Saturday, January 31, 2009
Influences
I think alot of factors in our lives can affect our lives drastically. New people we meet, close friends, our moods, our loved ones' moods, basically anything, can change the way we see things, the way we feel, the way we think.
I was reading some of my friends' blogs, and I realised (not that I didn't before, just that it's even closer to home now than before) that victory is relative. What may seem perfect to one person may seem lacking to another. And I wanted to tear as I read some of these friends' blogs. I was touched and inspired that they are strong enough to motivate themselves after so many setbacks and failures, and still had hope to achieve their dreams in the end. It made me wonder if I would have the strength to pick myself up, if I hadn't had the support of my family throughout those times.
My 'O' level results were a disaster. Nobody in my family expected me to go to a school less than TJC. But surprise, surprise, I did. But my family didn't give up on me, nor looked down on me. They still believed that I could do better for myself the next time round. I didn't do enough to make them very proud of me, but I gained something which was more valuable- my self-esteem. I'd lost it in secondary school due to several factors, among which was that I was among the cream of the crop. Now, that isn't always a bad thing, considering it made competitiveness a survival instinct in me, and that is something that is not easily gained. The self-confidence and self-esteem I gained in JC was valuable. And I didn't do well for 'A' levels to impress anyone, yes, but I did in NTU. Well, of course, I couldn't get first-class honours, but I did well enough to make my parents proud of me.
And why did I do well in NTU? Again, this goes back to my starting paragraph- the people I met. I met very supportive and nurturing friends, which made my adjustment into uni life better. I don't think I'd have enjoyed hall that much if Serene hadn't been my first roommate, or if I hadn't met Seow Ling, Mei Shi, An Li, Hui Li and Jeanette, and I don't think I'd have enjoyed psych as much as I have if I hadn't met PASYM. These people were the starting points of my life in uni, and they had further reinforced the self-worth I had gained back. And of course, there is my family. Who doesn't know that taking Linguistics as one of the modules is enough to kill? That's the module that drives me to sleepless nights and not a few tears everytime I take it, and of course, my family's always there to witness it. They made it so much easier for me to continue doing what I had to do, by removing some of the little details of my life which, though little, are the areas I can't live without, like food. Without all these people around me, I think I wouldn't have had a peaceful and rather interesting life in uni, much less even want to consider furthering my studies.
And then I met Kok Yong. He's a source of inspiration for me. Everytime I'm tired, or don't feel like working, the thought of him still being able to continue doing whatever he does so well despite being so tired makes me wonder if I'm justified to put aside my work. I don't deny that many times I've succumbed to temptation and slacked off, but knowing Kok Yong made me realise just how much effort I have to put in if I want to do something with my life. I don't think I'll ever become as superhuman as him, but I do hope to learn some of them from him, such as being decisive. Haha, goodness knows how horrible I am at making decisions. And... many people may think that he's often too consumed with his work to bother about anything else. I think... that's a misconception to a certain extent. True, he's very focused on his work, to the point of obsession at times, but he doesn't forget about those around him. Many times, I've been touched by the way he remembers little details of my life, like reminding me to bring my inhalers when I go out, or just taking care of me. They're not the wonderfully mushy romantic gestures and could be easily overlooked, but it's these that indicate that those around him are not forgotten.
All these people never fail to make me almost come to tears when I talk about them. I'm serious. Ask me about them, especially my family, and chances are, you'll see me tearing very soon. Haha. Emotional? I guess so, but I owe too much to them.
But of course, borrowing strength from all these people in my life necessarily entails sharing in some of their moods, and becoming affected by them. The closer I am to them, the more affected I am by them. I can't help worrying about them when they are not happy, or when things are not going smoothly in their lives. It's not that I don't care or I don't know when I don't ask- I just think that there's a reason why they don't approach me when they have their problems, and they'll come when they're ready. Of course, sometimes I put my big foot in my big mouth and say the wrong things and end up hurting them more than I intended. And sometimes, I'm insensitive to their needs or end up not being as supportive as they'd like. But I'm still trying to improve, and give back as much as I've taken from them. I'm not a very patient person, but I'm trying my best to be.
I hope this is enough.
I was reading some of my friends' blogs, and I realised (not that I didn't before, just that it's even closer to home now than before) that victory is relative. What may seem perfect to one person may seem lacking to another. And I wanted to tear as I read some of these friends' blogs. I was touched and inspired that they are strong enough to motivate themselves after so many setbacks and failures, and still had hope to achieve their dreams in the end. It made me wonder if I would have the strength to pick myself up, if I hadn't had the support of my family throughout those times.
My 'O' level results were a disaster. Nobody in my family expected me to go to a school less than TJC. But surprise, surprise, I did. But my family didn't give up on me, nor looked down on me. They still believed that I could do better for myself the next time round. I didn't do enough to make them very proud of me, but I gained something which was more valuable- my self-esteem. I'd lost it in secondary school due to several factors, among which was that I was among the cream of the crop. Now, that isn't always a bad thing, considering it made competitiveness a survival instinct in me, and that is something that is not easily gained. The self-confidence and self-esteem I gained in JC was valuable. And I didn't do well for 'A' levels to impress anyone, yes, but I did in NTU. Well, of course, I couldn't get first-class honours, but I did well enough to make my parents proud of me.
And why did I do well in NTU? Again, this goes back to my starting paragraph- the people I met. I met very supportive and nurturing friends, which made my adjustment into uni life better. I don't think I'd have enjoyed hall that much if Serene hadn't been my first roommate, or if I hadn't met Seow Ling, Mei Shi, An Li, Hui Li and Jeanette, and I don't think I'd have enjoyed psych as much as I have if I hadn't met PASYM. These people were the starting points of my life in uni, and they had further reinforced the self-worth I had gained back. And of course, there is my family. Who doesn't know that taking Linguistics as one of the modules is enough to kill? That's the module that drives me to sleepless nights and not a few tears everytime I take it, and of course, my family's always there to witness it. They made it so much easier for me to continue doing what I had to do, by removing some of the little details of my life which, though little, are the areas I can't live without, like food. Without all these people around me, I think I wouldn't have had a peaceful and rather interesting life in uni, much less even want to consider furthering my studies.
And then I met Kok Yong. He's a source of inspiration for me. Everytime I'm tired, or don't feel like working, the thought of him still being able to continue doing whatever he does so well despite being so tired makes me wonder if I'm justified to put aside my work. I don't deny that many times I've succumbed to temptation and slacked off, but knowing Kok Yong made me realise just how much effort I have to put in if I want to do something with my life. I don't think I'll ever become as superhuman as him, but I do hope to learn some of them from him, such as being decisive. Haha, goodness knows how horrible I am at making decisions. And... many people may think that he's often too consumed with his work to bother about anything else. I think... that's a misconception to a certain extent. True, he's very focused on his work, to the point of obsession at times, but he doesn't forget about those around him. Many times, I've been touched by the way he remembers little details of my life, like reminding me to bring my inhalers when I go out, or just taking care of me. They're not the wonderfully mushy romantic gestures and could be easily overlooked, but it's these that indicate that those around him are not forgotten.
All these people never fail to make me almost come to tears when I talk about them. I'm serious. Ask me about them, especially my family, and chances are, you'll see me tearing very soon. Haha. Emotional? I guess so, but I owe too much to them.
But of course, borrowing strength from all these people in my life necessarily entails sharing in some of their moods, and becoming affected by them. The closer I am to them, the more affected I am by them. I can't help worrying about them when they are not happy, or when things are not going smoothly in their lives. It's not that I don't care or I don't know when I don't ask- I just think that there's a reason why they don't approach me when they have their problems, and they'll come when they're ready. Of course, sometimes I put my big foot in my big mouth and say the wrong things and end up hurting them more than I intended. And sometimes, I'm insensitive to their needs or end up not being as supportive as they'd like. But I'm still trying to improve, and give back as much as I've taken from them. I'm not a very patient person, but I'm trying my best to be.
I hope this is enough.
Touched by a student
My student made my day yesterday. Fridays are heavy tuition days for me, cos I teach 6 hours consecutively. Yesterday was the first time I tried it out, and man, was it tiring. I didn't realise teaching English could be so draining. -_-"
Anyway, my last student- the one from the 7-9pm slot- thought that since I was teachingfor 6 hours consecutively, I might not have brought dinner, much less have had it, since I had been teaching since 3pm. So he walked out after taking his dinner, and bought bread and teh-peng for me. The bread was the normal kopitiam bread- bread with kaya and jam etc, and he bought one whole loaf of it (8pieces) for me. OMG.
I was so pleasantly surprised by his gesture, cos it showed that he actually cared that I might not have eaten, and would feel hungry and tired. I was also impressed, cos he didn't strike me as the kind to take this sort of initiative. I didn't expect many students to acually consider their tuition teachers maybe hungry- after all, we are selling a service, and most people don't take service people as real people, get what I mean? Yep, so my student's consideration was really very nice and inspiring. Haha... I was so touched I immediately smsed Kok Yong to tell him about it.
Though my student felt his gesture was very small, I think of it as a rather big deal, cos it's not often that people whom you aren't close to actually bother to think about how you're doing.
Yep, I'm very impressed indeed. =)
Anyway, my last student- the one from the 7-9pm slot- thought that since I was teachingfor 6 hours consecutively, I might not have brought dinner, much less have had it, since I had been teaching since 3pm. So he walked out after taking his dinner, and bought bread and teh-peng for me. The bread was the normal kopitiam bread- bread with kaya and jam etc, and he bought one whole loaf of it (8pieces) for me. OMG.
I was so pleasantly surprised by his gesture, cos it showed that he actually cared that I might not have eaten, and would feel hungry and tired. I was also impressed, cos he didn't strike me as the kind to take this sort of initiative. I didn't expect many students to acually consider their tuition teachers maybe hungry- after all, we are selling a service, and most people don't take service people as real people, get what I mean? Yep, so my student's consideration was really very nice and inspiring. Haha... I was so touched I immediately smsed Kok Yong to tell him about it.
Though my student felt his gesture was very small, I think of it as a rather big deal, cos it's not often that people whom you aren't close to actually bother to think about how you're doing.
Yep, I'm very impressed indeed. =)
Monday, January 19, 2009
Stationery
I gotta confess something.
I really love stationery. My favourite forms of stationery are mechanical pencils and notebooks. Haha, not that I have many uses of them- after all, how many notebooks can you use, and how often do we use pens, now that we are in the digital age? Sometimes I feel it's a waste to buy so much stationery, but the sight of them... haiiiii... it's how girls go ga-ga over shoes and bags I guess. Just that... I do love bags too, but that's another story.
Just got an organizer for myself. Haha I feel so happy just looking at it. It makes me wanna become a go-getter overnight. Suddenly I feel alot of motivation to do my work, just so I can cross out the things I did inside my organizer. *blush* All right, back to work, then I can play with my organizer already.
I do so love the feeling of a messy life slowly getting into order, don't you? ;)
And on a completely unrelated note, my cough's almost gone! Yay!! Soon I'll be able to go to Arnold's Fried Chicken. Oh man, I haven't been there so long.... Maybe I'll do a post on it, so that you all can see why I'm so crazy about it that I started dreaming of it a few weeks ago.
Ok byebye!
I really love stationery. My favourite forms of stationery are mechanical pencils and notebooks. Haha, not that I have many uses of them- after all, how many notebooks can you use, and how often do we use pens, now that we are in the digital age? Sometimes I feel it's a waste to buy so much stationery, but the sight of them... haiiiii... it's how girls go ga-ga over shoes and bags I guess. Just that... I do love bags too, but that's another story.
Just got an organizer for myself. Haha I feel so happy just looking at it. It makes me wanna become a go-getter overnight. Suddenly I feel alot of motivation to do my work, just so I can cross out the things I did inside my organizer. *blush* All right, back to work, then I can play with my organizer already.
I do so love the feeling of a messy life slowly getting into order, don't you? ;)
And on a completely unrelated note, my cough's almost gone! Yay!! Soon I'll be able to go to Arnold's Fried Chicken. Oh man, I haven't been there so long.... Maybe I'll do a post on it, so that you all can see why I'm so crazy about it that I started dreaming of it a few weeks ago.
Ok byebye!
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Hall
It feels like Chinese New Year as I'm typing this now in my room in hall. Nope, it's not the noise or the decor, but it's the light in the corridor outside. It's rather bright tonight for some reason... Maybe it's cos they just painted the walls white, so the light kinda reflects on the walls to make it brighter than it really is?
Why does this remind me of CNY? Haha well that's cos the bright light reminds me of Chinatown, and of the time when we 守岁 on the Eve of CNY. I still remember how my parents would go to Chinatown on CNY's eve, and then we'd wait for them to come back to see the pussywillows and other CNY decor they bought, and help them put it up. The next day's always full of excitement, even though it's the same thing every year- get up, wish everyone Happy New Year, get angpows, have breakfast, change, go visiting. It's like, for once in the year, there's no worry about schoolwork, or any other thing that's stressful. For that one day, everything is put aside for goodwill and smiles. I really like that. =)
This year will be better than the last, cos Evon's back! I wish Yi Lun was here though, it would make everything more complete. CNY and Christmas are not as fun when the whole family's not around... Oh well, all these will change soon!!
Why does this remind me of CNY? Haha well that's cos the bright light reminds me of Chinatown, and of the time when we 守岁 on the Eve of CNY. I still remember how my parents would go to Chinatown on CNY's eve, and then we'd wait for them to come back to see the pussywillows and other CNY decor they bought, and help them put it up. The next day's always full of excitement, even though it's the same thing every year- get up, wish everyone Happy New Year, get angpows, have breakfast, change, go visiting. It's like, for once in the year, there's no worry about schoolwork, or any other thing that's stressful. For that one day, everything is put aside for goodwill and smiles. I really like that. =)
This year will be better than the last, cos Evon's back! I wish Yi Lun was here though, it would make everything more complete. CNY and Christmas are not as fun when the whole family's not around... Oh well, all these will change soon!!
Sunday, January 04, 2009
Caught in the Middle
Have you ever been caught in the middle before? When no matter how you answer, fireworks was sure to start, and the only thing you could do was to keep it to yourself or tell neutral parties who can't really help you?
Ironically, in this circumstance, what seems like a win-win situation is actually a win-lose situation. Both parties win, cos they don't know, or don't want to see, the problem that's staring them in the face. And the person trying to keep the problem under wraps is the one who's getting bombed.
The question here is, to what extent can the person keep the problem quiet? If the person's privacy is compromised, is it time to voice it out? But what happens if a war breaks out between the two parties if the person lets out the problem? Is it the person's fault? Who takes responsibility here?
Ironically, in this circumstance, what seems like a win-win situation is actually a win-lose situation. Both parties win, cos they don't know, or don't want to see, the problem that's staring them in the face. And the person trying to keep the problem under wraps is the one who's getting bombed.
The question here is, to what extent can the person keep the problem quiet? If the person's privacy is compromised, is it time to voice it out? But what happens if a war breaks out between the two parties if the person lets out the problem? Is it the person's fault? Who takes responsibility here?
Monday, December 29, 2008
Miserable
It's been a miserable 4 days for me. I've been lying in bed practically the whole day, just sleeping and watching tv (well, that's when I'm not knocked out by the medicine). It's quite irritating, though. Other than the fever which usually leaves me knocked out, I'm perfectly fine. I can deal with the cough; but the fever makes me feel soooo lethargic that I can't make myself move out of bed to walk anywhere. Argh. And to make things worse, the fever didn't seem to subside at all. Oh, it wasn't a very high fever, always hovering between 37.7-37,8, but it made my extremities freeze and my face red and my body painful. So yah, you can imagine. -_-"
Furthermore, I don't like the way it has inconvenienced my life! I was supposed to celebrate Kok Yong's birthday with him yesterday, but because of the darned fever, the poor boy had to spend his birthday alone. Man I feel so bad about it. And that's not all. I had to cancel out on a meet-up with Merrilyn and Corrine today. To think we had changed the dates so many times, only to have me getting sick. Argh. Lucky Kok Yong, Merrilyn and Corrine are nice, understanding people.
Luckily, the fever seems to have broken, so I should be able to get on with my life pretty soon... just that I wish the stupid pain in my head would quit shooting down my brain. It makes me twitch like I'm having spasms! Cough I can still handle. The brain thing? NOOOO!
Furthermore, I don't like the way it has inconvenienced my life! I was supposed to celebrate Kok Yong's birthday with him yesterday, but because of the darned fever, the poor boy had to spend his birthday alone. Man I feel so bad about it. And that's not all. I had to cancel out on a meet-up with Merrilyn and Corrine today. To think we had changed the dates so many times, only to have me getting sick. Argh. Lucky Kok Yong, Merrilyn and Corrine are nice, understanding people.
Luckily, the fever seems to have broken, so I should be able to get on with my life pretty soon... just that I wish the stupid pain in my head would quit shooting down my brain. It makes me twitch like I'm having spasms! Cough I can still handle. The brain thing? NOOOO!
Friday, December 12, 2008
Of gatherings and old friends
Every holiday is promised with gatherings with my friends from different stages of my life- primary school, secondary school, JC, and University. JC friends haven't been that often, cos I think we're all very busy right now. But there're definitely many gatherings around every holiday.
What I like about these gatherings is that there's no fear of having a lack of conversation. In fact, conversation flows freely, and though you have plenty to catch up with each other on, there's always this sense that nothing has changed between us, and I like that old familiarity very much. No outing's better than one where the participants share laughter and conversation with each other, and where everyone can feel at ease.
Like the picnic we had for the psych year 4 students on Tuesday. Although very few people turned up, and the outing looked like it was gonna be a disappointment, things didn't turn out badly in the end. In fact, we spent our time talking and eating, and just basically getting to know one another. I got to know Ming Han better too- haha I talked to him more that day than I have for the past 4 years! Haha, but of course, all this is relative. =) The point here is, that it was an enjoyable time spent with friends.
Then I met Karen for dinner on Wednesday evening. Oh man, that was really enjoyable. We've been friends since we were 13, and 9 years on, we still have a continuous flow of conversation. And she's a very nice person to shop with too! Although she was really tired from being in the lab after almost a 12-hour day, she still went with me from shop to shop looking for Evon's present. And she even bothered to help me think of which colour is the best for that present. I really appreciated that. Thanks, Karen!
And then even earlier on, the very first gathering I had, was with Si Wei. Haha, who would have thought that even though we weren't very close to each other in primary school, we'd still be keeping in contact now? I find that very amazing. And even more amazing is the fact that we can still have topics to talk about, which I appreciate very much. Haha and Si Wei, thanks for tolerating me so much- the books and cds which I take AGES to return, and also for being so understanding when I can't talk very long with her on MSN and on the phone, and for the very seldom meet-ups! Thanks Si Wei for being so understanding!
Ooh and how could I forget Yaying and Yan Fang? We just had an enjoyable but tiring outing to Hort Park, the forest trails, and Henderson Wave awhile ago, and they were so nice to keep me company to wait for Kok Yong, even though it would be super late by the time they reached home. I really enjoy catching up with them, it's very confortable and we can talk about basically everything under the sun too. Nice!
And somemore gatherings coming up I think! Serene, I don't know if you still read my blog, but let's meet up too with Ee Hui they all! Haven't seen u all in ages! And Wednesday's another meetup with Merrilny (my dear girl I also haven't seen you for a long time!) and another girl, and... there might be a psych xmas party in the works!
Haha I do hope all these will still continue long after this and I know it's so primary school to say this, but, friends forever! Haha!
What I like about these gatherings is that there's no fear of having a lack of conversation. In fact, conversation flows freely, and though you have plenty to catch up with each other on, there's always this sense that nothing has changed between us, and I like that old familiarity very much. No outing's better than one where the participants share laughter and conversation with each other, and where everyone can feel at ease.
Like the picnic we had for the psych year 4 students on Tuesday. Although very few people turned up, and the outing looked like it was gonna be a disappointment, things didn't turn out badly in the end. In fact, we spent our time talking and eating, and just basically getting to know one another. I got to know Ming Han better too- haha I talked to him more that day than I have for the past 4 years! Haha, but of course, all this is relative. =) The point here is, that it was an enjoyable time spent with friends.
Then I met Karen for dinner on Wednesday evening. Oh man, that was really enjoyable. We've been friends since we were 13, and 9 years on, we still have a continuous flow of conversation. And she's a very nice person to shop with too! Although she was really tired from being in the lab after almost a 12-hour day, she still went with me from shop to shop looking for Evon's present. And she even bothered to help me think of which colour is the best for that present. I really appreciated that. Thanks, Karen!
And then even earlier on, the very first gathering I had, was with Si Wei. Haha, who would have thought that even though we weren't very close to each other in primary school, we'd still be keeping in contact now? I find that very amazing. And even more amazing is the fact that we can still have topics to talk about, which I appreciate very much. Haha and Si Wei, thanks for tolerating me so much- the books and cds which I take AGES to return, and also for being so understanding when I can't talk very long with her on MSN and on the phone, and for the very seldom meet-ups! Thanks Si Wei for being so understanding!
Ooh and how could I forget Yaying and Yan Fang? We just had an enjoyable but tiring outing to Hort Park, the forest trails, and Henderson Wave awhile ago, and they were so nice to keep me company to wait for Kok Yong, even though it would be super late by the time they reached home. I really enjoy catching up with them, it's very confortable and we can talk about basically everything under the sun too. Nice!
And somemore gatherings coming up I think! Serene, I don't know if you still read my blog, but let's meet up too with Ee Hui they all! Haven't seen u all in ages! And Wednesday's another meetup with Merrilny (my dear girl I also haven't seen you for a long time!) and another girl, and... there might be a psych xmas party in the works!
Haha I do hope all these will still continue long after this and I know it's so primary school to say this, but, friends forever! Haha!
Wednesday, December 03, 2008
Going Malaysia
I'm going to Malaysia from 3-8 Dec, so I won't be replying smses... I'm not sure if there's Internet at the place I'm staying, so I can't say much about emails! =)
Thursday, November 27, 2008
My Name
Is my name that hard to remember? I thought my name's already very common!
First, Prof Chang calls me Yi Ping.
Others think I'm called Li Ying (there was one before, but I forgot who that was).
Then now this other person at CGC keeps typing my name as Li Ying when I sign off my name as YI LING, and Rebecca also called me YI LING in the previous email. OMG.
What's wrong with my name? Or am I so invisible ah?
First, Prof Chang calls me Yi Ping.
Others think I'm called Li Ying (there was one before, but I forgot who that was).
Then now this other person at CGC keeps typing my name as Li Ying when I sign off my name as YI LING, and Rebecca also called me YI LING in the previous email. OMG.
What's wrong with my name? Or am I so invisible ah?
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Another Quiz =)
1) The person that tag/ pass me this is ?
2) The relationship between him & her is ?
Friends
3) Your five expression of her & him is ?
Straightforward, good singer! , good artist (seriously, you should see her drawings on her blog), good friend, very easygoing
4) The most memorable he & she have done for you is ?
Buying the most expensive tickets to the SHE concert and paying half of my ticket for my birthday present. I had a wonderful time at the concert by the way- the view was fantastic, and it's all thanks to Si Wei that I got to experience that! =)
5) The most memorable he & she have said to you is ?
Erm... I can't remember leh...
6) If he & she become your lover you will ?
Be a very happy person if I was a guy. But I'm not, so I'm content to have her as a friend. Haha...
7) If he & she become your lover , thing she/he need to improve on ?
... This is so not possible, haha! hmm but I guess it's her tact?
8) If he/she becomes your enemy, you will ?
be very sad.
9) If he/she becomes your enemy , the reason will be ?
she backstabbed me?
10) The most desired thing you wanna do for him/her is ?
can I change the question to "The most desired thing you want for him/her is?" ? If so, I want her to be happy always! =)
11) Your overall impression on him/her is?
She's a great friend, with her own mind. She's also very independent, which should explain why she doesn't go astray. I think sometimes she has a lack of confidence in herself, BUT overall, I think she has nothing to feel un-confident about, cos she's a great person. She's also very understanding- how may people can stand going out with a person who always has to leave early because of stomachaches, cramps and other sorts of rubbish? And how many people can stand it when the other person keeps saying she's busy and can't talk? Thanks, Si Wei! =)
12) How do you think the people around you feel for you ?
I don't know, man... that I can be crazy sometimes, and I've moodswings, and I'm a pushover?
13) The characters that I love about myself are ?
Do you know I'm bad at self-praise? Hmmm ok I shall attempt to answer this question- my ability to answer crap with crap (haha Merrilyn, you're my best partner! And I mean it in a good way k!), being rather open-minded, and able to give people space.
14) On the contrary, what about the characters i hate about myself ?
Being a bloody pushover when I can't make myself say no because of obligations, being indecisive.
15) The most ideal person you want to be is ?
To quote from Si Wei's book, I want to be a 好人，not a 滥好人...
16) For people that love, care and concern for you, you say something to them ?
Uhm... I love, care and am concerned for you too, and I might not do or say the things which are correct all the time, I want you to know I do! =)
17) Pass this quiz to 10 person that you want to know they think of you, they are?
Rather than tagging, I think whoever's name I type, it's up to you whether you wanna do this k? And besides, I don't have 10 people who read my blog. -_-''
1. Si Wei
2. Kok Yong (you know what to do!)
3. Si Huan
4. Merrilyn
5. Evon
6. Yi Lun
7. JK (I don't know how you are gonna do it, but I'm just filling up the spaces and your name came to mind... Haha)
8. Celeste
9. Hong Hui (ok I know she doesn't read my blog, but I really don't have 10 people!)
10. Zhen Hui
18) Who is no.6 having relationship with ?
She's still single
19) No.9 is a male or female ?
Female
20) If No.7 & No. 10 is together, will it be a good thing ?
Hmm that would be really really weird. Characters don't match, PLUS both of them have their own partners already.
21) What is No.2 studying about ?
He's studying mechanical engineering, specializing in mechatronics. Haha...
22) When is the last time you speak to No.3 ?
This morning to afternoon on MSN!
23) What kind of music band No.8 like ?
Hmm... I don't know leh.... English music? From what I've observed, she seems to prefer soloists leh...
24) Does No.1 have any sibilings ?
Yes- 1 older sis, 1 younger bro.. Haha I'm right, aren't I? ;)
25) Will you woo No. 3 ?
If I were a guy, yes.
26) How about No. 7?
That's kinda wrong... He's my cousin! But he's a great guy!
27) Is No.4 single ?
Haha I don't know, man... I don't think so though...
28) What is the surname of No.5 ?
Hehe if I don't know this, I can go bang the wall... Her surname's TAY!
29) What is the hobby of No. 10 ?
Ooh... I don't know leh, I need to get to know her better I guess....
30) Does No.5 & No. 9 get along well?
Hmm... they only met once, but I think they're ok with each other....
31) Where is No. 2 studying at ?
Haha NTU! =D
32) Talk something casually about No.1 ?
Can I don't say? I've written alot about her above!
33) Have you tried developing feelings for No. 6 ?
... Yes I have. How not to when I've been living with her for 20 years?
34) Where does No.9 lives at ?
Sembawang
35) What colour does No.4 like ?
I remember! Blue and yellow and green!
36) Are No.5 and No. 1 good friends?
I think they don't know each other...
37) Is No. 7 the sexiest person in the world ?
It's kinda weird thinking of my cousin as sexy you know, much less sexiest in the world....
38) What is No. 6 doing now ?
Studying hard and playing hard!
39) Name one thing you like about No. 7?
One thing? I could list alot! Ok but since I'm only allowed one, it's that he's reliable!
40) Name one thing you hate about No. 3?
I think "hate" is too harsh a word leh. And offhand, I can't think of anything I hate about her....
Si Wei
2) The relationship between him & her is ?
Friends
3) Your five expression of her & him is ?
Straightforward, good singer! , good artist (seriously, you should see her drawings on her blog), good friend, very easygoing
4) The most memorable he & she have done for you is ?
Buying the most expensive tickets to the SHE concert and paying half of my ticket for my birthday present. I had a wonderful time at the concert by the way- the view was fantastic, and it's all thanks to Si Wei that I got to experience that! =)
5) The most memorable he & she have said to you is ?
Erm... I can't remember leh...
6) If he & she become your lover you will ?
Be a very happy person if I was a guy. But I'm not, so I'm content to have her as a friend. Haha...
7) If he & she become your lover , thing she/he need to improve on ?
... This is so not possible, haha! hmm but I guess it's her tact?
8) If he/she becomes your enemy, you will ?
be very sad.
9) If he/she becomes your enemy , the reason will be ?
she backstabbed me?
10) The most desired thing you wanna do for him/her is ?
can I change the question to "The most desired thing you want for him/her is?" ? If so, I want her to be happy always! =)
11) Your overall impression on him/her is?
She's a great friend, with her own mind. She's also very independent, which should explain why she doesn't go astray. I think sometimes she has a lack of confidence in herself, BUT overall, I think she has nothing to feel un-confident about, cos she's a great person. She's also very understanding- how may people can stand going out with a person who always has to leave early because of stomachaches, cramps and other sorts of rubbish? And how many people can stand it when the other person keeps saying she's busy and can't talk? Thanks, Si Wei! =)
12) How do you think the people around you feel for you ?
I don't know, man... that I can be crazy sometimes, and I've moodswings, and I'm a pushover?
13) The characters that I love about myself are ?
Do you know I'm bad at self-praise? Hmmm ok I shall attempt to answer this question- my ability to answer crap with crap (haha Merrilyn, you're my best partner! And I mean it in a good way k!), being rather open-minded, and able to give people space.
14) On the contrary, what about the characters i hate about myself ?
Being a bloody pushover when I can't make myself say no because of obligations, being indecisive.
15) The most ideal person you want to be is ?
To quote from Si Wei's book, I want to be a 好人，not a 滥好人...
16) For people that love, care and concern for you, you say something to them ?
Uhm... I love, care and am concerned for you too, and I might not do or say the things which are correct all the time, I want you to know I do! =)
17) Pass this quiz to 10 person that you want to know they think of you, they are?
Rather than tagging, I think whoever's name I type, it's up to you whether you wanna do this k? And besides, I don't have 10 people who read my blog. -_-''
1. Si Wei
2. Kok Yong (you know what to do!)
3. Si Huan
4. Merrilyn
5. Evon
6. Yi Lun
7. JK (I don't know how you are gonna do it, but I'm just filling up the spaces and your name came to mind... Haha)
8. Celeste
9. Hong Hui (ok I know she doesn't read my blog, but I really don't have 10 people!)
10. Zhen Hui
18) Who is no.6 having relationship with ?
She's still single
19) No.9 is a male or female ?
Female
20) If No.7 & No. 10 is together, will it be a good thing ?
Hmm that would be really really weird. Characters don't match, PLUS both of them have their own partners already.
21) What is No.2 studying about ?
He's studying mechanical engineering, specializing in mechatronics. Haha...
22) When is the last time you speak to No.3 ?
This morning to afternoon on MSN!
23) What kind of music band No.8 like ?
Hmm... I don't know leh.... English music? From what I've observed, she seems to prefer soloists leh...
24) Does No.1 have any sibilings ?
Yes- 1 older sis, 1 younger bro.. Haha I'm right, aren't I? ;)
25) Will you woo No. 3 ?
If I were a guy, yes.
26) How about No. 7?
That's kinda wrong... He's my cousin! But he's a great guy!
27) Is No.4 single ?
Haha I don't know, man... I don't think so though...
28) What is the surname of No.5 ?
Hehe if I don't know this, I can go bang the wall... Her surname's TAY!
29) What is the hobby of No. 10 ?
Ooh... I don't know leh, I need to get to know her better I guess....
30) Does No.5 & No. 9 get along well?
Hmm... they only met once, but I think they're ok with each other....
31) Where is No. 2 studying at ?
Haha NTU! =D
32) Talk something casually about No.1 ?
Can I don't say? I've written alot about her above!
33) Have you tried developing feelings for No. 6 ?
... Yes I have. How not to when I've been living with her for 20 years?
34) Where does No.9 lives at ?
Sembawang
35) What colour does No.4 like ?
I remember! Blue and yellow and green!
36) Are No.5 and No. 1 good friends?
I think they don't know each other...
37) Is No. 7 the sexiest person in the world ?
It's kinda weird thinking of my cousin as sexy you know, much less sexiest in the world....
38) What is No. 6 doing now ?
Studying hard and playing hard!
39) Name one thing you like about No. 7?
One thing? I could list alot! Ok but since I'm only allowed one, it's that he's reliable!
40) Name one thing you hate about No. 3?
I think "hate" is too harsh a word leh. And offhand, I can't think of anything I hate about her....
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Revelation
I had a revelation while having chicken rice with my parents last night. Between two related languages- Hokkien and Mandarin- there can be differences in meaning for the same word.
The case in point here would be that of the rice barrel. In Mandarin, we call a rice barrel a “饭桶”, and in Hokkien, a rice barrel is called a "bee1 tang4".
When we call a person a “饭桶”, we are saying that he or she is stupid. BUT when we say a person is a "bee1 tang4", we mean that the person is rich.
Interesting how the same word can have different connotative meanings and values even between languages that are supposed to be somewhat related to each other isn't it? =) I think it's very cool. Haha!
The case in point here would be that of the rice barrel. In Mandarin, we call a rice barrel a “饭桶”, and in Hokkien, a rice barrel is called a "bee1 tang4".
When we call a person a “饭桶”, we are saying that he or she is stupid. BUT when we say a person is a "bee1 tang4", we mean that the person is rich.
Interesting how the same word can have different connotative meanings and values even between languages that are supposed to be somewhat related to each other isn't it? =) I think it's very cool. Haha!
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Joke
Me: Dear, I'm bored. Tell me a joke please?
Kok Yong: Kok Yong is very funny.
Me: (burst out laughing)
Sometimes-no, make that most times- Kok Yong really cracks me up with his dry sense of humour. That joke, if said by others, wouldn't be funny. But said by him, oh man, it made me giggle endlessly. Haha for those of you who know him, I think you'll know what I mean.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
After exams, I want to...
1) Catch up with friends
2) Exercise
3) Go shopping!
4) Buy a dress (related to 4)
5) Change blogskin
6) SLEEP in peace!!
2) Exercise
3) Go shopping!
4) Buy a dress (related to 4)
5) Change blogskin
6) SLEEP in peace!!
Monday, November 10, 2008
Roma and Chelsea
Kok Yong and I were walking to breakfast one day, and I asked him what time he slept the night before.
KY: Quite late, cos JS was watching Roma and Chelsea.
Me: Huh? JS watches romance films? And how come I've never heard of a film by that name?
KY: (looks at me puzzledly, and then...) He was watching soccer.
Me: Oh.
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This is all the film module's fault! Talking about genres and all, making me think that names with such titles must be romance films. Aiyoh! I totally forgot there's an Italian soccer team by the name of Roma. And when Kok Yong told JS, he was stunned too, and both of them laughed at me. -_-" And my father laughed at me as well when I told him about the joke I'd created. =S
Haha but seriously, don't you think "Roma and Chelsea" does sound like a romance between a guy named Roma and a girl named Chelsea?!
Ah well, now I know.
KY: Quite late, cos JS was watching Roma and Chelsea.
Me: Huh? JS watches romance films? And how come I've never heard of a film by that name?
KY: (looks at me puzzledly, and then...) He was watching soccer.
Me: Oh.
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This is all the film module's fault! Talking about genres and all, making me think that names with such titles must be romance films. Aiyoh! I totally forgot there's an Italian soccer team by the name of Roma. And when Kok Yong told JS, he was stunned too, and both of them laughed at me. -_-" And my father laughed at me as well when I told him about the joke I'd created. =S
Haha but seriously, don't you think "Roma and Chelsea" does sound like a romance between a guy named Roma and a girl named Chelsea?!
Ah well, now I know.
Saturday, November 01, 2008
Distracted
1. My ex is still:
um. Studying something very related to Physics? To quote Prof Chang, that is an empirical question...
2. I am listening to:
Mira cooking in the kitchen, buses and cars on the road.
3. Maybe I should:
concentrate on completing Prof Chang's essay and not be tempted by the Internet. =S
4. I love:
my family, my knight in shining armour, and the thought of being able to go Orchard tomorrow!
5. My best friend(s):
love(s) me!!
6. I don’t understand:
why people have to say "You don't know meh?" when someone says they don't know something that is supposed to be common. Haha, sounds like an oxymoron to me...
7. I lost:
my discipline to concentrate!
8. People say:
"Ling ah/ Dear ah, you cannot be so blur leh..."
9. The meaning of my screen name is:
As you know, Yi Ling is my name, and 10 is also a my name in its numerical form. Since my name "Yi Ling" is so common that it's taken up everywhere, I decided to use 10 as a supplement. But then, the number 10 has become a shorter way of typing my name, so... for those who are closer to me, I tend to sign off as 10 or be addressed as 10 by them. =)
Oh and did I mention 10 is my jersey number too?
10. Love is:
a very paradoxical construct. It can be painful, yet resilient; fun, yet routine. I could go on, but I think you get the idea. =)
11. Somewhere, someone is:
thinking of making the world a better place.
12. I will always:
daydream...
13. Forever seems:
a hopeful but unpredictable phenomenon.
14. I never ever want to:
say good-bye to my loved ones.
15. My cell phone :
is my lifeline. I feel so handicapped without it!
16. When I wake up in the morning:
I wonder what the time is and whether I can afford to sleep a little more. =p
17. I get annoyed when:
people infringe on my space.
18. Parties are:
meant to let you catch up with your friends =)
19. My pet(s) is(are):
Schnoozee my darling!
20. Kisses are the best when:
you miss the other person horribly and finally see them! But I think hugs are the best =)
21. Today I:
will finish Prof Chang's essay.
22. Tomorrow I:
will go to Orchard to reward myself. I'm going to cut hair too!
23. I really want:
to do well for exams.
24. I want to ask:
what is my future like?
I got this from Mavis. And since I tend to do anything but the assignment that's in front of me, I decided to do this. I am so distracted!
On a more serious note, though, while doing this, I was thinking that though this filling in the blanks thing seems a bit bo liao, it's actually a projective test of sorts, to let you come up with your own answers. I'm wondering if this can also be used in replacement of the twenty statements test, since individualistic/collectivistic answers can also be gathered from participants' replies. It's more fun too! Oh and it's also rather implicit, in the sense that you tend to answer the questions based on how you are feeling, so our replies tend to be reflective of how we are feeling at that point in time.
What do you think?
um. Studying something very related to Physics? To quote Prof Chang, that is an empirical question...
2. I am listening to:
Mira cooking in the kitchen, buses and cars on the road.
3. Maybe I should:
concentrate on completing Prof Chang's essay and not be tempted by the Internet. =S
4. I love:
my family, my knight in shining armour, and the thought of being able to go Orchard tomorrow!
5. My best friend(s):
love(s) me!!
6. I don’t understand:
why people have to say "You don't know meh?" when someone says they don't know something that is supposed to be common. Haha, sounds like an oxymoron to me...
7. I lost:
my discipline to concentrate!
8. People say:
"Ling ah/ Dear ah, you cannot be so blur leh..."
9. The meaning of my screen name is:
As you know, Yi Ling is my name, and 10 is also a my name in its numerical form. Since my name "Yi Ling" is so common that it's taken up everywhere, I decided to use 10 as a supplement. But then, the number 10 has become a shorter way of typing my name, so... for those who are closer to me, I tend to sign off as 10 or be addressed as 10 by them. =)
Oh and did I mention 10 is my jersey number too?
10. Love is:
a very paradoxical construct. It can be painful, yet resilient; fun, yet routine. I could go on, but I think you get the idea. =)
11. Somewhere, someone is:
thinking of making the world a better place.
12. I will always:
daydream...
13. Forever seems:
a hopeful but unpredictable phenomenon.
14. I never ever want to:
say good-bye to my loved ones.
15. My cell phone :
is my lifeline. I feel so handicapped without it!
16. When I wake up in the morning:
I wonder what the time is and whether I can afford to sleep a little more. =p
17. I get annoyed when:
people infringe on my space.
18. Parties are:
meant to let you catch up with your friends =)
19. My pet(s) is(are):
Schnoozee my darling!
20. Kisses are the best when:
you miss the other person horribly and finally see them! But I think hugs are the best =)
21. Today I:
will finish Prof Chang's essay.
22. Tomorrow I:
will go to Orchard to reward myself. I'm going to cut hair too!
23. I really want:
to do well for exams.
24. I want to ask:
what is my future like?
I got this from Mavis. And since I tend to do anything but the assignment that's in front of me, I decided to do this. I am so distracted!
On a more serious note, though, while doing this, I was thinking that though this filling in the blanks thing seems a bit bo liao, it's actually a projective test of sorts, to let you come up with your own answers. I'm wondering if this can also be used in replacement of the twenty statements test, since individualistic/collectivistic answers can also be gathered from participants' replies. It's more fun too! Oh and it's also rather implicit, in the sense that you tend to answer the questions based on how you are feeling, so our replies tend to be reflective of how we are feeling at that point in time.
What do you think?
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Ice Cream and Fright Night... Do They Match?
Haha I did a rather silly thing last night. I ate ice cream for supper! hehe... I was very hungry lar, then I remembered I had once asked Kok Yong to have ice cream with me if we wanted to take a break.
And the funniest and most unexpected thing was, Kok Yong agreed to have ice cream with me at 1130pm! =S I meant it as a joke actually, who knew he'd be so game? Haha, and in the end, I had a nice time walking with him to The Sun in the dark. Do you know just walking there in the middle of the night is Fright Night in itself? There were no lights along the squash courts, and I stubbed my toe and tripped over steps a few times. Pain leh!!
Haha so last night was indeed interesting! =)
And the funniest and most unexpected thing was, Kok Yong agreed to have ice cream with me at 1130pm! =S I meant it as a joke actually, who knew he'd be so game? Haha, and in the end, I had a nice time walking with him to The Sun in the dark. Do you know just walking there in the middle of the night is Fright Night in itself? There were no lights along the squash courts, and I stubbed my toe and tripped over steps a few times. Pain leh!!
Haha so last night was indeed interesting! =)
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Writing reports
There are a thousand ways of starting a report, and I am always faced with a dilemma as to which one to choose. Everytime I decide on a way, I find myself getting stuck halfway through, and realize the other method was better. It's always a case of the grass being greener on the other side, and after writing the report, I'd always look back and wonder, "Would I have written better if I had chosen the other way of writing?"
The truth is, nobody knows. And I always think I've done enough lit review, and when the time comes for me to start writing, I realize I always forget the minor things. Well. Writing reports sure is the best way of finding out your faults. But that said, it is a good training ground to familiarize yourself with your faults and then learn from it. I'm still trying to learn from them, but it's going sooooo slooooowlyyyy....
The truth is, nobody knows. And I always think I've done enough lit review, and when the time comes for me to start writing, I realize I always forget the minor things. Well. Writing reports sure is the best way of finding out your faults. But that said, it is a good training ground to familiarize yourself with your faults and then learn from it. I'm still trying to learn from them, but it's going sooooo slooooowlyyyy....
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Announcement
As many of you know, being prompt is not one of my strengths. Therefore, for the behavioral modification assignment for Venus' Learning and Behavioral Analysis module, I'm going to eliminate my problem behavior of procrastination. I'll be giving my project buddy, Lin Hong Hui, a lump sum of money, and for every task that I complete, she will give me $1. For every criteria reached in starting a task, she will give me a further $2.
Do encourage me to continue with this behavior modification!! Haha I need encouragement with this, cos it's an inbuilt part of me already!! =p
Do encourage me to continue with this behavior modification!! Haha I need encouragement with this, cos it's an inbuilt part of me already!! =p
Tuesday, October 07, 2008
Impressed
Academics always impress me with how the things they say can have another meaning that can be applied to our daily lives. Here are two examples:
"Optimism is not simply the absence of pessimism, and well-being is not simply the absence of helplessness" --Christopher Peterson, University of Michigan
"Alcohol is a very good solvent, but it cannot dissolve your problems" -- Fred Long Foo Yee
Don't you think they are very good quotes? So:
1) appearing happy all the time doesn't mean one never feels helpless. The happiest people in the happiest lives also feel helpless at times. There are ups and downs in life, remember?
2) Drowning one's sorrows in drinks is not a long term solution for problems.
"Optimism is not simply the absence of pessimism, and well-being is not simply the absence of helplessness" --Christopher Peterson, University of Michigan
"Alcohol is a very good solvent, but it cannot dissolve your problems" -- Fred Long Foo Yee
Don't you think they are very good quotes? So:
1) appearing happy all the time doesn't mean one never feels helpless. The happiest people in the happiest lives also feel helpless at times. There are ups and downs in life, remember?
2) Drowning one's sorrows in drinks is not a long term solution for problems.
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