small All I need is a secret weapon I've gotta have faith Zapping monsters into outer space I'm gonna be a Superhero" -- Little Superhero Girl by Corrinne May
And of course, my favourite song:
"Don't what you do to me but
Everytime I'm with you its a natural high
its like re-discovering Eden
with chocolate-coated rainbows and cotton candy skies
And everytime you look my way
I wish i had the guts to say
There's something in your eyes
Something in your smile
Something in the way you move me
You make me want to sing
Make me want to dance
Make me want to cry
I'm falling in love with you.
I think i'll hire Cupid
He'll make you see I'm more than your friend
You'll be tossing and turning
Counting the hours till you see me again
And when we meet you'll
Kiss my hand and say the words I've longed to hear
There's something in your eyes
Something in your smile
Something in the way you move me
You make me want to sing
Make me want to dance
I'm falling in love with you" --Something About You by Corrinne May
"I've caught myself smiling alone, just thinking of your voice" -- Don't Say You Love Me by The Corrs
"Everyone can see who you are, take a look at yourself, tell me why keep on denying. Everything you say (denying), everything you do, so be a fool to yourself forever more. Trying every kind of move, tells me what's it gonna prove. You ain't foolin' nobody, you ain't foolin' nobody but yourself." -- Denying by Spice Girls
"But with you, I can let my hair down, I can say anything crazy I know you'll catch me right before I hit the ground." -- With You by Jessica Simpson
"A little more time, a little less wait, a little more heart, a little less break. Simple and true, what they say, a little bit goes a long way. A little less talk, a little more do, a little more me, a little less you. Baby at the end of the day, a little bit goes a long way. " -- A Little Bit by Jessica Simpson
"最难过时候就会想起你, 其实你已经给了我勇气" --微笑的理由by 梁静茹,宇恒
"All I need is a good disguise One where nobody can recognize That I'm feeling so small All I need is a secret weapon I've gotta have faith Zapping monsters into outer space I'm gonna be a Superhero" -- Little Superhero Girl by Corrinne May
And of course, my favourite song:
"Don't what you do to me but
Everytime I'm with you its a natural high
its like re-discovering Eden
with chocolate-coated rainbows and cotton candy skies
And everytime you look my way
I wish i had the guts to say
There's something in your eyes
Something in your smile
Something in the way you move me
You make me want to sing
Make me want to dance
Make me want to cry
I'm falling in love with you.
I think i'll hire Cupid
He'll make you see I'm more than your friend
You'll be tossing and turning
Counting the hours till you see me again
And when we meet you'll
Kiss my hand and say the words I've longed to hear
There's something in your eyes
Something in your smile
Something in the way you move me
You make me want to sing
Make me want to dance
I'm falling in love with you" --Something About You by Corrinne May
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